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Hi everyone ❤️ Just wanted to say hello and hope everyone is ok x

When I woke up I knew I will have to go through OCD again. I was so angry with no reason for the very first time. My anger busted out out my rather and I dont know I felt like I dont want to talk to him. I felt so sorry. How to stop anger with no reason one???

I woke up at 4pm today. and it’s only 5:30 now , I just have a little anxiety and a pit in my stomach and like everything is okay I just feel so overwhelmed and not myself

I know groinal responses usually happen with intrusive thoughts and everything. But I’ve gotten them to things that I hear and they weren’t sexual at all and that makes me worry that I am what I fear :/

I should have over 7000 saved up and I only have 2000 need some help bills def take a toll on it

Im recovering from my surgery and Im mostly at home and walking in nature.. OCD is here with me and insisting on things and every day I have themes popping up some that I think of every day and some are new.. Im working on it though..

Is anyone on here in the medical field and struggle off and on with all kinds of OCD?

so when I have a fear for a while , and it starts to drift away and I realize like damn I haven’t been thinking about that today it makes me nervous ? it makes me think like “ is it gonna happen sense it’s not the top thing on my mind” like “ am I forgetting it so I won’t care” or something?

So for ocd the key is to always lean into the fear? Even when it feels so strong?

so…i did an exposure that triggered me really bad so i automatically started ruminating and that is all i am doing from yesterday, it really attacked my real event ocd and false memory to the point i started questioning my all life over again, its so exhausting like i tried accepting the uncertainty but all of this mixed up with my low libido and my avoidant attachment made everything worse, it seems like im constantly lying to mysef and that i need to come out but at the same time i know from my core that i don’t want anything like that for me, it feels so real but at the same time so far from my true self, do i even know who my real self is? im not even scared anymore just tired and im sorry if it sound really bad but i genuinely feel that i might vomit if i see a kid now

this is sort of both anxiety and ocd related. i’ve needed to get my wisdom teeth out for a while. they aren’t causing major problems but it’s uncomfortable. i’ve tried 3 times i think with 2 different places and i’ve had terrible panic attacks and wasn’t able to do it. the places i’ve gone have also been HORRIBLE with treating people with anxiety. i really just want to get it done but it feels genuinely impossible. it’s like i absolutely cannot let the needle in my arm for the anesthesia and let it happen. i don’t know how to do it or get passed it. has anyone else had anything like this and how did you get through it?

trying to sleep tonight and hoping insomnia doesn’t get me again wish me luck 😩

Hello all! I hope you are all doing well out there. I know this isn’t a sight where we can necessarily get medication information or prescriptions but, I was just curious if anyone here is/has been on any meds and if it has helped/ how you went about doing so. Thanks!

me and my boyfriend are not having a good day . it just feels like everything each other do or says hurts the other ones feelings, but im spiraling into thoughts like “does he feel the same vibe i do or am i just crazy”, “ is he breaking up with me”, “should i break up with him because i don’t like this feeling right now”, “does this feeling mean i don’t love him”, “does he love me?”, and im just sitting there staring into space while he’s just keeps asking me what’s wrong over and over again. I don’t know what to tell myself when i start thinking like this because the thought are just moving so fast and feel like they’re pounding on my brain. then i also keep telling myself “why can’t i just not read into it and let be what it is. a bad day thats it” and then consisted to beat myself up and break down all in front of him without me saying a word. I just want to know a technique to cope when my head starts feeling like that in the moment because right now all i do is ruminate about it and ask myself “why am i like this?”, “is this ocd or a red flag” i feel like im going crazy. i really hope someone can relate.

At some point withouth anxiety did you "came out" as your fear sexual orientation did any of you felt some sort of peace? Like it was true and you were ok with it, and not just for a second, like it lastes some minutes at least. I fear being gay but once I came out as bi and now that memory it's comming back to me (I don't wanna be bi either)

I can't explain how grateful I am for finding this! It is so relieving to know I'm not alone in this battle and that I'm not crazy. We can do this! Focus on the positives!

I saw this and I thought it could be applied to ERP. The stones never really go away, it just gets easier to carry them.

