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i feel like i’m at a place where i no longer feel very anxious over my thoughts just doubt and annoyed. it’s like i know myself well enough to know what i’m going to choose in the future, but ocd makes me doubt my future decisions which no longer gives me as much anxiety, but equally makes me very annoyed bc it makes me feel as though i don’t know myself. 🙄
I try not stare at adults or kids and it's annoying. I don't know if it'll go away over time but hopefully it does because I just try to mind my business
I keep getting intrusive thoughts of guys I walk past being cute… and automatic intrusive thoughts of the word “boyfriend” everytime anything about beautiful ladies my age and above is even mentioned… I hate it so much 😭😭😭
I am at a phase in my recovery right now where I am upset with myself about not knowing these techniques in the past. I go down emotional spirals thinking that so much time in my life went to waste because of these compulsions. Anyone have advice or has anyone else ever felt this way?
I have OCD where if I say, think, write, or respond to certain words, that something bad will happen, but I can't say what it is bc it really freaks me out. It's surrounding my kids and I feel like it's not worth the risk of things coming true, so it's just my cross to bear, and I know that's like the definition of illogical, but I just want to avoid the possibility at all costs. I have gotten over one part of it, an item that's associated with the topic, I can touch those now and not have such overwhelming thoughts. It's just driving me crazy and making me so tense. I just want my brain to be normal
Always worried about this. Was so focused on it.Then I got an intrusive thought while holding my baby. “ just get a feeling” And I got a weird feeling. Can’t tell if I did it on purpose now because of the intrusive thought first
Ever ruminate about something from the past and wonder why you didn’t think anything of it when it happened?
I’m feeling really tired and weighed because of my OCD. Everything has been so exhausting. Whenever I experience something that is unpleasant in the normal day to life experiences as every other person does, I just want to cry. My OCD is the forefront of my problems. It’s this huge and overwhelming negative thing to deal with — that I feel like I’ve lost the capacity to deal with the normal unpleasant situations. It’s weird. If I wasn’t dealing with OCD, I’d probably still be crying and would’ve been upset by whatever I experience but with having OCD, that feels insignificant compared to what I deal with OCD but regardless I have lost the semblance of control to be indifferent to both. Anything negative consumes me whole, no matter how minute it may be and dealing with your normal circumstances and OCD has become a chore
Curious what all of you do! :) So, obviously I am working on not using my compulsions as a coping mechanism. Without them, I feel like my old habits of coping through self-destructive behaviors are the next things my mind goes to. I’ve built a super fulfilling life for myself and I don’t ACTUALLY want to do anything self-destructive, so I’m exploring more healthy coping skills!
That Dahmer series trigger you guys at all?
Oftentimes I feel like I shouldn’t be allowed to dress expressively, or get that haircut I want, or release my art into the world— like I shouldn’t be allowed on a stage or in public places or to speak or have friends or a partner or a job or to travel or hell… even do kind things for people. Because I feel like I don’t have enough of a conscience for any of these things I want to do to work, and like everyone around me will see through my guise sooner or later. So much of these thoughts of self-deprivation are subconscious but they affect SO many of my decisions. I hate how I carry myself and how my defense mechanism is to make myself as invisible as possible. I don’t want to feel shame anymore. How do you do this?
While in recovery do any of yall find yourself not being anxious about the same thoughts that would normally trigger anxiety and fear and now arent. & Now it feels like its because you are more capable of doing them even though you dont. I hope that makes sense....
My name is Anna, and I just recently been dealing with what I believe is “Harm OCD” I know this has been a trigger for a lot of people but it started when I found myself seeing clips of “dahmer” and it really caused me to spiral. It made me have a lot of dark thoughts that I’d never think I’d ever experience in my life. I’m a very sensitive person and I’ve always been, and the fact that this is happening to me feels horrible. It can get so real to a point where I actually believe I’m a bad person, and I feel like I need to act on the thoughts, when I know there’s a right mind in me somewhere. It has latched on to themes of me Hurting myself or my loved ones and it scares me because it makes me feel like I’ve lost the love I’ve had for my family my whole life. I have moments where I question “why should I be good” and I don’t want them. I just feel like a monster and I just don’t want to feel this way anymore. I don’t deserve this, I feel like I’ve lost myself and I don’t know how to move forward. Has it ever gotten this bad for any of you?
