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Does anyone watch Ali greymond, if you deal with false memory ocd she has really good videos ❤️

My mind is having a thought: if I don’t confess all that I did wrong to my boyfriend I will commit the unforgivable sin. What am I supposed to do in this situation?

Do you guys ever be obsessed with false attraction? I hate it

I know I’m not supposed to try and figure these things out but I feel like it’s really hard to connect with the guy I’m with and I feel like I’m using ocd and the anxiety as an excuse. I also know I should stop reading things, but I saw something that said, if you can’t accept their flaws and want to change them, that means you don’t love them, you just love the idea of them. I feel like I would be doing this with anyone. I will have moments where I’m not overthinking and questioning everything and it’s so much easier to connect with him and I feel so accepting and in love with all of his flaws. But I feel like I had to force myself to be in the mindset where I could do that and that feels like I’m forcing myself to love him. And that feels like I’m changing myself? I just wish I could feel love again. Especially when I know I love this person but I’m so scared that I really don’t or I’ll never be able to love anyone.

How do those of you with ROCD manage the feelings of guilt etc when you don't fight your doubts? For example, I often have this nagging thought that I don't "really" love/like my partner, even though all evidence is to the contrary; I know that the best thing to do is to avoid engaging with these thoughts, but then I just feel so awful for having them, especially as my partner is so considerate, caring, and everything I could want and need. I also worry that allowing these thoughts to stay in my mind without disproving them will mean that I will start really believing them, and I really can't stand that idea. How do I continue to not engage with these thoughts when they feel so awful, and like they will have horrible consequences???

Okay I'm really panicking right now. I'm a guy that's been dealing with trans OCD for the past year. I just woke up from a dream where imagined myself as a woman. One thing that I've been trying to tell myself during this them is that I alwaus see myself as a man whenever I dream so I can't be transgender, now I have no idea what's going on or what to believe.

How can I be a better person?

It’s hard for me to feel the normal fuzzy feelings about my relationship because I’m so anxious about it all the time :( usually I like to look at photos of him before bed at night and stuff like that but right now I have to try to not think of him so I can be calm enough to fall asleep. It both makes me feel guilty because I know he’s not feeling that way, and it’s hard for me because usually those good feelings are a really nice part of my life :(. When the relationship feels distant and weird and anxious and in my head I think he hates me, emotionally it feels almost like as if we broke up. And I just have to roll with those feelings all the time… it’s hard. I miss the fuzzy feelings

does anyone’s ocd ever feel like it makes you want it even though you don’t want it

What’s the difference between real attraction and false attraction

What's the difference between a fantasy and a thought? I know that both are imaginary but what is the difference? I'm about to get diagnosed with OCD and I'm stuck between whether my thoughts count as one or the other, since they're visual.

I don’t mean to discount anyone’s ocd themes EVER when I say this because every theme of ocd is awful to live with in your day to day life, but I just wish so badly that I could have any other theme besides the one I’m dealing with right now. Every day I question whether or not I deserve to live with these thoughts that I have. I don’t mean to be graphic/triggering there but these thoughts go against everything that I’ve fought for my whole life and I just feel so sad and lost and confused everyday. (ps I’ve dealt with other themes so I’m well aware of how terrible they are, but at least I didn’t feel like an awful and immoral person when I had those thoughts)

I was dating a guy for about 4 months who I was really really falling for. He honestly seemed perfect — I decided to really open myself up to him in that I should tell him about my OCD phobia (fear of choking). After a tough meal I really vented to him about how hard it was to eat. How I hate it, but I’m working through. It felt great to share this. He didn’t text for a couple days which was odd. And after a stressful day, I was excited for our date, but I had a full blown Health OCD episode after cutting my finger. I was panicking and checking and he seemed confused about it. He had to get me from my house. And it ruined our dinner plans. It was the first time he saw my OCD. I told him my issues make me protective of my body, and I’m working on it it, but didn’t label it as OCD and he started acting incredibly distant that night. Before our final date I called him and said I had to cancel.. that my finger was infected. He asked for a picture. I’m embarrassed I sent him this nasty picture of my finger. I turned it around, said it was fine. At drinks he seemed downright resentful. Like he could barely give me a hug. After that he dumped me out of the blue. He claimed he had doubts before and it had nothing to do with the off week. I’m so horrified. I finally was really dating someone I could really love and was rejected because of OCD. And I fear that I’ll always scare someone away once they see my OCD.

its super difficult when someone tells you in order to get over your intrusive thoughts you have to accept them as they might be true. i cannot accept that what i think can be true. its so hard. i dont want it to be true:(

i don’t know how much longer i can do this, i feel like my life is pretty much over. i can’t afford a therapist and i’m only getting worse, im scared of myself and i don’t trust myself. i’m scared that i’m going to eventually have to kill myself because i don’t want to hurt anyone else. i don’t want to go through this anymore and i don’t want to end up going crazy

How do you persuade yourself the thoughts aren't real?

