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I am 16 years old, biological female. I've been thinking about this a lot, and been asking a few friends if memory loss is common with them. I can't really remember things from 10 down. I've been through SHIT in my life, and that's putting it nicely. On top of this issue, I struggle with emotional/moral numbness. A part of me thinks the reason I can't remember things is because my brain is trying to protect me from whatever it's hiding. It doesn't want me to remember because it will fuck me up that bad. Does anyone else deal with this? I cannot be the only one.

Im so tired of feeling like germs are crawling up my arms. Trying to avoid germs is a full time job and I’m exhausted.

Why are the scary thoughts still in my head.. is it anxiety or something else .. like depression or what

I have a massive fear of flying. I have a long flight coming up in a month and I’m already panicking about it. Any tips from people who get like this too? I feel like with OCD it’s an added level of anxiety that just makes it so hard

Anyone else have this issue? Everytime my brain believes I have done something “morally wrong” (would make my boyfriend upset), i have this urge to confess and explain in every single little detail what I did “wrong”. I then feel a sense of relief, but then after confessing, my brain spirals and wishes I would have said things differently. I them feel intense guilt because I feel like I lied to him, and that he still doesn’t know the real truth about what I did…It never ends because I always just keep spiraling, it feels like I can never truly be 100% content with whatever I tell him. I should add, I never intentionally lie to him but my brain keeps telling me that I keep lying and deceiving him. Any advice??

I have no natural talents (drawing, sports, etc) and so I find it very hard to relax. Is there any way I can try find m talents? The only thing I think I can do is talking and public speaking, but not sure how that can be made a hobby… advice?

I don’t know if this is OCD or if I was just subconsciously projecting. I used to think my boyfriend was cheating on me, I would ask him about it, and then we would obviously get into a fight after a while of this. But now I’m worried that I was actually the one who cheated (I used to drink a lot the first several months we were together) and I just don’t remember it. That I was actually projecting that onto him and not even realizing it. Can OCD make me think this way? I’ve tried finding things about it but I can’t find anything that talks about projecting feelings.

I constantly find myself retracting my steps when I do things such as leave the bathroom, cook, leave the house, leave my car, go to sleep, multiple times till I feel like I can walk away it’s so time consuming and exhausting i convince myself I didn’t flush the toilet or turn the stove off or lock the doors it’s so overwhelming I believe it’s the fear something will go wrong and everything will be my fault things like this make me think I don’t even have ocd but maybe I’m tricking myself I can’t tell what’s a real thought makes it hard to complete daily tasks

does anyone else feel like they’re simply existing? i cant describe how im feeling. it’s not like i want to die, but i’m just at a crossroads. while i’m so blessed for this life i’ve been given, i find it tough to get ti the end of the day. i just go through periods where i don’t feel like myself. almost like another person inside of my body.

I remember when I was 17-18, and I had done my private time to explicit content of cartoon videos comics of women with guys private parts doing stuff by themselves or with regular women and my HOCD is telling me that I'm in denial because of it, when I just thought it was another form of women doing explicit things with each other things... I am awake in the late night as I type all of this out.. I don't think I can ever forgive myself for the past private time to I*li other explicit comics fanfics with adult and really young cartoon characters couple of times unknowingly when I was 12, and 14 and occasionally unknowingly when I was 17-18. (Ex. Marge and Lisa) I had stopped three years ago, and l'm 21 now but I'm getting intrusive memories of doing it and I immensely regret it and feel triggered by it... I didn't know what the content was in any way at the time or what it represented... and while I avoided most of the content, the videos of them had millions of views, both the videos and the fanfics / comics were on public sites, and some of the creators said they were 18 in some of the videos, so I thought it was safe to watch... I don't ever want to ever be a P or a chomo at all... I don't ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all...

What are some treatments or exercise that have worked?

My HOCD is making me feel like I'm anxious of women and gives me automatic intrusive thoughts of the word "boyfriend" and doing stuff with guys I don't ever want to do with any guys in any way shape or form... it makes me feel like I'm cringing as well…

I’ve been having a hard time at welding school I’ve never been a school person but I though a all hands on trade school would be different but it’s not, all the same thoughts are there I can’t move on to the next thing because nothing is right but the class is moving along and I feel like I’m falling behind. My instructor had a conversation with me because he said it looks as if I don’t wanna be there now I’m thinking what if i don’t and what if I fail as soon as someone says anything its automatically true to me does anyone have tips on how to control your thoughts after someone makes any statements to you?

