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There's sth I don't understand when it comes to the concept of "uncertainty" If someone, for example, gets an intrusive thoughts about being attracted to a family member or a pet or a child or anything similar, are they supposed to just say "okay maybe I am, I should accept that possibility" and then move on...?

Advice from someone who has recovered. -stop posting daily! Train yourself, say okay I can only post once a day. Then when you can do that stop posting at all. When you can do that stop getting on the app. -sit with the thoughts, literally tell yourself maybe it is true but maybe it’s not. But someone else’s experience has nothing to do with mine and it won’t change mine. The more you ask for people’s experience, debate, ruminate, the worse off you’re making yourself. -don’t take medication as an end all. Medication isn’t to fix you it’s to help you. The thoughts aren’t going to go away. The thoughts may happen more or less the only thing you CAN control is how you react to them. -only you determine if you can get to remission! If you’re not forcing yourself to not do compulsions even slowly, if you’re not forcing yourself to get out of bed, not trying to stop ruminating then you’re not allowing yourself to get better!! You’re stronger than you think and you CAN get better

Guys when an unwanted thought comes speak the truth out loud. Don’t fight the thoughts in your mind.Tell yourself who you are.

i just got back from 4 days away with my bf and i’m scared. when he would kiss me i wouldn’t get wet and i don’t think i throbbed yk. i often got intrusive thoughts when i was out about liking the girls i saw and id feel disgusting and upset then i’d hug my bf and feel so much better. i’m scared that the lack of being wet and throbbing is proof i am gay.

for anyone who worries a lot about ‘gut feelings / warnings’ i hope this helps! for the last two days i’ve had this anxious gut feeling about my flight today. i’m never usually this nervous about planes so i thought this feeling was a sign. but here i am! landed and safe. the flight was fine. my anxiety just lied. don’t fall for it :)

Trust me, the "I didn't know I was gay" thing is from Hollywood. It's not real life. Homosexuality is not like a hidden disease that "reveals" itself one day. It's normal sexuality, and the people who experience it are fully aware. Your fear of it is pure silliness. Everyone knows who they're attracted to. It's impossible to not know that.

Don’t see many people with existential OCD posting on here. I have bad existential (am I real, are the people around me real, am I in some kind of Truman show/matrix world etc.). With existential I think reassurance from other people is basically impossible because we understand that you can never know if the world is real, and I think that’s why doing something even like posting on this forum for support can feel unhelpful and meaningless. But maybe that can be a good exposure for us, like by allowing this forum to mean something we will fight against our OCD? Idk just a thought. Also these thoughts are just so scary that talking to people about them can seem very scary. Like how do you tell somebody you think they might not be real? I avoided talking to anybody about this for years until recently because I thought I was going crazy (I have some schiz-ocd as well) after this thought came to me after an LSD trip. Wondering if anybody relates to this, and maybe we can get some more existential posts in this forum as I think it’s under-talked about, and it’s something that probably will get worse as a society with all the dystopian tech themes in movies and stuff. Also how have you been doing ERP exposures? I’m just starting

I was exposing myself to triggering content of a sexual nature that provokes anxiety and panic. I lowered my fear response after more then a month, but now I feel like I am using the material to check body responses and test myself. Would it be better to stop looking at it now?

i’m going to start some deeper recovery! - having a bottle with notes, each note has an exposure. i pick up one a day and do it until it’s not triggering ! - start NOCD therapy, and NOCD zoom sessions once my parental guardian can set that up ! - have self care days with mindfulness and bath products <3 you can do this !!

Does anyone know of some good ocd books to read?

Your intrusive thoughts are just like unwanted guest, let them simply pass through your brain. You are not your thoughts. Let's keep fighting guys! We can do this

Does anyone ever feel like they’ve spent so long thinking/trying to figure out if they were the opposite sexual orientation (in my case; a straight female, trying to figure out if I am gay) that now it’s weird to think you’re not what you didn’t want to be.

Is it normal when first tell your therapist you have HOCD they ask if you find the same sex attractive or want to act on attraction? Wouldn’t the therapist know that could trigger someone with HOCD?

for those of you who have been in recovery for a bit but still have those shit days - make a list of how far you have come! it helps put things into perspective. I know for sure i’ve faced days more challenging than this one, and that’s a thought that continuously gives me hope!

Where did ocd originate? Like was it from years of Preservatives, processed foods and pesticides, or did it just developed from years of evolution?