Sorry im late but i believe the 4th visit with NOCD went well lol it hit me hard this erp. I cried & am not a crier. So i honestly dont know what to say. Im in pain, but supposedly theres alot of pain before the sunrise or whatever? I hope thats true.
I’m so sick of having this , I started to get this at age 18 and now I’m 36 , I’ve had every type of theme you can think of HOCD, POCD, Health OCD, Suicide OCD, Harm OCD and now Real Event OCD over something happened years ago that I did , that I’m ashamed and embarrassed about but I was young why should I be punished over something I did, I didn’t hurt anyone , just experimenting with myself
Hey so I have been in a relationship with my girlfriend for 7 months. I identify as bi. So it started a a few months into dating that I would feel as if I didn’t like her anymore or your not sure if you want this. And then a day later I was fine. Well this keeps happening constantly and constantly. And I’m scared that I actually don’t like her cause it would kill her if I broke up with her and when I’m with her it’s all normal and I’m happy and my whole mood changes. And I can’t seem to get why I feel this way. And maybe I just don’t like her anymore idk. But I really stress about it and it causes A LOT of anxiety and depression. Anything would help!!
Rocd,, trans ocd,, everything ocd lol So my relationship with my boyfriend is one out of a movie. I'm 24, we've been together since I was 16. We have a house and contiously try to show eachother hoe much we mean in eachothers lives. Recently I've fallen out of love so to speak, feeling super bland around him and hopless. I find myself looking for those feelings in other places. I feel so guilty. I'm not a cheated, but I fantasize about other people. I know we can fall Back in love and it's natural for love to wax and wane, but my ocd screams at me to leave. "Your gay your gay, your a trans man that's why" Keep in mind my whole life I've always felt female (I'm a natural born female). Then suddenly after a traumatic event I didn't know who I was, started having intrusive sexual images of females and questioned my feelings for my partner. My partner and I are really good together, I don't want to have to leave because of some thoughts. Please just give me some inspiration and hope, anything please 🙏 thank you
Does anyone here take erp treatment without insurance ? If so, how’s that working for you?
Has anyone else convinced themselves that they look gay? I feel like I have a more masculine face and my hocd is convincing me that I look like a lesbian and therefore must be one. I constantly am checking the facial features of gay and straight women and I honestly feel like I have a gay looking face.
I’m going on vacation with my family for a week. I am terrified that someone will recognize me and bring up what I did in the past that has become a very severe real event obsession in front of my family and the whole thing will spill out. I don’t know exactly what I am expecting to come from this post. I’m just on my own because no one knows about the real event and it’s exhausting acting like there is no problem around everyone because they wouldn’t understand.
So someone accidentally threw a small ball HELLA FAST and it hit me right in the face. Right after I looked them in the eye and said “that hurt, that really hurt.” They apologized later and I said it’s fine and that they’re okay. I feel like my response to being hit in the face was a little mean :( I was just really shaken. I hope they don’t feel too bad.
i have false memory ocd. well i belive i do. and tmmrw i see a doctor to get a referral to see a specialist. but i'm really scared because i don't want to tell the doctor my false thought because it's really bad. apart from that the specialist on her page only mentions CBT even though she's a ocd specialist. and i'm really scared idk if i'll be okay past today:C;
Anyone get scared of doing nice things because you think you’re doing it with a bad intention?
Could compulsive masturbating and porn addiction be making my OCD worse and anxiety?
