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Racing thoughts.. Anyone dealing with super fast racing thoughts? They are sometimes nonsense. Even when they are not scary, my mind is just looping random conversations, songs.. its like super fast random stuff. Its so scary!!

Anyone else that can FEEL the front of their brain overwork itself? It seems like I can totally feel my brain all foggy. That’s because the front part of the brain is overstimulated right?

(I'm sorry for my English but I'm not native speaker) Hey im very stressed so I need to share my story. I think I have hocd for like 2 months. I'm so stressed to go to therapist because l'm scared that he won't be aware of ocd and he won't give me a good resonance in my case i don’t think that in my country it’s know topic. So I wanna ask you what you guys think of it. I'm so scared that I’m lesbian and I'm just in denial. I've never liked girls but l've never had bad feelings about homosexual people, I had lesbian friend and two gay friends and it was always normal for me, but I just always knew that I like boys because l've always had crushes on boys, I enjoyed reading love novels or erotic novels and it was what I knew I want. And I have a very good friend, we even call each other sister because since we met we had a lot in common, we were very comfortable with yourself, we were taking baths in bathtub together talking about boys and we were drinking wine and it was our tradition , we even kissed on party because we played truth or dare with boys and other girls and we never had second thoughts about it I asked even my sister if it’s weird and she said that she also kissed a girl when she was young and she also saw her friend naked.. she said that we all woman so that’s not weird and don’t identify my sexuality (I asked her now when I have this thought not then), it never even bother me because I knew it didn't meant anything in sexual or romantic way to me. But when I told my flat mate because he asked me how close we are because even tho we studying in different towns we still manage to have contact or to meet and I told him that she is like my sister, we know everything about our selves and I said "bro she saw me naked and we even kissed on party, so think she knows me better than anybody else" (we were 16 then and now l'm 20 and never had questioning my sexuality since now) and then he said "it's sound so lesbian, I think you are bi, for sure you are bi" and at first i was like yyy no and it didn't bother me really, but later I had a lot of stress.. final exams, and I don't know why but I was worried about my health so badly because somehow I thought that I have cancer and I felt very sick, I was vomiting from stress I was crying all night but I go to doctor and he said that I just have some problem with period but since then I was very unstable about my mental health and I started to think what if he was right and I stared to obsessing, I couldn't eat and sleep, I was crying for 3 days all the time, even my flat mates were worried and since then I'm so anxious that maybe he was right and my thoughts now tell my that for sure I like this and at the same time when I think about be with woman but not in sexual way but like be with her in relationships at first I think I want it but the Il'm so anxious so I think that's not the thing. But what is worrying me the most that nothing give me joy.. I'm bookworm I loved to read I loved romance novels and now I think I can't read them, I'm procrastinating (and I was always very active and I loved to study) I can't watch my favorite shows because there are homosexual couples and in the past it didn't bother me but now it is. I also wonder..In childhood because of my parents divorced and very bad situation in home (violence and My mom was twice in mental hospital because she had depression) when I was 6 my teacher saw that I had problems with stuttering and i had something like compulsive blinking (?) I was blinking like all the time and back then I was going to child psychologist because I was scared of people and I was reacting with crying and stress when someone were looking at me with anger (or I just thought that person is mad at me)But I thought that I gone through this. Can it have influence on my mental health right now? Please help me. I'm crying even while l'm writing it, I even had thoughts that's it's better to be dead than be lesbian and I'm very stressed because l'm worried that I will never like bovs again. I’m so sick of questioning every single move and tik tok and social media give me also a lot anxiety. Pleas help me.

distraction post: who is your comfort celebrity regarding mental health? like a celebrity who may have shared their struggle/experince and you may relate or maybe even someone who has raised awareness and you felt heard

TW: magical thinking ocd sometimes i avoid certain words bc my manifestation ocd (magical thinking) thinks if i read the word too much, my subconscious will attach to it and i’ll become it HAHAHA LIKE WHAT?? i know it’s ridiculous but like why does it make sense in to my ocd..

Really thought about whether or not to post this but I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing/what helped them out of it. I have fears of psychosis/schiz/delusions and I started having intrusive thoughts that sound and feel delusional even though I know they’re not true, and I don’t actually believe them. I obsess over whether I think they’re true and if I’m actually delusional, then I start to feel really disconnected and dreamy (like derealization?) but then I get worried that I’m actually dissociating and/or losing my mind. I rly struggle w these thoughts as they make me so uncomfortable and make me feel like I am delusional. I will reread things I wrote, rethink things I have already said to make sure they’re coherent, argue w my thoughts, constantly check to make sure I know who I am, where I am, know who my family is, etc. to ensure I’m not losing my mind. My themes switch from this, to harm ocd and I’m just really having a hard time w the thoughts mixed w the disconnected feeling. It makes me want to stay in bed forever and cry because I don’t wanna feel this way anymore. Any advice would be so helpful.

