After 50 years of having OCD, covering many different themes, mostly of the pure o type, religious, hocd, pocd, I finally feel like I am getting back some peace of mind that I haven't had since childhood. I know I have a recovery journey still to go but giving up a lifetime of rumination and problem solving will take time, but the recovery journey is a far better place to be in than the alternative that OCD offers us. The best advice I can give other sufferers is to not believe the thoughts that tell you....my OCD is different...........I must have certainty or I cannot continue....I deserve to be in prison for what I fear I may have done.
The illness, is tailor made, to our own greatest fears .....and so many of us feel "My OCD is worse than others" and therapy won't work.....I must have the answers ...
Doing ERP, requires doing things a different way and despite your doubts, taking a leap of faith and seeing where it brings you. I have a way to go yet, but I feel more positive about recovery than I have ever felt before and am trying to be vigilant, to OCD trickery, to keep trying to get me to go back, to my old ways.
For anyone who is feeling trapped, lost, afraid, there is help and real hope, no matter how bad it feels right now.
I wish you all a future, where you can have real peace and happiness back in your lives and I truly believe, it is possible, no matter how difficult things seem in the present.
Love, to all of you.