I get really sad when I think of someone I love dying .. it takes over my brain and makes me so anxious:(

Hello, I’m Katie. I haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I do have the thing where if I touch something with one hand, I have to do it with the other. It just doesn’t feel fair if I’m doing something with only one hand. It’s just not balanced. (Been this way since I was young, didn’t know why I did it. It just felt better when I did) Something random that I realized could be OCD: sometimes when I wear socks that don’t match. my favorite sock (for example, if it’s a purple sock and a pink sock & I prefer the purple one) would go on my left foot. Why? Because left starts with L and my grandmas name is Linda and I love my grandma (…..I know). The next day of course, my favorite of the two would go on the right foot to balance things out… Tbh it sounds like an easy fix, wearing matching socks LOL. I definitely want to start journaling all of the routines that I do that could be OCD. 🤔

Would it be helpful or harmful to have friends with the same ocd as you? I feel like it would be helpful for grounding but maybe harmful due to feeding off each others thoughts/fears. Ocd can be lonely :(

I know I’m not supposed to ask for reassurance so I’m trying to sit with it and not ask for that. Just ate something I was nervous about (contamination ocd) just started ERP with my therapist. Feeling super anxious but I know that sitting with the uncomfortable is what will one day make me stronger

After having my daughter I had really bad harm OCD. I was terrified to be alone with her. My bf works out of town so I was alone all week. I was going to family members houses almost every day of the week so I wouldn’t be alone. I can’t remember clearly cause it was a year ago but I’m scared that I avoided my baby while I was alone with her. I don’t remember doing this but I’m scared I let her cry so I could avoid her. I don’t remember this but I’m scared it happened. I know I always took care of her. She was always clean, clean diaper. Fed and what not. But now I’m like what if I didn’t play with her. It rips me apart that this disorder robbed me of those so special moments. Everything is such a blur from around that time. I look back through snap chat and I have videos of me talking to her and playing with her. But I feel so much guilt that I went through this. This is my first baby and at a time that should’ve been great was horrible. And I can’t come to terms with that. It literally eats at me. This has sent me down a rabbit hole of googling if my daughter is actually bonded to me. And if she has a healthy attachment. I don’t know. This was my first baby. Everything should’ve been so different than what it was. I still struggle with it but no where near what it was after she was born. My daughter means the world to me. I just wish things were different and I just wanna tell her how sorry I am that I wasn’t in a good head space for her.

Hi everyone🤗 How are you doing today? I've been struggling a lot the past few days with certain OCD themes however I do have some good news about my contamination OCD!! Last night I dropped a bit of water and it hit my foot. I was afraid that the water had splashed up from the floor and then on to my foot. Usually I'd go wash my foot and my shoes immediately even if I wasn't certain that it had hit the floor. But last night I decided to be stronger!! I was very tired and couldn't be bothered Washing up which helped me avoid the compulsion! I took a look at the floor and didn't see any water. I then made the decision to accept uncertainty and get back into bed. I did wait for my leg to dry but still this is a huge improvement for this theme of OCD! We've got this!! Step by step! We won't let OCD win!!💪

saw a post about hpv + stds and i’m really worried. i’ve never been std tested and am really nervous to - i know that i need to get tested. any advice?? :(

i’m going back on SSRIs again for the first time in over 2 years. i’m really nervous, because i have trauma related to medication, but i’m proud of myself for asking for help anyways. it’s the absolute tiniest dose of a really tame non-addictive one, so everything should be fine…

What do you think?

My favorite show of all time was the owl house, I hold it so dear to my heart but ever since these thoughts started happening, I've been so afraid to watch it again cause I'm so terrified I'll have a sexual thought about the characters, it makes my anxiety peak so bad now and it sucks that now I can never watch my favorite show in the same way again.

Has any ever told you that you nitpick everything and your never satisfied. How do I fix that? Because I don’t know

How do u stop compulsive behavior?