I put a TW because im not sure if reading this will trigger anybodys intrusive thoughts, but im just so stuck. about 4 months ago or 6 i started having these obsessive thoughts that i didnt love my boyfriend anymore. i dont know why. i have planned my whole life with him. before my intrusive thoughts started coming i was so so so happy. not too long ago i then started to have intrusive and obsessive thoughts that i wasnt attracted to my boyfriend anymore and that i liked girls. i never could picture myself with a girl nor have i ever had a crush on one growing up. i have lots to say in such a short message but i also go through a lot of mental games at home. i feel that i let down my parents. i feel like such a burden to them and that hurts me so bad. everyone around me is in college n stuff and im at home working. anyways im just so stuck. i dont want my thoughts to be real life. im so sad with who i am. does anyone else go through this?

My retroactively jealousy is ridiculous. Why does my girlfriend’s sexual past cause me so much pain? It’s not like I thought she was a virgin before we started dating. She told me about things and at first it was fine and then it became real and it’s been my biggest theme ever since. I feel like the only way I could ever feel relief is to reach into the past and erase the events. I get such vivid images of her fucking other guys in numerous different ways. Of how they felt her skin and how she sucked their dicks and how her first time was with a boyfriend who was horrible to her and how all those men are out there with the memory of having penetrated her, how her moans sounded, having spread their sperm inside her and all over her body. I fucking hate this so much. I am going fucking insane. I looked all over the house yesterday for my knife so I could cut myself but I gave up because I couldn’t find it. How do you even apply ERP to something that already happened? To something that you don’t even know why it hurts you so much? I don’t understand myself. It seems so ridiculous and irrational. I’m such a joke.

Does anyone else get headaches from all of this worrying and obsessing?

does your ocd sometimes ever make you think you’ve always thought about what your theme is obsessing about but just tried “ignoring it” mine is convincing me i did that which isn’t true 😂

There’s this guy that I listen to on YouTube his name is Noah Thomas OCD he has a lot of great stories and a lot of great tips if anybody struggling with the ruminating thoughts. And they also type in on YouTube OCD sound for anxiety and they have some really great music and sounds that help

I feel like I’m always going to feel this way. Either I can’t feel connected to him because I’m anxious, or I’m anxious because I can’t feel connected to him. I constantly worry about how he’s thinking about me, how to respond to him, etc. But when I’m calm and relaxed, everything is really good and I’m trying to trust that. But I don’t get to live in a calm and relaxed state and it’s making me feel like maybe he’s bringing me the anxiety because we aren’t compatible. But then I think about breaking up with him and I panic because I really don’t want that. I love him so much and want him in my life always. Just wish my mind could calm down. I feel like no matter what I do, I can’t feel good about this or any relationship.

I just feel so unmotivated...this ocd is debilitating and one of the toughest things to face smh I be wishing to just wake up and be myself again

Anyone else else listen to podcasts and YouTube videos on OCD? They generally make me feel better and I find they’re sometimes the only thing that can calm me down however I fear they’re becoming a form of reassurance (ugh)! Thoughts?

Why does ROCD happen and how do you know if it’s really OCD? Scared to get better in case I need to breakup !

I feel the doubt of the existence of God in my mind and I don’t want to doubt God. I am not super super religious but pray quite regularly and believe in the Holy Trinity and Christian beliefs. I don’t know what but my faith feels like it’s being challenged in my mind sometimes but I don’t want it to be. Not worried if it’s ocd but i know it’s a thing that people do who don’t have ocd which is more my worry if that makes sense.

My worst fears are coming true Trigger warning. Please don’t read if you get triggered by talk of sexuality and relationships. I cant do this. I really can’t. I’ve been doing exercises after exercises and now I’m just here feeling nothing for someone I thought I felt everything for. I hate this illness. I hate it with every fiber of my being. She’s being romantic to me over text and I feel nothing. Except for panic, because I feel nothing. I hate this so much. Was it seriously all fake? If so, I don’t think I can go on. I really don’t.