* i don’t have any trauma or ptsd* this is a really big problem for me because i always spend so much time thinking about this. like hours on end. every single day. this is what i mean: i feel like i always spend my time in my memories and think about how things like living in one city was terrible and i hated it and how now i love my new city better and it has changed my life. that’s just one example. i also think about all of my exes and how each one is different and what each one taught me or how they treated me. i think about how i was in second grade vs how i acted in third grade and just topics like that. i also try to make a system for everything even though i hate having a routine where every day is the same. for example i spent an hour trying to figure out what time is the perfect time to shower everyday so that no matter what i’m busy doing after/before school i can always shower at the same time. i also have a constant urge to figure out why i feel a certain way. or why i do certain things, like why i said a certain sentence instead of a different one. this is what it feels like in my brain: it’s an obsession. i know that it’s ocd. i go to therapy for it and i’m also on medication. but it feels like an itch in my brain. i get hooked on a thought and i get a sense of heaviness on my shoulders and chest. then, i feel like i need to figure it out and sort it out in my brain and come up with a conclusion. if i try not to think about it, it makes the weight on my shoulders more. when i’m in class and trying to listen to my teacher i feel like my brain is constantly nagging at me to figure out what the problem is and i need an answer or some sort of closure

Is it common for it to feel so real to the point where there isn't any anxiety? Just sadness and loss of identity and not knowing who you are anymore

Does anyone on here have ADHD as well as OCD? Idk if it’s my health entity convincing me I have ADHD or if I actually have it idk maybe, maybe not. Just feel so depressed lately bc of my mental health idem who I am anymore or why I even exist I hate the fact that I have to live with ocd I feel like I have so much trauma that I haven’t dealt with fully everything that gone wrong in my life including my health I feel like it’s all my fault what’s the point anymore I’m not living I’m surviving. I wake up in the morning dreading the day with impending doom. I’ve been working on my ocd and it is better but am no where near where I need or want to be right now.can anyone relate?

I fear that I am evil- that I am an inconvenience that I need to apologize for. But if I truly am just fundamentally evil, then there's nothing I can do to change that. If my fear is correct, then no apology will make me good. If I'm not evil, then everything is fine. Either way, there is nothing I can do. I can only do what makes me happy. I can only do what I can. I don't need to apologize for existing. I exist. I am. That's not good or bad, it just is. I cannot change that. I cannot unmake myself. Maybe I am a mistake. Maybe God loves me. Maybe God hates me. Maybe nothing is real. I don't know the truth about the universe and I never will. All that I have is what is right in front of me. This is real to me, I am real to me. I am trying to figure out what I want, who I am, how to not live for other people, not apologize for existing. I've never really said this out loud until now, but I wanted to say it.

I feel like I don’t care about what happens to strangers and I feel like people have texted me about something bad happening to strangers and I just ignore it and that when I look back I just don’t care. I don’t know if I’m overthinking all of this and this all just feels like a puzzle I cannot solve.

What if it turns out better than you could have ever imagined?

is it possible to fully overcome hocd thoughts ? or is it genuinely something i have to live with forever. i’ve been thinking about how i wanna get back to being certain and i’ve seen videos of ppl saying you can actually overcome and keep the thoughts dead but i just wanna know if anybody’s done it before and how i’ve been doing self erp trying to find a real therapist but sometimes i get frontal responses that throw me off my progress. so that brings me here again

I’ve been doing ERP for over 4 months now and I have seen improvements at times but there’s also been times where I’ve had severe anxiety and ocd again. Is it time I should try medication? I’ve been looking into Prozac and it looks like it could help out a lot. Thoughts?

why is it i remember something but my minds trying to say different and get me to think that something happened how do i go about it o know it's just thoughts but it's hard when it's trying to creat a cycle to get you stuck into it

These days I have an obsession that I have aspd.I get so anxious idk what to do.

Going on night 4 of no sleep and I feel like I am going crazy even more 😞 just got a new puppy and he’s so sweet but now my ocd is having horrible harm thoughts about him. And I’m 26 and want a baby soon so bad but I feel like I don’t know if I would be a good mom because of this, like I almost don’t trust myself because of the thoughts like I am afraid of myself. I’m so tired of this ocd controlling me ): any moms that have overcome this? Hate how it attaches to things we love and makes us doubt so much to the point of not trusting ourselves. So scary. Need some positive words of advice!

