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I need a friend with pocd (and maybe with false memories too) to talk to... I'm so sorry for the weird request, I just need a friend. I'm 24, f. Idk what to do anymore

The urge to confess should I ? Should I not? I feel like when I confess I feel at peace ugh. Tips ??

I suffer from PCOD thoughts at the moment. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing about them for days on end. I believe I’ve suffered from Ocd thoughts since I was a kid, back then it was religious type thoughts like , going to hell for being blasphemous, then my thoughts morphed Into HOCD which I thought at one point was the worse of all thoughts to obsess and fear. I’ve always been the type to hold on to negativity and thoughts. Like when I suffered from Insomnia a few months back, I was convincing myself I had some kind of terminal disease that would cause me to lose sleep forever and eventually die, my eye floaters have gotten worse the past month and I started obsessing over those thinking I was going blind. Now with these PCOD thoughts I feel like these are the motherload of negative obsessional thoughts. I’m at the point of feeling like Hanging in by a thread when is this thread gonna snap. My thoughts were recently triggered by my pregnancy. Found out I was pregnant 2 weeks ago. I feel like them theme has always made me uncomfortable and the thoughts were there before but somehow I was able to manage them because they don’t bother me or I didn’t make a big deal out of them . Now it’s like I just don’t see an escape from this hell i’m living in. I guess my question is, because I’ve been on various types of medications all my life , what medication has helped you guys out with your OCD thoughts? I suffer from inward compulsions too not the “typical” ocd compulsions. It’s hard for me to say what’s worked for me since I’ve stopped and started so much medicine. Because I’m also pregnant at the moment no psychiatrist wants to prescribe anything. Sorry for the long post guys.

i would really appreciate if carl cornett oils respond to this? someone with ocd just told me that i am heterophobic and biphobic. (my ocd is making me this way). and when i told them i’m not trying to be insensitive to bisexual peop because i think bisexuality is valid and beautiful, i just have ocd too like them and it makes me act this way— and also i don’t care about other people being bi it’s only me i care about being bi (or heterosexual) just like how i think all bodies are beautiful but because of my body dysmorphia i think my body is disgusting. and then they said i have a victim mentality and using my mental health as excuses and i’m being abusive to them. i don’t know what to think anymore

I know to get better I have to do erp, but I don’t want to(I know most don’t) I don’t want to purposely bring up things that stress me out...I already think about it all the time, so I don’t understand how it actually works when I’m already worrying about it all the time I don’t know if that make sense haha. Can someone explain how it helps

i am having so much trouble with guilt and sadness surrounding my intrusive thoughts, they pop up in my head and i get super anxious and just wanna cry. i literally make a disgusted face when they pop up in my head and i like wanna rip my hair out they never shut up. i am trying so hard to just sit with the thought but i can’t i feel so anxious all the time. i just wanna confess and tell people so i am not stuck with myself, i am legit scared of my own brain. 😭 i wish i could go back to being normal and knowing i am a good person and being comfortable with myself, now i just panic and get super afraid of being alone with my thoughts or feeling IMMENSE guilt even though i know i don’t wanna think about this.

I went to a party where there were more people than the recommended and I wore a mask but my partner took his off and so did I then cause I thought what's the point if I'm just going to kiss him later anyway, and now I'm stressing thinking I've caught Corona and that I could pass it on to my partner's grandma who could die. I always have a cough 24/7 so it's hard to tell if I have a new one and my partner's dad doesn't care if anyone has a cough so he'd go to work anyway and he doesn't wear a mask where he works and they don't social distance, and the nan does care here so if I told them I have a cough the dad would go to work anyway but the grandma would probably flap and stay in and my partner gets anxious around her because he literally hates talking to people for a long time. Has anyone broke the rules before? And has anyone worried about something like this? I hate this pandemic