Does anyone else struggle with racist intrusive thoughts and worrying you'll be perceived as racist in public? Racism is something that goes against my core values, which is being an ally to BIPOC and working to be anti-racist. I feel like my OCD has really taken this value & began to warp it though. It feels awful because interacting with BIPOC causes me to hyperfixate on how I'm coming across & I know I appear outwardly anxious, which I'm sure comes across as racist to the other person. It's really disgusting to me that my mind is throwing this up. I won't to dismiss the thoughts as OCD, because they don't represent what I believe, but the thoughts don't really settle down.

Sending healing vibes to all!❤️ Every day is a new beginning!🌻

I don’t feel like I’m having intrusive thoughts as much but I just “feel” like somethings off. Like I feel like everything that’s I thought or felt these past months are just looming over me and it feels uncomfortable.

Brothers and sisters, one key to being successful in battling ocd is having mercy. Be merciful towards yourself. Just as you would be merciful to a friend who is in trouble, have mercy on yourself, recovery is a slow process, it doesn't happen from one night to the other but hard work always pays off. Mercy is necessary to get you to where you want to be in your recovery journey. Talk to yourself as you would a loved one. Go easy on yourself when doing exposures, if you fail and do compulsions its not the end of the world, take a breath lace them shoes up and get back in the game, mercy will get you through those days when ocd feels like it will never end, remember who is all merciful and loving, your Heavenly Father. Talk to Him. God bless you.

What’s can help with intrusive mental images?

I’m giving up on sleep. I’m remembering my dreams vividly whenever I sleep now. For most of the night, my dreams don’t bother me, but then a sexual OCD thought makes it’s way into my dream identity and I waking up shaking. I haven’t gotten a full night’s rest in what feels like forever all because I feel my sexual identity has changed

I’ve read this thing were it says if your a girl and your more comfortable talking to girls then your straight however I feel comfortable talking to boys😭

Really worried that it’s just really hard for me to accept being bi...how can I know it’s not? I don’t want to be bisexual but it feels like “repressing” my sexuality is the root of all my problems.

I'm stronger than my thoughts and I'm stronger than my past. My past mistakes or bad thoughts do not define me. I have to be stronger, because I love the life that I have and want to be fully present and happy going forward. I will not let OCD steal my peace and sense of self. I am stronger because I must be stronger. I will take it day by day. I can do it. I have to.

Hi you guyssssss. There's HOPE. I think I have reached a point where "Thoughts are just thoughts" for me. It's a loooootttt better. Keep doing ERP. Please please move out of your house...live your life. People with OCD often live either in past recalling the times they were themselves or in future worrying if they'll be them. Live in the present...ik it's tough but leave your bed, clean your space, take a lovely shower, get ready, greet people. You're you and no one... literally no one can take it away from you. Nothing is strong enough than your will. Please avoid response even if it's biting your lips. Sexual thoughts do come up but there are not that often. I am sure they'll fade eventually. Stay away from Quora, Reddit and reduce your NOCD usage. Love youuuu.

Anybody else’s rocd tell them they need to be alone forever and that they’re terrible for their partner?? Every time I’m with my boyfriend recently my ocd tells me I’m to break up with him because I don’t deserve him and he needs someone better

when soocd feels ridiculously real, you feel like you have to come out. you have all the thoughts coming in at once and it feels like you don’t want your partner anymore. when soocd feels ridiculously real, you feel so alone. you feel the world crushing in. this is everything im feeling right now and all i can do is stare at the wall and feel alone.

has there been a time where your HOCD got so bad you were convinced you were attracted to the same sex? I think that’s happening to me

Hello Folx! I wanted to share some supplements (non-pharmaceutical) for OCD treatment. I learned about these from my medication management provider and my clinical director at the ment health clinic where I work. The source is reputable, and the research is new but promising: "Current preclinical research investigating nutraceuticals (natural products) for OCD, reveals encouraging novel activity in modulating key pathways suggested to be involved in the pathogenesis of OCD (glutamatergic and serotonergic pathway dysregulation). Emerging clinical evidence also appears to tentatively support certain nutrients and plant-based interventions with known active constituents which modulate these pathways: - N-acetlycysteine (NAC) - Myo-inositol - Glycine - Milk thistle (Silybum marianum)" Also taking 5HTP (5-hydroxytryphtophan) can help increase serotonin production and decrease anxiety/depression! I take milk thistle, NAC and 5HTP and holy shit folx, it's worth giving it a try.

