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U guys for some reason when I think my baby looks cute or is being nice I feel something in my private and I worry. This also has been happening with my dog. I’m scared

What medications are you all on or have been on? Experiences? Side effects? What has worked and what hasn’t?

I have adhd and ocd so I have no short term memory and my ocd loves to feed on that. Sometimes I try and force myself to remember things to try and improve my adhd symptoms, but I can’t tell if these are me trying to push through adhd or doing mental compulsions for ocd. Like I’ll think to myself “what if you forgot to wash your hands free going to the bathroom before you touched your phone?” Which may be true , and then I get bored and don’t want to continue the thought , but the thought makes me anxious so I force myself to relive the memory to see if I washed my hands or not. I can’t tell if this is me just trying to improve my memory or if I’m doing mental compulsions. I wish I had a different brain. Every time this happens it hurts my head. I can’t tell if I should stop or push through to remember.

i haven’t been diagnosed with anything yet, but i have OCD symptoms, specifically POCD. when i was 11, i would play with my niece and nephew (i believe they were both two or three years old) and suddenly i would get random graphic intrusive thoughts. i never wanted to do that kinda thing, the thoughts scared me. i didn’t tell anyone for a while because i was scared they’d think i’m a horrible person. and sometimes when i would play with the kids, i would get scared that the adults would think i’m doing something bad to the kids, which was never the case. i’ve never felt attracted to them or any other child either. 11 is an age i was at puberty, and a lot of people say that people realize their attractions during puberty, and that’s been kinda scaring me. if i was one i think i would know by now, but i’m just scared. i’m not attracted to children but sometimes i’m afraid i am.

The past few months have been really rough. And yes there is a trigger warning because it’s pretty intense.. I suggest not reading if you struggle with keeping your ocd in check and utilizing the tools to get better… So I have been struggling with suicidal ocd. It’s been so hard. I know it’s ideation and it’s ocd because it’s intrusive… I don’t want to think about it… but it got so intense that I’m not even sure what to do with it anymore. I’ve been doing exposures almost every time I encounter it and sitting with it. It takes all of my time… during work, social interactions and even when I’m just alone. I can’t seem to shake it off. And I’m a Christian and a firm believer that God is able to understand and move in this situation. So with that, it’s been hard to fully accept when He speaks life back into me… the thoughts and the intrusion is so precise and dedicated to my demise… it makes me feel stuck. And with no one to truly understand it makes me feel lonely… I’m not sure if anyone else is struggling with this or not. I assume so. But if any professional or more experienced person has any advice, that would be truly appreciated.

Hi guys, I was playing a video game tonight relaxing, when I forgot what I was thinking doing and then got anxiety because of not knowing my OCD? I hate anxiety it’s the worst! What should I do about forgetting and the anxiety?

I’m feeling so hopeless. Every aspect of my life has been affected by ocd. Every single part of it. Every action that I take, ocd. Every thought I have, ocd. I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I’m really not seeing a way out of it. Every relationship is affected. The person I love the most in this world, ocd affected. I don’t have anything anymore. I hate myself so much. I hate that I let my ocd ruin my life.

Does anyone ever think they have some type of serious illness when they get sick? I had the stomach bug on Sunday and I also have a cold and today I still feel nauseous and I have a fever, I have been watching Greys Anatomy while being sick which was not the best idea😭I overthink all the time about having cancer or developing some horrible illness and not being able to live the future I look forward to. I have convinced myself I have something more than a stomach bug and that I’m going to be diagnosed with some type of stage 4 cancer. I do this all the time , not just when I’m sick. It’s starting to affect how I live life, any time I am having fun in life or look forward to what my future could be there’s always “you could have cancer right now and not know it” that absolutely ruins everything for me. I don’t know what to do anymore :(

Help please

My bf of 4 years just broke up with me for unrelated reasons, but now i’m getting these weird urges to be with masc women. is this normal? do i have to do this? i dont want to follow through but it feels like im fighting so much

From what I'm understanding with ERP, we aren't supposed to do any of our compulsions or anything to comfort ourselves when we have these thoughts. I just don't see how I'm ever going to feel better if I can't do anything to comfort myself so that I can feel better. I hope that makes sense. Anyone able to explain how this works?

i have a crush on this guy in my grade, but my brain keeps reminding me of this other guy and its making me really u comfortable