Does your ocd get to the point that you just accept that your a bad person and you start to identify with the thoughts that that’s your true self? Because I’m getting there. I’m just wondering if this is it or if there’s a way of getting out of this mindset. I don’t want to identify as the one thing I hate the most
i’m a 19 year old female college student. i don’t view myself as being a “butch” lesbian but others do. probably just because i’m a lesbian. i think at least. tocd is kicking my ass to put it bluntly. i don’t know how to get out of this hole. my first episode of it was about 2 years ago now when i started getting really confident and in touch with my more feminine side and now i just feel like that’s never going to be attainable again and that i’m destined to just suffer with this uncertainty and stupidity forever. i want to be strong-looking and work out more but i can’t even have those thoughts without my brain trying to convince me i’m a man. i genuinely don’t know who i am anymore and it’s horrifying. i hate being like this. i feel like the fact that i’m even questioning myself is indicative that i’m not a real woman or that i’ve been lying to myself and i can’t get out of that mindset. i’ve gaslit myself into thinking i secretly want to transition. i genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. i’m at the end of my rope metaphorically here. any advice would be appreciated. how do you deal with TOCD specifically as opposed to other themes? i know the base process of dispelling the thoughts is the same, but is there anything i should be doing in particular when it comes to this theme?
I feel like I am doing better and living my life but then bam - I got hit with a big trigger today and it is like I have strong evidence for my theme to be true. I'm having a pretty lousy day and just want to cry.
I have been doing ERP/medication. Bc the panic attacks would get really bad. But now i can sit with my thoughts, i can notice when a compulsion might want to take over, every now and then i will catch myself having a"normal day" & the doubt of it actually being a good day sets in, and i wonder where the thoughts, where tge anxiety is at and so on. BUT its been possible guys! ERP has not been easy on me. My woman problems havent been easy on me. But God. Has giving me all my strength. Theres hope !
I know that OCD isn't the most popular neurodivergence / mental illness but I find it really hard sometimes when I see no representation at all. It's why I like this app so much, we can talk easily and feel understood but still ... There is no direct representation of OCDer on screen and there is not a lot of accessible group on the internet about this disorder either. Even on social media, when we talk about neurodiversity, we talk mostly about ASD and ADHD. (Don't get me wrong those are really important) Any thought ?
HOCD has been my main OCD theme for the past couple of months and it’s been a torture. I’ve always defined myself as straight and always had boyfriends. However, OCD is distorting everything. It feels like now every girls I see, I get scared they are lesbians or If I find them pretty that I am actually attracted to them. It’s so weird as I always used to look at girls (sometimes even more than boys) and judging how pretty or not they looked at the past - but more as a way of comparing myself to them (as in am I better and prettier than her ?) Does anyone experience this with HOCD ? Seeing changing thinking patterns on things that didn’t use to bother them ? Also wanted to share some tip. I started ERP a few things helped: - My thoughts are not reality, having intrusive thoughts doesn’t mean I acted on them. - I always look at my emotions - surely if they are so negative the possibility of me not being lesbian is higher than being one. However, there is always uncertainty. - Finally I try and just be in the present. Accept for where I am now. For example, I am currently watching a movie with my boyfriend rather than focusing in the crazy what if scenarios going on in my head Hope this helps, good luck to everyone with OCD!!
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Hey all, does anyone else have severe health ocd ? I have it about my kids and it’s so hard to not seek reassurance. It’s been a never ending theme for a year now and every week it switches health topics. I don’t know how to not seek reassurance especially when ocd uses it’s sneaky technique of “but what if this time it actually is something?”, which then sends me into a spiral of panic. Ugh just wondering if anyone else has gone through this theme 😖
I have a very bad feeling that something bad is going to happen to my boyfriend on his trip home from military and I’ll have random thoughts about checking all the doors on my car or petting my dogs a specific way every single night or tapping a door four times and if I don’t do these random things, my mind tells me that something bad will happen to him and it’s causing so much trauma for my mind, I feel as if I just can’t take it anymore.