Sometimes I fear that this random memory is gonna pop into my head and prove that my theme is true

What are Some thoughts on Medication ? I got prescribed some about 2 weeks ago and been taking them but I’m freaking out now because of what they say ( it can cause suicidal thoughts ) and now I’m like what if it happens to me ???

Having OCD, we only tend to see the world in only black and white. We see ourselves, our actions, and our fellow humans as strictly morally black and white beings. But human beings are not morally black and white - we are a species that is very much grey. Everyone is different, everyone has different values, thoughts, and opinions. Humans grow, humans change, and humans are abstract. Your thoughts and feelings don’t make you a monster. Your past doesn’t make you a monster. The world does not have to fit into the black and white spectrum that OCD forces us to see through. Today, I encourage you to live with the “maybe”. Today, I encourage you to live in the grey! ❤️

Lately the thoughts haven’t given me anxiety like they used too which is great right, I have moments of peace and freedom. But I’m having an issue where I focus on the amount of saliva in my mouth because I somehow make the connection that it correlates to if I like the thoughts or not. But even if I do worry about it I don’t feel the anxiety. I worry but like not as much? I don’t know if this is normal sometimes I just feel numb and I get scared that means im opening up to the idea of it. Even thought all I ever wanted for myself was to be kind, compassionate, loving. And bring light and joy to the world. But ocd twist my dreams and makes me feel like im a psycho narcissist, and a selfish negative person. I get scared that maybe I am those things or that maybe my ocd isn’t ocd. I’m just tired of this, I think that if I don’t have anxiety that, that means I want to cause harm or do something. The saliva in my mouth has been making me mad because no matter how many times I dry my mouth or drink water it comes back and maybe it’s just normal but I get scared that it means something especially since people say their mouth waters when seeing something delicious. I’m just scared idk. Anyone else go through a not feeling period?

can anyone tell me a little more about it and how it’s helped you

It feels like men make me bored now. Like I'm not even interested in them. It feels like I was only attracted to the idea of them (but in the beginning I knew that was ridiculous), like I only liked them bc they were masculine and stuff like that. I had that what if I only liked the idea of men thought in the beginning but I knew it was untrue. If I found all of this ridiculous and untrue in the beginning, I should feel the same way now about it.

I still hate the thoughts, but I don't really get anxious. Idk how to describe it. But then not getting anxious but still ruminating and trying to figure it out/self reassurance makes them seem more real, and I'm on a medication that could cause suicidal thoughts so it's just all so confusing. Plus I'm sick.

I just had a simple heart pain and I’m scared that my heart is gonna stop now at any moment.

really struggling tonight because i got triggered by something and started doing compulsions almost as soon as i could (bad, i know). what’s so frustrating is that during these compulsive “fantasies” i feel nothing. literally nothing. i even try so hard to make them as “desirable” as possible to give it a “fair shot” but it’s still nothing. despite that, though, the doubt doesn’t leave. the anxiety doesn’t leave. the idea that i’m wasting my life by refusing to figure this out as soon as i can doesn’t leave. at this point, i know it’s ocd, but i can’t shake the feeling that i have to keep doing this. i know the subtype doesn’t matter but it all feels so real. i’m so disappointed in myself but as much as i tell myself to let it lie and continue living life, i can’t. this feels so monumental. does anyone have any advice on how i can keep pushing through with treatment without relapsing like this?

has anybody ever had a dream about what you think about during the day ? and in the dream you feel what you felt during the day ? I’m not sure how to word this. But basically I’ve been struggling with death anxiety and 2 people that I thought about earlier today were in my dream. and in my dream I was having death anxiety .. is that usual ?

I remember when I was 17-18, and I had done my private time to explicit content of cartoon videos comics of women with guys private parts doing stuff by themselves or with regular women and my HOCD is telling me that I'm in denial because of it, when I just thought it was another form of women doing explicit things with each other things... I am awake in the late night as I type all of this out.. I don't think I can ever forgive myself for the past private time to I*li other explicit comics fanfics with adult and really young cartoon characters couple of times unknowingly when I was 12, and 14 and occasionally unknowingly when I was 17-18. (Ex. Marge and Lisa) I had stopped three years ago, and I'm 21 now but I'm getting intrusive memories of doing it and I immensely regret it and feel triggered by it... I didn't know what the content was in any way at the time or what it represented... and while I avoided most of the content, the videos of them had millions of views, both the videos and the fanfics / comics were on public sites, and some of the creators said they were 18 in some of the videos, so I thought it was safe to watch... I don't ever want to ever be a P or a chomo at all... I don't ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual at all...

