I know I am attracted to women but still why do I think I am gay and I am in denial like the other day i was watching male models on the internet to check if I might get attraced and I thought I got attracted but I am not sure if I was attracted or not. And why do I think I am in denial and don't have HOCD?? And I am still attracted to women. Am I bi?? and why do I have so much fear of being gay or bi even though in the past couple of years I have been in an environment where being gay and all is normalized.
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I'm scared I don't love my girlfriend at all or that the relationship isn't right. I get triggered by "signs" usually from songs i'll here or a tv show, the thing that gets me is that almost everytime I am triggered by one of these things, they seem to basically describe my sitution accurately. It makes it harder for me to just say "it's OCD" when it just doesn't seem like a coincidence at all. She asked me if I was "loosing interest" and it scared me and now I don't know if I am or not. Someone please help, I am extremely worried and scared.
I'll be in a financial situation later next month, is there a way to lower the $200? Insurance?
Does anyone else have major depression with there ocd mine quit bad fill like I’m in a dream like state most days and things around me don’t sim reall like a dream
I hate health OCD. It destroys my life and my summer and I'm only 17.
Does anybody else experience monthly headaches and neck pain and swollen lymphs, dizziness, pins and needles and leg pain? I'm very scared and I searched all these symptoms and I can't think anything else. Tomorrow we are leaving for vacation and last year I had other symptoms including them and had the worst summer of my life. I m so scared this is going to happen again. I don't want to. I want to have fun it's so sad
How are you guys okay having ocd?
my life is a youtube video and ocd is the unwanted ads with no skip option
I’ve been anxious for the past couple of days, Can’t focus on the present bc my OCD has me thinking of the future and it really scares me. Any helpful tips?
Is repeating googling ocd like constantly?
I realized something today.. I mean I’ve read it on a million articles.. but this time it made sense. I was watching a popular TV show and the girl’s cleavage is always very intense and it makes me stressed and I will sometimes get a response and it used to be so triggering. However, I watched a commercial a little while later and these two weird aliens were making out and my body had the same response.. and I’m not attracted to aliens. Responses by your body do not mean anything definite and don’t speak to your truthful attractions!! You got this ❤️
Is it possible that there are no original intrusive thoughts with ocd? sometimes I fear my thoughts aren’t what other people who suffer from pocd have but something tells me there are no original thoughts and it’s more than likely someone out there has had the same or similar thoughts.
I get these disturbing thoughts but they leave fast now maybe because I stopped focusing on them too much I'm not sure if thats okay? They're still here sometimes but I'm still worried I'll go crazy! But when they come they come out of nowhere!
Treatment is scary but it works. I have suffered with OCD tendencies for years until the pandemic brought out the full-blown disorder. Ever since April, I have been in and completed treatment with NOCD. I can say for sure that I am a thousand times better than months ago, and that there is absolutely hope for every one of us out there. 😊
Just putting this out there but its totally okay laugh at your OCD sometimes Of course OCD is very distressing, but sometimes the thoughts are also so outlandish theyre just plain hilarious, and its okay to laugh at how ridiculous they are
I just wanna share my little success! Some background: I've had almost every ocd theme at one time or another. The most recent one was pocd. Every damn day, without fail, for MONTHS, my brain has said at some point during the day: "Psst. Hey. What if you're a pedophile?" And every day I practiced my ERP and didn't engage with the thought and just said something like "Oh go away, OCD, you're so silly." It was discouraging that the thought kept popping up day after day but I kept trying to just kinda laugh at it and go on with my day. Then today I just noticed that I haven't really had those thoughts for a few days!!!! And when I do, they're so easy to push away instantly. Please stick with ERP! IT WILL WORK. I can't say the thoughts are gone forever but they're definitely a lot less scary now and I can just ignore them
My mind keeps trying to convince me of things that are definitely not true I don’t know if I should just treat them as intrusive thoughts but I do know for sure I do NOT like them at all. I hate them and I just want them to go away. I’m guess a real bad person would like the thoughts or want to act on them I know for sure that is not me at all. It’s ocd. I’m scared to death that I’m going to turn into a monster. 😭
I've reached a strange point. I've been dealing with this shit for 3 months and It got better but now is bad again I feel like I don't have any attraction to women anymore, romantically and sexually, but at the same time the idea of being with a man romantically feel strange to me, because I don't want that. It's like I'm stuck because I cannot go forward or backward and I don't know what to do.
Does anyone else feel like they don’t deserve help/treatment? Does anyone else feel like a disgusting awful person? This is so hard. I just want one break, one day where I can just be the way I used to be.
I’m finding it really hard to get up and do anything other than sit anxiously. I haven’t even taken a shower in awhile. I wonder if I’m depressed. I have a lot of things to look forward to in the near future and I’m stressing/feeling bad or hopeless about them when I think I should be excited.
I think I have tics bit I’m not sure if they’re tics, like I keep mouthing random things especially in my head or saying things out loud. I can’t really control it. But I’m not sure if they’re tics. For those with tics, what’s your experience?