Hi I’m having trouble telling if this is OCD. I’ve been with my partner 3.5 years. Just over 3 years ago there was an event where I feel I overstepped boundaries with a flatmate / friend. I cuddled with this friend / flatmate on a couple of occasions and one night after we’d been clubbing and I got very very drunk (I vomited on the cab ride home) and when I woke up we’d slept in my bed together. I remember being certain we’d just cuddled, so I didn’t hugely worry about it at the time. I even remember the next day we discussed we’d just got super drunk fallen asleep and cuddled. Three years later I suddenly remembered it all and felt awful. I confessed to my partner saying I’m so sorry, I feel I cheated as I cuddled someone else and I know I overstepped boundaries. My partner really didn’t see it as a big deal and straight away was like that’s fine don’t worry about it I don’t view that as cheating. I have since become obsessed with the idea I’m a cheater and I need to break up with my partner or constantly confess to save him from me. My relief at confessing to the cuddling lasted about a week. Suddenly I thought wait.. how can you be SURE you only cuddled in bed!? You were insanely drunk, you’d been throwing up, you woke up in bed with someone! What if you had sex or kissed while completely drunk? What if you simply can’t remember doing those things??? What if you’ve blocked it out your mind and lying to yourself and your partner? So then I confessed again to my partner. I said hey actually maybe it wasn’t just cuddling. Maybe I had sex with him and I can’t remember. I was drunk. I can’t be totally sure. Maybe I just forgot it all. Then my partner got upset. He was like ok so just be honest you slept with him? Then I said actually I don’t know. I really don’t think I did. But I googled it and some people said they’ve been so drunk they don’t remember sex before. To my recollection this has never ever happened to me , I remember sex in the past even when drunk. But I just don’t know. So now I’ve said I did it to my partner, then I said no I don’t think I did. Now I feel I’m a liar and a cheater and I’ve ruined and tainted our relationship forever. I really really truly can’t remember sex or kissing happened. Yes I was drunk and yes I know the cuddling in bed was wrong so I deeply apologised for that. But I’m TERRIFIED more happened and I’ve totally physically cheated and lied to my partner for years? Please help me. I feel like the only way out is breaking up with my partner even though I DONT want to and I love him so much. I’ve ruined our whole relationship and I feel ive lied to him. He says he doesn’t want to hear another word about it and I just need to sit with these feelings because he can’t stand hearing it anymore. I don’t know what to do I’ve ruined my relationship and I’m an awful person and partner
OCD is so annoying. Like I literally don’t have time for it and it’s intrusive thoughts. The worst part is I KNOW it’s annoying and it’s like a fly buzzing around my ear that I should just ignore, yet I’m still anxious and scared 24/7? Major eye roll.
Aright day 34 in recovery!!!!! One thing about recovery I really hope people know or I can share is that your gonna feel strange and it’s normal I have days and moments I’m doubting myself and my journey. Was it really ocd? How do the thoughts not bother me anymore? Maybe you liked them and now it’s like unphased? It’s just ocd doing what it does best! Your not crazy, your not your thoughts. The thoughts still pop up throughout the day you just don’t feel as wrapped up in them. I think of it as looking at a train pass it’s huge loud and time consuming but you see it watch it for a second and it’s gone that’s how we have to treat these thoughts. Whats helped me is if I feel myself like over thinking or getting into the thought I say okay breathe relax a thought is just a thought it means nothing. The thought won’t make you do it and you can’t just go crazy it’s all okay! I hope this helps someone cause I know it helps me to look at and understand. Even though I have moments where I fear slipping into an ocd thought I know that now that im in recovery I can’t go back to how bad it was because I know what it is and how to try and help myself. And if you have a bad day you have a bad day your allowed to it’s normal and human. Have a great day everyone!
