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Just got off the phone with my after hours therapy center. I’m trying not to ruminate or seek reassurance, but even after I spoke with the therapist I can’t help but worry that I’m not just or moral enough. I asked if I should turn myself in, and they said no. I wish I could enjoy the holidays but I’m by myself right now and I’m going through a familiar thought process of the world would be a better place if I had been a different person. I’ve been feeling depressed and thinking about different ways in which I’m inadequate and incompetent. I can’t seem to figure out how I’m actually worthwhile. I don’t know if I’ll ever get out of this, my mental illnesses and my current failures at my work and internship. I’m sorry this all sounds dark and I don’t feel like being drastic. Rather I just feel extremely stuck. Kind of like, oh shoot I’m not someone anyone likes and I’m unfortunately a waste of oxygen.

Does anyone want to text and talk about ocd? I really wish I knew someone else who suffered from this illness and was able to talk about my feelings and struggles with this.....

ROCD making me numb and feel like shit.

Can somebody PLEASE ANSWER? Okey so I have this big big hocd trigger for me. It all started when I get into masturbation and well I got addicted about it. I did it almost all the time etc. But then it turned into ritual/ compulsion. So I liked to watch video edits in instagram about my farvourite show once upon a time. The thing is I was so addicted to masturbate that I many times mastubated watching literally anything even it did not turn me on. My mind were like if I “cum” before this edit ends nobody does not die or I get happy life. The think is that one of my farvourite character was girl..like I forced myself to masturbate to edits of her even it did not make me like turned on. Like back then I did not know about sexuality I just knew I liked boys and I did still masturbated about them too but it was not like compulsion thing it was natural. But like I said there would be edit about her and it last maybe 30s. My brain was like if you ”come” before that you can have bf or you are gonna be pretty like her. The think is i forced myself to do it every single time. Back then i did not even think i was lesbian because of that because i had crush on boys etc and they turned me on irl. This make me think i HAVE TO be a lesbian or atleast bi like i can not be straight even i want to. I do not have any desire to be with women or do sexual things with woman ?? what you guys think? It would be nice if somebody answer :(

Did anyone ever have a ADHD diagnosis before learning that it was OCD? The ADHD symptoms appeared as secondary to OCD? I never fully fit the ADHD diagnosis, however I knew something was extraordinary about my mind. According to my research, ADHD and OCD cannot occur together despite conflicting stats. Anyone have anything to add?

Any bisexual people on here, I got some questions ?

My current boyfriend is great and sweet and loving and kind, I love him but I don’t know if I want to be with him for the rest of my life. We’ve only been dating for 1 month and he’s already talking about marrying me one day. This kind of freaks me out. Like we just started dating. As the days go by I think more and more about how something just doesn’t feel right with him. Like I love him and think he’s amazing but something just doesn’t feel right. Idk if it’s my gut telling me that it’s not meant to be, or it’s just my anxiety taking over. Everything just happened so fast with us, and I’m struggling to keep up. Sometimes I think about life with someone else and that feels more right then when I think of life with my current boyfriend. Does this make me a horrible person? I just honestly don’t know what to think anymore. Thoughts??

Anyone willing to help with my speech on OCD? :) So I have to write a speech for my English exam and my topic of choice is OCD and the stigma around it. The title question I’ve given it is: ‘Should society be more conscious of the ignorance and prejudice circulating obsessive compulsive disorder?’. In the speech I’ll then argue why more should be done to tackle the misunderstood nature of OCD and the impacts of this! But there are two things I need help for. Firstly, I need to give examples of the problems and consequences of the stigma. So any ideas and first hand experiences would be greatly appreciated! And maybe some solutions to this too. It’d be great to embed some real quotes and stories. But secondly I need some help on a more personal level. I’m having a lot of doubts about this speech as I feel like a part of me is only writing it for attention. I know so so much about OCD because I have it, so I know I could make a really powerful speech. But I just feel like I’m ONLY doing it to make a powerful speech, not to raise awareness on the severity of the stigma. And I feel so wrong for this. Even worse, a part of me is EXCITED to reveal my struggles to the class. I don’t even know why. Very very few people know about my OCD, because I worry I’m faking it for attention. I’ve always felt special for having OCD and feel so wrong for that. So advice on this would also be appreciated as I’m really devoted to this speech, I just feel like my intentions are impure. Thanks for your help (on either of the two issues!!).

A new fear has arisen that I’m a latent racist. I hate this. The worst part is, I’ve actually thought some racist things in the past. I can only remember about two, because they worried me, but that’s still wrong. I had one about an hour ago hence I’m writing this. I want to love everyone and not judge. I’m wrong for this. It’s not right nor fair.

Does anybody else get triggered with post about finding your true self while under drugs? I had a bad experience smoking some weed. I was telling my self I wanted to be with a guy. That I wanted it.

anyone else on here with hocd, can we talk? please

what if i only had a crush on beck on victorious because he was constantly characterized as the “hot guy”?

HOCD back again ughhh

I feel terrible. I feel like my compulsions have stopped. I feel genuinely like a trans person. I feel like all I have to do is accept it but I don’t want to accept it! I don’t even feel anxiety anymore

feeling so numb. I dont feel anything. My mind is telling me i have to break up with my bf, i dont want to.

Dk what to do... its like i wanna have sex with my bf but everytime we do it i feel wierd and anxious and the hocd kicks in and i feel like i dont enjoy it. Can anyone relate? ?

Having some very very bad thoughts about STIs. I’ve only ever had one sexual partner and that was my ex, and we had a serious relationship. However, he had four other partners before me and even though he said he’d been tested I still panic. Now, due to some spotting that happens after I do stuff on my own, I’m starting to really panic that I have an STI. He sweet talked/guilt tripped me into having sex without a condom a couple of times, which I really REALLY didn’t like but because of my OCD I can be made to feel guilty so easily and so I caved. Now all I’m doing is panicking thinking I have an STI even though I’ve only had sex whilst in a monogamous relationship. Just, help. I need something to put my mind at ease because I’m terrified.

What a benefit of having homosexuality ocd? Since we been complaining about it

how would I ask for help with this , like to anyone ..? How do I get rid of these intrusive thoughts ??cos I hate myself so much when I think about young kids and their so innocent that I want to cry , ,but like I think about some weird stuff ,about how attractive some kids are . Just their eyes and cute features. Like I don’t understand why I like watching and looking at kids I see randomly seriously it’s really not in a sexual way it’s like I’m attracted to them in a weird fking way and oh my god I’m so fcked up literallt when a kid comes near me idk what to do like I get all flustered coz I never know how to deal with kids and their parents are gonna think im fucking weird cos I don’t know what to say to them ?? but like I do want to be near them and see them ..why????? im wondering if I’m showing signs of starting to become a P ??? I’m 19 btw in case that changes anything coz I’m not under 18 anymore and I feel like I’m such a creep ??

why are there so many videos on tiktok about girls leaving their boyfriends for girls what the fuccck