i havent really struggled with my HOCD since my last session in January, but i’ve kept having random moments where i keep asking myself if im a lesbian i know theres nothing wrong with it and even when i was younger i didnt think it was a big deal because you love who you love. and thats why i used to think i was pan bc ive never had feelings for a woman. but ive always believed if it feels good, go for it. i was so ok with finding women attractive but being touchy with him grossed me out and i dont really like the idea of actually dating a woman. i guess that caused my confusion on whether i was actually gay or not because it should be something you WANT, right? and i guess it would be easier for me to accept the possibility of me being gay if it felt good but i feel BAD like i know i shouldnt but i was kind of testjng myself by watching lesbian porn and masturbating to it. and seeing if it felt good. and then i felt like it did and i started to cry and think to myself “omg i am a lesbian” if i enjoy this 😭😭 ive never really watched lesbian porn but i can remember moments when i was little where i was attracted to the female body sexually. but never felt those feelings for anyone in real life. then with men i dont really see their bodies in a sexual way. ive only ever liked men, wanted to be around them all the time, and imagined a future with a man. like falling in love with them felt so amazing and the attraction is undeniable its just hard bc i wish i was unfazed by lesbian stuff like i used to be. bc now it makes my chest hurt and makes me wonder if im repressing myself but i know i truly dont want to be with a woman. but i cry at the thought of being a lesbian??? its so confusing bc i wonder if it all means something.. i wonder if i should meet with my NOCD therapist again 😭

Hey guys please please help. Again i started a new job but this one I actually do have legit reasons for not staying. It feels like high school. I feel like the other and there are actually people from my high school working there. Now this wouldn’t be a problem if i didn’t feel like i was totally just unaccepted and resented. Ive come from a pretty dark place. Im finally feeling stable and less depressed and i don’t want to work in a negative environment that might make me go back words again. My parents and my therapist both say that this I should just stick it out and not let others determine my happiness or that there are gonna be jobs that feel like hs and to stick to it. But i feel like i know what i need to do. Ive had jobs where i got along with my coworkers and actually liked them and it made work more fun. And i think that’s something that I need atm you know? Even though i do need certain things its not urgent and im not in a situation where i need to be super reliant on money. because of this i want to find something that i like to do because i like to do it and like the people there. Anyways i would love some insight from the community. Thanks everyone!

For my Christian peeps. Do not identify yourself as your desires or thoughts . Let God identify you. Jesus has a plan for your lives and whatever you’re struggling with he can take it away. Stop allowing your mind to say your that one accept him for Gods healing. Yes. Harm ocd. He can take it Yes. Pocd He can take it Yes. Even Same sex attraction if let’s say your thoughts are actual attractions, and you don’t want it. He can take it. I’ve seen it happen. I know people who’ve had that.

Most of the time I just feel like a major loser. I am 20 and I don't have a job because I'm scared to get one and I hardly have friends and I have never had a boyfriend. i still live with my parents too. I can probably graduate college next year and I am not ready. I dont know what I want to do after college and I feel like my life has no future most of the time. I will probably die alone because I have no idea how to even meet people and I am afraid I won't ever get my life together :(

Lol there’s no cure but hope y’all figure something out! Blessings from an uncured NOCD patient

My mind is telling me that I should enjoy the thoughts.. I was never like this. I was a loving person. I don’t even know what to do anymore and I don’t have access to therapy nor can I talk to my parents about this. It’s really hard. My mind attacks everything and I can’t just have peace with it. Also I read a comment on a live on YouTube that OCD is demonic and stuff like that. I’m in fear of snapping and going crazy, basically becoming what I’ve feared most of my life. My mind tells me every time I don’t pay attention to the thoughts that I’m dangerous and that I really do want them. And I fall into this trap of ruminating because I want all of this to stop. I don’t even feel like myself anymore. I feel like who I was some months ago would think I’m crazy. And that’s the scariest part. I feel like there’s no going back. Anyone feeling the same?😢

Does anyone else get overly stressed out when shopping for clothes? It doesn't matter whether its online or in stores I find it equally as stressful infact I spend hours, days sometimes weeks ruminating on whether to buy the clothes and when I eventually do I always feel like somethings not quite right and I regret buying them. Is this an OCD thing or am I just a weirdo lol

I'm obsessed that I look gay ? 😔

Hi I really think and feel like I’m losing this battle, if it was ever that...

Is there anyone in here who is in recovery from alcohol and/or drugs?

