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Maybe,MaybeNot
Yesterday
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Real Events OCD
Morning everyone. I had about 4 days of not ruminating and was doing really well for the most part. But yesterday, another thought popped up, and it was like there was this voice inside of me saying “this one is different” and “just ask for reassurance this one time and it will all go away.” Well it didn’t go away. I asked about 5 different people for reassurance and then tried to do my big compulsion which is confessing to my fiancé. Luckily, he does not allow me to confess and cut me right off. So although I am a little sad that I gave in, it was another learning experience that all my thoughts are the same, none of them are an exception, and seeking reassurance doesn’t work. I’m recommitting to recovery today and will fight whatever is thrown my way because I’m ready to take my life back or die trying.
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Anonymous:,(
Yesterday
I miss my normal life. My mind has been so messed up. I don’t know if I’m still in love with my boyfriend my mind tells me I don’t but when I think about leaving it says I love him. I’m not sure if it’s cause my codependency issues but it sucks. The only reason I feel like I don’t love him is because he’s the reason why I started getting intrusive thoughts. And I kinda hold that against it my mom told me if I really loved him I would be able to forgive and move on but I can’t :\ than I think about all the memories we have and all the good and the bad and it hurts. I’m afraid of people asking why I left because we look so happy and it sucks. I just hate my mind every thing is falling apart. I just want to go back to loving him and having that love for him. I feel like he’s noticed I’m distant now. I feel like I’ll never be able to fall in love again or stay in love. It just sucks and because of my POCD I’m afraid of being with someone younger than me even tho I’ve only ever really liked guys older than me and who are more on the Heavier side. Sometimes as soon as I’m texting my boyfriend I say I love you and my brain says no I don’t I like kids and the crazy part is that even though I get intrusive thoughts about kids I’m not attracted to them at all but I’m sure my OCD is seeing that I’m thinking this and it will attack that too. I just wish this never happened and I just want to be in love with my boyfriend. I feel like sticking it out but I been trying and nothings changed. I feel like taking a break but I don’t want to hurt his feelings and we work at the same job so I feel like it be awkward. I just hate this so much. I just need help and want to end it all.
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Anonymous
Yesterday
  • Relationship OCD
This is a message of HOPE for this experiencing ROCD. You can get through this ane I know this because I have. This year has been the hardest of my life. I started experiencing ROCD with my new partner in January and it absolutely crippled me. I could barely go to work, I was in tears almost all of the time. I wasn't sleeping, I lost about 8 kg because my appetite was so suppressed because of my anxiety and I genuinely thought that I was incapable of loving and would be alone forever. Fast forward to now and I went through three different therapists having no idea that I had ocd. I found NOCD about 3.5 months ago, started taking an SSRI and I feel like a new person. I am happy and smiling again, I feel great affection for my partner after feeling so disconnected and often repulsed by him and I am excited about a future together. Whereas before, even the thought of planning our future in any way made me feel sick with dread and anxiety. I genuinely cannot believe what a difference these past few months have made and if you are thinking about doing ERP, please talk to your doctor and do it. It has made such a difference to my life and this can be you as well. I know that when you're in the thick of it, it seems impossible that things will ever change, but they can if you're willing to do the work. You can do this ❤️❤️
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hayli_zer0
Yesterday
what should i do to stop ocd from continuing to ruin my favorite things? am i supposed to fight the thoughts or just let it happen? should i stop doing the things i like that ocd is telling me i dont like anymore? for the past year or so i have been terrified that i dont like my favorite things anymore. the main thing is that my brain tells me i dont like my favorite band anymore, and then it transferred to saying i dont like music at all. now its to the point where im scared to like music. i dont really know what to do. i taught myself how to play guitar and piano, and i thought about asking for harmonicas for my birthday in 2 weeks but im scared. music is a big part of my life but im scared of not liking it anymore. what should i do? i am not looking for reassurance but instead i am wanting to know the proper way to deal with these thoughts instead of worrying about them for hours on end
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OCDumb >:(
Yesterday
I’m about to go to sleep, and tomorrow’s Sunday, so here’s my weekly recap- I’m on my period right now, so my OCD is bad. Really bad. I had a mild episode, reminiscing about before my intrusive thoughts began. My mom told me how much better I am now though, and I got a mug cake :) I told some friends about HOCD. Very worried because one said I give off both gay and straight vibes. Triggered me badly, and am still not over that. Considering restarting a crush on a bi guy. Dunno how I feel about that. Super super worried that thoughts of being LGBTQ+ are becoming more realistic or comfortable. I would prefer to not be lesbian/bi/pan, as I do not feel that accurately reflects who I am. I had a really fun past couple days despite my thoughts, which have been at a high lately! Tomorrow is Sunday, so I’m going to pray a lot at church and overall just relax! Goodnight everyone! Let’s make this next week AWESOME!!!