My HOCD is making me feel like I’m anxious of women and gives me automatic intrusive thoughts of the word “boyfriend” and doing stuff with guys I don’t ever want to do with any guys in any way shape or form… it makes me feel like I’m cringing as well…

I used to always worry about my boyfriend doing something shady, even though it’s been proven time and time again that he isn’t. Now I’m starting to worry that maybe I did something shady and just can’t remember and that was me subconsciously projecting. Is that even possible? As far as me doing something, I can’t find any proof of anything. Social media, pictures, texts, etc. I can’t find *anything.* The main reason I think I did is just because it *feels* like I did.

Does anyone feel like when theyre having intrusive thoughts, you become “numb”? Like the anxious feeling goes away but you still obsess and it makes it feel more real because the anxious feeling goes away. I often get scared and obsess more when my anxious feeling goes away when i have intrusive thoughts. I feel as though if i’m not having anxiety with my thoughts then they would be real?

Has anyone ever done something they regret and feel so guilty about while being really intoxicated that is the complete opposite of who you truly are and very out of character but your ocd tries to convince you that it's really you? How do you cope?

Does anyone ever feel fine and out of no where they get a groinal and it feels really strong? Then come flooding the intrusive thoughts??? It just came out of no where and my anxiety is getting out of hand

Hey guys, Last year I applied to several universities and i’m starting to hear back from some. I am excited in a way I haven’t been in a long time but my ocd is standing on my shoulder telling me i don’t deserve to have an education or that i’ll be exposed as a horrible person while attending school and everyone will hate me. I want to just be happy for the progress i’ve made over the last year but I’m always waiting for everything to fall apart and i just really don’t want to ruin this opportunity.

You all inspire me greatly and your constant bravery is so encouraging. I’m newer here. My biggest question is - how have you all that deal with ROCD and have had success in managing it, sift through the differences of ROCD thoughts (which drive self sabotage) vs. legitimate concerns in a relationship or partners behavior? Do you find at times ROCD grabs hold of something small or normal in relationship conflict (like white lies from your partner or defensiveness) and blow it up to larger than life indicators that drive your anxiety/ruminations to be incessant? How do you cope? (I just started ERP)

Lately, I’ve been unable to get any work done because of my OCD. I keep pushing everything to the last minute and it’s stressing me out.

Its all in your heads just thoughts focus on a movie or a good calming song and see the positive

I’m new to this one here. How do I cope with a fear that is truly real? I posted before that my dog had been diagnosed with heartworms (don’t come at me, he lived outside for over a year on a chain before we rescued him.) but ever since then, we’ve obviously begun treatment and I’m not sleeping. My OCD has been triggered by this and im CERTAIN he’s going to die. Even knowing his odds are very good, I’m still so sure he’ll die and I’m obsessing. Not sleeping. Watching him sleep all night…This is triggering old fears that I haven’t had in a very very long time surrounding children. I’ve struggled with infertility for over a year and we are FINALLY beginning treatment. This trigger has me wondering all over again if I even want to be a mom which is crazy because it’s all I’ve truly ever wanted! Also this fear didn’t creep back in until I was triggered by my dogs diagnosis…I guess I’m wondering how I do ERP around events that could genuinely happen. While my dogs odds are good, there still is a chance he could not make it and I need to get ahold of this anxiety before I spiral.

Does anyone else seem fine through the day but their anxiety gets worse at night?

Great all about ERP NOCD post today at the top of the screen. Thanks NOCD.