I'M SO HAPPY MY OCD HAS BECOME MORE TOLERABLE FOR ME but also school is starting soon and I'm scared everyone will see through me and my intrusive thoughts :)

Where has my sex drive for women gone? Its like its not even there anymore. I think Ive lost. Ive been taking Trintellix for 2 months I think and at this point I feel nothing towards women but all the guy stuff is still there. Im not anxious much either. I think its over

I don’t know why god would do such a thing. Why after 22 years am I having to ask myself these questions? I shouldn’t even have to ask or reassure my self that I’m not the things my mind tells me I am. I just want life to be the way it was even though I still had imperfections in my life at least I wasn’t thinking or feeling the things I am now.

anyone here with rocd get recognized or dx'd with bpd before ocd?? ive been recognized with bpd but i cant tell if i have rocd or its just my bpd :( can it be both? :(

Anyone a vegetarian ?

Anyone know of any good movies and books (particularly movies) that are good representations of ocd? I'm trying to find different ways of expressing how I'm feeling maybe through images and metaphors and I don't really know where to start

In order to understand if this is ROCD or simple out of love shall I stay close or far from my partner?

Can OCD really make me feel one thing about my boyfriend one day and a different thing the next :(

if i think a thought organically then immediately after i’m like ‘no that’s bad don’t think that’, is that an intrusive thought? bc i thought it like it was me, but immediately after i’m like no that’s not good to think cut that out. like idek if that’s considered an intrusive thought bc i realized it was wrong a second after but it’s just ugh (it relates to my race ocd)

Yesterday was tough and my themes were constantly entangling. Also, PMS was thrown in the mix. I read a super triggering blog (on a scholarly website, UGH) about someone with SOOCD that was also bi/pan. I got off of my hamster wheel pretty quickly and was proud of myself for that. However, then my boyfriend and I got into a little tiff and while we resolved it.. my ROCD flared up and started shoving all these doubts in my face about our relationship and my happiness. I got over the panic.. but I felt separated and emotionless the rest of the day. But I made it to today and it’ll be better.

it’s annoying bc before this ocd episode i barely questioned half of this shit, like i never questioned any of this before bc i knew that i obviously had no attraction to certain things, so if i felt a little sensation in my groin it didn’t mean anything bc i don’t find myself aroused by this. it’s just my body doing things but brain isn’t into it. but now suddenly everything is under this microscope and i have to solve it and understand bc it has to mean something and everything is proof that i’m an awful person and to let go of that in my mind is to accept being a bad person and i can’t do that bc i don’t want to be yk? ruminating is the only way i can prove to myself that i am a good person or one deserving of care

I have no anxiety to the thoughts anymore, starting to just believe they’re true

Hey. So I am worried that what if I don’t actually have OCD and I’m actually a horrible person. This is because I have not yet been diagnosed by a doctor. HOWEVER I have struggled with ocd since I was little. Pretty much every type and it’s debilitating. I’m young so it’s very hard to talk to my parents about getting diagnosed. However everyone knows I struggle with ocd. It runs in my family and I have just about every type. I almost had to get out on medication when I was 7 years old because of how debilitating my intrusive thoughts were. However they improved and so I never got around to the doctor. Now after that I always suffered from checking OCD, perfectionism, and lots of other subtypes. then around 7th grade I have a HORRIBLE episode as I have developed HOCD, some POCD and well pretty much every other subtype. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. Every waking minute was hell and I couldn’t do anything about it. This improved as it was a few years ago but not much. At least I can eat and somewhat be ok. however I still never got a diagnosis. I guess all I want to know is if I’m still valid? That this is real? Just because I didn’t get a diagnoses or on meds or in therapy (even though I desperately need to because it’s ruining my life.) I just want to know I’m not a horrible person for these awful thoughts

I feel I need to come out ot mother. I know she wont be mad about me being a lesbian even though she is religious. She loves me and wants me to happy. Now I just to want that for myself.

Is telling myself that it's ok to be a lesbian and as long as I am true to myself I'll be happy. Being gay isn't bad.... Is it neutralizing a thought? I think it's a compulsion I just found out I was doing.

Does anyone ever feel like they’re losing themselves when they get used to the thoughts overtime thinkng that’s it’s going to happen or that they become you or you became them ? :( I just want to live a happy life without this..

