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Does anyone get intrusive images with their ocd about them committing the intrusive thought? The worst one I’ve been having recently is “What if I sent or posted a nude on a game, social media, internet etc.” and I have been panicking for days, I keep getting images of me committing the action of sending one and I’m going crazy, it’s caused me to break down or get cold chills or even just panic 24/7. I’ve been feeling guilty constantly, fweling like I’ve done the worst thing possible and even been feeling down all the time thinking about it and just feeling mentally exhausted:( And there is no possible way for me to check if I actually did so because I’ve had to delete any games with chat boxes or ability to post pictures on there, and I can’t even really use social media without freaking out. I know a lot of people say that if it bothers you so much and it makes you worry so much then it’s not true and you didn’t do the thing that you think you did and I always try to remind myself that I know I would never do that because I would never ever want to hurt my fiancé, but the “what if you did and you just don’t remember?” Thought drains me daily. Does anyone else relate?

Any other adults feel like they're behind their peers (have honestly felt this way since high school) and they can't do much about it because of their OCD? I can do so much but OCD will find a way to stop it, which is why I haven't been doing much and I'm waiting to jump at the chance to take medication to help me. I fear that when I will do something OCD will just ruin that flat out, like it did with college and a job I wanted to attend. Then again I've seen people say medication isn't the sole solution to fixing OCD but I would still like to try it. I just don't know how ERP is going to work for me. I've never tried it with a therapist and it never feels like it works on my own. It the cleads me to feeling pretty hopeless and feeling like I'm not doing much in my life. Anyone else?

My contamination ocd is ruining my relationship with my family and im not sure what to do. I don’t really have a type of contamination ocd that like it afraid of getting sick and dying it’s more like emotional. So if the tee shirt feels “wrong” and “dirty” then I have to perform a compulsion. My father is also a big part of it. Everything he touches is dirty to me because of the negative emotional connection I have with him. So if he touches a tee shirt that’s mine it’s dirty. It’s making my parents do a lot of laundry, and they don’t let me wash my own laundry bc our machine is complicated and also because I can’t touch dirty clothes after or I will feel really dirty. But it’s getting really bad that my mom is yelling at me for using cleaning sprays and getting mad at me for being having to redo things cause they don’t feel right and having to wash my hands. Same with my dad, he makes fun of me and calls me names that upsets me which only makes my emotional contamination worse. I don’t know what to do. I went to therapy for almost a year now about this and nothing has worked and recently my therapist had recommended that I start meds so I went to the doctor and he prescribed me for lexapro bc I also have depression but my parents are against any meds idk what to do anymore and I feel really helpless

Im not sure where to start but yesterday was very painful for me and I was having thoughts about you know not being alive because of how overwhelmed I was with OCD … how guilty I felt about the thoughts that come in my head snd I couldn’t stop them as they got worse by the second … how ashamed I felt … I feel like an awful partner to my person … I get very immoral thoughts and thoughts I can’t even write here or share … and I have been very intolerant to my compulsions and I always tell him my thoughts , the content .. my actions .. everything and I fall for ocd’s tricks … I get thoughts about people .. people .. strangers .. people from my uni .. people he knows or is close with and I hate it .. and these thoughts can range but recently they’ve been enough to make me reach this point .. I made the decision to not tell him anything , to protect him and to get better but I haven’t been fully avoiding all my compulsions yet.. not all.. although the last 2 days I did but I haven’t been feeling or doing great at all .. I have been very frustrated and snappy even with him when that never happens .. I feel awful and selfish , I feel depressed and I have exams this week … hes a really pure soul .. hes nothing but sweet , supportive, patient and understanding but I’m really hurting snd I don’t like feeling this way .. feeling this angry at everything .. being unlike me .. being distant from him .. and I feel like life is falling apart .. I can barely catch my breath , barely catching up to my studies and I’ve been compromising on my attendance… I need help snd I don’t know what to do .. I feel stuck snd lost .. I don’t know if I should be telling him what thoughts exactly come to mind or like what happened the last few days (thoughts includes someone close he knows like super super close to him , had a doubt snd I know it’s intrusive but still , thats just one thought ) or do I suck it up truly and not share anything at all because this is the disorder snd not me .. it’s not my fault or intention ? (Again most of the thoughts that come in like for instance those comments I get about strangers for instance , I don’t want or intend them but they do as if my brain is teasing me and I feel like I’m responsible or at fault ) and I should just treat this as a disorder ? And really know that it’s all just lies snd not ever true or real ?… I can’t help but feel it’s as if I’m deceiving him , betraying him , hiding things from him or cheering on him specially because of these thoughts snd a great person like him deserves the best but I’ve been nothing but shitty hence why.. I’ve been the way I am … I really do need advice snd not just in this but actual advice almost im every aspect of my life right now and I would really appreciate any urgent help or advice … im sorry for how long this is but I thought maybe you’d see the picture clearly this way … Thank you 🙏🏻