I'm new here. I have been diagnosed for over 20 years with different mental illnesses, but until I started taking a med called remeron last October I didn't even recognize my intrusive obsessive thoughts. Of course they were always there and that's why I was used to them.. Always have been. I've likened it to a hamster in a wheel going round and round really going nowhere. I let the docs put me on every psych drug out there for years. But the intrusive thoughts never stopped and were such a part of me that I just thought it was the mood swings they said I was having. But that didn't feel right. Then I tried the remeron and within days the obsessive thoughts stopped and my mind wasn't racing. I do not remember there ever being a time in my life that they weren't there so when they stopped I recognized that my mind was quiet. It was amazing. For 4 months I took the remeron and barely had any intrusive thoughts. But I started gaining weight. A lot of weight. 33lbs since in about 4 months. I'm a recovered anorexic so the weight gain shook me up and I slowly tapered off the medicine. It's been 2 weeks now I'm off it and my mind is so obsessed again with things I can't even talk about. It's on repeat. It plays in my head 24/7. I cannot escape it unless I take the med that will ultimately make me obese. I'm getting very frustrated and depressed and obsessing now about being depressed. I've just realized in the last couple of weeks that I have OCD- not all that other stuff they tried to diagnose me as. Now I'm obsessively thinking about all the time wasted taking psych drugs that gave me bad side effects and didn't even help. Also, it's apparent to me that I have what I'm calling silent compulsions. I'm so lost right now.

I randomly just got reminded of my past mistakes again and I was doing just fine until I got triggered all of a sudden. I don’t know what to do. I feel so much guilt just fill my body and now I can’t seem to let it go no matter how many times I’ve been told to let it go and forgive myself I just can’t because I was so stupid when I was younger and didn’t realize at the time what I was doing wrong and I hate myself so much for it that I almost want to give up because I feel like I don’t deserve to move on and be happy

My OCD is now trying to convince me that my past crushes on guys have all been obsessions to hide my true identity. Like I became obsessed with the thought of being with a certain guy that I liked at the time. Compulsions were texting and talking and hanging out with him. Rumination was rereading the messages and replaying all of our interactions. But all of it was to hide my true identity. Does anyone else ever have this?

Anyone else just not get anxiety over your harm intrusive thoughts anymore & try to make yourself fearful of them to reassure that you wouldn’t ever do them? Is this just me? I’ve been thinking about it all day and my intrusive thoughts do not stop.

Does anyone get a thought what if and then you start getting vivid images and stuff? It’s killing me

is medication worth it for ocd does it make a difference

I feel so rational sometimes but then other times I feel so out of touch. It goes in waves. It’s so weird how one minute I can see clearly and the next im spiraling again…

You look back on all of the obsessions you’ve previously had and see how silly they were. Just remember, the obsession you’re currently working on will seem silly in a little bit if you work on it.

Trigger warning !!!!! Does anyone else see danger everywhere? Like if you do something or if you go somewhere you get visions of what might go wrong. For example I used to have a fear with elevators, every time I went into one I had images of terrible things going wrong. In every situation that I found myself in, I was constantly having thoughts of catastrophy and my mind was always telling me that I might get trapped etc. Those thoughts got stronger I was afraid to eat (in fear of getting choked or get poisoned) . What kind of ocd is that?

Any one ever get ocd that’s like a physical sensation like have to wipe off arm or leg feels like something touched you and you have to wipe that off lovely ocd

I feel helpless. I have had sexual fantasies about women(I am a woman) but always desired to be with a man emotionally, physically, and romantically. I’ve never been with a woman in real life and never desired to. When I was single the thought of hooking up with a woman never entered my mind. I am married to my wonderful husband now and he knows all of the fantasies I have and it doesn’t bother him at all. However, I can’t stop feeling the obsessive need to define it and I feel it’s not right. I have this perfectionist in me and the need to have answers and define it. It sends me into this dark, depressive, OCD spiral I feel I can’t come out of. Does anyone else feel this way? I hope I’m not alone someone please help! Any advice at all is appreciated!

Is there anyone who has fully recovered from POCD and false memory? Please share what some of your thoughts were when you had these themes and how you fully recovered because this is damn hard. I just want to hear other peoples stories/suggestions.

