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Does anyone else have multiple different types of OCD? Everyone I know keeps saying how i can't be ocd because I dont clean all the time.

Recently I've been experiencing intense and intrusive thoughts about how time is constantly passing, and one day I will be old and frail. Like, OCD is trying to convince me that my whole life will pass me by and it'll be like one day I wake up and suddenly I'm old and on the verge of death. With this has come fear of what comes after death. I just want to enjoy life now, without these thoughts plaguing me. It's like I'm stuck living in the past and future rather than what's right in front of me. And it makes me so sick thinking about how one day I won't have my mom, or my dad, or my grandparents. It's not that this is foreign to me, it's just that my OCD latched onto it and now it just keeps playing in my head. It's so hard to live in the moment. Im thinking it was exasperated by the fact that my families dog died recently; she was so endlessly loved by all of us. It's been several weeks and I haven't been back to my mom's house since then. Not to mention I'm also moving states in a month. I am so stressed, and scared, and I feel like this feeling will never end, even though I know it will. Can anyone else relate? Or have any advice for getting through this theme? TL;DR: I've had really bad existential ocd lately based on mortality and the afterlife. Has anyone else experienced this?

How can I tell the difference between real urges and ocd screwing with me? I wake up in the morning and the first thing that happens is I start seeing harm images/thoughts. But now it’s starting to feel like I want those things, even though I don’t. Like it just feels like normal thoughts because I’m consciously thinking of them and it feels like my brain or body wants me to do these awful things. I know in my heart and my “normal” brain that this is not something I’d want, but it still is the first thing I see in the morning and I’m really starting to question how I actually feel. And if it will ever leave. Is that normal for this??? How do any of you ever tell the difference between these at this point?

It seems to me, that, OCD really flares up in times of idle, lonliness, boredom, etc. Perhaps its a result of lacking hobbies during down-time - too much time to just think. I'm a university student and it always seems to be the worst during the break periods like summer and winter break. I'm in a weird spot where the OCD feels normal and doesn't really bother me, but does at the same time. I don't find myself consumed by fear so much anymore, but more annoyed and frustrated at the presence of OCD thoughts. I experience religious OCD mostly, and yesterday I was less fearful and more just genuinely angry that I was having thoughts about hell and the afterlife. So it still feels like it can consume me at times, but I suppose ERP is also working in stopping the fear response. Perhaps, the anger I'm experiencing nowadays comes from being too hard on myself and impatient. I'm not sure. I'd love to know the community's thoughts on this.

Hey so I’m currently in high school and I graduate soon, but I’ve been struggling with symptoms of OCD maybe since early high school or my late middle school years. They’ve definitely gotten worse in my early high school years and I’ve caught onto them and talked to a family member about it, they said I could possibly have OCD. I pondered on it for a while and talked to my parents. They both laughed about it with each other and my father claimed my “mother had it and not me because I don’t do what she does” because she always needs things straight and in order. Ever since then I never bothered again to open up about it and kept it to myself. I’ve told a couple people since then and I got responses that didn’t do much for me, I’ve gotten “oh yeah you definitely have it I got some people around me that also do these things-“ and so on, or “oh maybe you have ADHD or-“ and then after that I didn’t say anything altogether. I don’t know what to do about diagnosis which is the main reason I got this app. I just hope there’s some more people like me out there that are struggling and can’t do much about it. No one around me gets it like I do and it’s so frustrating. It’s definitely not as bad as what I’ve seen from other people but it definitely eats at me everyday and can mess up my relationships and make me overthink my life and the environments around me. It holds me back from so many things and it’s stressful. I just need to know what I can do to stop it. Sorry for this depressing rant, I hope some of you can relate.

Love how social media allows nudity…I opened up instagram and instantly saw a naked women and that triggered some thoughts making me uncomfortable and second guess my sexuality. 😕I tried my best to tell myself “maybe or maybe not either way I don’t care” and sitting with the discomfort but it’s extremely hard. Especially when I’m currently talking to someone I really like and want to get to know him. Just makes life harder sadly.

It seems like there’s so many different forms of OCD that i’m truly left wondering what i’m seeking help for, and if this is even going to work for me. How do you know when you’ve had “false memory OCD”, “relationship OCD”, or even “suicidal OCD” i feel like i’m just so mentally twisted that i’ll just take whatever kind of help there is , even if this isn’t really what’s wrong with me? How would I even get my own boyfriend to understand what i’m going through if I’m diagnosed with OCD?

