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OCD is fake! And a trickster, but all of its tricks are empty fears that hold no sway over your life! It will try with all of its might to convince you otherwise, but it is a liar, plain and simple. I’ve discovered that leaning into the fear, letting it play out, and breathing through attacks is extremely therapeutic. When you let the fear play over and over and over, the anxiety eventually subsides. NOTHING LAST FOREVER! Becoming aware to OCD and the way it feels and makes you feel is the key to overcoming it. Sure, it’ll always be lingering around, but it’s voice becomes a whisper when you recognize OCD hidden behind the mask of fear. And then you can begin to catch OCD before it grows. You can remind yourself of its lies, falseness, and absolute absurdity. IT HAS NEVER BEEN REAL, IT WILL NEVER BE REAL. Worry when there is something to worry about, physically and present in this world. Otherwise, accept the thoughts, catch OCD in disguise, and never be afraid! It is a liar, and it will never be right! Ever!

I’m in turmoil trying to figure out if I’m a homosexual. I keep thinking I’m homosexual but never believed that I was until very recently and have had multiple heterosexual relationships. I cannot tell what is real and what is not anymore and I’m losing my mind. I have no idea of whether I am heterosexual, homosexual or bi-sexual? I can accept being bi-sexual as it means the relationships that I had were not fake or simply a cover up. However my counsellor has told me that I’ve more than likely repressed all my homosexuality and used my relationships as a cover. Has anyone had serious trouble with their sexuality and can you please help? This is horrible

!! TW COCD RANT !! my family and i are going away for holiday in about two weeks and i can’t stop thinking about it ,, all i can think about is lying on the used hotel beds covered in bacteria and the bugs surrounding the area - we’re going to a resort and my parents really want me to swim but i literally can’t ! when i imagine the pool i think of all the people who have swam in it and all their unclothed feet covering every inch of space available. i’m going to hopefully bring a sleeping bag from home and stay in that the entire time - we also have to travel on a plane which is even worse :( just thinking about sharing the air with all those strangers makes me want to cry :’((( also we aren’t making food in the resort so we have to go to restaurants to eat which i really can’t handle bc of the shared cutlery. i’m hopefully going to bring stuff from home to prevent panic but i’m afraid that this trip will totally ruin those safe items for me. sorry to write this paragraph but it would really help if u had anything to say which might help my situation in the slightest !!!

Need advice! My roommate and I were both pre-med. then I changed to pre-dent and had internships and worked hard for it and now she changed to pre-dent too. I used to get so jealous because she gets like perfect As and I’m a As and Bs student and I feel like if a dental school was looking at the two of us they would pick her over me any day. I think about it a lot and it makes me feel bad because I try really hard to get as good grades but for her it comes naturally and I don’t really get it. I compare myself with her and make myself feel bad about myself all the time. Has anyone experienced a similar situation? Can anyone give me any advice?

I just had a moment of big panic because I keep having obsessions about reality and how is it possible that I’m able to perceive it. You know when you say a word out loud way too many times, and it starts losing its meaning and sounds weird? Same thing happens to me with reality. Sometimes it gets so intense, it makes me wanna vomit or feel like I’ll faint. I just don’t understand existence and everything feels so weird. I can’t get over it. This is my worst obsession :(

My friend is going through a break up right now and I’m trying really hard to be there for her but it’s completely triggering my ocd ? I keep thinking about breaking up with my bf now even though there is ZERO reason to ??

I’m afraid to date with this disorder. I got diagnosed about 2 months ago. I’m on medications and doing erp. I feel like the whole subject is so taboo I have a hard time talking to my own mother about it. I’ve told my best friend but I don’t know how to talk to someone “new” about this. It’s so shameful I cry almost every day. I never had to deal with this disorder in previous relationships. I’ve been out of my previous relationship for about 8 months. The Pocd became unbearable about 5 or so months ago. I’ve been asked out on dates but I’m completely afraid of being triggered and talking about it. Any advice?

How To tell my parents that I Have mental illnesses because I can't stand this anymore and I'm very very young. Any advices?

I haven’t been professionally diagnosed with POCD but I’m pretty sure I have it. I keep having to question myself if I’m genuinely disgusted at the thought of being sexually attracted to children or if I enjoy it. I also can’t even tell if I’ve even felt guilt or shame at the thought of being sexually attracted to children. All I know is that I’m scared of the idea I might be turning into a pedophile and start developing an attraction to kids. Like I honestly don’t know what I’m feeling anymore and it scares me. I’m even getting thoughts like “What if your dad is a pedophile?” or “What could be so bad about it? Just stop being in denial and admit you’ve got a thing for kiddie porn.” My brain is constantly creating these new thoughts and I hate it so much.