I’m so fed up with this crap , you think you’ve beaten it and another theme comes along , I just want thoughts to be nothing like Normal people, I’m so tired I’ve had HOCD, POCD, Death OCD, Existential OCD, Harm OCD, Suicide OCD and now real event OCD and I’m to worried to see someone over something I did years ago when I was young and experimenting I tried it once , didn’t like it and never did it again but my brain won’t accept that
Can anyone (moms or not?) relate? I have two toddlers who I absolutely adore. And in everyday sorts of actions, I will touch a body part or touch them with part of my body and constantly question whether or not I did it in a sexual way. I usually can fight it but the other day I rubbed my boob against my son while we were cuddling on the couch and I can’t stop overthinking. Any advice on how to cope? Thank you.
My boyfriend plays video games, which never bothered me! But now suddenly I’m like bothered by it.. or like starting to worry about him overdoing it and turning into a video game bum in the future. I even messaged him like “make sure you’re not getting addicted”. He’s in college as well, so it’s not that he’s doing nothing, it’s just a hobby he likes. But my brain is now paranoid that he will turn into a bum and non stop play video games. Essentially it seems I’m mentall checking or doing mental compulsions to make sure it’s not gonna be an addiction and to make sure that he’s the right one, cause if he turns into a bum then he’s the wrong one. How do I stop doing mental checks or obsessing over little things that he does that never bothered me before but now does?? Another example.. if his hair is messy, I’ll suddenly get that ick factor and like want him to change it.. and just get mad an irritated by it (me checking and testing he is perfect and the right one) What do I do?
Anybody else wake up with Anxiety
Some days are better than others, but I’m seeing improvement over all. It’s weird how OCD gets worse when you’re going through stressful events in life. Lexapro is definitely helping. I’ve only been on it for two weeks but I’m feeling more calm. The mind is such a weird thing. Does anyone ever have that weird feeling when things are feeling more “normal”? It’s like I’ve been so used to things being off, negative and abnormal this past year that when I finally feel some relief, it’s just…weird?? A feeling I candy explain. It’s kind of uncomfortable as odd as that sounds. Has anyone experienced this?
Anyone else get hyper aware of everything they are doing? Like watching their hands move and struggle to connect the mirror reflection with themselves? I’ve had it a few times since this all started a few months ago?!
Hi there Any other pregnant or non pregnant women struggling with sexual intrusive thoughts? I’ve started to struggle with my own identity as well as having images of vaginas which makes me anxious makes me ruminate over whether I feel comfortable as a woman - which is really annoying and untrue but feels so real Can anyone send a virtual hug/relate?
y’all i’m so stressed out, my bf has hsv1 and idk how to take it, like i’m not okay with the risk of getting it because it scares me.. ion want anything permanently but i do love the guy.. i’ve been thru rocd and we overcame a lot, he’s the sweetest but it’s like.. can i really get past this? i’m scared and my anxiety is really bad
I’ve been doing really good today I think the medicine is working! I have therapy Thursday and an appointment for my medicine today to see if they need adjusted. I used to be scared to be by myself or with someone but was fine today. I haven’t had any thoughts that bugged me. Everyone around me talked about the thing that started my issues in the first place (Jeffrey Dahmer series) and I was fine! Was even able to join the convo and be ok! Something I notice that annoys me is being asked if I’m ok I guess I just look tired? Idk but doing good! Feeling good! Meds are working so is therapy! If you guys want to know what the meds are that are working for me let me know I’d love to tell you!
Does accepting uncertainty always mean like 50/50 or is it okay to feel pretty sure or have a good feeling about it but still accept not knowing 100 percent?
Did any of you have intrusive thoughts at a young age?? Like now that you look back and your like oh that was ocd 😲 Because I remember I had this intrusive thought in my kinder class I was 5….then in 5th grade I would have a nervous breakdown(s) because I had a contamination problem…. Then it kinda somewhat went away and it came back high school but it wasn’t as bad until this last year I’m 23 now…. I know it has a lot to do with stress or trauma…
Since I have been doing the exposures it's been a strange journey for me. I feel like I am doing amazing things and I am proud of myself ;however, it feels like it just scratched the surface of something because my mind is frantically looking for things to upset me now. Today is one of those days where all these thoughts are just trying to get me. I am strong though 💪🏻 and I will not submit but I do wanna say ouch these hit kinda hard. Anyone else in my situation today. We got this!! Let's take this day!
