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Who else constantly wishes they could go back to their old self? A time when you didn’t have such horrible obsessions. It made me realise, you only appreciate what you have when it’s gone. I’d do anything to have my sanity back
Has anyone else become obsessed with something related to politics or news? For the past two weeks I can’t stop thinking about one issue and I end up researching it endlessly. And when I’m not researching it I’m ruminating on it constantly, basically from the moment I wake up until I go to sleep. I want to stop thinking about it because it’s exhausting but I feel like I can’t. I don’t know if this is my OCD manifesting or if I just have an obsessive brain and fixate on things. Has anyone else experienced something similar? Any tips on ERP for this?
I’m so scared that I do have ocd but I am also in denial. Like it’s so obvious now that I do all these compulsions and things, but I’m so scared that I’ll get better and find out that I am gay/ bi, and I was just in denial whilst also having ocd about it.
Hi, I have this problem everytime I feel asleep I feel like I hear something inside my head, feels like I have television inside my head playing an advertisement and it is loud enough that I can hear it. I am in the stage of confusion if I only hear it thru my ears or thru my head but 80 percent sure that I am not hearing thru my ears but loud enough that I can hear it in my head. I don't know what's happening actually. I am so confused right now. By the way my currently fear is having a multiple personality disorder. Your comment will be much appreciated.
I used to think like aw how sweet this girl thinks I’m cool enough to hug when receiving affection from female friends it was like “Yay I’m one of the girls” but now it just makes me insanely uncomfortable. Today I was taking pictures at my banquet and my friend cupped my face in her hands and did a kissy face for the picture and I felt like running away. Before it wouldn’t have bothered and I would’ve gone along with the picture but ugh no, not today. I guess the new “cycle” of this stupid theme is whether or not me liking affection means I like my friends. 🙄
for anyone suffering right now, here is some reminders that may ease the pain. 🌷 -you’re not your intrusive thoughts (no matter how ugly, disgusting, disturbing they are) -there will be better days so just keep going -thoughts don’t mean anything about your character (how you treat others, your spirit, your wants) -if you’ve had a horrible intrusive thought, i’ve probably had it. you’re not alone. -the reason we get attacked by horrible images, scenes, thoughts is because they’re labeled in our brains as threats. -there’s a difference between a “fear” and a “want”, people with pure o are usually fearful of their thoughts, they don’t want them. -lastly, take care of yourself, watch a movie, do some self care, get some well needed rest. 🍄you matter and you’re important, no matter what your intrusive thoughts tell you. 💐<3
this isn’t ocd related but me venting instead. i am graduating high school next saturday and i can’t help but think that i wasted my 4 years there. never drank, never done drugs, and never gone to parties. i feel so painfully boring and i am really leaving without having these experiences and it hurts. i am also going to community college for financial reasons and i am just missing more of it :/
Does anyone know why hocd and rocd usually occur in that order? My hocd started bothering me and almost immediately I started doubting my relationship with my spouse? Any information would be helpful. I hope everyone has an anxiety free weekend!!
Isn’t it so frustrating when you’re having a great day and in a wonderful mood (rare) and then all of a sudden, you’re triggered by something silly and now you’re anxious about something that keeps coming up over and over in your mind? I feel like this might sound silly (or many not). I’m scared to share in case everyone replies and just says what a big red flag this is but I’m so sick of being anxious about this so here goes... My partner and I will have been together for 4 years this year and he’s never posted about me on social media 🤦🏼♀️ on one hand, I feel so stupid for worrying about this (we’re in our 30’s for goodness sake!), but on the other hand, it still makes me extremely anxious when I think about it too much. We’ve had sooo many conversations about it, because I would get really upset that he was ashamed of me or trying to hide me. He always promises that isn’t why. He feels like posting on social media is like, the highest level of commitment lol. Last time we had this conversation, he told me he would feel more comfortable proposing to me than posting online. I know he was always uncomfortable with it, even when he was married. Apparently she would post photos of them from his account and he was always super uncomfortable with it. But yeah....I thought about it again today and it just makes me feel like there’s something seriously wrong with us. His family and friends all know about me, we’re always going out in public, but it just feels strange that we don’t post online. And don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I want sappy posts or anything....I just want the comfort of feeling like we’re “normal” and that it’s not just a huge red flag waving over my head. Okay, I guess that’s it. Thanks for listening! If you have any opinions, please be super gentle so I don’t totally freak out 😅 thank you!!