Does anyone have any tips for how to build confidence in a relationship? My boyfriend is so lovely but OCD has sapped so much of my confidence as I worry about being a bad person/girlfriend so keep asking for reassurance and mentally reviewing conversations etc Any tips or just general support would be amazing! ✨

Anyone else go through a period of days where youre fine but it makes you doubt you even have ocd?

how do you deal with urges to do something you don’t want to do? for example, an intrusive thought telling you to shout something in a library. how can you silence that impulse? i can’t ignore these urges when they pop up.

I've been away for a while but I'm back lol how are you? Here's a good reminder for us all, the people around us were not created for us, not for our entertainment nor for our complete care, they are as independent as us. Capable of making choices and protecting themselves. They are not under our watch and their whole life doesn't depend on us. We must stop trying to control everything, just live and let them live. Yes we can help each other and pray for each other, and we also can just let them be and trust that God is always in control when we surrender to Him. Let people be themselves and love them. God loves us all, you can rest in God.

Hi everyone! This is a very specific question, but it’s been bothering me for a while. Fundamentally, I have a big problem with productivity, and OCD doesn’t help. Basically, I have real event OCD, and a big fear of going to jail. I am a student in university, and whenever I think about my future or even graduating, I have thoughts like “I’ll go to jail anyway, what’s the point?”. So, my question is, how do you go about your day without thinking about the whole “this is useless thing”? How do I get over the bad things that I’ve done many years ago, and accept the fact that I could go to jail?

Had such a good day yesterday and had quite a few moments of feeling love for my boyfriend and feeling in love. Today is the complete opposite and I feel numb and adamant I don’t love him. Always happens after a good day and it’s so confusing

I am so unbelievably happy. I have never felt such a pure connection with someone in my life. i live in the present with him, after spending so many years worrying about the future and regretting the past. however, my mind says what if this connection isn’t real- whenever i’m just at peace with him and we sit quietly my mind tells me it’s because we have nothing to talk about and we can’t actually don’t have a connection. i know this isn’t true i care for him so much. but my head says to go just in case this ends badly. is there anyway to stop this, i don’t want this getting worse - my feelings are too strong to lose him

I keep getting the intrusive thought of the word “boyfriend” when all I want is to be with the girl of my dreams... 😞😞😞

I’m so stressed out because my OCD will not let me sleep. This is literally torture. Please does anyone have any tips

i have been wanting to join one of nocds support zoom groups but i have a few questions. do i need an ocd diagnosis to join those groups? and do i need to be seeing a nocd therapist or any therapist to join the group. i know i'm undiagnosed but i am in a position where i am unable to seek professional help. these symptoms feel so real and are getting worse everyday and i need help trying to figure this out.

Hi everyone. I’m really struggling to help my 10 year old daughter with her intrusive thoughts 😪😪 Are there any UK based therapists on here? Thank you

can someone please tell me if they relate :( i feel like all my attraction to guys is gone & im so scared I have no interest in them anymore & am now gay :( please please please I’m just so tired & annoyed why is this happening.

Are you guys ever with friends and have the thought “they don’t know that I have these horrible thoughts.” Or “I don’t deserve to be around these people because of my thoughts.”. For me this usually happens randomly and I can ignore it because my ocd gets better when I’m around my friends, but it’s still annoying and upsetting because then I wonder if that’s my brain confirming that the thoughts are real/true.

Do you have to be completely disgusted by the thought of being in a romantic long term relationship with the same sex to consider yourself straight? Like, I am married to my wonderful hubby who I love in every way. But I don't know for sure how I feel about being with a woman, I don't feel excitement about it, I don't feel much of anything. I know I would rather be with a man though. I know I would rather be with my hubby.

Groin responses are the only thing that are stopping my recovery. The thoughts don't give me that much anxiety anymore, but the feelings of arousal are what completely depress me and make me feel awful. Is it normal to get 'arousal' after unwanted sexual thoughts (POCD and IOCD)? Is it a groinal response or arousal if it's a tingling/swelling? It feels exactly like normal arousal and it's terrifying. Well, that is, if that's what I think arousal feels like. I'm so upset, I keep crying and I've been told I have depression which most likely came from this all. Why me?

Trigger warning I have scrupulousity and often when I actually am trying to pray for forgiveness I find myself thinking that I’m not being genuine. Sometimes I find myself doing compulsions and having intrusive thoughts while praying but I also feel like sometimes I pray more as a compulsion than rather a genuine prayer seeking God’s forgiveness.