Hi all. I’m the girl who’s posted on here before about severe intrusive thoughts about her dog. It’s getting worse and I need someone to help me figure out if this has crossed the point of harm OCD into dangerous, check yourself into a psych ward territory. Please help me. The last few days, the urges/images have gotten stronger and are EXTREMELY gruesome and violent. I don’t want to trigger anyone but like…images of myself literally hacking my dog in half with a knife, pulling her apart, etc. It’s always her head and neck. I still know in my heart I don’t want to hurt her, but I feel like I’m going to. I don’t know how else to explain it. It’s like it’s going to happen and I’m just the vessel it’s going to happen with. I haven’t slept in days, especially not last night, because she was on my legs and I literally felt like if I didn’t move her I was going to do these horrible things to her. I’m living in a basically safe house with my family with nothing sharp or anything yet I still feel like I’m going to brutally harm her. Please help me. This is getting worse and DOES NOT feel like it’s “fake” urges. What do I do? I want her to be safe and I don’t trust myself at all.

It’s 4am and I’m really freaking myself out. So full disclosure…I used to watch Porn and this triggered SO OCD initially. I feel like it’s NOW jumped into POCD. In the past I used to click on vids of women performing sexual acts. (Hence the SO OCD) But now I’m freaking out that I actually finished and enjoyed myself to the vids that maybe said Teen in the title or what not. At the time I didn’t believe that those girls were actually underage because why would that be legal and distributed on Porn hub? Maybe these girls are trying to click bait a weird thing? I assumed Teen meant 18. Now I look back on it and feel gross and that I’m a predator. I would never condone anything like that in real life. I keep questioning myself like “Why the hell did I do that?” “why didn’t I click off the video?” If that person was actually 17 or younger I would freaking lose it. How could I live with myself? How could I ever be a good person?

Hey Everyone, I have been recently diagnosed with OCD within the past year. Finding this information out gave me an answer to so many years of struggle and feeling alone. I have had ups and downs and have been successful for a long time along this path of my own. Unfortunately, I experienced a massive panic attack 3 years ago that hospitalized me and has left me feeling at the 'start' again, but this time it feels worse than it ever has before. Anything that puts me potentially by myself or having to do anything by myself I cannot fathom, I can barely make it to the gas station at the corner of my house alone. I have been in therapy, went through EMDR/ACT and CBT. I was doing great for a little bit and even made one appointment about 10 minutes away from my home all alone by myself (also note I am in a new area completely that I just moved too). I was on medication at this time *lexapro 20MG*, I am no longer on it due to my bloodwork being extremely abnormal for my age. Now that I am no longer on it - I have fear creeping in that the lexapro kept me sane and that I cannot cope without it. I understand this is not the case entirely but there is something in me that believes that to be true. Long story short, I am looking for individuals who have had the same experience as me and could give me some hope into getting back to my normal routine (even knowing I have OCD now). I just want to be independent again and not burden my loved ones and learn to be okay with myself. Thanks in advance!

