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What if my fears come on things like health isuess, like paranoia, to face my fear is to go test Everytime which is alot,and even tho I know sometimes am okay I still go with the idea uncontrollably, kindly advise

Hi guys, I can't help it think,what dose media and news tv channels and all news channeles want to achieve by the brain wash of corona they are doing, I never realized that world wide media is so courrpted, I lost my respact and I actually fear them now, look ofcourse they are doing thier jobs , reporting , all that is respacted but the way corona is being handled can really really harm you and harm your immune system just getting those 24/7 harsh updates with some hope lefting updates which trun out to be just talk, P lease have mercy on people, if people have to die atlest give our brains the respact we deserve and explain to us what some countries cornno seems to be 50% stronger than the cornna that showed in other countries, many things you can report on instead of spreading panic , and why you do that is even more scary question . WE WILL BE OKAY .

I feel like the guilt and shame will never go. All the memories of the the thoughts, I have moral scrupulosity mainly which makes me feel guilt over watching porn in the past. I also have responsibility OCD which makes me worry about indirect harm I may cause through my actions, and I've had pocd in the past which was severly traumatic. I feel the the weight of all these themes isnt going to go away ever. I always feel the shame and guilt of it all. How can I over come this so i can move forward in life?

How do I scape reassurance seeking, like constantly looking for certainty or an answer

Read an article today about men who went into straight marriages and were in denial. Many of them spent years questioning their sexuality and suffered a great deal cause of that. Of course over time they’ve had to come out to their wives and family and stop living secret live. That was a massive trigger but the more I read and resisted most of my compulsions the more I noticed how clearer and calmer things are once you accept the thoughts. Not looking for any reassurance just wanna know if anyone has confronted this fear as well and any tips or advices on doing ERP and accepting uncertainty would be nice

Feel like everyone I get on the ladder to recovery I slip back off and it’s gets harder and harder to pick myself up again:( I am simply exhausted:(

If anyone here has ROCD, can you tell me about your experiences?

I need help. Does anyone else with mental compulsions get confused about which thoughts are obsessions and which are compulsions? Sometimes thoughts I’d considered compulsive start to feel intrusive. Then I don’t know which thoughts I’m supposed to try to stop (mental compulsions) and which I’m supposed to allow (intrusive thoughts/obsessions). I get so confused and overwhelmed about what I’m supposed to do when this happens and it feels horrible. The confused feeling gets so strong my head feels like it’s buzzing and spinning. Does anyone have any advice?

Someone please respond. Let me preface by saying that both my therapists and my mom don’t think I’m what I think I am. I have known I have OCD since I was 14, and I’m 22 now. (I had other forms of it in the past—perfectionism OCD, reverse HOCD (thought I was straight,) etc. But POCD is literally making me feel like trash and so scared and worthless. I can remember sooo many times when I had these thoughts and they weren’t “intrusive” because I didn’t know they were bad. Like so many times. So how does that make me any diff from an actual p********?! Now that I know they’re bad, we’re just going to call them intrusive?! I don’t want to hurt a child ever!! I want to have a relationship with someone my age! (But this can be true for real p********s too!!) I’m so scared, how can I just call these “false attractions” now?? Also, my type is young looking (people my age!) but does that mean I like them because they look child-like?! Please help, I want my happiness back. I’m not a bad person ?

Ive doing a lot of reassurance seeking these days, specially today. My mom cant cope anymore my infinite questions and doubts about everything. My mind is out of control, sometimes is about pocd, other time is about religious ocd and now is work/job ocd. I think I am useless and worthless and that no one would ever hire me and at the same time when my family says that I need to work/get a job, I feel like I really dont want to work at all, but I need to survive and earn money and this really mess my brain up

My mind is telling me now more than ever that I’m gay But when I chat with girls and phone sex I get boners and I still enjoy sex with the opposite sex but I have these mouth sensations where I’d feel like I’m blushing but when I look I’m not and it makes things worse

Does anybody else feel like their mom just doesnt understand the extent to which u are suffering with ocd and it makes u so upset. Like i told my mom i was cleaning bc nobody else in the house does. She got so upset and said she always cleans. She meant like vacumming and dishes and stuff, but i meant disinfecting bc i have contamination ocd. But she didnt underatmd me and started saying how she always cleans but im just sleeping in too late to see. She was really upset w me. Then i said that she is thinking the worst of me the while time. Then she said that im the one being so judgy.. what?? Like does she even understand this occupies my life. I literally have dreams about it, my whole life revolves around it. Its the only thing i think about.

How can I know if I am saved? If God will save me? This is a reassurance and I just dont want to do it. I am tired from feeling this way, for fearing apocalypse/end of days

