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I'll be honest... I'm really not doing good right now :(. I went to the renaissance festival with my friends and somehow my ex who never liked to do anything was there with another girl. I saw him twice. My ocds been super bad lately, as my period is coming. Especially the hocd. Could someone give me some tips with no reassurance on how to deal with this situation please? š„²
I feel like my thoughts have been getting worse and I ruminate a lot. This morning I told myself I wasnāt going to let the thoughts get to me but itās hard. Than the anxiety kicks in and my heart starts racing so fast and I just have these intrusive thoughts. And I donāt want to do the things I normally do to feel better but I feel like I donāt do my compulsion I will end up doing what my intrusive thoughts are and it scares me. I just donāt know what to do anymore. Iām so scared. I want to get out of this cycle but I lack discipline and strength. I donāt know if Iāll ever get out of this. I want to get better but I canāt seem to ignore the thoughts or the feelings. I wish I could be like some of the people on here who can discipline and know thoughts are thoughts. Iām just so weak minded. Itās so hard, I want my life back before I had all these disgusting thoughts. I want me back and I donāt know if I ever will. Iām scared that erp wonāt work for me. Iām just so pessimistic. Iām scared of doing erp and coming out of it realizing I am those things. Everyday I wake up itās like Iām trying to survive. I worry about when night comes and what will happen if I sleep and if Iāll be able to get sleep. I worry about waking and waking up to me checking to make sure everyone in my house is okay. To make sure I didnāt do thoughts that I had about my family members. I feel guilty being around my family members because of the thoughts I have about them. Iām afraid of being alone with them for too long because Iām scared that the anxiety will get to me and Iāll do something disgusting. I just donāt understand why this happened to me and why I have to suffer. Everyday is a constant battle. I just want to give up or just move away. Maybe even get up start a new life where I just live alone and donāt hurt nobody. This is so hard and I hate it so much. If you read my rant, thank youš.
So i have an amazing boyfriend. Hes patient, understanding, and very reassuring. I also have a guy best friend who has been there for me through a lot. I guess i just want to know if this would be considered ROCD? Because i never really knew that was a thing. We did sexual things last night. We have done them before and i havent had intrusive thoughts. But last night i had intrusive thoughts about āwhat if this was my guy best friend insteadā and what if this was his body instead and images of him were popping up in my head. Then the guilt came. Why would i think about him like that? I have to tell my boyfriend. I have to confess. I know this is part of OCD. I know its a compulsion. Itās frustrating because in my last relationship this exact same thought popped up in my mind during sexual things and i told my last bf when it did too. He was understanding and we worked thru things also but then my brain started finding other ābad thingsā to think of during intimate times with him. I dont want to be thinking about my guy friend. I want to be thinking about my boyfriend. It doesnt help that the world now also questions me constantly the fact i have a platonic relationship with another man. It makes my suspected OCD worse in this specific aspect. I guess i just need advice, or someone to atleast tell me im not the only one who has experienced this. My boyfriend is an amazing man and i feel like hes so understanding but slowly its ruining things and draining him. He wants to help me with my suspected OCD and wants to be there for me but i feel like telling him about my obsessions is just feeding into them. But i dont want him left in the dark either.
So Iāve started to begin a relationship and my ocd was pretty good but now Iām starting to think I HAVE to tell him what my real event ocd is about. But I am so scared to :/
Does anyone else feel guilty for making stupid jokes that feel innocent but later you worry paints your significant other in a bad light?! I'm obsessing right now and feel absolute guilt after making what at first felt absolutely harmless
Before starting ERP for Real Event OCD, did anyone else think ātheyāll never have heard something like this beforeā?
Itās one thing to think something bad, because thoughts arenāt actions but how do you deal with actually doing something bad? The guilt is consuming me.
I'm Lesbian,but since these disturbing thoughts started some of them are like "do I like guys?","I want to kiss some guys",but like that's not really my thing if you know what I mean,I really dont like guys and this to me is kind of weird Can ocd be like this?