My bf made some jokes about yoga and how some people are honoring the devil. Ofc I googled it and some articles are saying the same thing and some aren’t. My boyfriend told me to stop stressing and it’s okay if I do it because I like it. Now I’m worried if it’s true. 😒

“Lay down your map and compass, and those dog-eared travel guides…Give up the weight of knowing” [even if just for a minute]…-Christine Valters Paintner

It may have had a chance before you knew what was happening. It doesn't stand a chance now that you're here. Expose yourself to your fears, sit with the anxiety, stare it in the face. You will get better and better and better at it. You will suffer setbacks. So what? Nothing good in life comes easy. Come back to the present moment, right *now* - think what can I do right *now* to improve things. Intrusive thoughts are noise. Dismiss them, tolerate them, laugh at them, mock them, write them down and rip them up. A time will come when you lay your head down at night and cannot remember a single intrusive thought *all day*. That day WILL come, and when it does it will be because of YOU and your hard work.

One thing i struggle with is determining is something is an actual threat or if its my ocd? Where do we distinguish that line?

School is so aggravating some times i feel like I can never catch a break and my burn out and perfectionism isn’t going well. I doubt myself despite my good grades like all As and nothing less and still feel like its not enough and that if i fail it will lead to me having the worst life ever. But now im starting to just space out and blank out in class because im unsure it im actually understand anything. Sometimes its even hard for me to just recall what i learned. And It got so bad somedays i had horrible headaches that almost made me get medical help because it just wouldn’t stop. I just wanna get school ofer with but still get good grades but i can barely focus in my self or interest. Even at home I do my work as told and still can’t seem to even understand if I actually did study or not or study enough. Like i have to give myself more homework to try and just push through it. But I really I have zero time for Art which then I have my own issues with that as well and my confidence just plummets and I get overwhelmed. Trying to understand the work then trying to get it done while not understanding and then going home to being exhausted and not even being able to indulge in the things I enjoy because I have to deal with this is awful.

I get intrusive thoughts about harming my daughter. I’ll get an intrusive thought and then I’m my head I’ll say to myself “I don’t want to hurt her” repeating until I feel better. Well “what if I want to hurt her “ popped into my head and now I’m second guessing myself. I have doubt. I know if it came down to it I’d never hurt my baby but the fact that I doubted it is like replaying in my head. I’m scared. I want to cry. I feel like I want to turn to god and ask for help but I’m scared to cause that could mean I’m being delusional. I’ve never been super religious but grew up with a religious family so now that I want to turn to god I’m like am I being delusional? Is this my OCD? I know I’m not supposed to ask for reassurance but I need to know if I’m going crazy or something. My heart hurts. My brain is tired. And I’m scared.

Something that I think is helping me (hopefully lol) is going back through the text messages my bf and I have when we were communicating the uncomfortable conversations. And when I feel triggered from it, I kinda just force myself to feel the emotion and really come to terms with it. I don’t know if this counts as exposure therapy. Also other things that I do is try not to text him first. Are there other things that you guys could recommend to heal and have less anxiety in ROCD.

i finally got diagnosed!!!

Okay, so I’m dealing with a real event/ health combo hybrid.. but does anyone else get EXTREME flair ups in their OCD when sick? The last two times I’ve come down with something (sinus infection) my OCD tends to quite literally spiral to the extent where I cant focus on my physical well being because my mental health gets to such a bad place. Almost all of my thoughts are revolving around my health or mental health (am I dying? What if I have something incurable? Or even on a totally different spectrum.. what if I’m not even sick and I’m making this up because I’m a bad person? Or what if I am sick because I’m a bad person?) I feel like a computer trying to solve an impossible equation. Any kind of advice on this is welcomed

Sunday's are my cleaning days, I take all day to clean everything and prepare for the next day (school). Showers take me hours. Yesterday (Monday), I was asked to hangout with my friends but they peer pressured me into staying later then I wanted to. My social battery was low. When I got home late, I just cried for like 30 minutes because I knew I had to shower again and I knew I had no time or energy for it because I got home late and I just showered the day before. I ended up staying home from school today. This sucks so bad I wish my brain didn't work like this. Also wdym I won't look for reassurance?? Lol reassurance is literally keeping me from doing all this contamination bs but okayyy.