I feel like an awful partner to my person … I get very immoral thoughts and thoughts I can’t even write here or share … and I have been very intolerant to my compulsions and I always tell him my thoughts , the content .. my actions .. everything and I fall for ocd’s tricks … I get thoughts about people .. people .. strangers .. people from my uni .. people he knows or is close with and I hate it .. and these thoughts can range but recently they’ve been enough to make me reach this point .. I made the decision to not tell him anything , to protect him and to get better but I haven’t been fully avoiding all my compulsions yet.. not all.. although the last 2 days I did but I haven’t been feeling or doing great at all .. I have been very frustrated and snappy even with him when that never happens .. I feel awful and selfish , I feel depressed and I have exams this week … hes a really pure soul .. hes nothing but sweet , supportive, patient and understanding but I’m really hurting snd I don’t like feeling this way .. feeling this angry at everything .. being unlike me .. being distant from him .. and I feel like life is falling apart .. I can barely catch my breath , barely catching up to my studies and I’ve been compromising on my attendance… I need help snd I don’t know what to do .. I feel stuck snd lost .. I don’t know if I should be telling him what thoughts exactly come to mind or like what happened the last few days (thoughts includes someone close he knows like super super close to him , had a doubt snd I know it’s intrusive but still , thats just one thought ) or do I suck it up truly and not share anything at all because this is the disorder snd not me .. it’s not my fault or intention ? (Again most of the thoughts that come in like for instance those comments I get about strangers for instance , I don’t want or intend them but they do as if my brain is teasing me and I feel like I’m responsible or at fault ) and I should just treat this as a disorder ? And really know that it’s all just lies snd not ever true or real ?… I can’t help but feel it’s as if I’m deceiving him , betraying him , hiding things from him or cheering on him specially because of these thoughts snd a great person like him deserves the best but I’ve been nothing but shitty hence why.. I’ve been the way I am … I really do need advice snd not just in this but actual advice almost im every aspect of my life right now and I would really appreciate any urgent help or advice … im sorry for how long this is but I thought maybe you’d see the picture clearly this way … Thank you 🙏🏻

Hey everyone, a bit of a word vomit here. I am just trying to tackle this issue so I know where to start. I’ve already been working with a therapist. However, I am unable to figure out my triggers on what bothers me so I dont know how to tackle these issues. I don’t suffer from intrusive thoughts that I can recall, which makes me doubt that I even have OCD because I heard you can’t have OCD without intrusive thoughts? All I do is ruminate all day on what bothers me most which is that I am unsure if I want to harm others. I know I dont want to be a violent person but I worry that I might be? I wonder if it is a part of me or if it’s something that I want to do and I genuinely cannot tell, which concerns me. I know for a fact that I constantly seek reassurance and I find comfort when I do convince myself this is all OCD.

I don’t even know if it’s HOCD anymore. I can’t distinguish if I like the thoughts or not. It’s creeping in to every aspect of my life and I never don’t think about it for more than 10 minutes. I have these urges to like come out to my parents even though when I act these out in my head I feel worse. But at the same time, I think my OCD is convincing me that this is my true self. Please reply I really need someone to talk to.