I think I'm still in the derealization state! But I'm trying for it to not bother me I'm aware of how I feel and how it makes me see and anxiety makes me fall more deeper into the feeling but less anxiety still keeps me on it but still won't give up! Quick question of derealization is it supposed to always be severe or can you still have derealization and be calm? :D

Just wanted to share something that may seem obvious but I think a lot of people on this app overlook. Your tools are at your disposal. At the end of the day, the tools for facing OCD head on are pretty straightforward, but they require a commitment to experiencing temporary discomfort and anxiety. This app has wonderful resources for self led ERP. It can help you a lot if you try them out, but if you only ever use the feed to confess your thoughts, ask for reassurance, check to see if others are feeling the exact same thing as you... then you are only using this app to make your ocd worse, as hard as that is to resist... just saying, it takes about 5 minutes to do a small planned exposure on this app, which could massively help you to embrace uncertainty!... on the other hand, it takes about 10 seconds to compulsively write something on the NOCD feed for the millionth time, which will make your ocd cycle worse in most cases. I know it's hard. But the fight is worth it. You've got this! 💜🍦🏁

Man 3 weeks ago, i felt hopeless with OCD. Felt like there was no way out. Started missing work for 2 weeks. This Thursday is my 6th session here with ERP and wow what a blessing it has been! Dont be afraid of this program ladies and gentlemen because this works! Im at a point where the thoughts that were repetitive and scary, are now just annoying and silly….theyre just thoughts! Those afraid to try medication, dont be. If thats what a psychiatrist recommends, then why not take a leap of faith? Meds with therapy has felt like my life is back together and its only session 6!

Has anyone else experienced not being triggered or having an intrusive thought and then wondering why you didn’t? Like why am I wondering I should be happy about it

OK now I am freaking out over sunscreen. I found one that was decent enough after looking at reviews and YouTube videos But now my brain is saying that because it is meant as a full body sunscreen and not a facial one that I’ll break out even though people have left reviews saying they use it for their face and that it works fine. I just keep going back-and-forth between canceling the order and getting another sunscreen with some of the qualities I don’t like but that is also good and trying this one out please help?

ocd has made me feel and think things that I never wanted or thought I could. I never second guessed myself before and never even thought about this. Even if this were to all go away I’d be traumatized at how little control I have of my brain and I know that I’m in control ultimately but this scares me beyond belief. I don’t even know what’s real anymore.

How much does therapy through nocd cost??

Does anyone else experience fears about sleepwalking/ harming others in your sleep? Or waking up and having anxiety that you can’t be sure what you did while you were sleeping?

Anyone have weird dreams that feel like they're not dreams I had a extremely weird saxual dream and there was a bunch of girls in it, like why? And it felt like I purposefully thought about it in my dreams and also checking, like it feels like I'm conscious idk why, and I felt like I liked it in the dream. Also I woke up not feeling the anxiety bc I always tell myself they're just dreams but I feel like it was me, I feel uncomfy.

going to do an exposure and label myself as bisexual:)

Decided to give OCD a name as a “mean girl” that’s just trying to get me down so when I get intrusive thoughts or triggered.. I say, “mhm okay sure Bethany. Totally. Totally how I actually feel and absolutely things that I want.” It helps to personify it for me!

I only recently discovered that Relationship OCD was a thing, but i am so grateful for this discovery. Now I know my irrational thoughts have a diagnosis, and with that there comes a treatment. I struggle with many other genres of OCD, so this one seemed trivial in comparison. But yesterday I was in such a dark place, and I didn't know what to do with myself. I sat in bed crying and ruminating for hours, trying to convince myself I was overreacting, but ultimately making myself feel worse and unloved. I opened and closed the texts with my boyfriend, going back and forth on whether or not i should say something. I wanted him to reassure me, but i didn't want him to know I was experiencing such a drastic change in emotions from when I saw him earlier. I got nearly no sleep last night and continued to experience this mental anguish as soon as I woke up. So I finally opened the NOCD app hoping to find some form of support. I completed my first SOS today for relationship OCD, and although I'm still emerging from the darkest parts of my mind, I finally feel understood. If other people can treat their relationship ocd, then maybe I can too. I know that accepting uncertainty is critical to betterment.

i’m done. this is it. today is the day i stop doing compulsions.