18+ please So I just saw this guy and we fooled around a bit. We didn’t have sex because I said I didn’t want to, but I’m really worrying about something he said to me. I told him I don’t drink often because I don’t want to do something I regret. I then mentioned sex, and how I wouldn’t want to get drunk and have sex with someone and feel like shit the next morning. He then explained how thats happened to him before and it’s “not a big deal” because he “forgot about it anyway”. He went on about how this isn’t a reason not to drink, which he probably is right about. I told my friend this and she got really mad, saying it was really weird for him to say that. I’m now panicking questioning if I should ever see him again. What do I do?

hey all experiencing extreme stress about checking a hook up app while hanging with partner even though we are in an open relationship and both on apps. i have an extreme urge to confess my feelings of guilt to them. any advice or thoughts on if this is ocd or is this something i should confess about. any advice would be helpful

I don't know if it's OCD related but I've recently been falling for every girl that looks at me. I fear falling for people because I have ended up in lust so many times Simultaneously with commitment issues. I would love to know how I can work on this or help expose myself to it in someway. Is me avoiding relationship an avoidance? Many people say I should be alone properly for a while instead of attempting dating all the time or falling for girls so quick. Then I think, am avoiding? hope some of you have some answers

Me after doomscrolling for 2 hours at night and finding 4 triggers to talk about with my therapist lol. *comedic post*

I realized that when I am happy and relaxed my OCD acts up alot. Stirring regrets, fears, shame etc. is this normal? Why is that?

If my body feels different or off I get scared I’m losing control or will do something crazy or go crazy. Like if I get light headed. If I start to feel super sleepy. Anytime my body doesn’t feel it’s normal.

Alot of my intrusive thoughts have been starting with "I want to..." & It's scaring me cause it feels like it's real or I want them.

Before I start, I am in no way a professional. I am a 16 year old kid who happens to be way too educated on these types of topics. But even with this said, please take my advice seriously. I speak from experience regarding this post... ________ Confronting Intrusive Thoughts. Three absolutely terrifying words to some who struggle with them. We feel helpless, disgusting, like a threat or a danger either to ourselves, our peers, or people we have close relationships with. But with full reassurance, I can confirm that ITs so not make you a bad or dangerous person, nor will they ever. Telling someone about intrusive thoughts is an entire other wavelength that many of us are not ready to confront. We are not ready to surface these thoughts and feelings. Either out of fear of acting on them, being rejected, or even being reported to authority. But for all intents and purposes, nobody, not your family, friends, counseler, etc is allowed to do this. Thoughts are SIMPLY just thoughts. If we do not have a towering intention to act on them, we can not be considered a danger. (And in most cases, even if you are deemed a threat, they will work with you before even considering a report) It is ENCOURAGED to contact a professional about intrusive thoughts. In most cases, the ones who fear rejection the most are people like me who struggle with ZOCD, POCD, HOCD, and so forth. We worry that if we open up, we will be rejected. This may be (unfortunately) true for the public or people you know, but as for professionals, it is their JOB to help you sort these thoughts out and find the root. I worried about possibly being a Zoophile or Hebephile (MAP) for a while. I discussed with my therapist how I was feeling, and what it felt like to me. And we simply concluded I was not dealing with paraphilias, I was dealing with these intrusive thoughts. And I was in fact, in need of no treatment regarding the other end of things. Trust your therapists. If there is something "wrong", they will work with you. If there is something you are worried about, TELL THEM. The more you wait, the longer the distress will be dragged out. Don't be afraid to open up. It's not worth the long-term anxiety and paranoia. -Anon/OP

Just the other day I went to the gym during the early afternoon and wanted to relieve some stress, but within 15 minutes of being inside I had my window shattered and everything stolen, my ID, Debit card, Cash App card, Insurance cards etc was all stolen. Transactions started happening, I was in such a state of panic. Luckily we got it canceled and are going through trying to get our refund. But I've been on my period and was crying non stop, the glass cut my hands and kept thinking I could be contaminated by every fear of mine. I've been a wreck lately. The police came to the situation and said nothing could be done because they don't work on cases like this anymore.. I'm just so down and struggling so badly. In addition to all of this NOCD billing issues which has been interfering with me seeing a counselor, it is casing me so much anxiety, stress and depression, I feel EVERYONE is out for my money and peace of mind and trying to take every last thing from me, I honestly don't know how to handle my ocd without therapy and on top of it all life issues, I feel like truly giving up sometimes..

Does anybody have pinch nerves in your neck because of anxiety?

I hate when I’m feeling a smidge better and then it feels like I purposely make myself think the horrible thoughts and then I get anxiety again and the process starts all over. Why does this have to happen?

