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I have intrusive urges and thoughts come into my head how do stop them ? Or accept them ? 🙏

So I've been doing a lot of introspection in order to FastTrack my recovery for OCD. I am now finally able to share to you guys what I came up with, and I know this is gonna help a lot of people on this forum if you take this seriously. Its called the AUL principle. To remember this better, think of someone from the American south pronouncing the word "All" Here's how it works by letter: Awareness: become totally aware of your intrusive thoughts. DO NOT try to hide the intrusive thoughts through compulsions and reassurance. This is obviously the hardest step because the thoughts are so vile, heartless, destructive that we just want to turn away and run from them. But don't, confront the fears. Uncertainty: live with the fact that you don't know what is going to happen to you. For example, if you worry that someone is gonna hurt you if you go to the store, think "maybe I will get hurt" "maybe I won't" live with the fact that we don't know what is going to happen to use every second of our lives. Lack of caring: after completing the first two examples, your brain should simmer down and you can live on with your life without obsessing. This will take a lot of practice and mental fortitude, as well as a support group of people who know not to ressassure you, which will bring back the OCD. I myself didn't want to change my behaviors because everyone in my life treated me like absolute garbage or was being way to reassuring. It was not until I was court ordered a therapist who wasn't either of those things I wanted to improve myself This is a better way of thinking about ERP at least in my mind. Hope this helps someone

People keep telling me we wont die because of climate change. But my brain tell me that it's not true ? And I cant stop worrying. Im currently trying to combat that, trying to remember that just because my brain says it it's not true but it's so hard. Any advice?

Hey y’all! I just joined this community. I am really excited to grow in overcoming OCD in my brain. I’ve had anxiety and phobias my entire life and have had OCD for about 1.5 years now. I have POCD, harm OCD, and general compulsive thoughts about doing things out of character. I have these mostly in social situations or even when I am alone thinking I might post something in a group chat. I don’t like traveling alone because I am afraid of what I might do. I am tired of feeling alone and I’ve been misdiagnosed several times which has made me feel helpless. But I know there is hope. I know there is a way forward and this has a name. 💪🏼🌞

i really need someone to help and just to clarify this happned when i was under the age of 7

Can we all agree that letting OCD feelings sit there and not trying to get rid of it just SUCKS?? It feels like it’s never gonna go away. It’s really hard trying to accept uncomfortable feelings and not trying to get rid of them because my default is to ALWAYS try and feel better and get rid of anxiety. It’s tough.

As someone with pocd, mom bathed my little cousin and then gave her to me to put on her clothes. I panicked when she first told me to do it. I really didn’t wanna but eventually I put on her clothes. What I don’t understand is why am I crying after doing that? I rushed upstairs to my room & just broke down. If anyone knows anything about this, just tell me please.

I am so tired of feeling like this. I feel so hopeless, I’m having intrusive thoughts about my mom and children but it’s not what if it’s “you’re going to do such and such” I feel like my brain has taken over me. I don’t feel happy and I just sit around everyone and pretend like I’m okay when really I’m having horrible thoughts. Also I don’t feel like myself feels like someone else is controlling me. When I think of myself it’s like in 3rd person, for example when I look at my children my brain is like “those aren’t your kids those are Breanna’s kids” or when I talk to friends and family my brain says “those are Breanna’s friends and family” then It’s like I’m just not scared anymore but I want to be like I need to be scared to be normal if that makes sense. I feel like it just took over and I’m going to give in but it doesn’t scare me so now I think I’m just crazy or stuck like this. I feel numb and just out of it like I’m losing hope. Also I had a nightmare like in my dream I had intrusive harm thoughts like I can’t get a break even when I’m sleep or when I wake up. I haven’t really been able to eat because it makes me nauseous I just feel pointless ugh 🥺

What should I expect?

I recently discovered that I have maladaptive daydreaming disorder which is common for people who have OCD. I was diagnosed with Pure OCD six years ago but I felt that there was something different about my condition. My compulsions were daydreams and fantasizing about changing past events. I would do this on a loop and this behavior could last for hours. Has anyone else discovered this about themselves?

Thoughts and feelings about a specific person I feel horrible. My old friend triggers me so much. But thoughts about him don't feel like my other triggers. It's like there's a likeable, pleasant feeling, but I don't want to feel like that. All I want is to feel bad about these thoughts. When this happens, I feel as if my feelings and thoughts are real, as if I actually really love someone else, as if it's okay to love someone else other than my partner, as if I agree with it and keep it a secret. I feel something like a false comfort. But why do I feel false comfort towards this person in particular? What if I love that person and I don't love my partner? Why do i feel these feelings and what does that mean? Does that mean i actually love that person but i deny it, but also i actually know thw truth but im hiding it? What if i want to be with that person? What if my thoughts and feelings are the truth? I don't want any of these to be true, i don't want to feel any romantical feeling towards to anyone other than my partner. I don't want to love anyone else other than my partner. I don't want to be loyal to anyone other than my partner. I don't want anyone else and i don't want these horrible unwanted thoughts and feelings. I don't want to feel a comfort or likeable feeling when the unfaithful thoughts I have about others comes this time about him. I don't want someone else to have a different place in my consciousness. When I think about that person, I don't want to have thoughts and feelings saying "There's no problem in loving him, in fact, you love him anyway, I don't mind that." I don't want thoughts and feelings that normalize the things I hate. Additionally, I am very afraid that God will take my partner away from me and give that person to me instead.