I have a quick question. If I’m rationalizing why my fear of being arrested or having a lawsuit filed against me for some stupid shit makes no sense, am I helping or harming myself? I’m specifically worried about a Karen/a filing a lawsuit against me for “disturbing” them/causing them “emotional distress” for something stupid/existing or sending a friend request. Something that’s objectively not frightening/disturbing/distressful. I know lawsuits don’t work like this, but I can’t get past this fear of knowing someone can file something like this and having to deal with it, even though I’d know I’d easily win. Also I apologize for my use of Karen if it offends anyone- I just wanted to emphasize this notion of “feeling distress” in someone’s presence/their existence when there is nothing objectively there to be afraid of for them.

Many days ago, I joined an app. The app was full of communities. We usually get a lot of interaction with the almost like-minded people. So, I kind of like being there. (The problem is some of those people are rude, anyways, it is not what I wanted to write here). Main problem: I think that there is something important in other communities, message section, or in any feature of that app. I think that something is important I need to pay attention to. This thought was frequent before. I do not want this thought to come into my mind. Because it keeps on that app and keeps from studying, as that app is very stimulant. It does not let me focus. #OCD with I am missing out on something important Secondly, when I start making a list, my mind says that I need to take care of the old lists too. I mean, I need to do the tasks I wrote earlier on those lists. Moreover, my mind keeps on waiting for "ALL" the tasks to do to be written. To be honest, I have not been able to write all the tasks on to-do list for I guess 4 or 5 months, but my mind keeps on asking for more. It's very hard to recall everything that needs to be done. This halts my process. I really help. #OCD with list making I don't know If I have these OCDs. I have had OCD in the past, and now I am depressed, and maybe that's why my OCD has come back in different forms. My mind also wants to know If I really have OCD. If it is not OCD, I should then not get treated myself with OCD tricks my therapist applied on me. My mind also thinks that would ERP really work? I don't know why I am asking this question from a psychologist, as I had an experience while using ERP to treat religious therapy in the past, and it went well. Sadly, one bad thing happened, I became distant from religion. I have lost connection with God. I think it happened because of using ERP. My therapist asked me not to say sorry to anyone whatever may happen. Then, I followed her. She did remove my limiting beliefs, but then I think my Islamic beliefs also got removed. I am not able to connect with God as I was used to. Furthermore, this situation did not occur when my therapist did these things. It occured when I read about other religions and critical thinking. I think that I need to read all the books to get some or relevant information out of it. I also feel like I cannot complete THAT assignment because I won't be able to write 1200 words. I won't be able to complete it on time. Moreover, I have delayed it so many times, and I have not coordinated my issues to ma'am after once, so it is possible that my ma'am won't accept my assignment, therefore, my mind thinks that why to make an assignment when she won't even accept it? Why to make an assigment when she will give less marks even if she accepted? Well, I am a high scorer, and I need to work and I feel the need to get full marks in anything I do. I am really tired. There are so many books to read, and I am not able to decide which one I should read first. Some 90 days, my cell phone got snatched, and also some 15 days ago, my cell phone got stuck, and all the data had to be erased, so I am very much converned about data loss even before writing anything. When I read from a book, even if I highlight it, I worry that I won't be able to find it faster as I find something from a pdf, and it stops me from reading from a book. It is very bad for me. I think that I might tell someone something wrong, so I do not tell them, and my fellows are very demanding. They say I need to help them out all the time. They even complained to one of my professors that I do not help them out. Illogically, my professor also put her burden on me while saying I should help my class mates. I have told her that their behaviour with me is very wrong. They criticize me. Still, she kept on insisting that I should help my fellows (instead of her, as it is her work, and the classmates were also asking for help from her in the first place).

I’ve convinced myself that I molested my cousin who is 1 and 1/2 years younger than me when we were kids. When we were about 6 or 7 (could have been younger) we got under the covers and pretended to “play adult” and we just rubbed each other’s arms and backs and that’s all I remember. I’m in group therapy and this one girl said her 14 year old cousin molested her 7 year old and her story triggered my thought to when I was a kid with my cousin and had me thinking “am I like that person?? Did I do those things??” When in reality I didn’t. My therapist and psychiatrist told me the behavior I experienced with my cousin is child sexual exploration and it’s normal developmental age. I told my cousin about it and she had no idea what I was talking about and said it’s normal for kids to do things like that. Can someone please help me??? I was so young and didn’t know any better. Just needing advice. I feel horrible right now. This thought is debilitating and It’s making me feel so bad.

discussion!: who here is a believer that ocd can be “cured(no symptoms/minimal).” who is a believer that we will have to put up w this for the long run. i’ve read so many mixed stories and i’m real curious what people think/ what their goal is for recovery. let’s spread some hope if we can in the comments. i’m feeling like i only have a few more turns left on this road to recovery, but i am not sure exactly what that means even tho i’m going thru it. i know i will always have the thoughts as they can’t be “removed”from my mind. but it’s almost as if they are turning into memories i can recall when i remember associations w them. ok that’s all but a discussion on this would b cool :^]