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Does anyone have false memory/real event OCD around the fear of being abused as a child? I know logically I wasn’t, but I recently had a random memory pop up from childhood, that my brain started thinking about and worrying that maybe I was abused. It has now turned into an absolutely horrible OCD obsession and I feel so alone. It consumes my mind 24/7. I KNOW the thought isn’t real, but I keep worrying what if I have repressed memories that I just forgot about? I never once have had the thought that I was abused. I have a wonderful relationship with this person and my biggest fear is believing this thought and ruining my life as well as there’s. It’s extremely scary

I also wanted to ask if anyone wants to share there lexapro experiences? Or even other medications they’ve taken that have helped!

Is there somewhere I can just go to for OCD THERAPY? I am so freaking exhausted . I had just came back from work due to anxiety attack. I was off to a great start through my day until my mom triggered my ocd and anxiety . We had discussed a lot on the way to work, Having to do most with my mental struggles . She pointed out that I hadn’t cleaned my room , at first it was with her judging me for having messy bed head too. I was openly , sincerely explaining to her why can’t mentally do things sometimes . I basically told her straight up to he bit open minded . Something along what she had said triggered my ocd anxiety. I have no idea why I was anxious , maybe because an intrusive thight crossed my mind as she yelled something out . Giving me false feelings leading up to my anxious mood. But ever since, I had been soo out of focus . Ruminating and just feeling like my ocd completely took over my head .

Anyone with race ocd that I can rant too ?????

Hello everyone! 👋🏻 Today I have off from work so if you have any questions about OCD, leave them below! I’ve recovered from OCD and my other mental illnesses after 3 years of intense therapy. I’ve had nearly every OCD theme you can think of too.

Okay, so I took a delta 8 gummy last night expecting similar effects to a cbd gummy just maybe a bit stronger and it made my ocd so scary and it was awful. Has anyone had a similar experience?

Anyone ever have a hard time with thinking about your spouses sexual past? I’ve known about about it and it never bothered me before getting ocd. I don’t care at least I don’t think because I do love her but sometimes my brain won’t stop thinking about it and this morning is one of those times. I just meditated and my brain went to those thoughts.

Does having OCD mean that the thoughts are not true like there are many on the idea if it’s ocd that means it not true and everything is fine and everything ocd says is a lie and stuff?

oh my god, i just feel so..nothing. i don’t even know how to describe what my mind is going through right now. i just had one of the worst intrusive thought ‘episodes’ at dinner and my mind feels like it’s about to actually explode. i really feel so helpless. my family was laughing around me because of course none of them have ocd. none of them know about even a fraction of what’s going through my head. i was trying to laugh with them but in my head came the intrusive thoughts immediately. just like clockwork. im having intrusive thoughts at this very second typing this. i cant deal with this. it’s too hard. i don’t know what to do. i want to cry but tears won’t come out because it’s like i know they’re not real, but my ocd is convincing me that they are because i’m obsessing over them. i DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP. I REALLY DONT AND ITS DRIVING ME FUCKING INSANE. i KNOW at the back of my head that i cannot give the intrusive thoughts attention because they’ll just keep torturing me. but it’s like nobody ever recognizes how truly hard it is to just ignore your thoughts. it’s physically impossible for me. there’s no way around it in my brain. my mind is completely wired to IMMEDIATELY respond to the intrusive thoughts as soon as they enter my head and keep them thriving so i can repeatedly obsess over them. i cant not think about them, i cant not do my mental rituals. i don’t know how i’ll ever get over this. i want therapy so bad but the thought of my family ever knowing that this is what i go through is truly terrifying. i would really like to ask others here if they share similar intrusive thoughts as mine but i am too scared to type them out because my ocd is convincing me something “will happen” if i do. i don’t even know what “something” is. at this point the intrusive thoughts are a blur. my mind is just associating typing the thoughts out with something negative, whatever that is, just something. i don’t even know what. the ocd part in my brain is having an absolute field party right now because it’s gotten control of me. im truly ashamed to say this but ocd really feels in control of me right now. the intrusive thoughts are controlling my emotions and i can’t stop them. im giving in, i don’t want to, but i can’t not. the intrusive thoughts are so severely affecting my mental state right now and it’s so difficult. i don’t even expect a single person to read all of this here. i don’t expect a response, im typing this out because getting my feelings out like this makes me feel more mentally in control. im a fucking mess right now, and it was triggered by the smallest things ever. i cant express this enough: i miss more than i can put into words my life before all of these intrusive thoughts. it wasn’t even 2 years ago or so that it was this bad. i miss my life. i miss being mentally healthy. my mind is all over the place and has been for almost 2 years straight and it truly feels like it’s gotten worse. everyday my mind goes through hell and back, today was one of the worser days. what did i do to deserve this, i want my life back

