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Please can someone tell me if this could be my OCD too...So a few days ago I stumbled across a video about narcissists on youtube and I discovered my boyfriend has some traits. All of my OCD themes are relathionship related because of this extreme fear of losing him. I've developed cheating OCD because he was so jelaous at the begining of our relathionship that till this day I'm afraid to even think someone else is handsome. I would never ever cheat on him. And important to say is that for like 7 years things were very good, he wasn't jelaous anymore, he was sweet and kind to me. He has moments when he's jelaous but it is because of my stupid confession compulsion!!! But ever since I found out he has some narcissistic traits I can't stop watching videos about it and reading about it. It's all I think about 24/7. The thing is all of this videos and articles are extremely negative. They all say that people like that are manipulative, unable to love....as I said he has some traits but I just can't believe he doesn't love me and that he is that monsterous being without a trace of empathy! This has now twisted my brain so much I feel like I don't know the person I've been with for 10 years! Everything he does or says my brain is like: "That's what a narcissist would say." or when he's hugging me and is nice and caring I get the thought :"He's lying to manipulate you." Can someone please tell me, could this possibly be OCD again cause I see I do ruminate about it 24/7 and I research about it constantly!! I'm so depressed, I can't escape this hopeless feeling.

Anyone else feel like they don’t know who they are?

Anyone have anxiety at nite and cant sleep till a certain time

What’s an exposure I can do for physical symptoms? Part of my OCD/anxiety is getting brain fog, tension in my body that associate bad thoughts of going crazy, never getting peace, never experiencing happiness again.

I’m starting to feel asexual now shit it feels so real ?

I feel so alone.

Hi guys. I'm new here. My main obsessions revolve about memories from my past (Real Event OCD) Guilt and Shame. It is a tricky one. Does anybody else deal mainly with this theme?

What are examples for erp for pocd

Options from people? Today our pest control service came over and touched rodent bait blocks and touched mouse droppings with his bare hands. Then he touched our front door. Then I touched the doorknob then my car door. I wiped down both door handles with a Lysol wipes, is that enough? Is this a reasonable place to stop the compulsion? Or does this merit more caution?

Another boy turned me on today instead of my bf and I’m scared that means something

How long does it take to recover from betrayal? The guy I thought I was going to marry was emotionally abusing me hot and cold, resenting me from a drunk outburst I had. The behavior made me do some digging and found out he had a wife and 2 kids all along. His other ex who left him because of this sent me screenshots of him telling her I was maybe a rebound and he didn’t want to be alone and he loves her. Right before our breakup he was telling me he never loved anyone as much as me. Then he would randomly lash out and remember the past and want to break up. It’s a pattern that happened for months now. Despite everything, my self esteem is so down and I still love this guy. I know it’s over now but I’m still in denial and feel so alone and lost. I lost my job and got so dependent and attached to him and he flew me home to see my family. I found out while here and was going to go back to him in Dubai when the summer was over. A week has went by and I’m still depressed and crying. Even when he officially broke up he turned it around and blamed me for the past and said I held on and begged for nothing all this time. So all his I love yous were just fake. I don’t know what’s real anymore. I can never trust anyone again.

what are some of your mental compulsions? I have relationship OCD but I can’t think of many compulsions I have, so does that mean I have pure O?

Anyone here with hocd that used to watch lesbian porn? I used to and now it totally freaks me out thinking that I want them. But I don’t. I haven’t watched porn in months, since this all started! I just tried watching male masturbation porn and it didn’t really turn me on...now all I can think is that female porn would... before it was never an issue, I never thought twice about it, and now I can’t stop thinking about it. Just wanna know if anyone is in the same boat? Is it possible to be turned on sexually but not wanna be with someone, at all, at the same time?

Hello, everyone. I apologize in advance for any ignorance I showcase. Okay, I am new to this platform and new to OCD in general, so any information regarding the disorder is greatly appreciated. I am here on account of my behavior over the last couple of years and attempting to figure out if I may or may not have OCD. I did some research and here are some of my symptoms: (trying to be specific) - Items that I deem to be infected or unclean, creates an uneasy feeling in me. I don't feel like I'll get a disease or something by touching those items, but I will flip out if I come into contact with those items. I end up either avoiding those items forever or cleaning them until I feel just right. - Checking, although very inconsistent. Only happens on occasion and extremely random. Ex. Checking if door is locked until I feel just right. "Just right" = perfect click, perfect feel, hands placed in the right spot, etc. Could range from 1 attempt to infinty. - Hand Washing. This is by far what I do the most. I wash my hands until my skin is extremely dry and won't stop even when it starts to hurt. I have to feel just right about the wash, any error causes me to wash my hands again. - Perfectionism. I'm not much of a tidy person, but I decided to add this one anyway. Can't hurt. There are certain things that always need to be perfect, I don't know why, but they need to be just right. Ex. Pens in my pen case all need to face the same direction. If they are not, It will be all I think about until I change it. Thank you, to anyone that responds. It will be greatly appreciated. Once again I apologize for any ignorant comments in the above paragraphs.

When did your ocd start? Mine started when i was like 7 i guess and then it got much worse when i turned 12 and i got my diagnosis when i was 14

Who else is struggling with false memory related to night involving alcohol?

My therapist told me to work on reality checks or fact checks. Im having trouble suggesting this from reassurances.

Does anyone here have experience with Ali greymond's recovery program for OCD? I'm desperate for a therapist/someone to guide me onto recovery but it's gonna take months before I can get help irl. I'd try this out as her videos are very informative/she seems to know a lot about OCD but it's expensive and my parents are afraid it's a scam. If bad experiences please let me know too.

The only way I seem to get over my obsessions is to find reassurance from someone ? How do I stop this AND stop the anxiety that comes with the obsessions?

Idk why but I feel like whenever I’m here at work , I seem to get even more anxious. I can’t stop worrying about being a different person . I have moments where I forget then it comes back . Or like I was eating earlier and I was worried it would start to taste like fieces Nd I will start hallucinating . I legit do not feel the same anymore . That’s the scary part about all of this . I keep trying to search for some kind of relief and I can not find it no matter what I do . I can’t even remember what it felt like to be myself again . This is just causing so much stress on me . I can’t even bare . I’m afraid that I don’t have ocd . Or I do have ocd along with another more serious mental issue . I can’t get to a doctor . I hate living like this . I been getting suicidal thoughts all week . I’m scared . Idk what’s happening or going to happen . I’m at work and I can’t leave early again . I can’t afford it . I’m not as responsible as I used to be . I’ve let myself go as well as everything around me . I need a grasp on life again. I swear I was on such a good path . I knew what I wanted and what I needed to do . Now I feel like I can barley function everyday . I push myself all the time and I feel myself withdrawing from everything I’m scared . I need help . I’m just begging for some kind of help from somewhere