I’ve experienced other subtypes of OCD before and each time it’s been very hard. It’s like I lost a part of myself each time. I at least had my boyfriend though. Someone who would literally make me forget about everything that was going on inside my head. Now OCD is trying to take him away too
Guys I'm having the first panic attack in 7 months. I have neurological symptoms all this time and I onsess thinking about them, and I have fear. So scaring the fact that I started talking to my father and I didn't know what I was telling, I was having a panic attack. I couldn't think anything, my mind blanked. I would appreciate if you share any anusual coping mechanism, because I have tried everything all these years and I havent found anything to relax me
My girlfriend has religious ocd and both of us have relationship ocd. She's having a really hard time right now with her ocd, but we can't really talk about it or anything, so I don't know what to do. I think I'm okay for the most part, but seeing her struggle with our relationship does trigger me sometimes and I'll have a hard time getting back to being okay myself. What is a good way to work out our problems without giving into ocd and making things worse? Any tips or insight would be appreciated. Thanks.
Bi people with POCD , do you find yourself getting groinals to girls more often ? Like when I say bi , 99% I’m attracted to men , 1% attracted to women . But pike with ocd , it’s gotten 50-50 with groinals . Especially with girls cuz it’s harder to tell age with girls . Anyone else ? It’s very annoying
I'm feeling a lot of guilt because my OCD has attached to the way as a Christian I don't really feel that sinful. Any advice to accept the feelings and move on with my life? I dont want guilt to run my life. Instead I want to put my energy into doing fun things!
I just remembered the first time I saw like the world or started seeing I don't know how to explain it but I guess my first memory or something? I was like 4 and we were having a party for my birthday and I just remember being there and remembering.
When I figured out what OCD was and what I was going through, I tried to think back to any experiences I had when I was younger that may have been a sign that it was coming/it had already been present in me. I thought back to a time when I was in high school and I went to a concert with my mom. It was an outdoor concert and there was a storm that we could see coming towards us in the distance. We had a water bottle we were drinking from and I suddenly had the thought that the water was going to cause us (more so my mom) to be struck by lightning. Because of that, I chugged the water and finished it before the rain came so I could keep us safe. It was just interesting to think back on this and how scared I was in the moment of being struck by lightning. I don’t think that this caused the horrific reality of what OCD is for me now because the fear I had then did not qualify me as being a bad person, which is what I struggle with the most. I still think this was a sign that I would struggle with OCD in the future. Just a little story I thought might be interesting to someone here. If anyone has anything to add or any similar experiences please share!
Ocd really will do anything to convince me I’m a pedo huh. I’m 17 and sometimes I think someone who’s 15 is cute. . I wouldn’t date one cuz in a year I could date a 20 year old and that sounds much nicer . I’d much rather date someone 18-20 . But like I’m 17.5, and sometimes I find out that someone I thought was cute recently turned 15 like a 2 months ago . Like my birthday is in March . It’s more like 17.45. Idk if I’m a pedo or not or if I Going to deep . I probably am . I’m just very annoyed
i really regret the checking compulsions i did for certain sexual ocd themes i hate myself
Why do I feel like I think of my intrusive thoughts on purpose?
I don't even feel alive.. I don't know if that makes sense but I don't even feel like the person I see in the mirror... I feel like a thought in someone's head... I feel like I'm not part of this family.
Help idk what's going on. I was watching a serie and in the episode one guy wanted to mastrubate while thinking about an famous actress. Then his mother called on him and he stopped cuz yk he didn't want anything anymore now cuz he is wasn't in the mood anymore. After that there was a scene were he was actually making out with a girl. Then the actress he was thinking about appeared and started talking to him or something. And my mind went: 'lol how ankward would it be if in his mind his mother would appear' because that happened before. And then I felt a little bit of actual arousal. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?!!?? The idea of incest is disgusting to me and I know I feel gross when an incest intrusive thought pops into my mind but idk why that arousal happened. Some help.
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Where do I find the support groups? I don’t see how to access them in the app…
Is obsessing over the fact that each moment becomes a memory considered Somatic OCD?
It feels like I don’t care about my partner because I don’t think about him before bed every night anymore. (I mean we fall asleep on the phone together) We’ve been long distance for 10 months since he joined the military and although I cherish every single memory I had with him. The truth is that my ocd and anxiety hit me very very hard after he left and I don’t feel like the person I used to be when he was here anymore. I try to be but I’m so traumatized from all these consistent thoughts. When I think about past memories I feel like a liar or like they weren’t real because of soocd and rocd so it hurts because they were the best moments of my life and now they’re under constant question. I just long to have him in my now and to make sure we’re still in love and create new memories. It hurts that he’s not here to ease my anxiety like before. I’ve never wanted to love anyone the way I do with him. It’s my most treasured bond and I’m so sick of feeling like it’s not.
Why do I keep googling things about thoughts obsessed thoughts stuck thoughts rumination mental checking why do I google these things and things to do with ocd and thoughts why is this please help I do it’s lot
Y'all a big secret to getting better is choosing to just keep living in each moment that OCD, Anxiety, Fear, etc tries to suck you in. You have the ability, strength, courage to just say Fu I'm gonna roll down my car window, get a sip of tea and smoke this cigarette instead of sitting here in fear and not move! Or Fu to whatever it's telling you in the moment!