My life has changed so much in the past 2 months due to an interaction I had. 2 months ago I was outside of a comedy show venue waiting for my brother to arrive. He was running late so I was trying to kill the time by scrolling on my phone. Then this security guard walks up to me and starts a conversation with me. He was asking me questions about the comedian I was gonna watch. He then asked me if I was planning on going out after the show was over. He was asking for suggestions about cool stuff to do around town (I guess he had recently moved to the area). It was then that he asked me for my phone number. I then told him that I had a boyfriend so that he could piece together that I wasn’t interested in him that way. He then assured me that he was “not trying to get at you that way.” He said he was just trying to grow a social circle since he had just moved. He then just started asking me for relationship advice. He was impressed that I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years now. Then I started to tell him that my boyfriend and I are involved with the rave community and this seemed to peak his interest. He mentioned that he had always been interested in the rave community, but didn’t know much about it. I then told him that there is an upcoming rave in the area and that maybe he could come with my boyfriend and I if he was interested. For added context, my boyfriend and I have been talking about making new friends recently since some of our friends have moved recently. We then exchanged instagrams and at the moment I was comfortable with this since he assured me that he wasn’t interested in me romantically. Additionally, my boyfriend and I have no problems with having friends of the opposite gender. My brother finally made it to the venue and we went inside to go watch the show together. The guy sent me a message stating “it was nice meeting you today” and then I replied “Yeah meeting new friends can be cool” (I wanted to reiterate that I just wanted to be friends). He then replied with “Yeah definitely want to make new friends this time around.” These were the only messages we sent to each other. I felt okay and pretty neutral about the interaction until the day after. The day after, I noticed that he had liked an old picture I posted on Instagram. The picture he had liked was one where I had some cleavage showing. This was when the negative thoughts hit me like a ton of bricks. Looking back I think I may have overreacted, but I took him liking one of my pictures as a flirtatious advance. Then the thoughts started attacking me: “Did I say something that made him believe he had a chance with me? Did I accidentally cross a boundary with my boyfriend?” These thoughts have been on reply 24/7 and I don’t know how to make them stop. The day after these thoughts started, my boyfriend came back into town from a trip. Since I was filled with doubt, (and I was planning on telling him about the interaction regardless) I decided to tell my boyfriend about the interaction to see what he felt about it. I kept the details pretty brief at first. I let him know that he had asked for my number, and that I told the guy I have a boyfriend. I said that the guy told me he wasn’t interested in me that way. I also told my boyfriend that the guy was interested in the rave community and that we exchanged instagrams. I then let him know that the guy had liked an old picture of mine and that I blocked him after that. My boyfriend was not freaking out whatsoever. He didn’t show concern, and said he didn’t think anything was wrong with the interaction. I felt some relief, but that didn’t last long. About 2 weeks after the thoughts wouldn’t stop, so I felt the need to talk to my boyfriend about it again just to make sure everything was okay. I was more direct this time. I asked him, “do you feel like I crossed a boundary by initiating a friendship with a man?” He immediately reassured me that he did not have a problem with that whatsoever. He told me that I could be friends with whoever I wanted. Additionally, he said that he would be a hypocrite if he did have a problem with that, because he has friends who are women. He has never made me feel insecure about this and I also do not have a problem with him being friends with women because we trust each other. This provided me with relief… but again not for long. Another week or so passed and the thoughts weren’t going away. The thoughts started having more of a negative impact on my life. I started eating less, sleeping less, and socializing less. Crying everyday. The panic attacks were frequent. I began to see the negative impact the thoughts were having in my professional and personal life. Not only did I notice this, but my boyfriend did as well. He started growing concerned about me, and on a particularly hard day for me, he asked me what was wrong. This is when I finally broke down to him. I started crying inconsolably. I told him that I couldn’t stop thinking about the possibility of me leading that guy on. I asked my boyfriend to be 100% honest with me and tell me if he had a problem with the interaction. He assured me that he did not have a problem at all, unless the guy was pressuring me to share my Instagram. He asked me if the guy harmed me/harassed me in any way. He was concerned for my safety. I then told him that in the moment I didn’t feel like he was harassing me, and that I genuinely thought he wanted to be friends with me. My boyfriend gave me the biggest hug and just let me cry. He was really there for me and told me I didn’t do anything wrong. He assured me that he would let me know if he had a problem. I let him know I was starting therapy, because at the bottom of my heart, I really do believe my mind is giving me irrational thoughts. My boyfriend said he was proud of me for starting therapy and that he had noticed recently that my “spark” was gone. I felt relief, but again, not for long. I asked for reassurance two other times with others. I asked for reassurance with two close friends, and with my sister on a different occasion. They had similar responses that my boyfriend had. They stated that they didn’t think I cheated or that I messed up in any way. This was when I realized that asking for reassurance wasn’t helping me in the long run. I talked about this with my therapist. She asked me about other symptoms related to OCD and that’s when she told me that she suspects that I have OCD. I have only seen her for two sessions so she has not given me a formal diagnosis. She challenged me to no longer seek reassurance. It has been super difficult to resist, but thankfully I have been able to not ask for reassurance. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through, and I feel so alone. I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me, and the thoughts feel so real to me most of the time. I genuinely feel like I am going crazy. I just want to feel normal again. I’m so scared that this will ruin my relationship with my boyfriend. He is the kindest and sweetest soul and I don’t want to lose him. Thank you in advance to anyone who read all the way through… I’ve just been feeling so trapped in my mind and felt the need to write this whole thing out. Any advice would be much appreciated! I just feel so lost.