Im really anxious , i feel like i have an attraction towards a cousin relative of mine , an i know ill never act on it but im freaking out . I try to jus forget it but whenever it pops up i feel disgusting like im so anxious , to make matters worse i have a partner and its giving me urges to tell my partner , an im freaking out. I dont like this , is there anything i can do to fix this or sooth my nerves

So last Thursday I was called into my bosses office because they wanted to speak to me. They then proceeded to tell me that I'm on a PIP plan and that they need me to be more careful with my work. Basically, they picked apart EVERYTHING , and offered not ONE piece of positive feedback. Instead, she asked me to provide it.... I've been having anxiety ever since as I thought i was doing my very best job here. I can't be jobless again because my partner and I are going to move into our own place soon!!! My question is, what should I do in this situation. Financial constraints mean quitting immediately isn't an option. However, due to research I did this past weekend, there is a slight possibility that they may fire me due to them even NEEDING the PIP. Anyone have any experience with this?

I had such a horrible thought! Sometimes I can’t tell if they’re on purpose or accidental but my mind said a thought about “I reject God” then it said “with your heart”. I immediately started freaking out! I still feel the anxiety and fear. I’m trying so hard not to cry my eyes out. I did cry a bit but I’ve prayed for God & Jesus to please forgive me! I can’t live without them! I love Him so fricking much! To have a thought like that hurts so much! It bothers me! Makes me feel so much guilt and shame! I would NEVER say that or even want to think that but my mind is questioning did I think that on purpose or was it my OCD? Sometimes the blasphemous thoughts “feel” on purpose. Please any advice?! Does God still love me?! Will He forgive me for this thought?

I’ve been feeling an overwhelming sense of doom/panic coming and going over the last few days. It’s so exhausting to pretend you’re fine but be dying on the inside. My fears center around my beautiful baby who I love so much. I have an overwhelming fear that I could lose control of myself or lose my mind and hurt her. The thought of that is completely intolerable, and I can’t think about anything else. I live in a constant state of sheer panic. Any advice? 😢

I love my bf, he’s amazing, but there are certain things that I’m really struggling to get over and I’m genuinely starting to think it’s not ocd (for context I’m not diagnosed right now). He’s super great but one thing that really bugs me and stresses me out is the fact that there are times when he sounds really whiny like a child, it’s not even that he’s doing it consciously or with the intent to whine, sometimes he just sounds like a child. And because it’s not something he’s doing intentionally and sometimes it’s just the way he sounds, it’s not something he can necessarily change, and I don’t want to constantly be picking him apart every time he does it. But it’s brings me so much stress and anxiety because it’s kind of a turn off for me and I’m worried that if I don’t like it that means I don’t like him and I should leave. I don’t want to have turn offs, especially because he’s so amazing, but that one is. And it’s worrying. I’m worried I’ll always be bugged by it and it’ll only get worse. But I love him and I don’t want to leave. But in that moment it feels like I’m turned off and annoyed and concerned at the fact that he sounds and acts that way, and it brings be so much stress. I feel like I catastrophize little things. I worry that if anything is a turn off I should take it as a gut instinct. And I don’t know what to do. I’m scared, and so mentally exhausted. And I don’t want to hurt him with my thoughts and feelings. Please help.

I hate this theme so much. It feels so real and dangerous. Intrusive thoughts of me hurting myself despite me not wanting to end my life at all. It doesn’t help when I get sad or upset, the intrusive thoughts come soaring in. It feels so real and I just want these thoughts to go away

Does anyone else seem to do compulsions in their dreams? It’s hard because it seems like I am getting intrusive thoughts and doing compulsions in my dreams. It’s honestly like I never get a break and I am just so tired. Does anyone else feel this too? It’s just so weird how your obsessions AND behavior can transfer over into your dream state. Just a different aspect of OCD that I have been dealing with recently. Didn’t know if anyone else has felt similar?

i would want to be a teacher or an aftercare counselor, not for the rest of my life, just for right now and i do get along with kids sometimes im not really around them alot. i wouldn’t want to work with high schoolers or middle schoolers, a part of me does to be able to set them up for the real world and ive been through a lot so I could give advice, but nowadays they are so disrespectful so I would rather work with little kids. BUT, i see so many TikTok’s of women getting arrested (women teachers) for doing stuff to their students. i already have pocd, and this scares me. it makes me feel like i should just stay away because im gonna end up “giving in and turning into a p”. it freaks me out. i then think I should work there anyways as exposure, but then my ocd tells me it’s because i want to be around kids and im using ocd and exposure as an excuse :(