Hey, so I'll try to keep it short but I've been dealing with a lot of emotions and need advise. This is not fully ocd but I really don't have anywhere else to talk about this with. I’ve only ever seriously liked two people: my ex and this guy I’ve been talking to. He’s from a country far away, and we’d been chatting for two months before I admitted my feelings. From the start, he was clear he’s not over his ex and isn’t looking for anything serious. At first, I saw him just as a friend, but the more he mentioned going on dates or seeking a friends-with-benefits situation, the more it stirred panic and fear in me. When he noticed I was acting off and asked about it, I opened up and told him how I felt. He was kind but firm, saying he couldn’t reciprocate but wanted to stay friends. That was nice of him, but it still hurt, especially since he didn’t seem to see it as a big deal, while for me, it was huge. I took a two-week break to process, crying it out and trying to pull myself together before reaching out again. He was understanding and seemed okay with picking up where we left off, but things aren’t the same. We used to talk all day, every day, but now it’s just a few words here and there, and it’s crushing. He seems totally fine—happy, going out, living his life like nothing’s changed. Meanwhile, I’m at my lowest, depressed and unable to enjoy anything. Seeing him share updates or talk about his life just makes me sad, and I can’t even show the support I used to. It’s killing me because I want to be his friend, but this feels so distant and cold compared to before. Texting him back is so hard now, which has never been an issue with anyone else. I don’t want to take another break because I’d just spend it thinking about him, and trying to go back to being friends afterward feels even scarier. I don’t want to lose him entirely, but this is hurting so much. I just want to be his friend, but I’ve never liked someone this much before. When I care about someone, they become my whole world, and right now, mine feels like it’s crashed. Seeing him happy makes me sad, and I feel awful for feeling that way. My ocd is making me spiral about this and keep obsessing about him and this connection making me feel restless. Most friends told me to try and let go and end this because I'm hurting but I don't wanna regret giving up on a friendship tho of I don't want a shallow one word per day friendship either.

This flare up masculine lesbians or masculine presenting women are a HUGE trigger for me. It’s the whole reason why I went into a SOOCD spiral in the first place when I was 15. I thought a masculine presenting female kpop idol was attractive bc they looked like a man. But anyways, I have been around lesbians and masculine lesbians since my childhood and never had any attraction towards them or any woman. However ocd is latching onto one memory from a super long time ago. My mind could also be distorting my memories and I don’t fully remember it. When I was at practice I looked at my teammate (who was a very masculine lesbian) and wondered why she looked like a boy. Immediately after thinking that I got an intrusive thought like “does that mean you like her” and as soon as that thought popped up a huge wave of anxiety and discomfort washed over me. I started to freak out and I looked at her face to check if I did, she was smiling and I noticed she wasn’t ugly and that made me more anxious. But I remember closing my eyes, taking a breath, looked at her again, felt nothing, and moved on. I saw her multiple times after that and I never once found her attractive or had any crush on her. I can’t even remember her that much because she was so insignificant in my life. But my brain keeps telling me that it’s proof. I remember two of my friends in high school telling me they sometimes thought masc lesbians were guys and sometimes found them cute, but after finding out they were girls they just moved on. I remember my friend saying “Yeah sometimes ill be on instagram and think omg he’s so cute, check their page, see that ooohhh…its a girl, and go nvm and move on” those were her exact words too, and she’s still straight. The false attractions (I hope and pray they’re false) are eating me alive. I don’t think my brain can accept acknowledging that someone is attractive while not being attracted if that makes sense. Every false attraction feels so real (esp bc my attraction to men is literally gone and has been for years) but it leaves me feeling so anxious, awful, and depressed. But 2 months ago, prior to the spiral, the attraction I felt for my boyfriend felt so genuine and good 😭. I’m telling you I’ve been a numb rock towards men for so many years now but that one hangout me and my man had woke up those feelings again. I say it in almost every post but I just wanted him to kiss me SO BAD the entire hangout. His smile had me mesmerized and I felt so shy but in a good way 😭.I don’t even know how to describe it anymore bc I feel so numb towards him now and all the attraction has left. I think it’s also because we can’t see each other that often because of school so i’m left to ruminate about everything. I’ve been dealing with this theme for so long and i’ve felt nothing but depressed and numb to everything whenever it takes a break from terrorizing me. There’s so much proof against me but deep deep down I know what I want. I felt it 2 months ago when my mind was clear and ocd wasn’t bothering me as much. But as soon as ocd comes into the picture i’m back to being numb and start to doubt EVERYTHING. I just want this shit to end 😭. I’m so so exhausted that I’m going to see a doctor to see if I can start medication. I need all the help I can get at this point. I don’t think this amount of emotional and mental numbness is normal and my depression fully back again. I’m so tired of feeling like a rock.

I really need support from someone preferably a woman ☹️

I feel like I did something bad like I was in a huanted house and this girl wanted me to hold her hand and we were holding hands and she went to put my hands beside her boob and I’m just like omg this is wrong because she’s younger than me and I think she’s a minor So now I think I’m a criminal even though my intention was not evil