cheating has been always against my morals, most of the people i love the most got cheated on, including my boyfriend in his past relationship. i never wanted to cheat on him or hurt him. i have this classmate that i really wanna be friends with, she's fun to be around with, everyone in the class likes to tease her bc of her personality, and she's pretty too. she's one of the unproblematic person in my class that's why i wanna be friends with her so bad. fortunately, i became her friend, and we will be classmates for upcoming school year along with my bf. on the last week of may i started having thoughts about being attracted to her but i just ignored it. on june 3, she messaged on our gc jokingly wanting us to get her a boyfriend, i felt jealous that time but i never wanted to feel that way. i ignored it until june 5, we went to the university we will be enrolling for along with my bf. i acted normal around her, i always tease her a lot. june 5 at night the thoughts took over me, i felt so guilty thinking i cheated and my energy went from 100 to 0, my bf even asked me if i'm fine. i convinced myself that it's just a false attraction, but maybe it is a real attraction. now i'm wondering if i'm a cheater or not, because all this time i thought it's just a false attraction that's why i still treated her the same despite having those thoughts that i like her. i am still not sure if i am really attracted to her but the jealousy feeling is making me believe that i'm really is. i'm terrified that i am attracted to my friend while i'm in a relationship, i don't have any control over this feeling and i know to myself that i will forever choose my boyfriend over anyone. i just couldn't get the guiltness out of my head, thinking that maybe i cheated on him because i thought it's just a false attraction so i just continued to be friend with that girl despite having the thoughts, but as soon as the thoughts got severe i put a boundaries between us and my bf knows about it. all this time i believed that it's just a false attraction but i read in reddit that it's normal to feel attraction to others while in a relationship, but freaking out and worrying about it means OCD, that's when i realized that maybe i am really attracted to her and i'm just terrified that i'm cheating. i just want an answer if i cheated for not putting boundaries as soon as i got the thoughts, because i thought it was just a false attraction at first. send help pls.

I downloaded this app a few days ago but this is my first time using it because idk I feel uncomfortable talking about what I’m going through. Whenever I’m on TikTok and I see videos about rape and children who are raped, it makes me really uncomfortable of course but the thing that makes me uncomfortable is when I hear about it, I’d think about it explicitly. Like a man’s body part being forced into a woman’s or a child’s and it makes me feel weird. Like when you watch porn and you feel some kind of way, idk how to explain it because I don’t wanna say it turns me on cs that would be insensitive, but like it’s weird and I hate it. The thought of it clouds my mind and it makes me cry, I feel sick and like I should talk to someone about that but I don’t wanna feel like a pedophile or labeled as someone who likes when people get raped because I really don’t, I think it’s awful that happens but it’s just the way it makes me feel.

I am almost 18 right now and when I was 16 and under I did some horrible things I regret and make me feel like a bad person. I won’t go into detail but stuff people would find weird/hate me for. I am quite popular on social media and I see people getting cancelled so much on TikTok for things I used to do. It scares me. I acknowledge that what I did was bad and don’t do it anymore/havent done it again but the things still haunt me :(. I imagine scenarios of being cancelled and being infamous and everybody hating me. The stuff I did was because I was immature/didn’t really know it was wrong but I still feel like such a shitty person. I really want to be a good person and try to and whenever I try to think “I’m a good person” my ocd cancels it by reminding me of all the stuff I have done and I can’t call myself a good person. It also affects my boyfriend as well and my ocd latches onto him being imperfect. He has done things wrong/ things that have upset me, but my ocd takes this and uses it to show me “he’s a bad person” and we are both “problematic” I’m currently obsessing over it.