Is this relationship ocd, or ocd related? It’s a longer post so I’m sorry, but would reallly appreciate feedback. I’m happily married with a one year old son. My wife and I have our fights especially since the baby...sometimes it’s bad, but we are generally happy. Well last year I was going through and unrelated health issue with my stomach, that basically caused me to be very weak and lose 32lbs in a couple months. My relationship with my wife really suffered during this time because she was so burned out taking care of the newborn, and her husband. I know it was hard on her, but I was just dropping weight, and a lot of times I felt like a burden on the family because I got sick. At least that’s how she made me feel. She did the best she could but there was a disconnect. There was this girl at work that had the same stomach issue previously, and we really started talking a lot about it. I kind of built this connection with her, and was “drawn” to her, but that was it. No meet ups, no texting really except on pretty rare occasions. I’m not attracted to her, but there have been times where I looked forward to seeing her, and we have a lot of mutual friends. We are just friends, that’s it. I do not want anything with this girl, and I’m very happy with my wife. But there was kind of an emotional support that was there, that I wasn’t getting when I was really sick. Anyway, I see this person when we go out to drink, there are times I even invite her along with everyone else because she’s on our friend group. But I keep feeling like I’m supposed to tell my wife...almost like a confession. I don’t really know why, but I feel like it’s on my chest and I feel like a terrible husband for it. A therapist friend of mine said I shouldn’t tell her if nothing happened, and I just need to be carful and mindful of my emotions and feelings. But I keep thinking about this person and I don’t want to. Anyway this is going on too long but do you guys think this is OCD? Or am I just having a one sided emotional affair with this person? I just don’t understand why I keep thinking of this person. I’m not even attracted to them!

I’m so scared that my thoughts are true and are going to ruin everything in my life, I don’t ever want to lose the people in my life or have them hate me 😭

My mind convinces me everyday that I’m going to prison because my thoughts feel so real and I’m so scared. I would never make it in prison. I don’t ever want to lose my family or myself. God why do I feel like this all the time. I hate this. It’s always in the back of my mind everyday

how do you guys deal with guilt? i feel like i’m always so wrapped up on it and can’t ever move past

Im scared to be truly happy because I think all the time that something bad will happen and destroy my happiness

Does anyone know how to stop checking compulsions?? Thanks you

i’m so tired of waking up everyday and dealing with intrusive thoughts and urges. i feel so guilty about everything and i don’t deserve all the love i get and the nice things my family buys me, i’m a disgusting person. i don’t even feel like i’m part of my family anymore i feel completely detached from everything in my life. i don’t think i can ever go back to how i used to be, i feel like i’m too far gone and my brain is too messed up.

I hate not having OCD symptoms for a long time and then suddenly having a spike and it just feels so overwhelming. I’ve been meaning to spend less time on my phone because it feels like an avoidance tactic.I really hope this goes well even though it feels horrible.

Does anybody else here have suicidal OCD? It is so scary and frustrating to me because I’ve never been suicidal in my life, but lately I’ve been feeling depressed and it just scares me cause I’m like well what if these obsessions are turning into real thoughts and feelings? I just hate this so much and my love goes out to anyone dealing with this or any kind of OCD because it is pure hell.

Does ERP help with mental ocd?

Would advise everyone to get a mindfullness app. One that tracks everyday and has set activities. They are awesome and may sound cliché but actually have benefits. You become so aware of how random your thoughts are!!

My ocd has started giving me intrusive images. ROCD has made it hard to determine what my feelings are for my boyfriend and my intrusive thoughts have always centred around “do I love him”. Because I’ve been worried about whether I should break up with him or not, I’m now getting intrusive images of pictures of my boyfriend with a new girlfriend on social media in the future should we break up and it’s really distressing

I've been slacking on healthy food and the gym so tomorrow is my day back to focusing on health and excersize. We NEED to lift ourselves up and continue fighting because we are stronger thank we think and today may have not been good for some but there is always tomorrow. We can't give up because we've made it this far fighting for our lives and continue everyday untill the light at the end of the tunnel peaks! "We go through bad days to experience the best days of our lives." And quite frankly we wouldn't appreciate those damn great days as much if we didn't go through such bad ones. Being empathetic to other people's suffering that's a gift some people unfortunately don't have, i'm glad i'm not oblivious, When I hear people that don't understand other people's suffering it's quite alarming the limited knowledge they have around mental health. I wish that I didn't have mental issues but other times I feel that it's taught me so much about empathy and how strong we are to keep going! Keep up the fight!