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LizLemon
2d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
  • Relationship OCD
I’m battling HOCD + ROCD pretty intensely these last several weeks. My boyfriend and I are going to a live event tonight and I’m feeling anxious about being surrounded by triggers and potentially having a panic attack. Any advice on how to ensure this doesn’t happen and have a good time? Do I tell myself that maybe I will be triggered and that it’s okay? He said we can try selling the tickets but I understand that it’s avoidance if I give in to this and I really don’t want to do that. Thanks for any help! 🤗
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FluffiBunni
2d ago
  • Existential OCD
  • Transgender OCD
I feel like I dont have a gender, yet I disguise myself as female. I don't think of myself as he, she, or any other pronouns. I kind of think of myself as an...it. I think of myself as an honest, as just pure matter floating in space. I just tell people I go as she/ so they aren't confused by whatever I have to say about this. I feel like it's hard to just tell them this. Not sure what to do but rn I'm fine with just disguising myself as female and ignoring any more thought about it
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Abigail ✌
2d ago
Any advocates/professionals on here I need ur help!!! My main theme is pocd. My OCD therapist (specializt even) where I live is telling me it's NOT OCD if u 100% believe the scary thoughts, and that instead that's psychosis or even the truth. I'm now avoiding therapy because I felt like they confirmed I'm a pedo. I don't understand. So I don't have OCD? I was diagnosed with OCD a long time ago, I have obsessions, compulsions, avoidance, everything OCD related, but since I 100% my fears it's basically not possible for me to have OCD? I need advice ASAP. I am hopeless.
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nochristina
2d ago
  • Relationship OCD
Hey there, I often seek reassurance through my partner after we have any slight disagreement or if I let my ocd get in the way of our relationship and cause issues... Often times, we will fight at night and then we are apart at work and I get urges to text him and apologize. I have not yet explained my ocd to my partner as I just realized that I have it a few months ago. We've been together for 2.5 years and we are in a serious relationship. I'm very comfortable with him but I just panic about the thought of telling him because I feel crazy. He has dealt with my meltdowns and he doesn't understand them, neither did I. I guess my question is, is this common? How do you handle the urge to speak reassurance? And how did you talk to your partner?