I am young but when I was younger I used to do bad perverted things with other females before I gave my life to Christ. So passing those years and coming to now I have already told my momma about how much trauma those experiences brought me. But when I was in 7th grade I started having bad and perverted thoughts about everyone I see but this was a little before me meeting christ but I kept seeing people and then thinking of then naked or me seeing them doing things with me or me thinking I like them/have a crush on them but the thing is I don't like them and I hated those thoughts, I knew they were wrong and they were disgusting and I hated them so fast forward to me finding christ in the summer of me going to 8th grade, My life got better I got away from bullies and started online school but the one thing that didn't stop Is the perverted thoughts I kept going on and on about how much I love God and I still do but the thing is I kept thinking these things then rebuking them but then I thought about them again and they came back and it has been weighing in my back so I told my mom my testimony about how I found Christ and what I used to do and she was very understanding and loving about it so fast forward to now or a little after the school year ended I started going through serious mental and religious stress where I felt like I had to stope talking to my friend so is started doubting God instead of seeking him I continuously felt hopeless like I should quit or I should just not be here anymore because I felt hopeless like I had no love or the God I grew so fond of wasnt loving like I thought but I got over that so fast forward to know a month after All of that started I keep telling my mom about everything even the small little details and I've been feeling good about it but the thing Is I tell her things but then I feel like it's not enough and I have to tell her more so coming back to the perverted thoughts they never stopped and I told my mom about them and I told her specifically that I keep having perverted thoughts about everybody I keep thinking about nakedness or I keep thinking I like them but then I rebuke it but they keep coming back and my mom felt very stressed with me because along with all the work that she does she has to deal with me and no she didn't mean that in a bad way but with me she said she feels like everything she is doing for me isn't enough because I keep continuously feeling her more and more and more and she feels like all that she is doing her prayer, her hugs, her love and her messages aren't working because I keep telling her more and more and more bad but never about me being better and that was yesterday she also says when she is at work she can't help but think about me and if I'm still here or if I'm breaking down or if something is happening so she is constantly worried and it us causing her serious stress and I feel bad and yesterday was just a bad day for her period, but that was yesterday and today I keep feeling like what I told her about my mind and the thoughts isn't enough I keep feeling like I have to tell her more like the exact people and I don't want to anymore and what i mean by that Is I feel like I have to go into detail and I have to tell her every little spell and dust about the situation and it is stressing me out because I genuinely feel like I have said enough like I feel like I need to tell her the exact people and yes I've had thoughts like this about family also but the thing is I told her everybody I see and I feel like that is enough but I feel like everytime I tell her something it has to be in perfect detail and I have to tell her every little thing or else what I told her ain't credible and I see that that has been negatively impacting me and her because it's making her feel like she isn't doing enough for me or she is being a bad mother because of all that Is happening and the fact that I have to tell her ever little detail and it's hurting me because I feel like I don't want to go into detail because im not comfortable but if I don't I feel like I'm failing my mom and God and I don't know what to do anymore does anyone have anything to help me with about this from a Christian perspective?

I wanted to push off writing this, but last night I wanted to escape by drinking when I literally couldn’t because I was in a random offskirt area in Osaka. I was feeling awful about me making out with that guy in Korea. And I catch myself doing behaviors relating to ocd. Getting reassurance from my partner without realizing it. Reassurance because he doesn’t know what I did. He trusts me and I fucking was playing. I had the urge to want to tell him. I feel like I can’t I’ve forward without telling him. But at the same time should I? I want to work with him and not fuck it up again. But I don’t want this secret to make me fall into old behaviors bc I really feel like I can’t spend the rest of my life with someone and just not tell them. I don’t get why I let my impulsiveness get the best of me. For awareness, I think it was the edge and the high from it, I didn’t think of the consequences, but now left with them. I think my ocd was obsessive that I find people attractive, and I like the attention I receive fr those I am attracted to. I find it reassuring to know that I can have the one I think is attractive. It builds my self esteem. In other ways, I must find other ways that build my self esteem. I love my partner I wish I never cheated in the first place. I was always scared that someone would do that to me, and I have projected that onto several people yet here I am doing exactly my fears. I just want to know how to live with rocd and have a healthier relationship with it