So I saw in someone else’s post that they were afraid of telling there therapists something bc they were afraid of getting reported can they do that?

I just. I have no clue if I’m ace or not, there’s no way for me to tell- no one tells me what sexual attraction is *supposed* to feel like, so I don’t know what feelings I can identify as that, I could be feeling it but then again I just. Have no clue I just want someone to give me a clear and concise answer so I can tick yes or no and put it in a neat little box Anyways here’s a cute plushie

Really struggling with the what ifs. Like I know that if I had really done something horrible I would have remembered it clearly, right? This sucks and each time I latch onto a new theme it seems like this time it is going to be real and it actually happened, even though I’ve been down this loop a thousand times.

Hey guys so I had a question about how to stop ruminating/compulsions. Like I know a lot of the literature for OCD says we “can’t” logic our way out of it, like convincing ourselves that this thought or compulsion does us no good. But honestly that’s how I do it with my OCD, like once I realize that this is not a thought I want to engage with, I tell myself all the reasons why that’s not a thought I want to or have to engage with and it works, has this work for any of you? Because then my ocd tells me that I’m not doing ERP “right” and that telling my self those truths are a form or neutralizing my distress, then I start ruminating on how my recovery should feel or look like 🫠 aghh

Does anyone here feel like crying could be a compulsion for them? My crying seemed to have become a means to resolve my discomfort with somatic symptoms.

As I was in my private time online with another woman I was getting intrusive thoughts of me doing explicit stuff with kids and no matter how much I tried to replace the intrusive thoughts they kept on coming back… my POCD is saying I’m a P because of this and it’s making me feel like I’m not anxious of the intrusive thoughts and wasn’t making me feel anxious throughout the private time…

does anyone else’s ocd get worse during their period too?

Anybody else super anxious when you move up the next level on the hierarchy?

Does anybody’s thoughts feel so real like they are feelings. It’s hard to forget there just thoughts when you feel your chest like it’s so real.

im recently starting exposure therapy . im starting little by little , this way it’s not too much for me , but i was wondering if anyone has tips for how to cope with the triggers. for example, i know as im doing exposure therapy im going to have panic attcks, breakdowns etc so i would like to have a few tactics that i can do that can calm me down while im triggered from exposing myself to my trigger . if anyone has any, its much appreciated

I feel like my OCD can convince me into anything. I hate it so much. Anyone else ?

So I’ve had a few friends the past few years that everything was about their disorders and trauma. Everything revolves around it somehow. And I started my journey to diagnoses with them. But I’ve noticed it’s now become an obsession for me. I do anything and my immediate thought, “Oh, that’s this disorder. There’s that disorder acting up.” All of my diagnoses make sense but I sometimes feel I’ve gotten worse since this thinking started because now I’m ruminating on it. Before I just coped along and was fine but now I keep focusing in on it instead. So what if having OCD and the feelings of it start to take over my thoughts? What then?

If anyone is willing to connect with me on ROCD, I’d greatly appreciate it! Having a tough time.

Does anyone else feel like your OCD makes you think you are somewhat lying about who you really are to people? My intrusive thoughts/images make me believe that if people knew “who I really was” that they wouldn’t love me and think I’m awful human. This is especially hard with harm ocd. I feel like I’m legit faking who I am to people while I sit there with my ocd and no one knows I’m struggling with it but me. Sometimes I wanna confess to my boyfriend/mom/friends and say “these are the thoughts I am having____” but then I’m terrified of what they’d think. Would they understand or think I’m a freak? People aren’t just gonna admit their intrusive thoughts. They’d instead act like you are insane meanwhile everyone has them but people with OCD have a harder time letting ours go or something. That’s why I do not confess mine but I have urges too bc I feel so fake. People see me as such a nice compassionate person and that’s how I treat people but my head is in a warzone. It makes me feel unworthy of love or something. I just hope at least one person can relate. If you have overcome this, do you have any tips?