Even if you’re not a Christian, this can be applicable to anyone.

i wanna be happier

Are there any therapists that are in network with blue cross blue shield?

It’s weird because my brain has started taking memories from the past and using them against me to try and “prove” that I’m a problem. Even though these events didn’t phase me in the moment and weren’t glaring red flags to other people either. It’s tiring to say the least

Is there even an answer for Real Event OCD? I feel like so many of us suffer with this but I haven’t been able to figure out a way to overcome it, I don’t even know what the compulsions are, maybe mental checking? How do you even do an exposure for that?

I have a big interview this week and I’m just have intense thoughts about worrying about other people instead of my own happiness. Does anyone else feel this way ?

I just ate two peanut butter cups and I’m regretting it a little I wanted them but I also know that they are unhealthy and I also wanted to save money but I also want to stand up to OCD but then I think: If I eat sugar I will be in a bad mood. I just ate them but I what should I do next time?

Now my intrusive thoughts are like well even if your aren’t a pedo right now, you will be later. Like geez I can’t catch a break. I just want to feel like I used to -normal-

Does anyone else have a hair twirling compulsion? I’ve been dealing with this for years and gets really bad when i’m overwhelmed/upset. I do it to self soothe but it’s gotten to the point where i’m straining my neck from pulling and my hands are swollen and raw. I dont know how to stop and it’s getting really painful

I’m Sam, and I have OCD. I only realized and was diagnosed with this less than a year ago. Being a teen with OCD is hard, as sometimes it feels like people excuse my OCD on hormones and ‘every other teenager feels that way’ statements. I simply post this to introduce myself, and to show that I’m trying to better myself and get into therapy. I hope everyone has a wonderful day, and that even with OCD, we can all get through this.

Lately I have been feeling like I may not have OCD, maybe I’m just crazy and manipulative. I have been diagnosed with OCD for years now and tend to struggled a lot with relationships. My therapist has told me that my behaviors in relationships are caused by ROCD but sometimes I just feel like I’m a bad person. I am finally with a very nice person after an abusive relationship and I thought some of those symptoms may go away because this person is different but they’ve only gotten worse. I am so easily triggered and convince myself that my partner doesn’t like me and can’t handle me. I end up trying to break up almost weekly. Things will be good and then one small trigger blows everything up and i feel like I’m dying and can’t control myself. I don’t know if i’ll ever be able to be in a relationship

Like ill be thinking about something and ill get a weird "prick" on my skin. Almost like its saying "no thats not right" or "No dont do that". So ill think the thought again, and again ill get a prick. EVERY TIME. My thoughts control these pricks. And I hate it. Its almost like something is responding to me, and of course my magical thinking is telling me its God, smh. Can OCD do this? Cause I want to put this to rest once and for all. PS. when I just thought "can OCD do this?" as I was typing it, I got one. AS if to say "no it cant".

So I know in the grand scheme of things I haven’t really been doing ERP all that long, and my anxiety hasn’t been the worst ever especially compared to what I see on this app with some of falls triggering experiences. I even feel frustrated sometimes that I can’t seem to trigger myself “enough” with planned exposures. But heck I still get “what if this isn’t OCD” thoughts every single day. And I know therapy and treatment takes time and progress isn’t linear. So what are some other things you tell yourself (in a non engagement way) to sit with being persistent and patient with treatment?

Ugh I did a Bilram yoga class today and could smell the guys breath next to me. It was unbearable and i couldn’t stop obsessing about it the entire class - totally ruined my experience

Ppl with ocd are so kind and thoughtful even though our brain makes life horribly debilitating We never do that to others. We are super understanding when ppl do mistakes because we want kindness when we overthink/make our mistakes. Nerotypical ppl are usually so one track minded while ppl with ocd are usually super understanding because of false memories in case that situation happens. So let’s be kinder to ourselves we deserve it 🫶🏼

I need to count how many breaths I take, and start trying to fall asleep at exactly the right time, otherwise I will stay up all night again.