What would my life look like without OCD? ... OCD takes up so much of my time, energy, and has done so for years. I cant begin to imagine life without it. In some ways OCD is like a coping mechanism. As long as I keep doing my compulsions and obsessing I dont have to deal with the trauma of my childhood and with figuring out who I am or what I like. I have been sick since I was 12 or earlier. Now Im 29. I dont know who I am without this. I dont know what my dreams are. What I enjoy. I avoid almost everything. Im scared theres no way back to leading a normal life. Besides the obsession that "I will never feel better, and this will last for ever", I truly wonder, is it possible to create an adult life in a way from "scratch". I have no social network, no interests... I hope so. I an hopeful and grateful for finally starting to get help, and for SoMe who brought me resources to realize Ive been maltreated for years! Grateful for the courage to confront my psychologist with his lack of competence on the area.

Any ERP questions you guys need answering? ☺️

Might be helpful for others: Hey! I think a big attributing factor to my OCD is my desire and longing for everything to be perfect ALL the time! I want my feelings to be perfect - joyful calm, content, confident. I want to be fit and healthy and active to the best. I want others around me to be kind, considerate, patient, joyful, calming towards me. I want plans to go swiftly and in line with what I'm aware of. But this isn't real life. I'm searching for something that is impossible to attain. Impossible: not able to be done or happen; absurd or unreasonable. I need to learn to sit with discomfort and the not so great parts of life. Sometimes it reminds me of that film Click if you have seen it? I kinda want to be like Adam Sandler who just clicks with his special remote through anything he doesn't want to do. I would zoom past tears, anger, sadness, illnesses, hopelessness, other people irritating me, disappointments. I would just tune in for the awesome joyful parts of life. But just like the movie shows at the end, I realised if you zoom past all these other parts, you miss out on a HUGE part of life. Suffering is part of life! I guess it's what makes joyful feelings, physical health and feelings of content that much more sweeter. I need to continue my journey with ERP sitting with distressing and uncomfortable feelings, and correcting my association to events and my thoughts. I hope to become better at accepting suffering in my life. Hopefully something is helpful here, and if anything, it's a movie recommendation 🤣😁 💜

Hello everyone ! I am making progress little by little, even if I go through some relapses sometimes. HOWEVER, I would like some tips about how to handle this kind of situation : Throughout a few days, I can feel in love, I can feel affectionne and deep care, I can feel angry and stressed-out, I can feel intimate or not at all, I can feel just friendly and I can feel neutral toward my boyfriend. How can I handle the anxiety rising when the feelings are not positive (or what I think should be feelings associated to love) ? These makes me go back to the old question of "love or affection or just needy ?" and I don't like that. Thank you for reading me, I hope you are doing fine and I know we can make it through !

Hi All, this is a lesson in reassurance I spent all night on Reddit checking and asking about my sexuality (DO NOT DO THIS, I KNEW IT WAS A BAD IDEA AND GAVE IN). It’s so funny and I can tell this is all ocd because I got two responses: 1. You sound like a lesbian, go for it! To which I responded all the reasons why I don’t think I am. 2. You’re not gay! To which I felt immense relief and happiness. Guess what though, minutes later I felt like I needed to ask again. I felt like person #1 must be right, even though I got the answer I wanted. Even though people were downvoting me because I was on a lesbian Reddit explaining how I’m attracted to men (not the most kind thing to do in their community/space, I do regret this). Even though I knew I really, desperately have no desire to be. Ocd doesn’t want a concrete answer and you’ll never get one that satisfies you as long as you fall in its traps. I should add I have posted numerous times before and 75% of people tell me I’m likely not a lesbian, but this is still not exact enough that every few months I find myself asking again.

I’m scared as shit bro. So ima girl and we have discharge right. And it looks like cum. And I’ve masterbated and my mom asked me why my underwears have white stuff over and over I said it’s discharge cause maybe my period is coming. This is literally Among Us in real life. I can’t get caught and she’s washing my underwear’s tmr, so I hope she doesn’t think anything sus. If your a guy reading this. Hey hello. If our a girl reading this. PLEASEEEEE HELPPPPPPPP the girls got me aye?

