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I imagine myself with my partner doing lovey dovey stuff and idk why I become so anxious and feel like hesitant. Is this normal what the feiwkbdhdshd

What are the best ways to stay in the present?I’m none stop ruminating on the past and future. :)

I keep forcing myself to think of my real event ocd and the incident that happened all those years ago but I feel like thinking about it just makes me more depressed and angry and I can barely be around the person it's centered on anymore. I want to cry. Why can't I convince myself what I did was the acts of a child? Not me, as an adult, but a child who had no idea what they were doing was bad. I know that's what it is, I know I'm not a criminal, or sex offender, but then why can't I forget it? I feel like telling the whole world just so they can yell in my face how stupid I am, how I really am a criminal, or how I'm innocent. I dont care. I need to know from everyone because why do I get to make the distinction between right and wrong?? I'm losing my head over this.

OCD is the “doubting disorder”. That’s why we can’t count on “outthinking” our OCD for relief. No matter how strong your logic or rationale, OCD will find a way to undermine you every time. That road ends where it starts. That’s why the behavioral component of OCD treatment (Exposure and Response Therapy) is the gold standard for OCD. It forces you to face your fears and habituate to them, which can result in less compulsions and subsequently less OCD symptoms (aka relief!). I know it seems counterintuitive that facing you’re OCD thoughts will make them decrease in severity/frequency. I also know that sounds scary as hell. But would you rather be in pain from running away from them or be in pain from standing up for yourself?

I want the thoughts to go away. I can’t stop feeling like I deserve to not even exist. I don’t know what to do anymore I’m trying to watch a movie and I can’t stop thinking about earlier and I hate myself.

if you don’t understand HOCD (sexual orientation ocd) , don’t comment something under someone’s post please... it doesn’t help it makes it worse. don’t tell them “just be who you are it’s not that bad it’s 2020” literally stop. don’t do that shit please ?

I'm so sick and tired of being in misery everyday my theme is in everything and ruins everyday for me. It is like a cold that nevers goes away and no matter how hard you try you can't ever get rid of it.

How do you know when you’re ready to get off your medication?

Does anyone else have OCD where it's like thoughts that the OCD is telling you to believe? For example... sometimes when I walk into my bathroom my mind is like "there's gonna be a dead body hanging in your shower" and I imagine it and brace myself for it before I go. This stuff makes me so miserable. How do i stop this? On top of that I have depersonalization and derealization. All of it mixed together makes me think im in psychosis. Im scared.

I’ll be honest. I don’t know what to do anymore. I need professional help and no where I find that handles OCD takes insurance. I called an ocd place in my state and they don’t take insurance, they recommended NOCD to me. Which I replied oh I’ve already been using NOCD. I am so tired of my POCD. I ended up doing some “things” today but then all these disgusting vile intrusive thoughts flooded into my brain and it was visual as all hell because my brain is too visual. It’s literally a curse at this point. Thoughts included friends and family and even I’m sure you can guess it I say POCD thoughts were included in the friends and family section. Which makes me feel like I’m a vile evil person who’s lying to everyone they know. I ended up scratching my face a bunch when the thoughts came because I was SO disgusted. And all day I’ve felt sick and just have been excessively blinking over and over, squeezing my eyes shut. I have been GAGGING in DISGUST every time a thought popped into my head today. What is WRONG with me? I don’t know anymore. My OCD is just taking such a toll on me and I’ve been terrible with taking my meds. I need professional help from someone who knows what the hell ocd is. And no one in my state takes insurance. I don’t have that kind of money. Idk. I am so Tired. All I’ve Been able to do all day is play animal crossing and sleep.

What does it mean when people say “you don’t have to do something to get love?” Surely you do have to? How else do you get people to love you? I don’t understand. Maybe love just doesn’t exist? Or if it does, it’s not for a long time? Unless it’s from your mother in which case it is lifelong

I feel so bad I have the horrible intrusive thought with my cat and I feel like I like it with every single part of my body and I let the thought, because I'm trying that but that happend so I couldn't

When I listen to success stories and podcasts of people saying they manage it better I don’t know why my mind says “you could never do that” “your ocd is worse and different” “you are stuck like this” so I try to listen to podcasts of people overcoming their worst fears and it makes me sad and anxious but I feel like it could be erp?

Does anyone else ever want to go to a mental hospital for a while to feel safe and get this all sorted out?

I am so physically and mentally drained. My thoughts went from HOCD to trying to convince me I cheated on my bf without me realizing it. And I am trying to replay actions in my head of what happened 5 months ago because I want to make sure I didn’t do anything wrong (and every time I don’t find anything wrong I did my mind says “well what if you just don’t remember, maybe you did do something”). And then every time I am with my bf I get the thought “imagine that, you hurt him and you are not going to even let him know” or “you don’t even deserve him” or “you are such a hypocrite and you are just being nice because you know you messed up” when in reality I really did not do anything but that doesn’t seem to be enough for me. What do I do?? My biggest fear has always been to lose my boyfriend and it being my fault so my OCD themes always seem to attack what is most valuable to me and I’m sick and tired of it. I feel like every time a theme appears it’s like I am keeping the biggest secret from my bf when in reality I am just dwelling on things over and over again. And I know if I tell him about this it’s going to sound illogical because it’s not based on facts but on fears that don’t even make sense... but what if they do?? You know so there’s so many what if’s involved from the past and the future. I don’t know what to do

Who’s relationships are suffering from lockdown? My bf implies it’s only us and makes it feel like it’s my fault a bit

Does anyone else with real event ocd find it pops up every few months and gets worse, then better? Like for me I'd try to repress it so I wouldn't feel anything about the subject, then months later BAM I feel such intense guilt and disgust with myself that I'm back to square one. I just wish I knew how to move on from this feeling and experience, but how can I, when I feel like a monster over something I'd done 8 years ago? Will I ever move on?

I don’t know what to do about my living situation during covid19 I planned on officially moving in with my partner but haven’t given up my flat (which I’m secretly relieved about) Since living with him though and being in lockdown with him he’s been quite verbally abusive (I think? I’m not sure if it’s fair to call it that?)when he’s drunk and now I’m not sure what to do If I say I’m not ready to give up my flat after all he will be really upset and tell me it’s over completely

Is it possible for ocd to “ completely go away “

I hate FALSE FEELINGS!!!