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has anyone ever been prescribed xanax for ocd intrusive thoughts and anxiety?? if so has anyone noticed a difference in symptoms

I don’t want to be on medication. And I will not be on it. I refuse to have to take a pill to feel happy. Or to feel better. I can do it on my own with my therapist. People have told me “take medication it’ll help” no nope and no. I don’t agree with taking medication FOR ME not for anyone else just myself. My morals, is that a pill will not be the thing that helps me. HOWEVER, if my anxiety and ocd gets to be so bad to the point it can’t function properly, then maybe. Maybe maybe maybe. It really depends.

Is this even ocd or should I actually be worried because I had really horrible intrusive thoughts, images, false sensations that I’m so upset about and I really don’t want to have to tell my mom (who they were about usually categorized in the theme of insest OCD) because it’s so embarrassing and just horrible and I just got home and I’m around her and my mind won’t shut up trying to get me to talk to her and I usually tell her about my intrusive thoughts and if I’m really stressed out which usually results in her getting irritated at me for telling her all the time and her telling me I don’t have it but I hate when my mind is telling me I HAVE to or the feelings of guilt won’t go away. So I don’t know what to do. I feel terrible like I’m a horrible monster but I’ve always had intrusive thoughts about her and many other people but I always try so hard to not talk to her about the ones that are about her specifically. I don’t like them I hate them I’m upset and full of fear. I pray to God I don’t have to have that conversation with her but like I said it’s like there’s a bug in my ear that won’t stop until I “fix” it

I know to some people that may be an exaggeration but I honestly don’t think I’ve hated anything more than myself. It makes me so mad I can’t be perfect and everything I do, it’s either wrong or it’s going to end up wrong. I don’t know if anyone gets things like this, but when I’m hugging someone my brain will tell me things like “oh push against them more” and it will happen for a second and I’ll feel sick over myself. I also like touched my friends arm and my brain was like “push their arm harder” and I must have put pressure for a second and I felt so awful. I feel like I’m suffocating. My family are fed up with me but I don’t really blame them. I’m sick of me too. Why do I have such a horrible brain? I wish I wasn’t like this at all. It’s like whenever I get an intrusive thought or urge my brain will start to do it for a second and then it stops. But most people don’t even start it. They just have the thought. So I’m guessing I’m just extra bad. And I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone in my life.

So we know that lots of people have perfectionism, “just right”, and contamination OCD, but I’ve noticed that sometimes people with these types will openly use that as an excuse to regularly do what I presume to be compulsions—like excessive hand washing, double/triple checking, compulsive cleaning, etc. My question is, shouldn’t we challenge these people to not give in to the compulsions? It doesn’t seem right that we preach about practicing exposures & living with uncertainty but oftentimes people with these types of OCD essentially get a free pass to do their regular compulsions.

I think my problem with hocd is the fact I havent fully accepted nor believe that I am suffering from ocd

Last night I was trying to go to sleep and I heard strange inappropriate sounding noises coming from my moms room. Her room is right next to mine and I don’t think it was what I thought it was but my mind immediately tried to fill in the sound as that thing and I kept having intrusive images and when I heard the strange sounds, My body immediately got really tense and I think I experienced the groinal response but not sure and now I keep having thoughts that because I had intrusive strange images about my mom and my mind also keeps telling me I was turned by it or aroused and I really hope that’s not true. If anything I felt really anxious and scared when it happened but my body and mind immediately reacted to the strange inappropriate sounding noises which probably was just her drinking a soda or something but I don’t know I’m rambling. I’m so anxious I feel a lot of guilt and I even kept waking up throughout the night feeling like something was wrong with me and the guilt just won’t go away. I really hope it’s not true and it was just the ocd messing with my head. I have to go to work and I don’t even want to get out of bed now I just keep hoping it’s not real.

Does anyone here get triggered by the evilness of the world that they see in the news or on Facebook, heck even scary movies or psychological shows?? I guess what I’m trying to say that the evilness of the world makes you question what humans are capable of..,what I’m capable of…and it makes me so anxious and scared.

Always worried I'm gonna make mistakes at work and it's super frustrating. I think yesterday was my lowest point in a while. Feeling better today but damn it's scary when you get stuck in that state of mind.

How do you get up and live life after you had an ocd episode? I need to clean but all I want to do is hide and sleep.

Should I tell people my thoughts? My logic is that if they were just normal thoughts then I shouldn’t have any fears about telling people, and then it takes the power away from the thoughts. But I have also read that confession is a compulsion. What should I do?

I accidentally deleted text messages older than 1 year and that’s A LOT of msgs, all because I was trying to do an urge! I was “challenging” myself to hover my thumbs on the “auto-delete conversation “ on my iPhone for 7x while saying the usual ritual/prayers & because it only takes a minute, I heeded. It didn’t feel right so I did it again, and my fear came true, I accidentally clicked on it, and now they’re gone. Whenever I have an intrusive thought, i go back to those conversations to calm my mind, answer the questions that pop up, and stop the thoughts from coming back, if they come back, I have an answer for it! But now I don’t, and I’m scared I don’t know what to do when they come. I am also feeling very anxious because I’m tempted to try to recover it as much as I can (deep research about it). Maybe I can also recover a snapchat conversation from 3 years ago so I can have my questions answered, and when I think most of this started. Is this an OCD trap or will recovering it help me? PS. I have mixed feelings right now. I feel anxious and a little nauseous because intrusive thoughts might come in and I can’t answer them and also that temptation of trying everything I can to recover it (I feel great anxiety and a rush while doing this). There’s also this fear of what if there’s info there that I needed. but when I researched and it said it’s permanently deleted and I can’t do anything at all, yes I feel defeated but also AT PEACE because I can’t feel like I have to “recover” it anymore, and I don’t have anything to look back. BUT there is a way which is the third party app, so now there’s this looming feeling of I HAVE TO DO THAT.