Hi, I recently started talking to a new partner and noticed all of my past issues coming up. my fear of abandonment mixed with my obsessive thoughts about blocking him/ending things before I ruin it, needing reassurance, etc. This time i’ve been able to do a lot myself but I still feel like I put too much on him. I think about him obsessively and check our texts throughout the day, hoping he’ll text me. And I feel like I constantly have to check with him or jump through hoops to apologize any time I feel like I have a minor infraction (not his doing, my last friends caused this with the way they would cut people off without warning, which created a new fear in me). I don’t feel like I have good coping strategies for my OCD yet (and I have a few other disorders, all unmedicated). I am in therapy currently but I’d like to reach out to a community and ask, how do you cope with ROCD on your own without burdening your partner?

Has anyone here tried using CBD Oil to help manage OCD? If so any recommendations?

My bff asked me how do I deal with my ocd. I said I'm ok I'm reading stuff and I'm also on an online forum about ocd(I belive I didn't mention nocd but what if I did?!!!!) and now I'm anxious thay she's going to be able to find me and read my posts and stuff like that

How do I stop? Rumination and checking are my biggest compulsions but I find myself ruminating or checking without realising sometimes.. how do I stop it?

Right now I live at home with my parents and younger brother. My older brother is only temporarily with us, he will leave in about 2 weeks. So until he leaves he comes and picks me up from work with his car. So my coworker asked me. She said the one that picks you up is your brother? And I said they're both my brothers(my younger brother tags along because he's bored). She said yeah I know but is the older one your brother. I said yes but he doesn't live with us, he's still at uni but he hasn't left yet(he came for the holidays). Then she also asked me about my younger brother. I don't know I felt my answers were so weird, you know? How quickly I said no no my brother doesn't live with us. The thing is we live in a tiny home and I usually don't give people information because they give me weird looks.

I'm still new to this whole ERP stuff so I was wondering how frequently or how long I should do each exercise? Does anyone have a recommended suggestion?

hey there- new and not sure. I did get diagnosed as bi polar a couple months back. the meds have been working but I stilll have crazy intrusive thoughts. as far as flashes of horrible events, nightmares, and completely convincing myself of things that aren’t true. Must mind created and connects dots that are maybe even out of context, and it has actually made me believe that I am responsible for drought, bad things happening to the people around me, and even the death of loved ones. It’s highly exhausting and unfair to myself and those around me, that I know. I just want to be able to talk about it with someone without feeling like I’m being judged.

i’ve posted about this once before, but i really feel like i can’t smile or laugh anymore. when i laugh or smile, an intrusive thought comes into my head, and it causes me to stop smiling. it happens, without a doubt, every single time. i cant smile and enjoy things anymore because of this and i really think it’s taking a toll on me.

One minute I’m worried I’ll hurt someone or assault someone, the next I’m worried if I feel weird with my genitalia or gender🥲 don’t we all love OCD😂

I think im a bad person after all

I need help and advice, I’ve told my partner that I think I’m experiencing ROCD and that I’m having intrusive thoughts about many things including him. He always asks me if I’m okay and what the thoughts about him are. He just wants to understand and try and help me, I don’t know wether me telling him the thoughts is a good idea will it feed the OCD. What can he do to help in this situation. I never want to tell him I’m not okay so I don’t but I’m really not okay there’s so much going on in my head. Anyone with any advice would be amazing.

I am 30 weeks pregnant and I used dish soap to wash my arm and feet today. Will that cause harm to my pregnancy i just been so stressed and i just want my ocd to stop making me stress during my pregnancy

“Pure O OCD” by Chad Lejeune is one of the few books to address the specific event of pure O OCD. It’s thorough, profound, and can be finished in a day or two. There’s also PDF forms of it online you can access.

Does anyone else have really fun moments with your partner and get very anxious and scared that their thoughts will come back? It’s like I can never enjoy anything, I either have intrusive thoughts or obsessive thoughts about my thoughts coming back:(

hey whoever is reading this i just want you to know that things will get better one day. everyone is on here because in some way we are battling something that makes us feel like we have no control. but just know that you are not a bad person and you are CERTAINLY NOT YOUR THOUGHTS. thoughts are just thoughts, they do not define you and as hard as it is, please never let your mind convince you that you are a bad person, because everyone on here is incredible and just wants to be a good person. we are so stressed and worried that we aren't good people but trust me, it just shows how great of a person you are. please take care of yourselves and just know that you are so deeply loved.