I am dealing with horrible harm OCD, which has been my hardest theme so far. I am attempting to sit with the thoughts and feelings as well as continue to do what I would be doing if I do not have OCD. This is all well and good, but one or more of the following have been happening: 1. I feel like I am lying to myself and I am really this horrible person 2. It feels like I need to run, and because I am sitting there, the anxiety intensifies 3. It feels like I’m holding myself back from acting on the thoughts 4. The urge to do the horrible thing intensified What is going on? What do I do?

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I feel like for as long as I can remember, my intrusive thoughts are in the form of questions. This morning, I couldn’t help but think “What do I want out of my life?””Do I want to be in a relationship with this person?””Am I making the right choices?” With every decision I make, I worry about other options, I feel like I am constantly worrying about what if this happens, what if I didn’t do that. I work with my therapist who encourages that I have issues with judgement. Because of this, I think I can never be 100% confident or assuring in myself or anything I do

i did 5 exposures today in my IOP. they were very difficult. i thought i would be too anxious to do more, because my low energy would make me more likely to do compulsions since i'd have a harder time resisting. however, i still did them because i figured that even if i feel extremely anxious, this IOP is here to help me and i won't hit the ground like i have in the past. i feel.... okay. the anxiety is still there but i'm learning to be able to sit with it better. this thing might actually work?

i don't know how to find comfort anymore. i'm just really sad because the entire day i feel like completely debilitated and just in my own trance of feeling like a terrible person and trying to combat my thoughts. it is so tiring already i just am longing for that feeling of feeling safe even if it's for five minutes

Just increased my Zoloft and I don’t know if it’s a placebo…..but I’m doing great! It was easier to identify my thoughts as intrusive today and move on from them. I didn’t give into a compulsion like yesterday, yay! Hope everyone has a chance to experience a good day like mine :)

I can’t stop pulling out my eyebrows I’m 16 and so prett but this is the one this I’m destroying of myself and feel so shameful about. I smoke weed every day, been that way for abt 3 years I vape and need it most of the time and have no idea how the withdrawals will treat me in a place, idk how long they would keep me but I need it definitely

I just remembered going on this guys scooter with my friends one night two years ago- i don't remember what i was doing before or after so my brain filled it in with "what if you cheated and forgot" I WISH I REMEMBERED EVERYTHING AT ALLL TIMES FFS Why does it also feel so real :(

I feel like I'm losing my mind. I am on Lexapro and recently went off risperidone as the weight gain was getting to me, after a week being off I started having bouts of feeling really low and crying fits. My psychiatrist has up'd me from 30mg of Lexapro to 40. It's been just over a week but I honestly feel worse. I've never dealt with depression before and she said this doesn't seem like depression but I feel awful :( The only positive is that honestly my ocd seems to have disappeared although I am now obsessing about feeling depressed and googling meds and all sorts of things.

i was talking to my friend about something sexual and i had a thought and it just keeps replying over and over again in my head and i kept saying that i’m fine and it’s just the OCD but i’m here feeling just disgusted and horrible. i feel like i’m getting better with this but it just leaves so much disgust, guilt, and sadness

i struggle to move forward with the thoughts my theme does not change (ROCD) but the content of the thoughts does i think i’ve improved since it declared itself, but i’m having a hard time right now and i don’t know what to do :( i feel so distressed and frightened i just want to love my girlfriend like she deserved to be loved, i want us to be happy

I just had my first session and everything resonated for the first time in therapy. Now I know that I'm not just cwazy. But after filling out some of the obsessions and compultions and triggers, and looking at some of the suggested exposure therapies I'm terrified. Some of the suggestions were things I already do, or things that when I do them send me into hours or *days* of mental spiraling and analysis. And I have so many specific obssesions and thoughts and worries that it just feels huge now. And I'm starting to worry that I will be seen as over-analysing my own symptoms and not be taken seriously. Again. Even though the session I had today was very validating and made me feel seen, I am suddenly overwhelmed with thoughts that I'm just being dramatic and over reacting because that's what I've been told by therapists, friends, family and myself for years. Not to mention I only have the money for a few appointments because I lost my job recently because of avoidance compulsions and I won't be able to continue getting help unless I can figure things out.