There anyone that’s been on clomipromin the doctor started me on it I got to 50 milligrams only been on it 2 weeks and the doctor switched my meds to a medication I’ve been on twice already Luvox I was prescribed Luvox and abilify when I was younger then I tried it again a few years ago but just Luvox by itself no abilify and now this doctors giveing me Luvox and abilify And I had little relief on Luvox and abilify as a kid the second time I was on Luvox alone I got no relief at all I was actually getting worse and the next 4 years I changed medication each year cause nothing was working then I stopped all medications once I admitted myself and was discharged in 3 days and told they didn’t have the resources to help me and a referral to an ocd inpatient place in Chicago which ended up denying me cause they didn’t accept my insurance I got on drugs for 3 years trying to get some peace I’ve been clean for a few years now and still have significant ocd I’m miserable and have just learned bout exposure and response therpay so I’m hopeing to find help from a therapist but want to be on medication that’s gonna help I’ve been on Luvox twice already I had never tried clomipromin should I ask to continue the clomipromin is there a reason she stopped it so soon and switched to this medication I’ve tried twice and this is a new doctor I just started trying to get back on meds so I no she sees me as a new person and is gonna play Guinea pig wit me but I’ve been suffering for 15 years and I’ve tried everything and was told I needed inpatient but can’t get inpatient cause noone accepts my insurance if I could just get some medication to help wit ocd anxiety and anxiety attacks panick attacks social anxiety agoraphobia and depression and did therapy to help I could get better enough to go do outpatient do something till I could get into an inpatient place.

New here. Looking to hear from people with SOOCD. Im a woman with a cis male partner. For several months, I’ve been convinced I’m either bisexual or lesbian. It all started after seeing tiktoks of other women questioning their sexuality, talking about how they watch wlw porn, and so on. I also only watch lesbian porn. I’ve learned a lot about comp het and thought maybe this is why i’ve never dated another woman and i’m actually attracted to women instead of men. Ever since then, i’ve felt extremely disconnected from my partner and even almost broke up with him. I find myself constantly googling searching to find my true sexual orientation. I constantly try to imagine if I could be with another woman. I’ve imagined coming out as bi or lesbian. Just recently, I learned of SOOCD. Suddenly everything is making sense. I felt relieved when I started learning about it. Though, I’m still worried I could just be bi or a lesbian in denial. Everyday I am consumed by these thoughts. I’m exhausted, confused, and depressed. All I want is to find myself again. And find answers. I love my partner, and I just want to feel happy again. If you’ve experienced anything similar, please share. I’d love to hear from you. I’m not looking for advice or answers from you, I just want to hear from others in the community.

My worst nightmare came true ! I went to my doctors as my nocd therapist said I may do well on medication , despite being diagnosed with ROCD by my therapist and having every single symptom I’ve read about my doctor claims I don’t have ROCD and I am just in a relationship that probably isn’t right for me. I don’t agree with her I know deep down I love my boyfriend but this has caused me immense anxiety .

I leave my house once a month. Does anyone else feel like you’re going to be harmed or killed because of the thoughts you have? Or if I touch something that has touched a surface I see as contaminated and then touch myself I have to wash it away, I have no clothes now they’re all contaminated and I don’t leave my house at all I’ve been begging for help for so long and not had any id happily be admitted into hospital because I have given up on life now as I think I’m going to die anyways