I just explained to my gf how my ocd effects our intimacy and honestly I can’t tell if it would have been better to just not tell her. Everything would be a lot less complicated if my brain wasn’t like this:(

someone please help with my last post it's like i really really want the thoughts and enjoy them and that they make me happy. i am sure this isn't ocd and was always denial and now i am coming to terms with my sexuality

does anyone regard their ocd thoughts as 100% real? obviously i know a large part of the disorder is believing the thoughts are ‘yours’, but then also knowing your brain is tricking you. for me, it truly feels as though all the thoughts are mine and i’m evil and terrible etc. and the feelings too.

Can someone explain internalized homophobia to me please?

not sure if i should tell my boyfriend i played a game last march with a friend who happens to be an ex-match and that sometimes i have small interactions with ex-flings/ex-matches that became my friends or acquaintances instead. the interactions are innocent and how i usually interact with friends or acquaintances. i know i've done nothing wrong and they all know i have a boyfriend but its makng me anxious and makes me feel guilty that he might not know

i always imagine scenarios with women to test whether i want them or not, and up until a month or so i used to get nauseous and anxious and repulsed by them. now i feel nothing. i can'teven tell if i want them or not. i think i am numb to them and sometimes avoid this compulsion because it makes me feel like i want the thoughts. anyone else go through this? and also i feel like i am "reminding" myself to think hocd thoughts and to do compulsions

Part of me wants to look for reassurance that what I said was an intrusive thought that was just said out loud to my self, my logic tells me it’s not true but then I panic and feel like it’s real I know thoughts and feelings are not facts but I hate the uncertainty, I worry about wanting other attractive woman over my partner all the time how to avoid reassurance ?

Anyone else here have a bad thought you want to do something and when I mean want I mean like truly want to do it like NO DOUBT ABOUT IT? I mean REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO DO IT! but then it scares you cause you wanted to do it? Please tell me OCD can make you do that and I’m being serious like really really really really want to do it in the moment of the thought then get scared after the thought like “why?!”

I’m new here. I don’t have a diagnosis but I’ve done a lot of research and pure-o just really clicked (not everyone has the privilege of getting a diagnosis) I have thoughts all the time that convince me I’m an awful person and I panic about it. Sometimes the thoughts convince me I’m a sociopath and that really scares me. I try to talk to my mom about it but she doesn’t really get it, she tries though. Just wanted to say hi, I just don’t want to feel alone anymore, it’s comforting to see people talk about their experiences since I can relate to most.

I'm just so angry and sad that this is my life now feeling like a total monster. How I went from a loving human being to this is beyond me 6 months of this hell I just want to die...not looking for anyone to respond just venting. haven't been on here in awhile.

I can't tell if my derealization got worst.. I feel different like things feel fake or is this how it feels to feel normal? Everything just looks and feels weird I'm scared I think Ima start having an anxiety attack.

Has anyone here had good success with Escitalopram (Lexapro)? I’ve been using 10 mg for almost 4 weeks and still feel about the same, or maybe even a little more anxious. I’ve heard it can take 6 weeks.

sometimes i cant tell if what’s going on is an intrusive thought or my inner racist. it’s hard as a poc bc being anti racist is such an integral part of my being that i can’t tell if i’m just fighting a racist part of myself or an intrusive thought bc either way i didn’t like what i was thinking but i can see why my mind chose that yk?

anyone else feel this too? i am so convinved :( i feel like i want it and am just not letting myself enjoy it. i feel like i am just going through a sexuality crisis. i don't think i really have ocd, it just feels like i am struggling to accept my sexuality. can this be ocd??

Can't stop blaming myself for past mistakes. Wish I could go back in time🙁

i’m panicking bc i don’t know if i’m losing attraction to men (my age or older) or if it’s just a symptom of my ocd that like i’m always anxious when i’m trying to reject a thought from my POCD and HOCD that i don’t know how to properly be attracted anymore to something i would normally have no issue to. i’ve been attracted sexually and romantically to men my age or older before so idk what’s happening

my friend was telling me about her bf and my mind goes "i don't even want a bf i want a gf" and felt no anxiety but it kind of worried me like how can this still be denial??? i am literally SO CONVINCED i am gay. i am convinved of it if anyone said i were straight i would actually argue with them. i am so convinced i am gay in denial. how can this still be ocd????

it feels like i am getting better and slowly realising i am gay and that's why i am depressed

I struggle a lot with the memories of my past friends. I remember having 2 female friends that I loved so much, I wanted to get their attention. I remember getting jealous with them when they had other significant friends. I remember wanted to be important for them and hug them. When this thoughts started, I just started to notice all this things that I “felt” or “made” for them, and I started to feel that those friendships were “different” to others, and when I remember the past times with them, my mind keeps telling me and I feel like as if I wanted them and I really can’t just sit with uncertainty when I remember all the things I did or how I felt or how important those friends were for me. I’m scared that I was in love with them and this is not just “ocd”. What do you think?