Hello is their a member advocate that can talk to me please 🥺

I have harm and pedophilia ocd… it started when i was very young. Since then, i have done a lot pf research and study.. i have come to the conclusion that OCD is fear of nothing. Thoughts are weightless, unimportant, invisible substance that will never happen or become reality.

I dont feel like myself at all. Is this even the truth. I dont know how to explain it everything feels so weird scary and it makea me panick.

Do you guys get an intrusive thoughts that scares you like an sexual thought and you overthink it and then you start to think that is true, like it did happen, this past weak im gooing crazy trying to convince my self that its not true and my brain is creating a fake memory, does this happen to you, any advice???

Recently, my OCD has started switching themes or taking on another theme. I normally deal with harm OCD and now I’m noticing some germ related thoughts. Lately I have felt paranoid, like I’m hyper sensitive. I’m now very aware and worried about my surroundings. To top it off, yesterday my sister-in-law was telling me that her sister has bipolar with psychosis. I came home, and I’ve been freaking out ever since because I’m scared I have psychosis. This is so debilitating.

how do you guys stay present and enjoy the moment without worrying so much about the future? i have fears surrounding will i find love, get married, etc. in the future, all of which are really important to me so i can’t help but worry. tips?

I'm going to see my boyfriend tomorrow, but I've noticed that right before I go to his place I'm getting a little bit anxious because I don't know how it's going to be. Will I enjoy the time? What if I can't enjoy the time because of all the thoughts.. etc.

Ocd really wants me to try to figure this out. It seriously does not matter how many times I’ve tried. I have to remind myself like,”hey I’ve already wasted over a year trying to figure this out and I literally have gotten nowhere.” Lol. What’s the longest theme you’ve guys had, even with receiving treatment?

Do y’all ever stop and just think about how stupid and unreasonable your fears are. And how with logic you clearly aren’t what you fear or that you didn’t do what you fear you did. I do this a lot but the anxiety is still there 😭

I know ERP is supposed to teach you to sit with the anxiety but does anyone experience more anxiety and racing thoughts after a session? I felt good at first and then it lingered all night, throughout my dream and into this morning.

I’m scared that I’m actually a monster and that I want to have these evil thoughts and I’m scared I have a jekal and Hyde situation

Can doubting things be OCD. Because of my intrusive thoughts I doubted that I even loved my daughter. And then one night I looked at her and started bawling because I love her with everything in me. Why does this happen. 😞

I’m so bummed that NOCD won’t accept my insurance. I can’t get proper treatment and I’m living with severe OCD. The cost for a 1 hour session is $100 I’m currently unemployed and attending my senior year in high school. I struggle just making it through the day. Everyday I look forward to going to bed to escape the world and these thoughts. Pray for me that a way to treatment/ recovery will be made.

I’ve been struggling with these thoughts for a long time. There are times when it seems like they’re not important and don’t cause any anxiety at all then there is times when I think they’re so important and they’re all I think about. Any recommendations or ERP I can do to combat this?

Who else remembers that episode of Friends where Chandler briefly alludes to having intrusive thoughts about his mom while he’s in bed with a girl, or something. It’s certainly weird to say that on a nationally televised sitcom, but tbh that brief moment seems like such a better representation of OCD than someone who is simply tidy and actually proud of it. OCD sufferers are never proud of their thoughts & compulsions! So while it can seem troubling that Chandler would have that thought in the first place, I also thought it was really cool that the writers even threw that line in there. If not to the same scale as that, I wish more characters in shows & movies would have true OCD-like tendencies that could maybe even play into the comedy, which might even help make OCD themes seem less scary overall.

I been feeling like a terrible person lately last week me and my partner broke up after 4 years together at first it hurt but we both knew it's for the best and they are leaving my apartment this coming Friday since then I been trying to get out with friends and family to give some space between us also trying to Meer new people to go out and do things (publicly) and I had this one person invite me to a local concert and we talked before the concert day about why we broke up, are favorite bands and family which is nice to talk to new people and go to shows with them but i found out about Rebound relationships and I'm terrified what if I tried to Rebound even tho I had no plans on doing it and just wanted to get out with someone that is interested in the same music as me.