Hello, friends with contamination obsessions. I had some thoughts today about the experience that I hope you’ll find helpful. Hopefully it’s not too rambling or irrelevant! To elaborate a bit on your experience. So you’re engaging in compulsions (hand washing) because of some obsessional content. From current research, we know compulsions work for alleviating anxiety, at least for some time. But because compulsions are a form of suppression—trying to eliminate, reduce, or avoid the thoughts—they tend to come back with more intensity. So, paradoxically, compulsions actually feed your obsession rather than alleviate it. So where does that leave you? Well, exposure is about reconditioning your mind to respond differently. Assuming this is a contamination obsession, you may touch something “dirty” while not engaging in a compulsion like handwashing. You may start small, with something that doesn’t trigger you as much, while working your way up to whatever is most triggering for you. A couple notes here: this is going to be extremely difficult and distressing. Which is totally normal, because your brain is so habituated to a certain response (compulsion) that when you do ERP it actually, at least temporarily, feels worse. The compulsion has been your “safety net” in a sense, and your OCD may respond intensely in their absence. It may not feel like anything is happening. It’s going to take willingness and courage on your part to continue on in spite of how it feels. That’s the real and messy work of recovery. Do an exposure for at minimum 30 minutes. Most therapists recommend an hour if you can. Give the exposure your full attention. The idea is once you’re bored with that exposure, you move up the hierarchy. But as you may be noticing, your compulsions are only escalating. OCD cannot be satisfied by a compulsion. It will always crave more, and you will watch your world become smaller and smaller. This is where ACT or acceptance/commitment approaches are so helpful. We spend so much of our life avoiding any uncomfortable feeling. This works in our external world. Say if you touch a hot stove, then avoiding the stove or moving away from it helps you. This is not the case for your internal world. Humans have the ability to connect things via association. So if an animal, say a cat, touches a stove it will get burned and learn to avoid that stove. It won’t reflect on the experience, avoid anything that’s hot even if it’s not a stove, and wonder if something is wrong with it for touching the stove. Your brain goes, “This thing is dirty. What else is dirty? Are people dirty? Is the outside world dirty? I’m noticing dirty things all the time, so maybe everything is dirty. I washed my hands, ok, good. Did I wash them enough? Ok, I’ll do it again. That feels better. Maybe it didn’t work. I saw something that someone got contaminated from their food. Why am I doing this? I don’t want to do this? Please, I don’t want to think about this? If I use bleach, I know that’s clean that’ll work. Yes! Thankfully, I can rest. Wait, maybe I didn’t get all my hands, I’ll do it again. Why can’t I stop? I need someone to help. Just anyone. Let me get online. I’ll ask if anyone else has this, they do! But maybe I’m not like them. How did they stop? Why can’t I do what they did? Maybe I’m broken? Someone please help. Okay, I have to wash again.” That one experience can associate and morph and grow. Unlike the cat, the hot stove follows you everywhere. ACT, or acceptance, isn’t accepting that every thing is contaminated. It’s watching that war in your mind, laying down your weapon, and letting the battle rage while you’re off the field. The fighting may or may not end, but it’s immaterial to your life.

i came across this thing on twitter with this checklist of things you think/say/do if you’re a closeted lesbian and I read through it and I’m freaking out. my hocd hasn’t been bad recently but that just made me go insane somebody PLEASE PLEASE help me I’m going to cry I don’t know what to do

Im in a tough spot. I have pocd and ive had hocd i havent been diagnosed by anyone but im positive im right. Im also not trying to type this out for reassurance but i dont know if this is,on top of that i had a disgusting addiction to transgender pornography. It didnt feel good after i watched it but i couldnt stop, i always told myself this is it no more but would always do it again. After This i questioned my sexuality i knew i wasnt attracted to the same sex but why was i watching this then. I really felt the affects of this january this year when one night my mind just kept repeating to me you are a pedophile, this really destroyed me i couldnt sleep and at times almost threw up because of this fear of becoming one. I started remembering moments in my life when i would watch hentai and looking back on it now i could consider it cp even though many people wouldnt to me it still feels like it. I know im not attracted to any of this stuff but i feel so broken and disconnected, i dont feel like i can tell anyone but i feel like i should i just dont know how. Sometimes i get urges to watch transgender porn again to prove that im not a pedo but i dont think any porn is good for anyone. Recently i became a christian and i keep praying that these thoughts will go away, going to church really helped me and theres a girl that i have a crush on there but now that im in isolation and my church isnt on things are really tough. I hope i can get through this time and come out stronger and mentaly better. I hope this is ocd. I am currently doing nofap which i feel is really helping me and im on a very long streak. However i really dont want to watch transgender porn again but i keep feeling like if i do the thoughts will go away. I know i must not give up and fight through these thoughts to become the best possible me. Im sorry about this jumbled up mess but i needed to get this out there to someone.

I literally feel like OCD is the worst mental illness someone could have. I thought OCD was something that only weird people had. Now I am starting to realize That's Not true. I am trying to figure out how to get better. I saw a therapist for the first time last Monday. Of course it was virtual. I don't know what to ask him.I also smoke and I feel that that just reinforces my obsession to do compulsions. I am not trying to seek reassurance. I realize I do a lot of checking. I just need someone to tell me that I will be okay Because This is hurting every relationship I've ever had with the people closest to me.I just want to get better. Is there anybody know What I should do? I am open to any suggestion. Please be kind though

I really don't feel good right now. It's always something with me

Does anyone here struggle with substance abuse like drinking alcohol?

So.. I’m scared. I think I’m going to start blocking covid and corona on twitter. I think I may have corona but I’m not sure. I have a very small cough and I’ve had other issues from diarrhea to being tired all the time to even having some trouble breathing at times. But most of the time I’ve been ok. My doctor simply recommended to me just isolating myself in my room for a few days. Which I’ve been doing. But I keep seeing on twitter people who say they just lost someone to corona and everytime I read it I can feel my breathing get bad again. I also have health ocd. So I don’t know. I do know I haven’t felt well this last week and I’m under a lot of stress. I think it’s possibly plausible for me to have corona. But the recovered cases numbers don’t do it for me when I keep hearing about all the bodies in hospitals and all the deaths on twitter. I’m scared of like... dying. Alone. And I keep seeing people talk about others dying alone on twitter and that’s what triggers this health ocd. I don’t know what is and isn’t real.