I have been in therapy for 4 months now and I’m basically in recovery from my ocd. Problem is although I no longer get high anxiety, do much compulsions, or get many intrusive thoughts anymore, I can’t seem to ignore all this “proof” I’ve found over the last 2 years of having soocd. I kind of feel like I’ve opened a box that I can’t close. I still worry that all of this was just me questioning and being in denial of my sexuality. I genuinely feel like I relate to a lot of coming out journeys and it scares me. Does anyone have any tips on moving on from this? It genuinely feels like I’m questioning now and I don’t want to relapse.

Hi All! I used to come on here and subtly (or sometimes not so subtly) look for reassurance, but I'm really trying to be better. That being said I'm having a tough day with it today, really beating myself up and it seems so impossible to ever move on. So just looking for some support or to chat. What's something good in everyone's day today? I'm having a really productive day at work despite my mood, so that's my positive!

I’ve had this for 4 yrs. For 4 years I’ve had thoughts about being a pedophile, being attracted to my mother and father, family members, thoughts about killing people, I do not know how I have lasted this long with this disorder. I take meds but the thoughts are still there and my fear of my mind never goes away. I’m stable though but there’s plenty of times this disorder made me think how I was gonna push through. I just had to vent and if anyone out there is struggling just hold on a bit longer and it’ll pass no matter how awful the thoughts are I promise

I had a lot of unexpected things happen this morning and was just overwhelmed and didn’t go to like the one job interview i’ve gotten. I just felt like i was going to fail it. I know OCD is a lot of procrastination to avoid doing something not perfectly and all of it feels like it’s catching up - like if something won’t go “right” i can’t do it. Any advice besides “dont be afraid to mess up” “everyone makes mistakes” or “nothing in life is perfect” feel like i make more mistakes than most and that there are things that go perfectly and just want to maximize those things but don’t know how to. Didn’t want to go into my interview not ‘perfect’ bc I wasn’t prepared

Has anyone ever experienced not being able to sleep at all when increasing an SSRI? Hoping I don’t have serotonin syndrome.

I just can’t stop thinking that with every thing I eat I will get an allergy shock and die Every time I eat at night when pharmacies are closed i think I can’t have time to be saved so I start panicking right after I eat and I can’t breathe thus believing that I am actually going into shock I have no allergies as far as I know and I’ve eaten almost every single food out there But I can’t stop stressing and I want to go see an allergy doc Anybody else experiencing this?

so, i have been doing self ERP since i was diagnosed but there still something idk what to do about the " i dont know who i am anymore" obssession, how should i cope with it?

I constantly obsess over the bad things about my partner. I constantly think that I don’t love him when he’s the most amazing thing to happen to me. My thoughts are becoming worse moving onto sexual things I don’t want to have sex with him because I feel like I’m not attracted to him and I don’t want it this is becoming a huge issue I need help and advice. This has happened ever since the commitment became serious I love him and I need to try and save this relationship.

I know the thoughts are absolutely false but they seem so real and really the biggest issue I have is worrying about relapses

A lot of times my OCD tells me to look at people, sometimes twice or sometimes four times (always an even number). I did this today and the person caught me looking and I immediately looked down and felt a short wave of anxiety in my stomach. My brain is telling me I did something really wrong and that I shouldn’t have been looking especially since I’m in a relationship. Can anyone relate or give advice? Anything will help.

I have been struggling with these intrusive thoughts for over a week and a half now and after a mental breakdown and recently starting the ERP, I've started to feel emotionally numb to these thoughts, is this a good sign or have I just emotionally burned myself out?

Ok maybe I'm grasping at straws here, bit before I've never experienced anxiety and intrusive thoughts (never had an intrusive thought I thought was connected to my character before), and the only thing I can attribute it to is either my job or my location. I went from doing contracting and being outside often working on homes to an office job, last week due to the snow we were online and I was starting to feel somewhat better but now I'm in the office, and I had a panic attack on Sunday but I sucked it up, said I have to do this. Now it's Thursday and I'm having another panic attack/dissociating, when applying I had minor panic attacks in the office in interviews and I should've put two and two together but I figured I'd habituate, now I'm thinking about quitting and going back to contracting but it comes at a steep pay cut for the next year until I get the skills required to be good at it. I just can't help but feel it's because of the office job, to be honest I kind of hate the office. Anyone else experience this?