Hey everyone any tips for Contamination OCD? For example: The sufferer is constantly worried about things such as household chemicals and outside stuff getting on her and then on her stuff and then harming her animals. For example, if she steps on something in the street (something she believes is unsafe like car oil) she worries about it transferring from her shoes to her clothes to her belongings and then to her pets and then she worries about her pets getting sick from it. Because of this she avoids touching some of her belongings (like some of her books) because she worries that she will now think that the "contaminant" is now on the belonging and then she's going to feel tempted to throw it out when she really doesn't want to. Any advice? Tips on how to get this to stop?
I know this is going to seem like reassurance seeking which it 100% is but I’ve been struggling on the same thought for a long time now. The thought of breaking up with my significant other has been going through my head for months now and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to break up with him but my OCD is making me feel like I have no choice to and it’s starting to make me feel like that’s my only option to happiness, it’s all starting to feel so real. Any thoughts or advice? Or anyone else go through this or something similar?
I am 19 years old and a virgin and this has been so hard for a long time now. I feel abnormal and i feel like i dont know Who i am Because of my Hocd as well. I Get depressed everytime i am on a date with a guy Because i never feel enough and i just feel paralyzed whenever i get close and intimate. I have always thought that I just haven’t met the right guy but I am starting to doubt that. I don’t want to be asexual or lesbian. It’s so hard, I don’t know who I am.. why can’t I also be like others, enjoying intimacy..
I am starting to believe I don’t love my partner like I use to… 😞 it makes me sad but I don’t cry… I feel too normal for this to be ROCD anymore… I know I don’t wanna break up with him bc I know I love him still but how can I get out of feeling as though I really don’t love him? Is this a subtype of ROCD or do I have to say goodbye to the only man I have ever truly loved…. 😭😭😭
18+ only Does anybody with sexual intrusive thoughts get scared that they’ll masturbate to their thoughts? Or that the thoughts really arouse them? because I get groinals and it’s so confusing. But I find the thoughts disgusting and I don’t enjoy the experience of having a groinal response at all.
LONG STORY AHEAD: Hey everybody, I'm 20m. Turns out I have OCD, and my first battle with it was in 2018, when my father was diagnosed with atrial flutter. I was also sick with a stomach issue of some kind, and felt, "Huh, maybe I should look up symptoms and see." Big mistake. What followed after was months of terror, panic, and depression. I thought I had stomach cancer, colon cancer, brain cancer, etc. And to top it all off, I struggled with my dad's condition, wondering if a boy was gonna lose his biggest hero and best friend. I wondered if he did, would I see him again? Is there a God? Is there purpose? What is the meaning of life? What is my purpose? I started therapy and began to recover bit by bit and it turns out, my dad was alright and I reconnected my faith in God. In July of 2019, I had an intrusive thought about a child performing a sexual act on me which scared the shit out of me. It didn't become an obsession by this time however. A few weeks later, I watched Stranger Things and one of the younger characters wore shorts and their thighs were showing, and I looked at thought, "Am I a pedophile?" Again, I felt extreme terror and anxiety along with many, many disgusting thoughts and feelings. I felt like a monster. I wanted to end my life. I never wanted to hurt a child or have anything bad happen to them, because it's simply wrong and disgusting. The feelings of denial, false attraction, and sensations were fucking awful and I wanted it to end. Things got better but it was a thing I struggled with for a while until early 2021. Finally, I dealt with HOCD in February 2021. I was playing a game and recorded footage. The video game character grunted in pain and my brain immediately said "That's hot." and I was immediately like, ..."am I gay?" Same process. Intrusive thoughts, feelings, sensations, and images cropped up. I have no problem with homosexuality or anything, I am not a bigot but I just didn't want thoughts like this at all. Immediately after, TOCD began. It was a simple question. "Am I transgender?" after seeing a trans related post on Twitter. I freaked out but was able to put the thought to rest. It returned however, when seeing some of my coworkers talking to each other and feeling alone, my brain said "I bet if I was a girl, they would talk to me." and this freaked me out bad. I didn't want to be a girl, I didn't want to be trans, I wanted to be a man. Ever since then, it's been a very unfun ride. I have to reaffirm to myself and check that I I do in fact, enjoy being a male and don't want to transition or anything like that. But it feels real. It feels like a feminine/female force is inside me now. It is terrifying and enjoyable The thoughts get scary as fuck and it's hard as fuck. I hope someone else experiences this and can relate. Thank you for reading.
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