I dont know anymore, just a minute ago I was sure I wasn't this person but now I feel like I really am this person. The thing that puts the cherry on top is that it doesn't feel like how it use to feel when I was suffering from pocd a few months ago, I remember I had so much anxiety and I would wake up with such a heavy heart and scream and cry because of it but now it feels like I feel nothing. It feels like maybe this is the person I always was while making me think I like these things, I never wanted to be a pedo I never want to hurt babies and children I never wanted to end up like those predators on Quora that will only ever feel loved by a touch of a child.. I want to be a good person and not only by my actions but who I am mentally. I keep ruminating on thoughts like this asking my self over and over if im attracted to them or do I find it hot and sometimes I wouldn't even be sure and it just feels like I am, or I would have a thought and I would feel sensation down there (I don't act on anything by the way) it would feel uncomfortable for the most part but then sometimes I feel like I like it deep down. I remember I read somewhere where this guy randomly started being attracted to minors and how much he enjoyed fantasizing about it, and im scared that I might turn into that guy.. I know I dont fantasize about it and im honesty worried that I will. Then I read somewhere that ocd can cause feelings that aren't true but how do I know that it isn't true, how do I know that this isn't who I am deep down, how do I know if im just in denial or not because just a minute ago I was crying a little but even through my tears it feels like a lie. People tell me that its okay and that im not one but I dont know if I can believe them anymore because there will always be something in my mind telling me that everything people say to me and that the person who I was before this was all just some lie, who even am I.

Been really struggling with existential OCD since I’ve been dealing with derealization due to high stress levels. I constantly ruminate on how weird it is that we exist. I often ponder solipsism, too. Sometimes I convince myself I am the only person that exists and so I start to try to test that theory by asking questions to my family/friends and trying to predict their answers. I find this ridiculous intellectually but it’s a compulsion I can’t seem to stop. I find existential themes particularly distressing due to the fact that these ideas are unfalsifiable for the most part. Every day I wake up in a dissociated state, constantly feeling this awful dread about existence and how strange it is and how alone I feel in it even though I am not alone technically.

Votes just happened in the uk, and my boyfriend used vote and lent it to a very bad party, unfortunately that is against human rights, racist and all stuff like that. His intentions weren’t bad at all, he didn’t vote because he SUPPORTS the party, he voted because he was lending a vote/tactically voting and KNEW that the party he chose wouldn’t win and didn’t want them to. At no point as he “supported” the party, he just wanted to take votes away from the main 2 (conservative and labour) and vote for the next one down to show those 2 parties that seats weren’t safe and they need to improve if they won. My friend of 4 years has possibly decided to stop talking to me because of my partners decision. I tried to explain that they misunderstood my bf and he doesn’t support the party he voted, but they weren’t willing to listen and accused my partner of all sorts. It hurts so much. My boyfriend KNOWS the party he voted is bad and very much dislikes them, and after talking to him he realised he made a bad choice and there was a better, less problematic option that he wishes he had voted. He explained why he voted to some other people, who were open minded and willing to listen to his explanation. It just really hurts how my friend was closed minded and wasn’t willing to listen to how they misunderstood my boyfriend. My ocd is going crazy about if he’s a bad person, wether I made the right decision, when actually his values are similar to mine and my friends, but because as soon as my friend heard the name of the party my bf voted, they were rude and not willing to listen to anything. My friend mistakenly believed my partner voted for the party because those are his values when they aren’t and think he supports the party. He just wanted to take away a vote from the main 2 parties at the top. Am I right for stopping talking to the friend? I’m an open minded person who is willing to understand why people make certain decisions. My boyfriend has stated he regrets voting the party he did and he has realised how bad they really are. He dislikes people who vote the party and WANT them to win, he thinks they are bad people. In so upset about this and I’m feeling like a terrible person, my friend made me feel like I’m a bad person when it wasn’t even my view/vote and I can’t stop feeling guilty. Is my partner bad???

I have been feeling off lately ever since I got a new temporary jib through the agency. I was cleaning and had a housekeeping job, I took the job because I was desperate. Anyways, An ugly lady I don't like bumped into me with my arms / - shoulders and my mind can't get rid of this intrusive thoughts I'm so annoyed with myself. The only thing that will help me is get a massage. I've been depressed since I my thoughts are reminding me of this and I unfortunately do not have a lot of money to get a massage right now. Since I can't solve my problem at the moment I have felt/fallen into a deep depression and I have no more energy because of it and my thoughts. As well as financial anxiety. Uggg! FUCK! I hate having ocd. It's driving me nuts! Also, that since my thoughts are also thinking that the germs are getting everywhere. My mind is going nuts and my ocd has been acting up a lot. I'm also tired of life. I also have been having a bit of a negative mindset thanks to my fogged up mind and depression thanks to all of this. I really hate people with moles. Sorry it just grosses me out and fucks up my mindset when somebody I don't like bumps into me. Help! I need advice!