I know this may sound strange and this is no way meant to say people with autism are lesser or anything like that, but similarly to how i fear being gay even though I'm not homophobic and have no problem with gay people, I have a fear of being autistic. Everytime I see a list of autism symptoms online or a post on social media that's like if you do x you must be autistic I literally panic. I'm constantly monitoring my behaviour in case I show any signs and I'm always looking at old photos and videos of myself for the same reason. It's also annoying that I have a bad memory so I can't really rember if I did something in the past that definitely means I have autism. My brain keeps focusing on moments that could mean I have autism. Like if I misunderstood a joke one time in the past my brain keeps telling me that's a sign I didn't understand a social cue so I must have autism, even though there are probably countless times I have been fine with social cues, its just I can't remember. I have also had a time in the past where a therapist brought up I could potentially look into seeing If I have autism, but I just keep telling myself she said potentially and she only brought it up because of one potential sign and not a whole list of signs. My only reassurance is that I've never had anyone mention any autistic like behaviour to me or my parents when I was little and I keep asking my family if I showed any particular signs of autism and they keep saying no, but knowing my family they wouldn't have noticed even if I did. I just feel so scared and so guilty. There is nothing wrong with having autism just as there is nothing wrong with being gay, it's just so scary to me though, I really dont want to have autism and don't know why I just don't. Does anyone else feel the same?

This document summarizes my ongoing symptoms and current challenges for my healthcare provider. Duration: About 5 months, starting before medication and persisting despite treatment. Medications: - Previously on Sertraline (Zoloft) daily - Currently on Citalopram 20mg (Celexa) daily - Sleep aids (NyQuil, etc.) do not help; still restless and anxious 1. Constant Anxiety and Fear I feel like I’m in a constant state of panic — convinced something bad or fatal will happen. My body stays tense (jaw clenched, spine tight, back aching), and I can’t relax. I have racing thoughts and nonstop internal conversations, especially at night. Time feels distorted — minutes feel like hours. I stay on my phone constantly, but it doesn’t calm me. 2. Physical & Sensory Symptoms I experience severe muscle tension, twitching, and numbness (especially in my legs and feet). My heart races, and I often feel hot or sweaty even when inactive. I have frequent diarrhea, gas, burping, nausea, and sometimes vomit mostly liquid. I feel an urgent need to urinate but only pass small amounts. My skin and body feel dry even after showering or using lotion. My throat feels tight, like something is stuck. My back and spine are constantly tense. Temperature and sensory regulation have changed drastically — I can’t feel temperature accurately. Cold weather doesn’t feel cold anymore, and showers feel scalding even when mild. I barely feel air from a fan or breeze. Sometimes my feet are cold, and other times they suddenly become very warm or sweaty. My sensitivity to sound fluctuates — sometimes noises are painfully loud, other times muted. My taste and smell are dulled; food and hygiene products don’t smell or taste normal. I also feel like I smell bad all the time, especially in my armpits, even after showering and using deodorant. It feels like my body odor doesn’t go away, even though I stay clean. Sometimes food tastes too hot or doesn’t taste right even when it’s not. Other times I can’t feel how hot the food actually is after heating it up. Water or soda also don’t feel cold, even when they’ve been in the fridge for days. It feels like my body and senses aren’t interpreting temperature or taste normally. Please evaluate whether sensory changes could be related to medication effects, anxiety-related hypersensitivity, or nervous system dysregulation. 3. Appetite and Eating Changes I sometimes feel a sudden urge of hunger, but when I look at food, I lose interest or appetite. Preparing food feels overwhelming or takes forever. I often end up buying food instead, eat it quickly, and it doesn’t taste good or satisfying. I rarely feel full after eating. 4. Emotional and Cognitive Changes I have no motivation or enjoyment in things I used to love (music, sports, games, movies). I don’t laugh or cry. My thoughts feel foggy, and speech feels slowed or off. Driving, watching TV, or listening to music feels unreal or unnatural. Time feels like it moves extremely slow. 5. Sexual Symptoms I have very low or no sexual desire and difficulty getting or staying hard. This started before beginning medication. I have little to no interest in sex or sexual activity and don’t experience the same physical or emotional response I used to. 6. Avoidance and Functioning I get extremely anxious before job interviews or appointments and often cancel or reschedule them. I also struggle to attend therapy sessions. Even though my family is supportive, I feel detached and alone. 7. Nicotine Use I vape regularly to try to manage stress, but it no longer helps. It feels more like a compulsion than something that calms me. I rarely drink alcohol, and when I do, it doesn’t help me relax. 8. Existential and Emotional Fears I often experience overwhelming fears about death and the possibility of not seeing my family and friends again. I feel sadness and guilt about missing out on important moments in life, such as seeing my sister and little cousins grow up, because of my current mental health struggles. 9. Dry Mouth and Digestive Discomfort I constantly have a dry mouth, even when I drink water, soda, or eat food. Drinking or eating often makes me feel bloated, nauseous, or sick afterward, even if I don’t eat much. It feels like my body isn’t processing food or hydration normally. I vape regularly, which might be making the dry mouth worse. I’ve also noticed that eating or drinking after brushing my teeth makes the dryness and nausea even more noticeable. I’ve been trying to stay hydrated and clean, but the dry mouth doesn’t go away, and it makes me feel uncomfortable all day. Please review whether this could be related to medication side effects, nicotine use, or other underlying issues. 10. Balance and Digestive Sensations Sometimes when I’m laying still in bed, it feels like the bed or my body is moving slightly, even though I’m not. It feels like an internal vibration or swaying. I also burp frequently, even when I’m sipping water slowly. It feels like my body is reacting to normal things in exaggerated ways. Please review whether these sensations could be related to anxiety, vagus nerve sensitivity, or inner ear/vestibular imbalance. 11. Compulsive Behaviors and Emotional Numbness I find myself constantly watching porn even though it doesn’t arouse or interest me anymore. The same goes for sexual activity — I don’t feel desire or connection. It feels more like a compulsive habit than something I enjoy. I also tend to stay on my phone a lot, even though it doesn’t help me feel better. Please review whether these behaviors could be linked to emotional detachment, anxiety, or a coping response related to nervous system dysregulation or medication side effects. 12. Involuntary Physical Reactions I constantly yawn throughout the day even when I’m not tired or sleepy. It happens repeatedly, and I can’t control it. It feels like my body is trying to release tension or catch its breath. It might be connected to my anxiety, medication, or body stress levels. Please review whether this could be related to nervous system overactivation, anxiety, or medication Summary This document summarizes my ongoing symptoms and current challenges for my healthcare provider. 13. Breathing Irregularities Sometimes I feel like I’m not breathing right, especially when I’m lying down trying to sleep. I often have to take a big deep breath before I can relax again or go back to sleep. It feels like my breathing rhythm gets interrupted, even when I’m not anxious at the moment. My breathing tests have come back normal, so it may be more related to anxiety or body tension. Please review whether this could be related to anxiety, diaphragm tension, sleep-related breathing irregularities, or medication effects