How did you guys find out you probably had ocd, diagnosis or no diagnosis? I haven’t been diagnosed and my parents don’t know, I actually turned 14 today. I have had intrusive thoughts since I was 11 or 12, but throughout the 2nd half of 2018, the occasional intrusive thoughts slowly became more common, but didn’t bother me too bad, but I kept obsessing over: what is wrong with me? And “Am I schizophrenic?” I kept thinking I had schizophrenia but I would only occasionally think of it. Eventually in december, I bought me and my dad a pocket knife, basically as a gift for him. Over the next 3 days I kept having harm ocd about my knife but I refused to hide it. Then at school the thoughts went wild and I knew something was wrong. I looked up “scary thoughts” when I got home, and ever since then, the way I used to feel has been gone. I think about ocd everyday now. Idk what to do. My harm ocd has gone away mostly but now I have a lot of thoughts of me hurting myself and “what if I just die”. It scares me. Anyway, anyone have a story similar to this? Thanks.

(Pocd) Please help me!!! I'm a Christian and as i've mentioned before Ive had mind chatters where i tell God to confirm if im a pedo or not by me hearing about a pedo getting delivered (and it actually happened because a user on here who's a good friend of mine shared a story about that!!!) And ive also mind chattered to Him to lemme know thru a dream and it just happened too!!!. I literally feel hot right now and I feel so much doom because I just woke up and dreamt something about a paper like a test having the word pedophilia in it I think it asked "do you have pedophilia?" with a fill in the blanks answer and the word "truth" was written as the answer ? these are just too much coincidences for it to not be God actually telling me. As we Christians know, there are no coincidences in God and that scares me even more!!. I always tell Him " don't listen to my mind chatters you know they don't come from the heart!! The reason I mind chatter about things is because I'm scared of them actually happening!" But now I'm starting to think my mind chatters are so much more meaningful than i thought. Maybe it wasn't even a dream and I just pictured it while being asleep and awake at the same time since my ocd thoughts wake me up night sometimes? Or am I just in denial to try to calm myself down? Omg how can I forget about all this I really don't wanna relapse ...

Does anyone get “intrusive feelings”? I’ve experienced intrusive thoughts and urges, but I’m noticing intrusive feelings too. I’m about to start PMS-ing and I’m having weird depressed feelings like “I hate my life, everything sucks, maybe i want to die”. I have suicidal OCD and it seems like this is what my brain gravitates towards when I’m under stress. Even though I DO NOT want to die by any means, my brain throws these thoughts at me and it’s so scary bc I feel like maybe a part of me actually wants to do it. Idk why I feel depressed and shitty about my life when really I don’t want to be you know?? What do you guys think?

Hi all has anyone got an experience with medication to treat OCD checking. Has it helped? What are the pros and cons from people who have experienced medication

Does anyone else ever get obsessions where you worry that your OCD isn’t real or isn’t bad enough to be OCD?

Saw a post on tumblr this morning about a 15 year old boy helping a little girl learn how to skateboard, and my initial reaction was "awww, that's so sweet" but then I got a weird feeling in my stomach and wondered "do you think that the 15 year old boy is attractive for being kind to the little girl?" (Don't ask me how that even makes sense idk) And I know it's probably because I'm worried about being attracted to anybody teenaged or younger but I can't help but analyze my feelings. Like was my weird feeling in my stomach unease? Arousal? I have no idea. I'm uncomfortable now but trying to focus on breathing and watching gilmore girls

Does anyone ever feel like they don't know what they truly want anymore? feeling a sense of loss of identity? To stick to what they truly believe is correct or what OCD is telling them? and feel like their desires are changing since OCD?

Does anyone have any tips for when the thoughts are just so overwhelming? Even the little things I used to enjoy like grabbing a coffee or watching a tv show I just have no motivation for. These thoughts are happening by the minute and I can’t focus on anything else. When I try to distract myself they’re in the back of my mind.

I hade a intrusive thought when I was half asleep but I can’t remember what it was and I feel like I’m trying to know what it was so I don’t feel like a bad person incase it was something bad because sometimes there really intense any tips to stop trying to find out what it would be

So my POCD started because I had the misfortune of running into a drawing depicting a child being raped (granted it was just a video game character and not an actual real life child) but now I feel like my brain is telling me I enjoyed looking at that and even I can’t tell whether or not I did. I’m just so ashamed and I wish I never saw it. Soon after that I was constantly trying to reassure myself I’m not a pedophile, that I don’t enjoy the thought of children being sexually abused, or that I’ve never been sexually attracted to a child, etc. My thoughts never leave me; I’m stressing out about this literally every hour, minute and second of the day.

Is anyone a nurse with contamination OCD? How do you work with that??