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Any tips on breaking mental compulsions? I’ve been in ERP since January. I have stomped out all my physical compulsions but I’ve really been paying attention and I’m hanging on to some mental compulsions.
Can OCD cause intrusive body reactions like let's say, you get an intrusive thought to press something you really don't wanna, and your finger feels like it wants to press it and it freaks out the individual. Is that possible?
So basically I decided to reach out to the girl over Instagram and apologize for the incident. It was just really eating at me so I thought it was the right thing to do. And she left me on seen 🥲🥲🥲. Now my anxiety has been peaking like “what if she’s now planning to ruin your life” or “what if she’s telling all of the people you mutually know and ruining your life over this incident.” As selfish as it sounds, but it’s what it I’m worried about. I’m trying to keep my cool but it’s already unfortunately been a sleep away the whole day kind of day for me.
I’m new here and to be quite frank I don’t have ocd as a diagnosis yet. I have a big problem a while back with anxiety and depression and already at a young age I had problems with obsessions and compulsion, the first ones were bacterial and washing my hands wiping after the toilet until it came blood because then I thought I was “clean”. Either way I also had a little of harming thoughts both about me and others. But I got help and that therapist help saved me, because I didn’t have severe thoughts for like a lot of years until recently when I started watching like crimes and I.e murder and killing series and movies. The thoughts started, like “would you kill someone” how and who. “Could you eat someone, would you like to” (i.e cannibalism and even the most disgusting one that really distressed me if I could have sex with a 💀person” which I would never EVER. And then a bit of pocd as well, “are you attracted to younger kids” “do that and that to a child/baby” it’s so crazy and disturbing for me. Im sounding like a complete psycho and believe me when I say I’ve done all the test online for it and it shows no indication what so ever. Also have a huge problem with sickness and diseases and washing my hands too much. Sometimes it’s so hard I get panic attacks and cry myself to sleep but sometimes it’s when the most gruesome thoughts come I’m “okey” with them and that really MAKES ME FEEL CONVINCED that these thoughts are desires and stuff like that. What do you guys think? I am in therapy process so already a step ahead but please tell me I’m not a serial killer or phedophile. I also made a pact that if these thought “were” true I’d rather kill myself then act on them. Thank you for reading!
Has anyone with ROCD managed staying in a relationship with their partner who cheated on them? He seems genuinely remorseful but I have previous trauma related to cheating with both my parents and previous relationships. Struggling with anxiety and rumination now.
So I'm pretty much at the point where anything sexual is too triggering for my anxiefy one way or another. What sucks about this is that I have a lot of trouble stopping sexual acts. I believe I have a sex addiction and I can't seem to stop doing sexual activities even though I try to several times. I'm really worried that my neighbors heard me when I engaged with this behavior and I feel embarrassed or like a bad person even if it's such a normal human activity. Then I get a worry that someone younger may have had heard me and that's really messing with my pocd. In the past this happened and I was actually heard but I was too embarrassed and said it was something else but I wasn't this anxious about it before but now I am. Bad things always seem to happen when I do this but I can't seem to find success with stopping because I'm so used to it.
I don't know what to feel anymore. Loads of times I'm around my mum I feel what I'm going to call groinal responses, but they feel real. Whenever she makes any little noise it annoys me to no end, but also leads to these groinal responses which don't make sense. I don't know if they are them or they're real. I love my mum so much and would never want to do anything weird. I just don't know what's going on. I don't like it.
Does anyone else really struggle to do their erps? When I do it with in the therapy session I can do it but when I’m doing it in my own I just can’t bring myself to do it The thought of doing it makes me feel sick Does anyone else get this?
I've got a horrible urge to search up CP and I don't know what to do. It feels like I really want to do it. I can't tell if I want to do it but it's telling me I want to and that I'll like it and I'll never enjoy anything again until I do it. How do I prevent myself from doing it, is this is a sign of ocd and how can I distract? I'm scared I'm a pedo but I'm perhaps more scared that this thought won't go unless I do it or that I'll do it because of ocd and then go to jail.
Hocd has tortured me for sure with all these confusing symptoms. It started with thoughts and images, those turned into urges and feelings like I want the thoughts or want to be gay, then came false attractions. The realness of everything is so crazy to me, like how could a disorder possibly do this to a person. While these symptoms drove me crazy, I have gotten better and have learned to accept some of the symptoms. The false attractions and urges still get me a lot but there’s been slight improvement. I’m just trying to figure out my next step is. Since I’ve dealt with this for so long my libido and attraction to women is very minimal which scares me. I guess I just don’t know how to get back to how I used to feel, we’re liking a girl just came natural and there was no questioning about it. I feel so unproductive because I’m constantly trying to figure out this unawnsered question in my head. I play college football and it’s so tough for me to stay focused during film and practice because I feel like I need to focus on the hocd. My hocd makes me notice everyone on the team and it drives me crazy. I was always very confidently straight growing up and had good sexual relationships with girls I dated, so this constant fear of my sexuality just changing still terrifies me. I just don’t know how to disregard these symptoms that make the hocd feel like it’s my sexuality that’s changed permanently. Just kinda wanted to hear some peoples thoughts on this.