I don’t known if this are really my intrusive thoughts every time I feel anxious mad I get really disrespectful thoughts about God that I wish I wouldn’t have but they come to my mind like a urge to think or say stuff in my mind I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like they’re really are my thoughts because the thoughts feel like I’m the one really thinking about them. It’s like it gets more disrespectful the more and more I think about these thoughts like if I see an image or something about religion? My mind goes straight to disrespectful thoughts I don’t know what else to do anymore. And no matter if it’s a phrase or something about the Bible, my mind just goes to disrespectful. Thoughts

Yo! So I have ocd, but nobody I know has it. Idk who to talk to or what to do. Could ya’ll share your experiences? How do you work it out and ”get rid” of it? I just started to snus which helps me at the moment. But this ocd shit is killing me Could y’all share your stories or how you deal with it and ”cure” it? I’m 16 - soon 17 btw. A guy. Ts is draining me

Recently I had a close friend emotionally dump on me and it drained me and negatively affected me for days. I would describe his behavior as an adult tantrum, he didn’t seem well and it scared me. We were going to a jazz bar with me and another friend and I was dressed up nice. He picked me up and was upset that I liked good. He insisted on going home to change, so we did that. He started getting really upset about how he hated shopping because he didn’t like how clothes fit his body because he’s overweight. He brings this up a lot. It’s really sad but he is deeply concerned about it. We went to the jazz bar. We all ordered something to snack on. He ordered a drink, I ordered a drink, our other friend ordered ice cream. He didn’t like his drink so he kept asking to sip my drink and he ordered the same ice cream as our other friend. Afterwards he drove me home and vented about his life and being gay and lds and how the church had done so much stuff to him. He was in major victim mode — and I want nothing to do with that. I tried to speak some sense into him but he wasn’t listening and was being really dramatic and mad. I took some space from him and honestly didn’t want to hang out with him for a while after that. He kept messaging me to hang out and I kept declining. Recently he messaged me to hang out again (it had been about a month since that hang out) wanted to hang out again. I responded and said that I didn’t really want to be social much these days because I was going into hibernation mode — I further explained how his negativity that night was not something I was seeking out. He seemed to respond in a way was angry, rude, and again rooted in victimhood. I’m sad that our friendship ended on such a terrible note, and I think he has so many awesome qualities. I worry that I did something wrong in how I ended the friendship because it was all over text 😅 but I do feel like that boundary needed to be set even though I handled it clumsily. To be honest I don’t really care about loosing him as a friend but I do care about doing the right thing. Then around the same time as this friendship was ending…I messaged another friend of mine (I work with her) to apologize for a venting session in which I had been especially petty. She took that as me bringing her into that pettiness and hasn’t really been initiating any communication between us. Again, this was all over text which wasn’t good and pretty clumsy. This makes me sad, I think she’s really cool and having friends at work was starting to be a fun thing. Then on Sunday, my roommate’s brother (me and my roomate are close and he’s like a little brother to me) was acting low-key racist towards some Ukrainian people at church. He was calling them russian and imitating their accents. That IRKED ME. Then my roommate asked if she can invite her friend on our Europe trip were planning for next year which kinda stung a little bit because I thought it would just be an us thing? And also I don’t know her friend at all so I’m a little worried that maybe the dynamic will be unknown. I feel a loss of control, like I may be the problem in a lot of this…and like I just want to be alone and not deal with a lot of this. And also I don’t want my relationship with my roomate to go down the drain like the other two relationships of like this past month.