A close person of mines ex spread rumors about him raping her after they broke up. She was a weird girl and you could tell she had big problems. She abused him mentally and did many things like sent him pictures of her having other guys hands on her and stuff to him after they broke up the first time. She also stole stuff from stores when shopping with this guy and his family. This girl even hangout with this guy guy she was accusing after she accused him I think but I’m not sure. This guy is so close to me and I don’t wanna see him as a rapist. I think that my OCD is maybe in the picture here because when I first heard of this I just thought that this girl was trying to destroy this guy by accusing him/ spreading rumors. At that time I had false memory ocd and when my false memory ocd just got better it jumped to me doubting this situation instead. What should I do?

This OCD recovery may take longer than I thought. Am I really doing it wrong or am I not 100% committed to recover from OCD? There’s got to be a way to me to “reduce” my compulsions. For now, I’m not sure how long until I start seeing good results. Could it take years for me to recover?

Or how you realized you have hocd

Hi guys. I am really struggling and not in a good place. I need help. I don’t know what else to do. Please help. I have these two false memories I can’t get out of my mind. They are both from nights I was drinking. One of them popped up two days after the night I drank and the other one popped up the next morning. I had one single thought that I cheated and boom. That thought has stuck with me ever since. Both nights I was alone with a boy in a room, not in a weird way. On one of the nights, my friends fell asleep and a guy was in the room. It was one of my friends boyfriends. They fell asleep and he was just watching tv. I even remember the show he was watching and I recall exchanging a few words then he went upstairs. There were parts in between all of these I can’t exactly remember and those are the gaps that have caused me to feel insane. I keep saying “what if “ and I can’t get it out of my head. It has me questioning every interaction I have with my friend and him. If he acts weird, I think “oh he just confirmed it. I deff did something” or even if she is slow texting me back I think “she knows” even though I know deep down I did not do anything. It’s like I’m ignoring the fact that I know nothing happened but still feeling guilty and trying to look for clues from them to verify if I did do something bad. I feel insane because it’s like I know I didn’t do anything but at the same time, how do I truly know? It’s taken over my life and I am constantly trying to find reassurance to ease my mind. I find me texting them to see if they are gonna act “weird”. It’s so strange and i feel like I’m going crazy. I don’t know what to do. The other situation is similar. I was alone with someone while drunk because my friend passed out but I remember almost everything but stuck on the “what if” please help me. I know deep down I’m innocent but I keep convincing myself I cheated and did something bad.

Why is ocd making me afraid at the fact I have two eyes. It’s literally completely normal! I can’t stop being scared of what being a human means. I feel like I keep trying to find someone to relate to but no one has had the same thought/fear. Ocd is so mean so so mean. I just keep getting these intrusive thoughts of our biology and our existence. It keeps asking me all these things and I seriously cannot handle it anymore. It makes me feel so weird, crazy, and anxious. It’s so unsettling it makes me want to throw up. At this point I’m doing all this research to just try and figure out what this means about me and I can’t take it anymore. I don’t know it’s it’s dpdr , philosophical ocd, etc. I’m so upset because it makes me feel like I’m an alien or something. I don’t know what’s wrong. I just want to stop having these thoughts and stop fixating on how we work as humans. I saw someone say that they have fixated on the thought of having thoughts and it made me feel a bit better but idk what to do anymore. How can I possibly be afraid of my own existence and my own being.

Yup. God I freaking hate them. I went to go give my little brother my aunt's dog and I purposely put them on the side of them because I was going to put the dog on them but then my mind was like haha you want to put it SPECIFICALLY IN A CERTAIN AREA and it was like giving me an urge to do that and do something else which I won't do but my freaking god I hate these urges. They scare the living heck out of me but it REALLY feels like I "want" to do them. Like I'm ok with it and I feel so alone in it :( Its like I really have to hold myself back not to do things (which I won't trust me) but its a feeling like that. Idk its a really scary one and honestly I don't even want to continue trying in life if thats all my mind will do towards people. Also because of that my mind instantly snapped to my early days of POCD where I was carrying a baby and had an urge I believe ? I honestly don't even know but its like well look at how easy you could've done those things maybe in the past you actually acted upon the intrusive thoughts with the baby but you didn't see it as anything bad because of your reckless behavior and moved on so you don't know if you've done it or not. Idk these urges are kind of scaring me again haha It just feels like I want to act on them and theres little nothing and hell not even myself to stop me :( Hope everyone is having a great day !

The other day I had heard of a family member being SA’ and now I got these memories I think the memories I don’t know that I did something to a child and I was sick to my absolute stomach I am freaking the F out I haven’t been able to calm down for a long time how would I know if these are memories are just thoughts When it’s so vivid

I am 36 years old with no history of mental illness. I had a stressful event at work about 6 months ago and slowly started getting intrusive thoughts about harming myself or my kids, but am at a point where it’s all I can think about. I was diagnosed with OCD officially this week. I’m distraught and finding it hard to cope since. I’ve never had to deal with anything like this before. I just started ERP therapy. I am hoping it helps but am terrified that it won’t. I just want my old self back! Please, if there is anyone out there who has gone through a similar situation, what helped you continue to function? Will I get to a point that I can function without being tormented by my thoughts?