Just thinking like these thoughts normal and not doing anything about it?!? What do i take of that? Feels too real with no fear and like thats my normal and i am not caring if i write or post about it someone looking and i am writing like someone would write about their crush?!? Why?!? It feels like i am becoming it or will if not now? Why is the feeling so strong of its ocd? Why do i keep looking and thinking and forcing myself to write and stuff wanting it to be ocd but on reality its not?? And will i be scared? I also keep thinking of the reasons why i might be scared like society or parents and if suddenly one day i am not then what? Like i accept it? All this while it was true and i know all these questions i still write and ask what does that mean i am forcing and I consciously add the whats and the ifs to do it like a question so that people tell me its ocd and not denial whereas i could write it like a statement could i? And then it just wouldn’t be ocd?!? So many people come out late or realise late what is this is that and i am not scared to write it or i am thinking of the possibility and okay with it and if i am that means it could mean its not ocd and denial and its just the time where i have begun to notice people and scared and in denial and soon it will become crazy and i will have no other option but to accept it?what is this i don’t understand?!? What do i do? Always trying to figure out my thoughts my dreams the whys and whats and sometimes my dreams tell me you are just making excuses and are in denial cause they feel so real the thoughts and idk whatever feeling they carry they do too.. constantly thinking not noticing the opposite sex but noticing the same ones my dreams telling me that my fear and other things is the reason of not accepting and dreams are the unconscious truth? So is that what i feel only covering with fear whereas its projected in my dreams?!? And is trying to tell me something?when i am with a guy i feel everything i should or i think i should but then why am I noticing the same sex and feeling like i might or am feeling and if i am saying i am who’s to say i am not?!! What do i do? I felt like i am at the verge of acceptance when i saw this video of this girl on insta and got these thoughts that didn’t even feel intrusive actually none of the thoughts feel intrusive and i got sacred and out of habit did the forced compulsion of closing the tab and coming here and writing but am i doing that i cause i dont want to accept it? I really feel like these thoughts are feeling way to real to shove away? Is this even ocd anymore this recent thought felt too real?!? What do i do? It felt like my reality and normal and if i didn’t know something like ocd existed would i have accepted it?!? I think i might and if i am saying i might there is a possibility right?!? Am i even straight anymore? Was i ever?
This shit lowkey funny and sad at the same time , I’ve been accepting all thoughts and agreeing with all for weeks I’d say it definitely has helped . Try not to take your thoughts so litteral or don’t give them meaning as hard as that may be .if you want to act on the thoughts so be it and if you don’t then don’t at the end they are just thoughts we ourselves give meaning to.Stay strong people this shit is aids but you can find beauty in the greyness
today i feel like my heart is beating really fast and i’m not anxious about anything in particular but everytime i become aware of my heart and how it feels like it’s beating faster it makes me anxious which really makes my heart race and it’s a vicious cycle and i’ve taken my anxiety medication but i can tell a difference and i feel like i’m on the verge of a panic attack right now ugh
Wondering if there are recommendations on books or resources that explore living by our values as opposed to anxiety and ocd?
My boyfriend says his preference is me and I'm a mixed woman. I've struggled a lot in the dating scene finding men that prefer a darker skinned girl. I grew up in a racist town and over and over again have been told I'm not as attractive as a white girl. It's caused me alot of grief. My boyfriend is the greatest says I'm the prettiest woman he's ever seen, that I'm his dream girl, that I'm all he wants, and he wouldn't trade me for anything. He loves the way I look and my skin. My ocd comes in with his celebrity crush. It's Dua Lipa and she's not a mixed woman. I don't know how to feel about this I've been going through like weeks of worrying that if I was white he'd like me better like the men in my past. I just don't understand how a white woman is his celebrity crush when he's with a mixed woman. Before me he was going for black woman on tinder even when he had this crush on Dua Lipa. Tmi but when he used to watch porn before me it was mostly black woman. Alot of things point to me being his preference but this celebrity thing is throwing me for a loop. I need advice.