I’m so afraid I’m a groomer- the thought is taking me on waves of torturous anxiety that I don’t believe I deserve to feel- that I’m a “monster” in my head I’m guilty till proven innocent. Lately I remembered a memory where I was playing roblox and being curious after watching a video I wanted to know of truly people were up to nefarious things in the game. Now my brain thinks I searched it to groom k*ds. I’m so shattered. So unclean and just so sick, I don’t know what’s real and what’s not anymore. Can false memory include false memory of intentions? Could my intentions be screwed up in my memory?

How do you guys deal with religious OCD? I don’t wanna go to hell.. i’m so scared of blasphemous thoughts.. i feel like i force horrible blasphemous thoughts.. what am i evil? i’m seriously about to cry cause God please help me.. somebody please just help me

I often hear the advice “your emotions are valid” from therapists. What does this mean exactly? Also, isn’t the whole point of OCD therapy to learn to ignore and invalidate your feelings? Because it means you need to disengage mentally with OCD and thus ignore the feelings. That’s what I understand. But now I have comorbid BPD and Bipolar 2, so now my therapist for that tells me to acknowledge my feelings and that it’s perfectly valid to be angry/upset/sad/happy etc… It contradicts my OCD therapy or so it seems. Anyone able to chime in?

I've been shutting myself away lately because I'm so fu^king sick of this cycle of me turning into a g0ddamned baby and then hysterically crying for hours on end and having my family helplessly watch and not know how to help. Nobody knows how to help. I don't even know what I need. I want to give up and just stare at the wall until somebody can save me. If my brain isn't constantly distracted and numbed I'm spiraling. I switch minute to minute from being super depressed to hyper and talkative yet somehow I manage to hold it all inside. It's getting very hard to communicate/mask. Every night I feel fine. I feel scared and sad, but I feel the most normal at this time. When I wake up, it starts all over again. I wake up in panic attack mode and drag myself to work. I swear to god I can't help myself anymore. Nothing I do helps and it's too exhausting. I think I'm just gonna keep letting myself suffer because I'm so sick of trying to get help and then have it not help. I know this is just an episode but jesus christ it's so f^cking scary. I believe everything my brain tells me but I don't even know what it's telling me. All I know is there's this extreme PUSH to be flooded with extreme sadness and anxiety, and it's very REAL. I feel like I need to be locked up and studied. I truly feel alone in this condition because I genuinely believe there is no one in this world who has been having these symptoms the way I do. Four years of this, several mental health professionals, and I still don't have an answer. When will I be able to rest? Even reading this message makes me think "that's not me. where did I go?" There's not even a specific reason why i'm feeling so extremely horrible. It starts as a pure OCD attack about something and then before I know it I spend a week crying. Anyway I have work in the morning I don't know how I keep going and getting out of bed every day knowing that ending up like this is definitely a possibility. I really don't know how I'm still alive. Something is extremely wrong with me and no one seems to understand just how bad it is. What do I need to do in order to get someone to understand the severity of it all? I wish nothing but healing and peace and permanent remission for all of you tough souls ❤️

What if you did something extremely horrible as a child that you didn’t know how horrible the events were that your POCD and real events OCD targets? Does it make the intrusive thoughts true? I'm getting anxious from my POCD and real event OCD based on real events (3 times) from when I was 13…… I don't ever want to ever be a P at all… I don't ever want to ever be a Chomo at all... i don’t ever want to ever be a rapist at all… I was 13 when these real events happened and now I'm 22... I've asked my mom about this so many times and every time she tells me that it's not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I'm not a rapist or a P or a chomo...  I didn’t realize how horrible the real events actually were… I was 13 at the time… now I’m 20… my POCD and real event OCD call me a P or a chomo because of the real events… while my mom reassures me all the time that it’s all over, that it’s not serious anymore, that the person is okay, and that I’m not a P or a rapist or a chomo, but when I was doing compulsive research, I remember when I saw a post on a non OCD forum about someone’s similar situation to mine and two people said to the person that they m*lested and that they needed  to turn themselves in… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form… i didn’t know how horrible the real events were when I was 13… I really didn’t… and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids… I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… I don't ever want to ever harm a child in any way shape or form... I seriously don't ever want to do that to any child in any way shape or form and I seriously don't ever want to do anything like that to any kid now or in the future… I never have had any fantasies about kids and I don't ever want to... I don't ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way shape or form... I was 13….. and after the real events I never did anything like that ever again, and I never once ever thought (before, and after) about doing stuff with kids in any way shape or form... I never once fantasized about kids or wanted to do anything with kids…  I was 13 and didn’t realize how horrible the actions were at the time and I never did it ever again… I never once fantasized about kids before or after the real event… And it’s comparing me to actual P’s and chomo’s who did stuff from 12-15… and making me think I’m a P and a Chomo because of it… I don’t ever want to ever be a P or a chomo in any way… 😭😭😭

I disclosed my disgusting intrusive images to my husband and he's used it against me. We've been fighting and if we get divorced I'm afraid he's going to tell people. If people knew they would be horrified and I would lose all the people in my life. I shouldn't have told him. I'm so scared and angry at myself that I told him.

Is anyone else so exhausted of OCD being a joke? I’m wondering when laughing about mental illness became funny.

It’s not going well with my boyfriend and I (we’re long distance and he travels for work) and we’ve been arguing a lot - half of them cuz of my anxiety and half cuz of … both of us? My ROCD feels high but also I ask for things like - where is this going over the next two years? When can we meet each others family? So that I can feel secure and tell me ROCD to shove it. But his answers are that he isn’t ready yet especially cuz we’ve been arguing so much. My brain is telling me to cut and run. My ocd is telling me the same. Everything is yelling at me to leave. I’m so tired of this.

I pick my face as a coping mechanism for anxiety. I worry constantly. What r some things I can do to work through this?