My HOCD is telling me that it’s okay to be attracted to my friends. I don’t want to be attracted to my friends. I just want to be a straight man whose attracted to women. No anxiety after 5 months. Kill me dude.

Is it possible for ERP to be too much for people? I am suffering with postpartum ocd among some harm and religious stuff... mostly always geared towards my son. I’m just wondering if there have been other modes of therapy that have been have been found effective and less anxiety inducing inducing. I’m doing ERP, but it’s very hard to just sit with my anxiety when I’m trying to take care of a baby. Thanks for any tips!

I’m really sad I’ve been going through this since July and Im Sad all the time, I feel like this will never leave. Apperently it doesn’t. Hocd kills me and rocd just fuels it. My rocd makes me think I have feelings for my ex and still want to be with other guys but then my hocd makes me think I don’t want to kiss my boyfriend and that I hate it and want to be with girls and makes my thoughts go bad. I still complus everyday but just try ignore it, it’s still always in the back of my head and I’m really upset. It’s like I don’t cry and get emotional in a situation with my boyfriend and I freak out. Or I then freak out that I’m using him for emotional support. I’m really just done with this, I feel like I have no where to go anymore. So much people on this also say ocd never leaves them. It’s just so scary because hocd is my first proper ocd theme Thats lasted this long and now rocd. I feel like I just don’t have anything left in me or to live for.

My HOCD is making me feel like I don’t want to masturbate to lesbian porn. I was doing the deed and it felt like I didn’t want to masturbate to lesbian porn. I’m scared that if I look up gay porn, that it will get me aroused and excited more than lesbian porn and it scares me. I will never look up gay porn but this HOCD is giving me temptations to check and I’m scared as hell.

I'm trying to understand why a therapist would recommend dropping my wallet and debit card/cash if my intrusive thought was "What if I've lost my wallet?" I thought you exposed yourself to the thought itself, not the content. I'm very anxious, confused & scared, because ERP really confuses me. I know it's the primary treatment for OCD. But I thought it was about embracing your intrusive thoughts & not doing the compulsions.

Thought suppression is detrimental to recovering from ocd correct? Like say if my brain tells me to think of something, and I don’t want to, so I try to prevent the thoughts from entering. But then it does anyways, I end up feeling terrible. Or, even worse- if I just allow it, I feel guilty for allowing it, like I brought it on or didn’t do enough to stop it.

Ever since I had reached the age of 13, I felt like my childhood had left me just like that and I felt lost. I felt confused on what to do next the second junior high was all over. It felt like no one was holding my hand anymore, no one was guiding me and it definitely felt lonely. I had my friends here and there, but I wasn't aware of the emotional struggles I had felt. Throughout my highschool years, peer pressure happened to be one of the main causes for my depression, insomnia, loneliness, and trouble with keeping up with school. It felt confusing not having a shoulder to lean on or someone to love me back. It felt like for a while if I wanted something bad enough I could have it but that something never came and still hasn't come. Everytime I look back at my teen years, I can't find any real good thoughts to overpower the negative ones. The transition of leaving being a child to become an adult is one of the most difficult things people can go through. I had the real event OCD I have for things I did in my stupid teen years. Everyone including myself was at a part where hormones were going crazy. Everyone engaged in some sort of sexual activity whether it meant talking about it, reenacting sexual acts, or being in relationships which to this day is something I've never got to experience. I thought running away to the internet to make friends and explore my emotions would help but that honestly made everything so much worse. Why do I keep ruminating over the same things that happens 3 of more years ago over and over and over again? I keep fearing that the stupid mistakes I've done will destroy what I have now. I can barely focus on my present because my past takes up so much of my time and I don't want it to. I feel that I have changed and I don't do any of the things I used to anymore and I CRINGE at the fact that I've even done things like that in the first place. I just want to forget about it all and move on.