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I understood that in the 2 big flare ups with OCD (now and 8 years ago) I had problems with my period! Does anyone else have it??? Can it be related????

recently got a rlly rlly good experience w my bfs friends the 4 of us spent all day together just talking and connecting and it was particularly happy cause me my bf and his friend who i used to have problems with and stuff but i lwk always wanted his validation / approval. we were on adderall (legally & prescribed to all 3 of us because we have adhd) which i think added to the element of happiness in the air i was too positive abt everything. anyway i bonded w them super well felt so happy about the experience it lasted hours it was just me explaining sm things that happened to me and them defending me it was great. then that night me and the friend stayed up all night talking because we were both up from the adderall since we took it too late, and i know that sounds weird but it was very much okay with my bf he wants me and this friend specifically to patch things up and we built the foundation that it would be ok for me to do that w this friend i wouldnt w others but this friend is all platonic. and this friend and i actually have a traumatic past being involved w the same girl and it traumatized us so badly so yesterday we talked for hours and hours abt how i try to be genuine & we debriefed that trauma and a million other deep life things ofc. but part of me feels so weird because what if im trauma bonded to him and catch feelimgs which i don't want at all and when i was w my bf today i felt so weird maybe bcs of these thoughts and the lack of sleep and the come down but i automatically assumed it means im not interested / in love since i cant physically feel it but i want to be in love w my bf forever no one else. but what if i do like this other guy and today i had a super split 1 second of jealousy w him and then it went away and i wanted him to hang out w us today but when i thought he wasnt or when i tried getting him earlier w my bf and he wasnt there i cant tell if i was too sad or if i just didnt wanna be there without my bfs friend which i do NOTTT want whatsoever which is why im stressed. me and my bf been spending last 3-4 days all day long but im scared im not enjoying it how i would if i loved him even tho i want to desperately and am kind of sure i do but this new bond is insanely heavy and i can usually adapt to a new guy friendship easily but this one stressed me out bcs the conversation was intense but i need advice is this ocd like is this a normal response will it wear off so i go back to good w my bf?

Does anyone else feel completely consumed and controlled by their OCD? I have constant fear, panic, and anxiety now 24/7 around contamination OCD. I have tried ERP, but it feels like it doesn’t help with the daily issues I am having. It feels like I can barely get through the day.

My mind is racing all the time and I can’t concentrate on almost anything. Music constantly in my head that I don’t want. Can’t stop it.

Lately I've been having this feeling where I don't feel real. Like I know I am and it's probably just anxiety but I feel like I'm just hearing myself talk and do things but feel like it's not me/ feel out of it. I don't know if that makes any sense but it's just freaking me out and making me feel crazy

This might be a stupid question for some, but I'm genuinely confused why does any mental illness recovery full of ups and downs, for example when you breake a bone, you treat yourself and things get better from that moment forward, no hurdles no setbacks but when it comes to OCD and anxiety recovery it's very different from a physical illness?

I am a 25 year old woman who is currently interning at a high school. I keep finding myself saying in my head, “Oh that guy is cute,” when he is literally a high schooler. I would never date someone younger than 23. It’s more of a thought like oh he’s a cute kid. I just keep obsessing over it. Some of my friends have told me its normal to think someone is attractive as long as your not going to date them, but it just feels yucky since they are literally minors. I feel like a normal person wouldn’t think like this, and im just super struggling.