When I was a lot younger, maybe 6th grade, I believe. I use to visualize myself having sex with anyone I looked at. No matter what gender or however older that were than me. People at school or on the bus. Maybe in the store or mall. Even my teachers and I wouldn’t want to stay after class or anything to be alone with them. Absolutely everywhere. I hated it. Just thought I’d share.

I'm trans and I'm so tired of pretending I'm not. I'm so tired of being scared, of internalized transphobia, of calling it transgender OCD. It's been a year of being miserable and dysphoric and calling it OCD so that I can exist in denial and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of playing the role of girl so that my transphobic family is comfortable, when I'm dying inside. I am transgender. My pronouns are he/him. I haven't decided on a name yet.

I keep getting intrusive thoughts of the word “boyfriend” and it’s making me feel like I’m not attracted to girls that I was or currently attracted to... 😭😭😭 I only want to be with a girl... 😭😭😭

I feel like I don’t like him anymore , I can think of other guys but I can’t fantasize about him at all and it feels like I don’t want to be physically intimate with at all. I was reading old letters and I romanticized us so much but now it feels like I don’t think those things about him at all. I feel like this isn’t rocd because it feels calm and true. But I want to feel love for him again and attraction

Just a reminder that some day you’re going to feel yourself falling in love with living again. You’re going to be so glad and proud that you held on and you made it through this storm you’re in. It’s coming to you in the future.❤️

I have been working on acceptance after a really tough day and here are a couple of things I learned that really peaked my interest. 1. Acceptance is not agreeing or believing. 2. The thought you have is real in only that it is a thought like any other. 3. Uncertainty is not 50/50 or the flip of a coin. Uncertainty is 1 out any number. Uncertainty could be 1 out a trillion. For me I have to keep on this idea. "I accept that I have OCD and 'x' thought. The thought is real and while I can't be certain it won't happen the odds of it actually happening are quite small."

Does anyone else have doubts that their saved? It’s so hard for me cus I’m unsure if I did it right and was struggling with ocd back then too so I’m unsure about a thought I had and it’s bugging me.

Goals: Read more books. Journal progress. Excersize everyday. Eat Healthy. Meditate everyday. Learn to love myself including my flaws. Sit with discomfort. Let go of guilt, anger and learn to accept being imperfect as no one is perfect. Pat myself on the back for waking up and trying everyday. Stop people pleasing. Quit needing validation from people for the feelings I'm feeling, they don't need to get it. Face my biggest fears and stand strong knowing I'm smart and deservent of being loved. Happy Friday.

Does anyone else not know the difference between an intrusive thought and not sometimes? Like if it’s a thought paired with anger, I may really feel that way for a minute but then ocd takes that and says I got lucky this time it didn’t happen bc I wanted it to, etc Then I obsess because it feels like a “real thought”

I need dire help i am not okay or am i ? Idk anything anymore..I am at a point where i am convinced this isn’t ocd and just my denial and because its denial i am nervous and anxious and scared to accept the fear which I don’t even treat as fear anymore. Whatever thoughts i have during the day I usually write them in my notes and then at the end of the day post them but now i don’t even care if i do that and that just tell me that all this fear could be a lie… i had a dream with this guy which turned into the guy being a girl and kissing me and it actually felt like I didn’t want him to continue to be a guy but wanted to be a girl and even on this platform there’s one person who said all these thoughts and fear and nervousness just lead her to accepting who she was later on and therapy helped her and now i think if i go for therapy its going to tell me the same like anyone who reads this is going to say you’re not straight but bi and i am at point where I won’t even think just accept it and be like oh i can explore more and just reading all that i am writing is a proof of who I actually am and not…i had a dream where my friend who is straight and hopefully i am too cause I don’t know anything anymore we were talking in my dream and then she just came over me and i woke up from the dream its like i felt this giddy kinda feeling in my dream and nervousness and i feel i would feel the same it real life too I don’t think anyone can tell me that this is me still being straight i am not even anxious anymore i am at point where i think what happens if i come out and all this makes me think i have lost…. Thinking about a guy doesn’t feel normal like i am pushing guys away and its making me thinking all the past liking towards the guys were also fake and its was never this and cause it seems easier to be bi its more believable like I don’t relate to the guy stuff crush anymore and constantly just notice the same sex and then have this constant thought of like i know i force myself to feel the anxiety and force myself to write all this because these are compulsions and they tell me its still ocd when i think with everything thats its not and even if i stop these compulsions which I actually rarely do i still have these thoughts and if just one day i act upon them feeling like a possibility then all this was a lie this life was a lie.. my mother talks about bf and i all i think is thats a lie do i even want to be with a guy what if i am not with the girl because if society family and my own thinking and these are valid questions so how are they just intrusive thoughts I don’t understand it seems like i want to be something else cause that might give me peace and being straight doesn’t feel real anymore my friends try to set me up with a guy and all i feel like no and people on here write stuff like i know i want to be with my guy but these thoughts are bad I don’t know anything anymore all the future stuff i start thinking what if a girl and these i fee like are somethings a person coming out would experience not with ocd and earlier i would never accept it but now cause i feel like i can when people with ocd never can as they panic i feel like it was never ocd?!? Pls help tell what i should do?