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Whatabtme
3d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Why do tiktok videos have to be so damn triggering? I could be doing the best I've ever done dealing with my soocd then I click on one video "how to know if you're a lesbian" and i can't stop watching its like I want to get triggered or something. Ocd is so addictive, I almost bring it upon myself. These videos are so stupid too, they're sweeping generalizations when every single person is so unique and different. I hate everything. Looking forward to a day full of ruminating and fear of being a fraud 😐🙃
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wangoose
3d ago
  • Relationship OCD
my brain keeps saying “what if there’s someone better than my boyfriend” like i know that there’s no one better than him but what if? and my brain is like “his best friend has some better minor traits than him so maybe he’s better for you? like no i don’t want him he’s not compatible with me and i feel happy with my boyfriend. his friend isnt the best looking but he is nice but my brain keeps saying “what if he was better looking? would you like him?” ughhhh, i’m scared i don’t wanna have these “the grass is greener on the other side” thoughts
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JessA 🌞
3d ago
Hi everyone, just a reminder non-OCD suffers get intrusive thoughts, urges, sensations, memories, etc, also.. they just respond to them differently. They don’t have the certainty that you don’t have, they just don’t buy into these things like we do. The treatment is not to find certainty but to retrain your brain to respond to these distressing things similar to those without OCD. If you really delve deep there’s very few things in life that we have absolute certainty of or maybe even it’s only the one.. which is that our time here is limited and will come to an end one day. Certainty is not the way to recovery, it’s ERP 😊
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Someday
3d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
I need to say this because it’s plaguing my thoughts. When I was a child I used to see stuff on the Tv, hear it get talked about and see people doing stuff that was sexual. It used to confuse me as I didn’t know what it was. So the stuff I would see I would try, even if that was with the same gender. I did it because I thoughts that’s what you did, I didn’t know what I was doing. I was learning if anything. Now I’m sat here stressing out that what I did as a kid means I’m gay. People on here are telling me that if you’ve had a homosexual experience then you probably don’t have SO OCD but I know I’m not gay. It’s not really a homosexual experience. As a kid I wasn’t doing stuff because it was with a girl,I was just doing what well, sometimes what people were telling me to do. My brain tells me over and over again that if I look at someone or have a random thought that I am, but I like guys! I want a guy in the future, I can’t see myself with a women but everyone is telling me that if that happened I’m the past, then your just gay, but I don’t want to be. I know I’m not meant to seek out reassurance, but I really need it
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:>
3d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
Whenever I feel really upset it's like I've convinced myself the thoughts are true because now I haven't been focused on my loss of attraction to guys and the checking to see if I like girls makes me feel sick, and now when I feel terrible it's like I feel that way bc I've "realized" that its just denial, and now it's making me think that being with the same sex will make me happy and it feels so real but that just makes me more depressed, and this might sound silly but I'm afraid of getting therapy and being happy and what if I find out its the truth, wich makes me think it's denial even more. It's a cycle of pain, I feel so anxious and depressed but I can't even cry. I just want to be straight, I don't want to feel like im homophobic and in denial anymore
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Imaan7
3d ago
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
  • "Pure" OCD
TW Hocd I actually dont know if I have hocd or not. Feels like It is denial. Reasons being I dont think I have any compulsions or ever did as other sufferers not sure though. Have not obsessed as much in the last week, I feel gay all the time and not feel straight. Weak attraction to women. I just feel very confused, depressed and anxious all the time, it maybe due to my sexuality changing or me realizing my true self or whatever It may be. Regardless, I have contacted a bunch of therapists bc I want to get out of this mess and feel normal again. Whatever my sexuality may be( most likely gay unfortunately) I need to feel better again and focus on other things, Im so exhausted feeling like crap every day for over a year and a half. I just hope I can feel somewhat straight and myself again after this is said and done.
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jadedd
3d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
i miss blasting music in my car and singing along to it. i miss being able to work. i miss getting excited about shopping/starbucks. i miss laughing. i miss smiling. i miss being able to feel normal around my family. i miss watching twitch streams/playing video games. i miss being able to watch tv and be on social media without getting triggered every 2 seconds. i miss being attracted to people and flirting w/o my brain twisting it into something it’s not. i miss my life. i want it back so bad. more than anything i want to feel whole again.
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PinkLotus
4d ago
  • Relationship OCD
  • Sexual Orientation OCD
So my boyfriend and I have settled into a routine of hanging out almost every day while he’s here and it feels just really normal and comfortable. I love it honestly just being able to be near him but my mind is starting to race again saying I’m settling or that I’m “missing” something just because some days are normal and more cuddly than full of fire and excitement. My boyfriend is my best friend and being around him just puts me at ease. I’m just scared that it means I don’t love him anymore or that I need to be with someone I don’t wanna be with
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abrad25
4d ago
  • "Pure" OCD
OCD used to make me cry endlessly i never thought i would be happy until one day i stopped fighting with my thoughts and let them be there, don’t get me wrong they bother me but they don’t control my life anymore. the issue now though is that i feel completely numb. i’m either angry or just in the middle not happy not sad but also struggling to feel anything things that used to make me feel just don’t make me feel anything anymore. i don’t really know what to do because it beats the alternative right ? idk i just want to start living again
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