I can’t take it anymore I was never particularly religious but I’ve been driving myself to a breaking point. I keep breaking down and crying because every single daily activity takes so much energy out of me because of these OCD things that my brain makes me do. Anything I hear, see, or think of that is negative to Christianity makes me stop what I do and restart it such as walking into a room or picking something up or getting into my car. If I feel A stimulation in a body part that I deem negative while thinking of something positive religiously it also makes me want to restart or apologize even though I’m not really doing anything wrong I simply noticed a body part on my self. I have intrusive thoughts about negative Christian things, and even though I know they’re intrusive thoughts and they don’t mean anything because I don’t want them there they still bother me a ton. If I see anything such as numbers that I deem negative or anything that the church would disapprove of such as the opposite of Jesus or the opposite of Heaven I am terrified and I feel the need to correct it by either seeing a cross or a picture of Jesus, or writing words such as “Heaven” or “Jesus” in my phone and looking at them, or by asking for forgiveness. I never particularly followed the faith to an extreme, I never really went to church a ton, but I did pray at home for the last two or three years. In the last two months have been this awful OCD stuff. There’s plenty of stuff that I know isn’t wrong, and is natural such as masturbation and sex. Even though I have participated in stuff like this before, and I want to again, I’ve been terrified to do anything as of late by myself, or with my girlfriend. I don’t think these things are inherently wrong but since the faith does I’ve been terrified. I’m terrified with every single thing I do and I’m terrified that I won’t be forgiven if I do any sexual acts, because “I know they’re wrong and I would proceed to do them anyway” so why would I be forgiven. I have not felt calm in two months even though I did start some therapy, I feel like any advice from my friends family or the therapist has not worked and doesn’t stick in my brain because I am too scared. I just want to enjoy my life but I can’t. I feel like I’m hyper aware of too many things and I’ve been noticing anything that I could deem positive or negative religiously in the world. I don’t particularly want to be religious, I’d much rather just be a casual Christian who just believes in the good Christian Holy Trinity, gives thanks and prays on occasion from home, and lives a normal life where I don’t stress about these things, but I’m so scared that I would be doing something wrong by doing that. I have constant headaches and try to avoid doing anything because every single action takes a ridiculous amount of OCD tasks. I’ve been drained of all my energy I have no motivation to work out or do anything I enjoyed before because I’m terrified. My sex drive has diminished due to fear, and I’m not even in the mood for that stuff (I’m only 18). The only thing that brings me some sort of comfort is the fact that many people believe that many rules and Christianity were added in later in order to support some peoples ideals, but I’m still scared. I am a good person, I don’t do anything wrong I think outside of sexual acts, and I try my best to aid people in my daily life. Most people have a positive opinion on me and consider me a good person as well. But I’m just so scared and drained and just don’t know what to do anymore.

Look I have soocd and I feel arousal when I check or test with thoughts about the same sex I really don’t feel aeousal for women I think this isn’t normal for ocd is there any advice anyone could give on this topic please anything would help

anyone else scared incase they get possessed or go insane or jus me ?

Any hocd sufferers in there 30s?

Pls help me..I could use some advice… I self harmed yesterday even after telling myself not to but the mental pain was so much i had to feel some kind of physical pain to distract myself. I have soocd or so i think and i watched a movie yesterday about lavender marriage I didn't want to cause i knew it would be triggering for me but my friend wanted to so i went with him to watch it and i was right it was extremely triggering for me the parents in the end except their children which made me think what if this is the reason i am pretending to have ocd if my parents act like this will i?!? I don't understand the thoughts the entire Igbta+ community in the movie made me think is this what i am scared of they came out to their parents and i was like do i have to too?!? And then i was like why am i having these thoughts i know this is ocd or is it?!? I came home i was much calmer but I couldn't stop thinking today morning while doing online shopping i saw a model and i just started staring and i was like i am not staring at the clothes but the model was i?!? If i was then what?! Even in the movie the lesbian girl had a girlfriend who got married to a guy and had kids what does that say then?!? And also they showed scenes where their hands touched and stuff what if that happens to me and if its a considered possibility then all could be possible and why would i think so?!? I thought of writing it down yesterday only and posting it but then I didn't was it because i was not panicking and i was not actually if it is ocd I should have instantly written and posted it right?!? But I didn't i came home and I didn't write it so i feel like all this is fake and just denial and it feels so strong and true in the end of the movie i was crying cause i felt like i was lying and didn't know who i was and questioning my entire life and existence how is all of this still ocd?!? Was i relating to the movie was i okay with all this am i faking all this panic shit and i am only scared and i know how ocd works so i just post instantly but yesterday I didn't so does that means its not ocd?!? And even while writing all this i am faking it writing the word faking while knowing all this ocd is a cover up cause this feels too much of a possibility and real what do i do ?!? Pls help me.. is this even ocd anymore will i be okay with the answers to my questions ever?!? Is coming out something my therapist will tell me and would i be okay with it if my therapist says this is not ocd and tells me to come to some kind of terms why am i not shaking while writing all this cause i should be scared but am i... should i get therapy is this even ocd?!?

I’ve noticed my anxiety gets worse at night and in the morning when I wake up. Right now I’m all over the place

Feeling ßuicidal but not having the option to do it is suffocating and cruel to live with every day.