Realizing I struggle quite a LOT with male validation and my rocd is latching onto this now to say I have never loved my partner of two years only his validation… 🥲

Has false attraction started messin with u so bad it seems so real buh u know it’s not ? Struggling Ik I’m not gay n if I tried it Ik I wouldn’t like it cuz u i don’t see girls in that way I’m tired n is overwhelmed ion wanna lose my boyfriend I wanna marry him someday I wake up thinking I’m gay it all seems so real I jus want it to stop any thoughts on this guys

I might start dating this boy I like soo and I’m worried because I’ve sort of made my peace with the fact that I’m not 100% straight but it still feels like I guess wrong? If I get with him even tho I’ve literally liked him for the past months and I’m very attracted to him. I’m also scared that maybe if our sexual life doesn’t go smoothly I’ll start overthinking and think that it’s because I’m a lesbian or something like that.

Can OCD make you feel like your thoughts are inevitably going to happen for no reason?

This is torture man... OCD is not cool... Imagine suddenly getting scared to watch a movie/ series :-( Imagine this being me for the rest of my life...

Anyone here who is/has been infected with Covid noticed that your OCD is intensified (and not just for those with contamination obsessions)? I've recently tested positive for Covid and my intrusive thoughts regarding my Real Event OCD and POCD just went completely berserk, quickly taking me into an awful mental spiral and severely diminishing my ability to prevent myself from compulsion (the efficacy of which itself was also diminished in ridding me of my obsessions).

I just want to share with you all some podcasts that I’ve found really helpful, and, dare I say, hopeful! Fearcast, Purely, Owning It, & the OCD Stories. Listening to them has really helped me as I’ve been quarantined with Covid.

Word of the weekend Is Temporary: Everything in life is temporary, good and bad. So in good times lets be present and enjoy, and in the negative times lets remember that this is temporary and take the steps to improve!

I am freaking out because I’m not freaking out😭 I’m having thoughts about an ex of mine, now usually when that happens i freak out and i get worried and i feel guilty because I have a Boyfriend But not today, today i feel no fear and nothing negative and i feel like that’s proof that i don’t love my boyfriend and want to be with my ex😭😭😭😭

The only way to get better is to not ruminate, if you ask yourself maybe or maybe not that is rumination. Bringing it up anytime will continue the cycle even if you say you are your worst fear. I couldn’t get 100 percent better until I just didn’t respond to anything. When I did that it took a month to get 100 percent.

So afraid of not being anxious anymore or not being anxious enough from the beginning, when everything started. I don't want it to be truth. I want to love him and be with him. I want it to only rocd, but I'm not anxious..

Lol does anyone else feel like almost an underlying feeling of gay. Like I don’t even know how else to explain it

It feels like I find so unappealing now and I feel scared about this feeling. I didn’t really pay much attention to a guys body before but I still loved being close to one and the physical contact. I also struggle soo much with wanting male validation and it feels like every crush I have has been kind of based off of that which is true it has. But with my boyfriend once I got to know him I really liked him and even before the attention I thought he was really sweet and kind. I think I’m bi because I get so many (intrusive but I doubt it ) thoughts about how pretty the girls at school and how I’d date them or kiss them or if I was a guy I’d date them. I never had these thoughts before but I do now frequently and my memories have been modified too so I’m sure I felt like this in the past. I’m fine with it, but I’m still scared of losing my bf because it feels like I’ve lost ALL sensations for men. Even feel grossed out by them…

I've read somewhere you need to just ignore it and let it be,, and i did for a while but then since im ignoring it.. it feels like my own thoughts and it gets me to do compulsions and makes me think its not ocd its just me..