My OCD tends to get really triggered by quotes, different instagram posts, TikTok’s etc. I keep having reoccurring thoughts that I did something to cheat on my boyfriend early on (we have been dating for 6 years) with guy friends I had on Snapchat at the time. Not too long ago I saw a quote saying “someone from your past is going to resurface unexpectedly”. I saw this quote at the same time I was having this horrible OCD flare up. My OCD seems to connect itself to different things like this quote. In my head this means it’s conformation that I did something and now something is going to come up and ruin my relationship even tho I don’t remember doing anything. Then today, I saw a instagram post saying that “Because of our faith in Jesus, we learn that nothing is random or meaningless”. This triggered my OCD again because now I think that I didn’t see the quote “someone from your past is going to resurface unexpectedly” on accident and that it means I did something bad. I also always see quotes in instagram saying “don’t ignore the signs you asked God to show you” and it really messes with my head. Does anyone else deal with this. I feel like it’s completely irrational but my OCD attaches itself to different things and patterns trying to prove to my mind I did something wrong. I prayed to God for a sign and to just reveal to me if I did anything and don’t remember. Is this a sign I did something wrong or is it my OCD?

Does anyone else have super intense mood swings???? I’m starting to notice that I have a lot of bpd symptoms along with this one but I’m not sure what it is. Can anyone relate?

Idk if this is an OCD thing or a just a me thing but I have a very strong aversion to drugs(other than drinking/smoking) and if someone I’m dating does any at all even if it’s barely at all, it feel exactly the same as being cheated on. Like same level of anxiety and everything and legit makes me feel betrayed and sick. Anyone relate?

Hello people. I have the following problem: I always ruminate how to connect a fuse ( I am am electrician) and I decided how to do it and stay with it and I know that it's right. (It doesn't matter wich way) I watched a video of an electrician and he did it a different way and that triggered me massively. My normal compulsions in the past would be to Google it how to do it right and "forget" it after a while and do it all over again. Now I haven't done that but I had two compulsions: 1. Ruminate wether to look up how to do it or not, without actually doing it 2. Just being distracted while watching the video. I am not actively thinking about it but it's like it all happens in the background and it's still a problem, cause I can't focus while it happens. So my question is, how to stop or what to do about the second point?

The compulsions are just terrible. I don’t want to do them but some are so automatic and I need the relief so badly. I try to hold them off, and I stopped ERP but I think I should restart it.

How is one supposed to be okay with uncertainty? I don’t think I ever will be. Uncertainty on wether I am a monster, or if I’ll go to jail, or that my family and all of society will shun me and be disgusted with me. I have a real event with false memory and the number one think I find myself saying is I don’t know. I don’t know if I did or didn’t do that I don’t know if my memory is accurate or not I just don’t know. The guilt I wake up with everyday is suffocating and I don’t even know if it’s deserved or not. I don’t know what to do anymore I fear death is the only way out. I hate that I feel sorry for myself I don’t deserve anything at all.

About eight years ago now someone started impersonating me and posting sexually explicit messages on Craigslist using my phone number, instructing people to call or message me with a code phrase that included a comment about my vagina. He also opened an email in the format firstname.lastname@domain.com and messaged a bunch of casting directors and agents with photos pulled from my Facebook page and suggesting that I would do sexual favors for an opportunity. As an example, one photo was me in the booth doing voiceover and the text underneath was “Wait til you see what else I can do with my mouth…” The only reason I was able to get my Actors Access account back was one of the admin noticed that the explicit email’s address didn’t match what was registered in my account. I remember she just said “Poor girl” before we hung up as this was obviously something that was just… going to happen I guess. He also sent handwritten letters to prisoners —mostly convicted for violent crimes—which included more photos pulled from my Facebook account. I’m in the process of looking for other career opportunities, and one person I was in communication with hasn’t reached out in a couple weeks, which is a little concerning as he was pretty quick to get back to me before, but also a little par for the course in the entertainment industry. And I think I know who the impersonator was and he seemed to only operate using info he had: photos from social media bc we were online friends, my address bc he had come over before, my phone number of course because we would text. And he’s blocked everywhere and I’ve moved and we haven’t spoken in years but every time I don’t get the job or I don’t get a call back or whatever that sticky thought just won’t leave and it makes me so anxious about persuing better opportunities and it’s so unfair how much that experience can still effect me and I can’t stop thinking about and I know that I’ve done all that I’ve done and I’m continuing to stay vigilant, but it’s this thing where I *have* to know whether or not it’s him in the background pulling the strings. How do I live with this fear and keep going?