Does anyones OCD go into panic mode when they have to fill a doctor's or work form and they ask the question straight, gay, bi, other.... Personally I don't think they should have it on the forms as it is not really their business. I feel like putting I'm pretty sure I'm straight I'm married to a man so what does that tell you? but my OCD thinks otherwise then I feel guilty for thinking that as it is seems I'm being rude to gay people. Why does everything have to have a label, it would make people with ocd's life so much easier if we didn't have to label ourselves.

A conversation on my latest post has made me wonder: What are y’all’s stupidest OCD stories? I’ll start- it’s a tie between the time I couldn’t wear plain pants in Animal Crossing out of fear that that made me gay, or the time I freaked out over writing something in alternating colors of pink, yellow, and teal- the Pansexual flag.

Can someone help. I’m having a panic attack on vacation. I feel like I have to confess to my boyfriend again. I can’t stop. He tells me to stop. I can’t stop thinking about it. I try so hard.

A message of hope: Hey guys, I’m new here but I just wanted to tell you how much I love you first. Peace and Grace from our Lord Jesus Christ and God our Father. I struggle with OCD and still do but I came here to say that what every OCD person is missing no matter what type is love. We have not been rooted in love but have been used to pain have we not? We have not been rooted in joy but in sadness and hurt. But we should forgive the ones who hurt us and love them as well as we are all made in the image of God. OCD is hard I know, OCD is difficult but together we can get through it. Do not let OCD stop you from wanting or thinking you are worthy of love. God Himself loves you and He is Love. Have peace with yourself and others and realize that we are not monsters no matter who we are. We are humans and we have been used to evil. Have hope and be used to good. I love you guys with the bottom of my heart and wanted to say, it gets better, no matter what. As in the words of the Bible: “Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.” ‭‭Romans‬ ‭5:3-5‬ ‭ Love you guys. ❤️

I see everyone else’s experiences and get scared that they’re not the same as mine. For example, for me I see pictures of pretty girls and worry if I’m feeling a certain way for them. But that anxiety makes it feel like I do even though I don’t think I do. And that’s why I’m scared I’m actually bi.

I hate it, I feel like I don’t love my girlfriend but I know I do and I want to love her, I hate it that my mind makes me feel the things I hate

Day by day, it seems like I'm accepting that I'm gay. No anxiety, feeling straight seems a lie. I was straight before. I wanna be straight but ocd says that I dont wanna be. Please help me 😭. I dont have anxiety like I used to have before

I can't do this anymore i really feel gay in denial, it feels like i want it. all i have all day in my mind is girls, all i focus on is girls, and there is NO ANXIETY. how can this be ocd when i have no anxiety?!? how can this be ocd when i feel like every compulsion i do or thought i hwvr is self-provoked just to "prove" i have ocd?? why does it feel like i am "reminding" myself i have ocd??? i feel so in denial and i am so convinced i am

I was watching this video where people confess their secrets and this woman said she’s fallen deeply in love with her best friend but has been in a straight relationship for a year and I’m terrified that’s me and it feels like I can relate to it. It feels like I am closer to certain female friends because I’ve known them longer and they understand me a little better. But at the same time no because my boyfriend is the only person I’ve ever been interested in truly getting to know and the only person I’m willing to put in that romantic work for. I’m not attracted to my friends like that I don’t think but that feels like a lie. I’m sorry but this is so painful and I want it to stop, I want to rip my brain out. I want to be happy and confident again I don’t want to love a woman.

hello! i downloaded this app today just because i have no real knowledge on coping mechanisms for ocd due to me only getting a diagnosis a few months ago. anyways, i just have a quick question: can a minor have pocd? i myself am a minor and while i seem to fit right in with the definition of pocd, i'm not sure if it really counts due to me technically being unable to be a pedophile. i mostly have fear of being attracted to kids around toddler age, and i worry about being a pedophile when i become an adult. i also worry about still being attracted to teenagers my age as i get older. does this still count as pocd?