Anyone have any suggested resources for Canadians? It’s pretty unaffordable and inaccessible to find therapy…This app and all it has to offer sounds perfect.. if I was in the states.

even when i’m doing fine and i’m happy i get the urge to think about my intrusive thoughts, it almost feels like a habit or that i have to think abt them. i’m scared that i like them and that’s why i do that

bruh i hate tocd i am a cis male and want to be forever i’ve been experiencing tocd for a month now and i was just on tiktok and a video came up saying if you are a man cis male from birth keep watching this video and i got anxious?? it’s so annoying because it’s making me think i’m lying to myself i hate this

PLEASE help. existential ocd is destroying me and it feels like my purpose in life is just gone. i find absolutely no joy in anything i do anymore because one day i will die. i’m agnostic and afraid. please help. i feel like i’m already dead. i feel so hopeless and pointless. every day all i do is go to zoom class and cry. sometimes i eat. sometimes i work out. i used to love to draw and play video games, they were my passion. learning and creating were also a huge passion of mine. but suddenly about 2 and a half weeks ago (jan 4th or 5th?) everything was just taken from me without warning. i feel purposeless. everything i do is a waste of time, because i will die someday. i feel worthless and all i do is cry. how do i get myself back? i feel like even if i get myself back, it’s pointless. if i’m happy, it’s pointless. because one day i’ll die and i don’t know if there’s anything after that. i’m soulless.

I love my boyfriend. I feel like I have a very strong connection with him which has developed over time and I want to marry him and have children with him . That being said, in the beginning it wasn’t easy , I wouldn’t say I was infatuated with him , I knew I loved him early on but it made me want to run a mile if I’m honest , I have major trust issues and I struggle being vulnerable. I think I found all the reasons it wouldn’t work out between us in my head to push him away but I was fighting with the fact I know I love him.which probably kick started my ocd . Anyways for the last few days Ive had no intrusive thoughts about him and I feel very in love with him. Then earlier I panicked and googled ‘ can you fall in love with someone without having gone through infatuation’ all I can read is people saying that love at first sight is real and people who say it takes a bit of time are just faking it, that love just happens. I now feel really defeated, I’ve had to really work on my ROCD I’ve had some major struggles with negative intrusive thoughts about my attraction towards my boyfriend as he is not my usual type and stuff but deep down I know I love him on such a deeper level. I am scared that I am labelling what is going on as relationship ocd when in actual fact I may be denying my relationship may not be right. I desperately want things to work out between us and for us to marry in the future which is something we both talk about. But I feel sick in my stomach as the initial deep infatuation wasn’t there it’s more of a slow growing deep love but I’m worried one day I’ll meet someone who I feel that ‘love at first sight ‘ everyone is talking about and that I will destroy my beautiful relationship with my boyfriend. I am attracted to my my boyfriend , the sex is very good and he is very good looking but he’s not my usual type , I usually go for someone slightly taller and a bit different style but in a way that makes me love him even more because I’ve learnt to love the person he is rather than picking someone who fits a picture in my head if that makes sense. I’m so scared to lose him or to mess it up I want to cry so badly

i keep questioning what i did to deserve this. there’s days i go to sleep wishing i didn’t wake up. there’s days where i wake up wanting to just end it all and end the pain i keep causing everyone around me bc they see me struggling and it probably frustrates them as much as it frustrates me. i try so so hard to be okay everyday. these thoughts are so fucken brutal it’s crazy. i can’t even say “aww i can’t wait to have kids” without my mind telling “you just want kids bc your a sicko. you’re gonna hurt them.” false memory ocd & real event ocd have been absolute hell. the urges, the feelings, the frustration, the anger, the disturbing most disgusting thoughts ever. it’s only been 3 months of this constant battle and i feel like it’s been 8 years & like my life has already came crashing down. i had so much ahead of myself, i wanted to be a professional nail tech. i wanted to make it big in life, i saw such a bright future for myself. i cry everyday about this bc i just can’t believe it. im so truly sorry to those of you who struggle bc of ocd. i wish i could cure everyone so we could all go back to being okay again😞

A big thing that helped my recovery is even on my the days I felt horrible I remembered that I’m stronger than this and taking a positive out of the most negative things goes a long way. There were weeks where I would just lay in bed now I’m working and engaged. Life is one big story. Just when you hit the bottom it makes hitting your peak that much better. Perseverance.