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It makes me feel so much better about myself knowing other people go through this as well. I’m so so fucking scared of my own thoughts and I hate it so much. I don’t want to be a bad person and I wish these thoughts could get out of my head once and for all. Thank you for making me feel understood.

TW Guys my false memories are scaring me so much today. my mind was trying to ruminate as I went to sleep and then I woke up and the thought was “oh yeah nobody would know or find out because you can’t just identify abuse by looking down there” horrible :( :( :( I woke up terrified what if I just remembered that I did something, what if I did?? Soniclen I know you are going to say I’m looking for reassurance maybe I’m am, i just cried all over my husband and of course all he did was reassure me I could never do something like that and “forget about it” because that’s not me But when I woke up and had that thought it felt so freaking real and I got so scared heart racing everything

Is it possible for OCD to go from harmful thoughts or paranoia thoughts to being completely about how my wife is cheating on me or going to hurt (poison me, attack me in my sleep)!?

Sometimes I feel like my life would be more empty without OCD. Even though it causes me so much stress and anxiety, I feel like that stops me from being bored. Sounds silly because I know that everybody STRIVES to be relieved of OCD and the trouble it causes. I guess I just feel like having OCD makes me different from other people (and I like to be bold and stand out). Without it, I’d just be like everybody else. And that’s why I fear NOT having it; that would mean I truly am just like everybody else and my thoughts are real. Idk. It’s also nice to be part of this community where we all push eachother forwards and celebrate eachother for all the things we do. I don’t want to lose that.

How to confirm that my sexual orientation is not changed... I m still same happy self.... This hocd/so ocd killing me daily... I just hate girls now.... I don't even want to talk to any... Deeply frustrated...

Back at university now in the house I'm living in for the year, which is where my ocd originally kind of started (or at least got extremely intense and horrible). I can already feel my anxiety getting worse. Hopefully the fact that the dosage of my meds has been increased will help a little. Would love it if you guys good think good thoughts at me x

Does anyone else’s hocd give you the thought whenever you feel attracted to the opposite sex “if you were a guy that would mean you’re gay.” And for some reason this gives me anxiety. I want to be straight and like guys..what?

Feel so alone. Does anyone else struggle with POCD and is / was pregnant? I just want my poor baby to be safe and feel so guilty about unwanted thoughts. This is the worst. I can’t even enjoy this pregnancy because of these horrendous thoughts.

trigger warning maybe so idk who knows andrea russett but she’s a youtuber and she just posted a video coming out saying she’s bisexual and it triggered me soooo much. like i’m so scared that i am when i literally have never felt attraction to a girl at all like that. any time i think a girl is pretty i automatically jump to that conclusion now. and i always have to check and look at her butt to see if i’m attracted to it. like social media makes it all worse too. i almost do it out of habit now which makes me hate myself for it bc i’m mistaking it w attraction but when i try to tell myself it’s just ocd my brain tries to twist it into thinking that i’m actually bi!!! it just sucks and i’m so stressed about it

Hocd and urges! Help

I have a really weird OCD problem. My brain doesn’t ‘like’ or has a fear of the number 6,9, and 12. When I see them or do something this amount of times it just feels ‘off’. I have to make a constant effort everyday to avoid seeing these numbers or doing something the amount of times as these numbers. I know it’s weird and ridiculous but I don’t know what to do.

i hate myself.. i got to the point where if a girl walks in front of me and my boyfriend i look at him and if i see if he’s looking at her direction i got obsessive thoughts and i get mad with him even knowing that he can look and even knowing that he only loves me and im the girl most beautiful (to him, i dont think that im beautiful at all), i hate myself fr..

I constantly have these moments where I have horrible thoughts of harming others and it makes me have a panic attack... what do I do to stop these thoughts?

I think I may be pregnant but it’s still too early to tell. It scares me because I think due to my ocd I may not be a very good mother. I think what if I have to be hospitalized again and can’t be there for my child? Or what if I get the intrusive thoughts about them? The ones about my husband have been coming back slightly but it’s definitely focused on health right now. My friend’s lung collapsed two days ago and she’s my age! (27) and now I’m terrified that it may happen to me or worse I may have a heart attack and die. If I am pregnant I may choose to abort. Idk yet, a part of me thinks that those of us with mental illnesses should be sterilized. I’m curious to know other ppls opinions on this subject...

This HOCD is so ridiculous, it’s impossible for sexual orientation to change

i totally got over the fear of me being gay but now i have a fear that i’m bi. has anyone else had this? any advice???

I hate ocd! Right now it is draining every piece of energy or happiness I have. I’ve been struggling for so long and feeling like the worst person ever forever. I’m falling into a depression, I’m hardly functioning, can’t sleep, can’t eat. Thoughts constantly in my head that maybe I don’t have ocd or that even if I do, it doesn’t matter. I want to live so badly for the people in my life that love me but in the past week from feeling this way I’ve lost over 10 pounds. I live in a really remote area and I feel like don’t have treatment options unless I move. It’s just so exhausting and I don’t know what to do anymore.

I’m so thankful for this community! Do you guys have any tips on how to overcome health anxiety OCD? (Basically obsessions around fear of getting sick/dying)

Anybody struggle with their heart health? I’m constantly worried about a heart attack. I keep feeling like my left arm hurts and I’ll continually press on it and think about the way it feels. I check my pulse constantly. Any slight feeling in my chest that isn’t “normal” freaks me out. I also keep thinking that I can’t breathe deep enough. I’ve started avoided eating because I don’t wanna eat foods with fat or something that could give me heart attack. I’m 18 and there’s no way I could be having a heart attack. What can I do to get over this?

Can relationship ocd not just be doubts about my partner of my feelings for them? Cause my ROCD started as that like “what if i didnt love them as much” or something then it translated to more things like “she’s a slut” or “she’s ugly” even though she’s NONE of those things. things like “i will cheat on her” and such. Plus feeling like i like somebody else, imagining myself with other people. Fear i might fall for someone else and overthinking that and feeling guilty. Just my thoughts, my ex was always involved and it made me feel guilt and doubt and anxiety and i HAD to confess it to them. Cause someone asked here whats ROCD and someone simply said doubting feelings and it makes me nervous cause i’d like to think i had rocd but seeing that makes me nervous that what if the thoughts were true?