Is it safe to do erp without a therapist for the first time if I’m challenging my ocd with not doing compulsions should I even do it my ocd isn’t bad and I’m concerned if I try to challenge it then my ocd will turn into a problem for me I know challenging it is appropriate but if it’s not bothering me much should I just leave it it hasn’t changed for quite a while?
Has anyone experienced ROCD in a friendship??
I have faced a relapse like 2 months ago or plus and I was slowly picking myself up day by day, my parents didn't like that I was unproductive and don't know that I'm on my recovery journey and that I can't rush things, so I got gaslighted, to them it was my fault and I'm just a failure then they started comparing me to others who don't have OCD and live a regular life, I don't know how to feel, I just feel disappointed and devastated.
I’m having sensorimotor ocd with my ears 😞 I’m so hyper focused on sounds it’s really bothering me constantly. Whenever I’m around fans or air conditioners my ears pick up the sound so clearly it almost sounds like static and I used to be able to ignore it but now I can’t. The second I faintly hear it my anxiety goes up and my head starts to hurt and it’s been hard to even sleep. Need some support, thanks 😔
as i moved towards recovery, what i’ve realized is this: i am okay with 99% certainty. it’s my ocd that needs 100% but not me! i am okay with moving on and letting that 1% of doubt be there. ocd might not be okay with 99% certainty but i am!! i’m starting to see that i am always in control and make the choices in my life, not my thoughts.
I don’t question my feelings for my partner. I have the opposite problem where I think they deserve better than me. We’ve been together over a decade, since we were teens. I catastrophize everything and think it means my partner deserves better or they will wake up one day when we’re old and regret staying with me. I worry I’m wasting their life. All my other obsessions feed into this one. Worried I have bipolar? Well it’s compounded by worrying about how it’d affect my partner. Worrying about every mistake I’ve made? Wondering if I need to ‘confess’ every errant thought or small misdeed so my partner knows how horrible and undeserving I am. I see stupid posts from “relationship coaches/therapists” on social media and think every little mistake or bad habit in our relationship is causing my partner trauma and I’m overwhelmed and don’t know what to do or how to actually achieve a healthy relationship vs obsessing over it. I’ve spent the morning sobbing thinking they will regret staying with me/deserve better, AND about the flip side that I don’t think I could survive separating.
I find myself often finding out things about my favorite celebrities being pretty bad people and I always feel bad for enjoying what they create or finding them attractive. I don't have any obsessive attachment to them or anything, it's just because of their appearance or their work. A few years ago I was really sad when I found out things that I never wanted to know about one of my favorite actors, to the point I physically could not watch any movie featuring that actor. When it comes to music or art I generally separate the art from the artist, but if it's some celebrity I have a crush on I feel guilty about it as if I'm somehow supporting them.
The moment you realise you feel at peace and having no thoughts, the OCD kicks in.
Why when im getting so hard introusive thoughts and arousal to same sex i just feel nice with my girlfriend after i accept those thoughts? i feel so nice with her i would eat her how much beautiful is that girl and how im feeling when i with her then after i got like anxioty with her when i remind my self what i thought today and how my feelings feel so real today?
Does ocd doubt about believeing thouse thougts? What if I am going crazy, what if I believe thous thoughts and do something crazy etc.
