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I think I am gay. I led on my husband.

How does OCD get in the way of living your life? What are some things you can do to drop the worries?

Has anyone who’ve experienced taboo based OCD have had triggering thoughts that were like “oh yeah you liked that” and than had an immense amount of anxiety come about? This happened to me a while back and I ended up in the hospital due to the panic and anxiety it produced. It led to constantly avoiding and checking to make sure I was okay. Of course it just blurred the lines more. Most days I am good but I just got diagnosed and all my old obsessions are coming up that I feel like I never properly dealt with. Almost like it wants me to question my diagnosis.

"...the more we value things outside our control, the less control we have." - Epictetus

I can’t stop fidgeting during my classes. any suggestions?

Hey guys what is your experience with Zoloft and weight gain?

...Any tips on boundary setting? I see hurting people and want to help them and next thing I know, I’m exhausted with no time left for myself.

Anyone else suffer with acne or trauma scars? I had perfect skin and then a few years ago a makeup counter used dirty brushes on my face and I got an impetigo staph infection all over my face and down my arm. After the open sores healed and the infection went away, I am left with a depressed white scar in my forehead where it started and a white raised one on my arm fold. Yes there is makeup but I’d like to feel good naturally again and white scars are usually permanent. I have dumped thousands into CO2 lasers, subsicion and peels, and currently waiting to heal after getting CO2 laser months ago to build up collagen in my scar. I don’t have confidence anymore like I used to. I don’t wanna have to go to the gym and beach with makeup on.

I guess this is kind of reassurance seeking, but I'm curious as to what is "normal" for non-contamination ocd people. Do you guys wash your hands after handling things in your house? After literally just stepping out of the shower, I just accidentally touched something I purchased today. Normally I would wash my hands, but my husband discouraged me from doing so because he knew it would start a spiral of still not feeling clean and wanting to wipe things down. So then I had to open my drawers, put on my pajamas, and get into bed/touch our clean bedding. I'm obviously veryyyy uncomfortable. Is this something that would even register as a red flag on anyone's radar? I know some people have taken to wiping groceries down during the pandemic, but that's not the concern in this case.

I took a psychopath checklist test and it said I had traits but am not a psychopath....still concerned about feeling empathy, guilt, remorse etc because of feeling so foggy and emtionally numb... I know it was a compulsion, I'm sorry..

let’s do something comforting! if you see this reply with a few things that make you feel a bit happy or safe

I was watching a dog movie and for some reason I felt uncomfortable?? Not super but it was an uneasy feeling like I thought the dogs were cute then “hey what if ur into dogs” BAM it hit me and then I had very little intrusive thoughts about it and BAM small groinal response and through the whole movie I still felt uneasy and I’m not freaking out so much about it?? But I am analyzing way to much

So I’m currently drinking accutane for my acne. And I’m literally worried that although it says having kids is safe after a month after using accutane; I’m worried that drinking accutane will affect my kids later. P.s accutane causes severe deformities in babies if accutane is consumed during the pregnancy or you become pregnant while drinking accutane. On top of the fact I have pocd and hocd I’m also really worried about having a child with a disorder.

im sorry but ali greymond is definitely a scam. yeah her videos might be helpful at times, but she’s not licensed at all and offers so much reassurance on her channel. and have u seen her prices??? two THOUSAND dollars a month for therapy??? she claims she’s helped soooo many people recover over the past ten years but not one person has ever come out and shared their experience with her. also the “world renowned ocd recovery coach” in her instagram bio is laughable. this is so harmful for ocd sufferers. she makes it seem like she’s the only one that can help you recover, trust me i’ve been there. she claims people that have gone through ocd themselves are the only people that can get u to recover. she’s a total scam y’all. i’ve never seen anyone brag about their “high recovery rates” like she does. i mean, 95% recovery rate??? that’s fucking whack.

I see a lot of videos and stories promoting cheating on your partner and doing taboo things and people finding out about bbc and go after that. The saying is “once you go black you’ll never go black”. Now I’m scared my future wife will cheat on me or think that someone else’s penis is bigger so she goes after that( finding out about bbc) or she’s seduced. All of these things are just constantly going over in my mind. Tips to overcome these thoughts ?

I’m afraid I’ve hurt my sister. Like sexually. I don’t recall me ever doing anything. I don’t think I’ve ever done anything. I literally have 0 evidence that that’s even possible. Like I could/would never. But I’m still afraid.

The years I spent denying that I was gay, the years I spent trying to convert myself to straight, or at the very least bisexual so it would be easier, the years I spent coming to terms with it and finally the final moments where I started embracing my lesbianism and felt the happiest I've ever been in my life after all the agony that I went through all feel like a joke to OCD now. I wish that there was a crystal ball that would show that I never liked a man and will never like a man. I know, that's reassurance. But I so long for that same feeling even though I know I cannot have it.

Hi everyone. My name is Dan, I suffer with very severe Pure O OCD. This year my OCD has been awful and then when lockdown happened things got progressively worse. I sometimes can spend up to 12 hours a day doing rituals. Yesterday, I had a terrible day. I was doing rituals for 10 hours, and becoming very distressed with the intrusive thoughts. I often bash my head to make them stop but yesterday I did it a little too hard. This has given me a slight wake up call however to be making better choices. I have tried exposure several times but I am going to try again. I'm taking the mind frame that rituals make the situation worse and keep feeding the thoughts. It's going to be incredibly hard, I know. And I'm sure I will fail at times, I'm very scared but I feel I have to do it in order to just be Dan again. If anyone has any support or tips, I would be very grateful. May you all have sunny days and starry nights ?

do you think ocd is something i should let my teachers know i have? my ocd gets in the way of my work sometimes especially during english class, reading is especially hard to do and doing a lot of writing really triggers my perfectionism. i just don’t know whether it’s something to tell my teachers or not. part of me thinks yes bc maybe it’ll help teachers understand that some things might be a little more tough for me and obviously i’m not looking for any like pity or excuses or anything just like letting them know that i might need some extra help sometimes or just for them to be a little patient with me or let me have a little break on my desk to maybe stop writing for a few minutes and just take a few deep breaths you know what i mean? what do you guys think?

I’m feeling super guilty about something that happened over a month ago. I was talking with this guy and I get very anxious when I talk to new people and I have what I call vocal diarrhea, and say things I shouldn’t. So anyway we were talking about stuff via video chat and he asked me about my ex best friend and what happened to make us not be friends anymore. I told him everything that led to the end of the friendship. And then he encouraged me to name drop her. And let me tell you the millisecond after her name left my lips I REGRETTED it. I feel like such a freaking horrible person, I had no right to name drop her. turns out his best friend is related to her, I don’t think he’d say anything, honestly, he did ghost me a couple weeks later because I told him I wasn’t ready to meet during the pandemic. It was at the height of my OCD and I know that’s not an excuse But I feel absolutely horrible, because she is a good person. She’s not evil (I never said she was) but I was so hurt and it felt good to tell a stranger what hurt me. I just wish I never said anything. I hope he forgot her name, because he said he didn’t know her. I just don’t want to be the reason someone thinks she’s a bad person. She has a good heart. But she did things that broke my trust irreconcilably. Please don’t think I’m a horrible person. We all make mistakes, I never want to be the reason to cause her pain. (Nothing I said was like inappropriate or anything of that nature. Just things that led to the downfall of our friendship.) Just how do I deal with this? I haven’t spoken to her in over a year. I’m not going to call her. But should I feel guilty over this still? Is it okay to let the guilt go?