I’m almost 3 months post partum. My baby was in the nicu for about 3 1/2 weeks after birth so we had a rough start. A couple nights after I brought her home I woke up for one of her middle of the night feeds. I made her bottle as usual and started feeding her. I was just looking at her and was all of a sudden bombarded by all of these terrifying thoughts like “what if I stab her.” I was so panicked and nauseated to the point of throwing up. I just knew those intrusive thoughts were the beginning of post partum psychosis and I was going to do something terrible to myself or my baby while in the psychosis. I couldn’t go back to sleep and just cried and cried the next day. I saw my obgyn and was prescribed 25mg of Zoloft and 5mg of buspar. Each day that passed after that I started to feel a letter better. Then I got my first post partum period. After my period I started having panick attacks and terrible chest pains. I thought I was having a heart attack so I saw a doctor who ran some tests. Everything came back completely normal and was told I’m just having severe anxiety and am under a lot of stress. So I saw my obgyn again and she upped my Zoloft to 50mg and my buspar to 15mg. The first few days were terrible. I thought I was having a bad reaction to the medication my anxiety was through the roof and I felt absolutely hopeless. My harm ocd was so bad. I thought I was going to take my own life. Not because I wanted to but because I just felt so hopeless. I moved back in with my parents so that there was eyes on me at all times. I was still scared I was going to go into a psychosis and hurt my baby. I felt better after a few days and the medication had started working again. I felt completely normal up until my 2nd post partum period. I’m ten days off of my period and now I’m back at square one. My harm ocd has spiraled. I’m having terrible intrusive thoughts about hurting my baby. I know now I’m not going to go into a psychosis because if I was going to I would have already. When I’m having these thoughts and they don’t make me nauseous I start to obsess over whether or not I’m a dangerous person or capable of being violent. Now I’m stuck on that. The fact that I’m not dwelling on the intrusive thoughts the way I used to has made me question if post partum has turned me into a psychopath or sociopath. I question all of my emotions and wonder if I’m actually feeling the way I think I do or wondering if they’re generic emotions. I’m ferried. Please help.

I honestly do not have a desire to be sxeual with a woman (I am a woman) nor do I see myself in a relationship with a woman romantically but since this theme has popped up again I panic around pretty women. What if me acknowledging she is pretty or has a nice figure means I want to have sex with her. I don't.

me when I hear “virus or bacterial illness”😨😰😱 me when I hear “common cold” 😯

I imagined being a trans and i felt excited about doing HRT and it felt pleasurable and very wanted this time 1000% I am done , i am dying please help please

Sometimes I question if I even have Harm OCD because I’m still able to use knives around family members. I’ll be chopping vegetables in the kitchen , but then the harm thoughts will appear and I’ll try to finish as quickly as possible and throw the knife in the sink. If I’m not avoiding knives all together would that still mean I have Harm OCD ? Are my compulsions more mental than physical ?

So I've been struggling with this for more than 1,5 years... My ocd about my relationship began so suddenly. At first it was just anxiety,but later it was about an old friend of mine. I had a huge crush on him before my bf and since I met my bf I didn't feel anything anymore and we just grew apart. Until my ocd thoughts started about the old friend. I keep comparing everything with him until I feel satisfied with the fact it's feels better with my bf than it would with the old friend. I don't want him!!! He wast the person I needed and me and my bf have such a beautiful relationship and I love him so much..the ocd goes and comes but it's always about the old griend and sometimes I begin to doubt the fact it's ocd or it's just meant to be with the old friend?? But I don't want that!!! I am so happy with my bf and I don't want the old friend!!!! I keep revising the same sentences to comfort myself and I can get trapped in the thoughts for minutes! How can I stop this...what if it goes on for more years ugggg....hoping the ocd goes away soon again. Because sometimes the thoughts do go away but now it's back...