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I feel so close to giving up

One of coworkers today touched me on my back without my permission and got real close to menow I've got icky feeling all over idk if it was harassment or not but I feel gross and weird

so ive been doing ERP for false attraction and thought i give you an update to see if im doing it right and tell you the feelings i get from it. So usually I expose myself to attractive dudes or dudes in general and than the feelings of false attraction come in and yeah it will come with thoughts which makes it touch but the feelings is whats the most tough about it. Feelings i get i don't know how to explain it, im getting all these sensations or feelings that i have no idea how to explain, but it like tightness in the stomach, tingles maybe? fuzzy feeling all over my chest and stomach and also shoulders too, and other sensations, but i don't feel like its anxiety or distress like if become ok with this but not in a good way you know? it doesn't feel like it but is it? IDK it just feels like genuine and real attraction. What i do is I keep exposing myself and i definitely give attention to the feelings like i notice a lot and i feel hyperfocused on that and i just let the feelings and sensation stay there and just say,"its just my HOCD" but when i say that it doesnt feel true.

So everytime I have a relapse and look for adult content I only strictly look for adults that are involved. Usually fictional ones because that way no harm is possibly done to real people but sometimes I don't get triggered by real adult models as long as I'm aware of their age. Unfortunately, I still come across really disturbing things whether I click on channels to find more content of the same person or other adults and it'll have disturbing content with people I think are underaged. Sometimes it's content of characters that I know are minors but people age them up and that disturbs me the most. I don't get why people do this and I find it disgusting. I never click on these videos because they're disturbing to me and I only go for adults that are simply adults. I hate that this stuff shows up and it triggers my POCD and then I think something bad is gonna happen because I scrolled past those videos even though I didn't want to see them in the first place. I've been trying to stop watching all of this stuff for years and I'm still struggling with it. Content with younger people is the absolute last thing I'd ever want to see and I hate that people make stuff like that and it just stays on websites somehow

How can I go about getting a proper diagnosis if my health care provider isn’t knowledgeable about OCD? Right now I’m going through a lot of “pure” OCD thoughts surrounding things like relationships and I’m worried if I try to get diagnosed my provider would overlook it because my obsessions and compulsions are mental. I also only really have one theme at a time, so it becomes tough when all the question they ask are nothing about the theme I’m struggling with currently. I don’t know what to do. I feel like if I’m not officially diagnosed that I’m lying to myself and to others.

“Come to Me, all you who are weary and heavy laden , and I will give you rest”. Matthew 11:28

I had a dream of pocd and the dream started off me kind of stoping the situation, but then I started to engage in sexual things with minor now I feel sooo anxious and feel like im a P cause I actually started doing stuff in my dream/nightmare

Anyone else get a really horrible intrusive thought then it just replays on loop in your Brain like literally the same sentence over and over and over again!!

I honestly don’t know what I should do. I mean I’ve never had any proper treatment ever, but I know I have ocd because of the pain it’s causing. My current obsession right now is a bit dangerous because I feel like I have to hurt myself to prove I have it worse because if I don’t, how would anyone care at all? Ew, this is is scary I feel like I’m on the ends of my rope, if I don’t follow any compulsions I feel like I’m actually losing it. I’m shaking right now, I do want to live I do want live Please give me a solution I feel genuinely insane I don’t like this And when I do get help I feel like I don’t deserve it and it should be me that has to take it all in I don’t want to be like this anymore I’m tired of following my awful intrusive thoughts I can’t even live life with struggling at all

I’m so scared that my relationship is going to end one way or another. Like what if I don’t feel connected to him anymore, what if I start to lose feelings, what if it just doesn’t work, what if my anxiety and OCD gets so bad that I just need to get out. I’ve done an exposure today and I’m trying to recall what I’ve learned in therapy but the fear is so real and I’m so scared it’s happening right now and it’s not actually my anxiety

Having a tough morning today. Yesterday afternoon and evening was good and felt at peace. A thought popped into my mind last night and now in a spiral this morning. Trying to sit with it and not engage with all the intrusive thoughts.

Hey, I’ve never dated before and I’m in my 20’s now and I’ve considered starting to use a dating app to start just talking to people but I’m scared. Scared of getting obsessive over the conversations, the people or if it’s the right decision to use it or not ? Any advice ? Thank you

I’m having a really hard day today my anxiety is very high and I’m feeling depressed

I’m new to all this, but it seems that this individual Robert Bray is the only person who seems to be discussing sensorimotor OCD. I’m looking for a very objective opinion here. Upon looking him up I came across some very bad reviews, but those seem to be at least two years old. Then I see comments that are more recent, and they seem very positive I like to believe that people can, and do, change. Despite some of the bad reviews that he has from a couple years ago, can anyone speak to what it’s like to work with him now?

Woke up feeling bad again today. That rollercoaster is so hard. The thoughts are back, the low mood. I have a friend’s wedding today and I’m so scared I won’t be able to make it 😞😭

Kinda really anxious because I am afraid I might have borderline personality disorder, except I constantly am afraid that I might have mental disorders that I’m not diagnosed with. Wondering if other people with OCD deal with themes of obsession over mental disorders. Or if this is borderline personality disorder, and instead I am creating different personalities based on different disorders I keep thinking I have. I have been diagnosed with OCD but in my comments it was mentioned that I showed some symptoms of OCPD and BPD but not enough to diagnose

I need help someone plz help I keep getting thoughts and physical urges about girls and I feel that I’m getting aroused. I don’t know what to do I don’t want to be with a girl I keep getting images about my sister arms and I xojld care her veins and I know that I like men with veiny arms but I keep getting a reliant that I like My sister with it I don’t what to do I don’t have anyone to talk to u I feel like I am alone. In Islam I don’t know if it’s true or not but god says to the fetus 77 times if u want to come to this world and god shows his or her life to it till his death. I wonder what did I see in this world that I agreed to come here I don’t want to live anymore I’ve had enough no one understand I want to go back to normal I don’t want to be with a girl I’ve never imagined my life with a girl I’m having 5 tablets a day of medication and I’m becoming worse I can’t focus I can’t remember certain things

Keep in mind I’m Muslim. So today I was just going through my pictures and remembered how many months ago, there was an instance where I showed someone something on my camera roll, and I think they may have seen a picture of me without my hijab in the pictures below. They said something along the lines of not wanting to scroll through the other pictures (or something, I’m not sure but I feel like it indicated that they may have seen the picture). I did not think much of it in the moment but remembering it now is bringing me so much anxiety. I know I can’t guarantee if they saw it or not. And if they did, that makes me feel horrible. I don’t know if I should tell my partner this right now, because I know I would want to know if someone accidentally saw a pic of my partner. I know I can’t control these accidents but not telling him in the moment when it happened is making me feel terrible. What do I do?

Real events OCD combined with hocd and pocd and harm ocd is making me feel so horrible... Ive made horrible mistakes as a child that I deeply regret (9-13) and now Im 22 about to turn 23... I feel like I dont deserve forgiveness cause of my childhood mistakes...

I was so tired today until I turned off the lights and got into bed. Everytime im in bed I start ruminating and panicking and it just doesn’t stop. Sometimes I won’t be able to calm down until it’s 4 am. I’m just so frustrated