I appreciate all of you here so much šš§” (even whoever it is that blocked me, no hard feelings š) āSafe spaceā is kind of a buzzword now, but after all the time and effort Iāve put into different kinds of therapy over the years, this is by far the safest-feeling and most motivating group Iāve been part of. Seeing so many other people working on the same things Iām chipping away at is helping me stay the course when I get discouraged. Even though I mostly try to keep it positive here (or at least constructive), Iām glad to feel like I can get into the really hard stuff or work through things through here when I need to, since thereās not really anywhere else in my life where I can do that. šš§”
Physical intimacy triggers can be so scary. It's hard cause it feels like, even when you do the thing and face the uncertainty anyway, it doesn't feel the way it always used to feel like to kiss your partner. It feels like it will be a thing that has some doubt tied to it forever :/
Iāve talked about my rocd before, and how Iām so done with it. But can someone give me some insight as to why. Why does my ocd make me think I canāt or Iām not allowed to be in a relationship. Iām 15 going on to be 16 in the spring, and itās not like Iām not allow d or something by my parents. They donāt mind at all as long as Iām being treated ok. But since discovering my ocd in the first place I realized about my rocd as well. It didnāt have as bad affect on me when I was younger because I didnāt care and I wasnāt where I am now, but now Iām at the age where Iām getting asked out or Iām becoming friends with these guys and I canāt even go on a date with them or hang out because I just keep getting intrusive thoughts. There getting worse, itās causing me nausea, and itās overall driving me crazy. I just donāt understand why my brain thinks all these negative bad things, like I havenāt even been able to give it a shot. I donāt have a nocd therapist due to my location, and due to covid I can currently see a local therapist for a professional opinion, so I just donāt know what Iām supposed to be doing. Iām just so tired of never being able to chose what I want to do. I feel like my decisions at this point arenāt my decisions there all up to my ocd. I just hate it.
Has anyone on here experienced a serious increase in OCD while pregnant? I am pregnant and my OCD is really bad. My general anxiety is worse too and I feel like I canāt escape it. I am constantly either worrying, doing rituals, or faced with unpleasant thoughts. Any tips on what I can do to get through this??
Happy #flooffriday night :) here's a picture of me + gyppers š I have looked better lmao this pic was taken on a hair wash day She got up on the chair all by herself, it was a nice relaxing patio outing hehe I hope everyone is doing amazing tonight, how'd everyone's days go? š If you're struggling tonight, here's my favorite 60 second guided meditation for intrusive thoughts: https://www.pixelthoughts.co/#
My POCD thought feel to real. I feel like an actual p* I look at kids and check to see if Iām aroused or get a thought. Than I make a thought and it doesnāt scare me as much anymore and I donāt know why to do. Iām starting erp and Iām scared that Iām just going to end up realizing I probably am one. This is so tough I feel like admitting I am one and when I do I just cry because I know Iām not but why does it feel like this. I hate this I never had thoughts like this and I just want die
My mom just told me that she had a dream that I came out as gay to her and told her I wanted to break up with my fiancĆ©. I feel like Iām spiraling. Does this mean I really am? Does she think I am? If she thinks I am, isnāt that good proof? I know Iām asking for reassurance but Iām freaking.
Having a pretty bad relationship oriented spiral for the past two days. Stopped myself from asking for reassurance, but I havenāt slept that much and itās eating away at me. Any tips or advice on how to cope??? Like I said Iām unable to do anything because itās all Iām thinking about
Hey everyone so I need someone advice. So basically my friend does weed. And I have never done weed before and they asked me if I wanted to try some I could. And they arenāt peer pressuring me or anything like that. But Iām just curious but Iām also nervous. I am a teenager and I would just like to know anyoneās experiences with it when they were a teen if they have any. And also do you think it would be ok if I tried a little.
Is anyone here dealing with identity issues? I dont feel like myself at all, I feel my perception is different on everything, I feel blocked inside, like Im not present within myself. Any advice please?
Iām so scared therapy wonāt work and iāll be stuck like this foreverā¦.cause apparently therapy & medication only works for 70-80% of patients. Knowing my luck it wonāt work for meā¦. Iām so scared. This is my last resort. Iād rather die than live like this the rest of my life š And iāve been in therapy for like a month and a half and found no improvementāif anything Iāve been getting worse. The only thing Iāve noticed that Iāve improved on is recognizing the thoughts & being aware of my compulsions. Besides that, the thoughts havenāt improved one bit & i havenāt gotten any of my life back. AND THE FUCKING THIS IS IM SO SAD AND FEEL SO ROBBED OF LIFE CAUSE I HAVE THIS DREAM OF HAVING A HUSBAND AND HOUSE AND KIDS AND BEING A SUCCESSFUL WRITER AND MOTIVATIONAL SPEAKER YET MY BRAIN TELLS ME THATāS NOT WHAT I WANT AND I WANNA BE A LESBIAN I CANT WANT ANYTHING CAN I WTF
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