Praying for anyone struggling with OCD; I know how hard it can be. You’re not alone and you’re gonna find a way to get through this.

i have been struggling silently about my relationship for a minute. i hate asking for reassurance from my partner because he really is the sweetest and kindest man i've ever met. but in a previous relationship, i was cheated on very badly, talked down to everyday, always made to feel less than or like i couldn't do anything right. anyway, this pattern has been making me spiral. feeling like my current partner is cheating on me or secretly hates me or is too polite to break up with me. i'm in therapy and taking my medication and he tells me he's proud of the progress i'm making, but on days where i feel like *this*, i just don't see it. i feel like an awful girlfriend and i have been secretly feeling this way for a long while. everyday feels like a battle. idk i'm spiraling, but it'd be nice to talk to someone who understands.

i feel like i’m always questioning my intentions. ‘did i do that nice thing so he thinks i’m nice? or did it do it just because it’s nice? did i apologise just to look mature?’ etc. it’s really scary and i’m scared i’m a fraud.

i cheated, I was anxious and tho I was prepared for that exam, Ocd caught me like crazy the day before and I just couldn't focus, so I got next to a friend. Now I just feel awful because I don't deserve that grade yes I have worked hard but that wasnt me what should I do

cant believe i hurt someone accidentally again. i feel terrible and it wont get out of my head. i feel like i dont even deserve basic things or help

Hey guys so I figured out a tip that has reallyyyyy been helping me. Someone in the app shared it with me, and I wanted to pass it on. This is for my ROCD sufferers (who mainly struggle with severely overthinking and obsessing over every interaction with another human being) Tip I tell myself: You don’t really know what the other person is thinking

I feel like I like the thoughts constantly & thoughts about my girl make me cringe & it's like my body rejects them! I just don't get it

I made a post yesterday about having instant false memories and didn’t get any response, which is making me feel like it’s not ocd :( I talked about having instant false memories, that sorta distort a moment. Like I will do something and then immediately think I did it maliciously. And then I’ll feel stuck in the action/thought and feel it intensify as if I can’t get out of it. Does that make sense at all to anybody?

Is there anyone here from Greece?

Did you notice that germs-related situations increased when your contamination OCD started? I feel clumsy and blind with this now. Yesterday it seemed I touched toilet brush stem with my leg and went to sleep. No it seems my all bed is full of germs. But I don't have strength for compulsions.

For anyone that has gone through relationship OCD, are there times where you literally cannot think about anything else but the relationship and can barely even function otherwise? Like it’s debilitating but you don’t want to give up.

Has anyone else ever had obsessions about wether they are an alcoholic or not?

Hi, I am new here. I am waiting to speak with someone tomorrow but in the meantime..... I ruminate on the same topics over and over. I can have a period of time where I sit with the thought/obsession and work it through in my head, and then an hour later I feel anxiety and it is as though I am back at the beginning with how I am processing or remembering an event. Also, the subject of my rumination changes - its like a shape-shifter. I can be bothered and anxious about something for weeks, then I will move onto another thing. And then that thing is the most important thing ever that I struggle to shift. When I am busy and at work meetings I am fine. When I have down time, the thoughts and anxious feeling come in and I feel like I ned to think them (like it is some truth that I can't ignore). Does this resonate with anyone? Also has anyone looked into Dr Michael Greenburg's Rumination ERP theories? He advocates letting thoughts just be there and not engaging. It seems to help but is not easy to stick with.

does anyone else's intrusive thoughts feel like their own thoughts? or like it's my fault that they happened? because it feels like i did it😞.

So nervous but hopeful this can help me manage ROCD/let thoughts come in and learn to allow space for these thoughts instead of getting stuck on them.

Is distracting yourself from intrusive thoughts, a compulsion?

I feel like a giant baby. I’m scared to sleep because I’m worried I’ll be killed and not wake up. I got triggered by a dream I had last night in relation to an exposure I had done shortly before sleeping (bad idea). It felt like I made the dream happen. Why are my OCD obsessions so juvenile and stupid? It’s referencing a horror movie.