So I’m panicking a bit now and I keep thinking what if this is denial? And Idk but ocd can change from POCD to SO-OCD? Like it change from any theme right I just feel so worried and I really want a guy to be my life partner and I’m feeling like I’m loosing attraction or something towards them..

Another SO-OCD thing that I’m curious as to others experiencing. I have a friend group mostly comprised of LGBTQ+ folks. I’m considered the token straight, lol. But I’ve heard that people with friend situations like these are typically gay themselves, and that worries me. Anyone else feel this way?

This might be a dumb question but is it normal for women to be a trigger for someone who has sexual orientation OCD?

How do you know if you’ve recovered from HOCD and you’re now actually questioning? I’ve heard that that’s possible, and I’m on medicine and haven’t completed ERP yet. Is it possible that my thoughts are real? How would I know the line between intrusive and real?

Something that has helped me alot: just because a thought makes you feel really bad or anxious doesn't mean its important. Intense feelings aren't 'proof' that you need to analyze the thoughts that caused them. It's ok to continue on with whatever you were doing while letting the bad feelings linger in the background, because slowly they'll fade away ❀

I will not self destruct, even when it feels right. I deserve to make myself happy ♥️

I thought looking at videos to expose myself to mh fears would help.. It feels as if everyone around me is fake or if its a part of my imagination... I kept seeong the video of Javier from spain that supposedly was stuck in 2027 but people were saying how it was fair I don't believe its true but what if it is? What if Im fake? What if everyone around me isn't real and are like robots? What if I left to abother dimension? Is it possible? Not asking for reasurance but am I doing it wrong?

I’m really struggling right now. I’m having intrusive thoughts around a real event. My family thinks I’m being ridiculous and can’t understand why i can’t let it go. I keep ruminating on “what if”. I don’t want to say what’s bothering me because that’s reassurance seeking. So instead I’ll give an example of the type of thinking that bothers me… It’s illegal to run a red light. I went through a yellow light that turned red. How soon did it turn red? Was I in the intersection before the turn? What if I get a ticket mailed to my house and we can’t afford the insurance hike on our monthly payment. What if that leads to not being able to have 2 cars and one of us loses our job and then we can’t afford to take care of our family on 1 income? I’m sure from that example you can see how distressing this type of thinking is. It’s a real event, I’m responsible, I’ll ruin everything, etc, etc. I think like this no matter how improbable the scenario is. To me, with OCD nothing seems improbable, but I can see the irrationality about it. My compulsion is rumination on the event, researching online, confession, explain myself, and ask if I’ll get in trouble. Does anyone else deal with this type of OCD or anxiety related thinking?

I could use some support rn, Im visiting some friends who moved a few months ago and I keep having intrusive thoughts that I would like to kiss them and stuff and I keep testing in my head and im so anxious and I just want to run. It feels real, I hate it so much!

i think it’s getting bad again. i’m going through the past and there was this beautiful teacher and her style was to die for and now i feel like that’s proof i was gay from a young age

What do you guys say to your OCD related thoughts as an exposure? I’ve been saying “maybe, maybe not” but it’s getting kind of repetitive.

Anyone had their NOCD therapist tell them they refuse to begin treatment with you until you have not smoked any marijuana for two weeks straight? Trying to figure out if this is even allowed/ethical. Also trying to decide if I want to spend this type of money on these sessions with a therapist so opinionated and closed-minded to plant medicine when I’ve actually found it therapeutic. She said she’s going to “send me an article.” I could send her 10 back, reporting the therapeutic benefits. This seems bizarre to me.

This may be reassurance but i feel like i just need someone to clear this up. I'm a 17m highschoolwr who is in a mixed friend group with females and males. You see I mostly hangout with 2 girls in our friend group because, well we have a lot in common and i feel like i can actually talk about my problems with them. And also because some of the guys in the group can't seem to ever be free. My mom thinks its suspicious that I'm "only hanging out with girls" and that "it gives off the wrong impression" when she said this i immediately panicked. She knows I've been dealing with OCD and HOCD but she really doesn't understand it and doesn't seem to want to. I've already had so many OCD thoughts surrounding my friends and who i should be with so this just added a shit ton more fuel. I told her I didn't fucking care what people think and i just want to enjoy my time with my friends. She said what i was doing was "inappropriate" it doesn't make sense, i don't feel attracted to men, and I'm actually really into one of the girls in the group. Sigh... Why is everyone so judgemental? Can I just live my fucking life? Stop assuming and just let people decide what they want.