I am going to sit through this every single day, every moment of every day, until it is gone. I refuse to do any compulsion. I refuse to ask for reassurance. I don’t care if I’m actually a horrible piece of shit and will never know for sure. Because I value myself too much to keep letting OCD destroy my life. Who’s with me?
Does anyone know where I can find the NOCD number to make adjustments to my account? Thank you
The way I use to live my life and I’m still trying even though I know I shouldn’t is I base somethings on how I feel when I say it in my head. I use to do it as a compulsion to beat the thoughts, now ocd ruined that and it makes me more confused. What do I do?
Is gestalt therapy useful for OCD? So where I live there aren't really CBT therapist and that makes it harder for me. I've been diagnosed with OCD by a psychiatrist and been on medication for some months. The problem is that the only therapist i could find is trained in gestalt therapy. She is really good but i don't know if it's useful for OCD
Does anyone else fear putting there phone way and going to sleep sometimes I fear getting to sleep because I'm insomiac and lying alone with my thoughts
I need some advice. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m stuck in a loop, everyday I wake up feeling really anxious and depressed and then I gradually feel better throughout the day and by night time I feel a lot better. Then it’s rinse and repeat the next day. I used to feel hopeful that the next day will be better but it’s always the same and now I feel hopeless about it and it depresses the heck out of me. Does anyone have any tips how to break out of this cycle?
Anybody else have nightmares when their anxiety is really bad? :/
Y’all 😂 I’m so dumb. I’m doing something with a group of friends today and we’re going to Popeye’s afterwards. I am just now worried because I was eating Popeye’s at the same moment I developed my current subtype.
Happy Thursday everyone! Hope you all have a good one!
Anyone else get a headache when they don’t perform their mental compulsions?
I upset my friend ages ago. We sorted it out and I forgot about it. I saw a tiktok about the subject and the comments were saying how badly it affected them. I'm now worried that I've left her really affected. I hardly ever upset people like this and idk what to do I cant bring it up again in case it upsets her I feel awful
Hiya, has anyone had success in treating OCD with EMDR mixed with CBT therapy?
Question for my peeps dealing with SOOCD. Does anyone else have like very strange dreams? I just had a really unpleasant dream, I woke up in a panic because I felt groinals and they feel very strong:/ I honestly don’t get it because I’ve never had dreams like this until the past year and I’m 24. They make me doubt myself even more. Also, I’ve found these dreams tend to happen more if I was upset about something that happened with my boyfriend. Anyways, thought I’d ask into the void here, it’s nice feeling less alone.
Hope everyone is good good , I love y’all . <3
Not looking for reassurance just wondering who else can relate. My ocd attacks what I value most like my relationship for example. I just recently went completely numb and feel so disassociated. It felt like a light switch just turned off inside of me. And eveything feels stuck. I just want to feel like me again.
I know this is common but it's really been taking it's toll on me recently. that is the fear of faking it for attention. no matter how many times I remind myself I'm diagnosed and have been since I was 7. no matter how many times a day I have compulsions sometimes without even realizing. the intrusive thoughts and all the ways I am impacted by my ocd is never enough for me to fully say "hey I have ocd and struggle" without feeling immense guilt. I feel like I'm invalidating people who really struggle even though my rational brain knows I AM one of those people! God it's a helpless feeling sometimes and it brings a lot of anxiety.
i feel abnormal with ppl i love especially one i think alot about what they or she think about me how they see me i read the chat alot and think alot anout every word i have intrusive thoughts about her i can't understand it it cames when i see anything remembering me of her i think alot if her words have multiple meanings sometimes i feel like she hates me or i annoy her and she distance herself but then i find that was wrong i just overthinked or when i see or read anything she wrote i feel like she is attacking me and i feel worry and i think alot and i find that wasn't true i can't know if it because me ocd or not??? but i feel abnormal i cantgive her space and stop thinking about her so i decided to leave her like i always did
was doing so good for weeks, i felt i had control over my emotions & i wouldn’t let the thoughts bother me. suddenly tonight they’re attacking me so much & grossing me out & i keeping getting waves of anxiety & uncomfortableness run through my body & i wanna cry & scream & just have a normal brain. this is torture, pure torture. i cant express how frustrated i am that these intrusive thoughts even cross my mind because they’re so far from who i am & they just don’t stop. i feel like my skin is crawling & i am just overheated & grossed out. i am crying & at the same time i feel numb because i don’t know what else to do. :( i thought i had such a good grip on it, i was positive & now i am just suffering again like old times. i would never think these kinds of things, i would never want to, i would never be what my ocd tells me. i just want my life back.
how can i know about real event ocd how can i know if what i think about is real or obsessions sometimes i feel like iam putting answers to a problem but i find myself do it several times and i keep telling myself the same answers and I can't feel relief ..but i keep telling myself what if it is real and i must think about i do the same with relationships i think alot about it and it feels real but i feel it bothers me more than others and i find myself leaving my friends to avoid this thoughts or i just overthinking idk !?