Anyone else get moments of like “I got this, like why am I even worrying about something like this. It ain’t even real or true” LOL but then you do come across an episode and you’re like ._. Well I’ll be damn…. 😂😂😂
Ugh I keep on waking up every morning thinking I’ve done something bad…. To someone…while sleepwalking ig. Has anybody had this before?? Why is this happening I’m so tired I have ocd intrusive thoughts all day and bam first thing in the morning as well….it never ends :(((
I’m from the UK and just wondered what the cost is for sessions? Thanks in advance
now that ive been making a real concentrated effort not to engage with my so-ocd thoughts/compulsions, i’ve been noticing that my ocd is already trying to latch onto something else. right now for some reason it’s reading? i’m trying to finish a book i bought but i have to keep reading and rereading passages because the meaning isn’t clicking in my brain. yesterday i didn’t finish my homework because i couldn’t comprehend any of the articles i was supposed to read. does anyone have any advice on how to handle this?
I am still feeling awful and anxious, but now that summer ended it's been actually tolerable most of the time. My symptoms have been nearly unbearable starting from about June, but were starting to get worse in April. Last year it was the same thing, it seems to follow the same pattern. I'm wondering if there is a correlation between hot weather and OCD, I know that depression gets worse with winter but I have the opposite effect.
Right now i am struggling with a very stupid false memory, (it is literally about whether i ate or not something that had certain form) i don’t know if it is true or false but my OCD is telling me i need to know if it is true or false otherwise this feeling and urge to know won’t EVER go away, that i will always question whether it happened or not. I’ve been with this thought for two weeks now, i don’t feel any anxiety anymore, but the need to know is still there. I can’t believe i’m obsessing wether or not the food i ate had a cross-like form or not and my brain telling me that i will always think about it it’s been two weeks now any tips? :/
how do i stop second guessing and anxiety while talking to a date and just go with the flow
told my therapist about my rumination and false memory(?) YIPPEEEEEEEEE i didnt tell her about anything super personal so ill probably feel like i was lying 2 her later but its a start 🏃♀️
lately i’ve just been so angry at anyone who doesn’t suffer from ocd. like i know it’s not their fault but i’m just so angry and jealous they don’t have to deal with this. i get mad when i see them do something as simple as sitting at the kitchen table without thinking about it when i could never in a million years do that because of my contamination ocd. i’m angry and jealous and i know i shouldn’t but i keep blowing up at people because of it. i know everyone has their issues but all i can think about is how much easier they have it because at least they aren’t like me. i’m just so jealous of everyone who doesn’t have to live like this. and i’m mad at myself for having ocd in the first place. it’s all so exhausting and i hate it.
Guys this is so weird, the entire day I was having a tsunami of thoughts and it felt so severe chronically every second felt like treading water but now I suddenly feel like it’s bearable and not so chronic it’s like my brain just blocked the dam. Now I’m questioning if I even have ocd at all (which is probably the most terrifying thing )
I was feeling amazing. So connected so great with my boyfriend and then I had a thought and it just won’t leave me alone. It’s making me numb and my compulsion didn’t work and I’m freaking out. I want to feel normal and feel that love and warmth again. I want it back, will it come back? The ocd is making me believe all kinds of stupid things like I don’t love him or to leave or to just be mad.
I’m on a rumination spiral. Any recommendations on how to snap out of it? 😔
I started having a panic attack and left without telling anyone at work. It’s my second day.
So since i was 12 i’ve had SO-OCD and it was like waves like every subtype and sometimes it would be the main cause of distress and sometimes another subtype took over for like a year and stuff like that. When I started uni, i got another subtype that took over and i thought i was done with SO-OCD, but now when i’m on a break from uni, it came back when i was at my happiest and just ruined everything (and I’m about to go on a vacation so it’s just the worst timing). It’s driving me crazy and the fact that it came back feels terrible bc I was afraid of it coming back since its one of the hardest themes for me especially with pure O. I’m trying to resist ruminating and getting reassurance, but when I accidentally ruminate I’m filled with guilt afterwards. TBH I found myself praying for another theme which made me feel extremely bad about myself as well. Gonna need to rewatch the office after this