I think I’m in another OCD episode but this time it feels so different even though when I read my old posts I’m describing the same thing somehow that doesn’t register in my brain and I feel like I haven’t ever felt this way before. Even the obsessions are the same but it feels like it’s more threatening because of this feeling that it’s different. When my obsessions take over it also feels like I’m almost in a trance or like I’m not really present, I’m just in a bubble of panic that I can’t control and I don’t feel like the same person I am when I’m not in an OCD episode. I know the way to actually get out of this is to accept all the feelings and continue doing things normally instead of giving in to the avoidance and compulsions and I’ve even successfully done it before but how am I supposed to ignore the sense of impending doom and the distressing thoughts that make me feel like I’m not in my body and the feeling that it’s different and it’s dangerous? Does anyone else feel these things and have tips on how to accept it? I don’t want to be sucked back in to how bad I know this can get, I want to try to get out of it sooner than previous times.

Can I be honest? Im kind of panicking rn. Im exhausted and scared of everything constantly. I haven’t left my house in the past 3 ish months because my ocd perceives everything as a threat. Especially everything outside of my place. Tomorrow is a big day. I’m gonna go out for the first time with an old friend. But I’m so scared. My ocd is already thinking of all the “what ifs” and my heart is racing. But I’m going to push through it because my ocd has taken experiences, time, and happiness from me. I’m just tired of it and I really gotta draw the line somewhere. And i feel like this is where. I really can’t let it take me away from people I care about and care about me. But it’s terrifying even though I know it’s irrational. It doesn’t make it any less scary. Honestly I just need some validation, words of wisdom, or just encouragement. No one in my life really gets what it’s like to have ocd. Idk if you feel called to comment I appreciate you. But if you don’t and you made it this far. Thanks for hearing me out 🫂

Tomorrow I'm going to a protest. It's my first protest ever, and I'm terrified! I was supposed to go with my Dad, but he forgot and made plans with someone else. I really want to be there, so even though I'm super anxious, I'm going to go alone. The last protest in my city had a big turn-out and was really peaceful, so I feel like I shouldn't be too anxious, but there's a possibility of aggressive counter protestors or ICE showing up (which I know might escalate things). And apparently, you aren't supposed to bring your phone to a protest, but I need to be able to communicate with my family since I'm being dropped off. I'm just panicking a bit, I guess. Sorry if I'm rambling. I want to push myself out of my comfort zone, and I want to show up for people who aren't able to. This is important to me, but I'm really scared and questioning whether or not I'll be safe going alone.

Hi guys I really struggle with compulsively googling or going through my text messages from years ago or going through my pictures to try to prove/ disprove things based around my obsessions (sure many can relate) . I am at the point where I feel like I need to just live without technology but we all know that’s lowkey impossible in this day and age. I am a student and currently hunting for full time jobs so maybe a flip would make things difficult idk. I am confused though, because if I do get a flip phone, would that be like avoidance over sitting with discomfort, or would it force me to sit with it like “welp I have no way of knowing” Also I know that you can still text and take pictures and all that sort of thing on a flip but I think it would help me with my compulsive googling or not going through my contacts if I start fresh with a flip. like on the one hand it would help with not being able to do a compulsion but on the other it’s like I feel like I wouldn’t be stopping the compulsion out of my own will power, I just straight up wouldn’t really be able to do the compulsion. This is all so confusing. Anyways - opinions?