Hi, this is very long apologies lol ,I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD however Id like to share my story and questions, any advice appreciated!(I’m 23male, North of Ireland) In 2020 I started having thoughts about suicide etc however I never wanted to ever do it and had no reason to think like this, I have loving family/ friends/ my girlfriend at the time. When these thoughts would pop up it would trigger anxiety etc.. it was like part of my brain was arguing with the other,I eventually went to my doctor and was diagnosed with depression and put on citalopram(celexa). I had around a month of absolutely terrifying side effects, my thoughts about suicide became absolutely off the charts, I had my girlfriend sleep with me because I was scared I was going to kill myself. Even looking at my curtains would trigger me… throughout this time I never ever planned or consciously wanted to do such a thing. I spent basically 2 months locked in my room watching tiktok and sleeping..Eventually I levelled out and within 3/6 months I was back to normal life again and pretty much recovered having no intrusive thoughts. At this point I had never heard of OCD apart from the usual stereotypical “being clean” OCD. Fast forward 2 years of pretty consistent good mental health and normality for the most part. Last month I noticed that these crazy thoughts would slide into my mind about being a pedophile and over the next week would get worse and worse. I had a feeling my citalopram was becoming less effective so my dosage was upped, I think this triggered side effects again and caused me to completely fall apart and had the worst mental health episode I’ve had. My brain was fully trying convince my I was a pedophile and I stayed pretty much bed bound for over a month, I couldn’t work or socialise and even barely talk to my family, the shame was absolutely crippling I thought at a point I should just commit suicide because no one likes a pedophile and that even if I’m not, how can I live like this, it was insanity, and for a few hours a day I’d come around a little and realise I was being ridiculous. Most of the time I knew in myself that I’m obviously not a pedophile And the thoughts were absolutely abhorrent. This is also when I researched symptoms and found out about OCD and all of its different forms. This is where my question comes in. I didn’t think I had any compulsions as such. However I’ve just heard of avoidance, which seems to fit me. I spent the whole month in bed watching tiktoks and researching ocd and “ruminating”. And I mean like 13hrs a day on tiktok. It was really the only thing with the constant swiping and flow of different content that could keep me distracted. Another thing I was doing was just sleeping. I was sleeping a crazy crazy amount and anytime I got realllly bad, I would just sleep try sleep it off. Like if I woke up from 10hrs sleep and 2 hours later I was spiralling into anxiety, it would be back to sleep, sometimes sleeping all day. Would these actions be considered compulsions? I really don’t have physical compulsions and seem to fully line up with “Pure O” Anyways, my medication seems to be working well again considering I can even write this and I’m doing well and I’m happy again. As if none of that even happened only a month ago.. hopefully that gives someone hope. Does it sound like I have OCD and also has anyone experience with a diagnosis with the UK NHS? Thanks for any advice people 💪
TW I obsess over the fact that people don't need me. I'm not necessary to people, you know? Not even a future spouse wouldn't be just as glad without me. Of course, it's mutual -- I don't technically need a particular person in my life either. Still, it's a hard thing to think about
Hi all, I am curious what others experiences are with marijuana usage. I feel like marijuana exacerbates my OCD and provokes really visual intrusive thoughts. I am wondering if others can relate?
TW IF YOU HAVE EXISTENTIAL OCD i have convinced myself that life is hell and it has just started unfolding into my hell and my brains reasoning for this is that i can’t seem to imagine how i’m living my own life and everyone else is living theirs — does that make sense at all?? i can’t fathom we are all conscious im freaking out over this and have been for a month or so
Hello, I've used this app before but sometimes avoid to not remind myself that I do have ocd. So acouple of months ago there was an upsetting video that circuled around the internet and I deleted my tiktok and instagram to avoid it. I've been using ig only on other people's phones because it just feels safer. Safe to safe just the description of this particular video left me traumatized and my ocd "flares up" when I have PMS. For me, I'm scared of being on ig because I get scared I'm gonna see or hear about that video or even worse, look up the particular things to "make sure" its deleted off of the internet. I know I would never put myself to witness something so awful, but the idea of me even thinking about it is enough to scare me and makes the simplicity of enjoying ig kinda nerve-wracking and I wonder if anyone on this app understands this feeling and knows ways to use social media in a peaceful way. I would really appreciate advice and thank you a lot to anyone who took the time to read this! Thank you 😊
I always think I'm "wrong" or I'm going to be punished for something. For anything or any mistakes I've made even though most of them were years ago. For example, if I got into an argument with someone, or vented to the wrong person about something going on, I feel like I'm just a bad awful person. And that's just not true. I know a lot of this is a perfectionistic mindset and I just never know what to do or think about it. I try to redirect my thoughts but that's getting harder and harder to do. My home life isn't perfect and it seems like whenever someone is upset it's always my job to fix it or try to fix the situation. I try not to control the situation, I just try to be reassuring and do what I can to fix things but that seems like it isn't enough, either. I'm just worn down and broken down. And I'm tired. I battle my own mind every day and it just feels like I'm not getting anywhere.
i already posted around an hour ago, but i really need help. The anxiety i feel from these thoughts give me horrible physical effects. My stomach hurts and i throw up so so much if i have a really bad flare and crying. I really need help or suggestions on what people do to help soothe the physical effects. I know ill be riddled by these thoughts constantly but I cant keep crying and throwing up during school or even at home. The stomach pain and chills i get also are hard. I feel like i cant live, this feels debilitating.
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