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I don't know what's wrong with me the moment i saw her i was obsessed she was just so beautiful , caring and funny she liked me for the weirdo that i was she had beautiful blue eyes pretty hair and the most amazing laugh i've ever heard in my life , she cared about me and she loved me and when that passed i feel like i broke and i still feel likes somethings missing she's missing and i know she's never gonna love me again but i never stopped i think about her 24/7 when she texts me i get so happy like a little kid and i know at some point i'll have to let go , letting go of this beautiful human will be the hardest thing for me but i guess we just weren't meant to be

ocd is exhausting. i literally have no break from my own mind ever. does anyone else ever feel like they’re going crazy with how many thoughts are just rushing through their mind EVERY second of EVERY day???

The harm thoughts feel so real I feel like they’re true and I’m a psychopath..it’s like I convinced myself I am evil and they won’t stop and I’m getting exhausted

So I’ve had ROCD for about 3 years now. I’ve gotten a lot better with it but I want to be able to take the next step with my partner. I’m extremely frustrated because it seems like I can’t even look at wedding things without getting anxious. There’s truly no reason for it, I’ve worked through a majority of my ROCD issues but this is uncharted territory for me. I want to be better about it so when we eventually get engaged I don’t screw everything up. Does anyone have any tips for this? I know I have to just sit through the anxiety and try to let it pass but anyone have any other suggestions? Did anyone ever feel like this? Thanks!

I watched my first SOS video for ROCD because I want to act out familiar behaviors and just stop hurting. The video helped remind me that I’ve never “sat in my discomfort” because I always shut down, ran away, and indulged to avoid the pain and all the feelings attached to it. I hate that I’m like this. It causes so much unnecessary stress, I know, yet can’t control it. It’s constant and lonely. 💕

And why does the stuff I hate do more to my body than the stuff I like? How did it get this far? I am gonna get on medication soon so I hope it will help with the bodily responses so I can just focus on my ocd and trying to let these sexual thoughts pass through so they can stop being so reoccurring. I have them all day and it gets worse.

Ehh.. I think my new obsession is the fear of being alone forever.. does anyone experience the same thing right now..? I don’t even know what subtype it is.

Does anyone else with religious ocd or scrupulosity feel like God is angry with you and unforgivable I’ve been feeling like this and I’m really scared I’ve committed the unpardonable sin I had a thought about the Holy Spirit and I quickly became anxious and from that point i feel like God is upset with me and that I’m unforgivable any advice or help?

Can you get a groinal response instead of an anxiety response?

Does anyone else get anxious around some family members? Like my uncles are two pretty handsome guys but I’m not attracted to them at all, for some reason though when I look at them I get anxious and what I’ve seen might be false attraction. It’s very annoying and gross, it makes it seem like I’m looking at them the wrong way, same for my siblings sometimes too which is even worst in my opinion, esp since these are two ppl I was raised with. I see them everyday and I still get anxious.. I hate it. And the feelings i get seen so real and the more I think about them and try to figure out what they mean the more confused I get . So frustrating.

Far from my OCD, I feel very tight in my chest، now . I would like to talk a lot, but I can't say anything I can only remain silent and secrecy

Today I was scrolling on Tik tok and there was a video of a girl getting arrested because she stabbed her sibling, the comments kept on saying that it was intrusive thoughts and that intrusive thoughts can be acted on, is this true ? Why are people saying this?

You don’t have to learn how to control your thoughts. You just have to stop letting them control you!

Came to the conclusion in my mind OCD is like a mental version of eczema the more we scratch the itch (compulsions/reasurance) the more it can spread.. 💚

Will the antiemetic I took not make me throw up??I really don’t want to throw up

Has anyone here or know of ket/low-carb dieting causing ocd to get worse or flare up more? It seems every time I try this, a few weeks later I'm struggling with a flareup. Physically, I feel good but mentally not so much.

I just got in the truck with my little siblings . Im in the back seat with them and I opened up my phone and I’m paranoid bc what if I opened up something that has something inappropriate on it bc I do have pics of myslef if you know what I mean and other stuff but I don’t think I open my camera roll. I just opened the phone . And I was holding my phone kind of low so what if they seen something and I just don’t know. I think my brother was kinda looking at my phone . I’m so paranoid . I’m ready to die !!

Hello all, I feel I have to non stop be at work in order to avoid my ocd and depression is this normal? Do you guys do this tooo?

Has anyone ever used 5 HTP for OCD or other mental health issues? What was your experience like? Did you feel it helped? Are there any other remedies or medications you’ve found useful?

I feel so angry right now. I haven’t felt like this in awhile

I’ve been stuck on a very specific obsessive thought for a while already. I won’t go into detail but it does have to do with pocd. Any advice that’ll help me stop thinking about it too much?

to give some context, i have an eating disorder that allows my ocd to latch onto people who are skinnier than me. i think about them constantly to make myself feel bad i feel like such a creep. there’s this girl I am obsessed with that i used to go to school with. i constantly think about her. what she’s doing, who she’s with, where she is, etc. she really triggers my eating disorder. i can’t stop thinking about her. i just looked at her instagram, and it turns out she deleted a lot of her old posts/pictures, and i am freaking out about it because now i have fewer pictures of her to look at. the biggest thing i am worried about is that i know where she lives. i even know which room in her house is hers. i figured it out through her social media presence, and i feel so disgusting because of it. i fantasize about breaking into her house and looking through her stuff. i would never actually do that, but just the fact that i know where she lives and the thought of breaking into her house really disturbs me

The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (5th ed.) defines a compulsion as a repetitive mental or physical act. You might feel compelled, in other words, to perform this action when you have an obsessive thought. Even when you recognize these compulsions as irrational or unhelpful, you still have a strong need to do them. Compulsions might happen physically: Before starting work each day, you need to arrange your pens and pencils by height and color. You need to wash your hands 3 times for 20 seconds each time you touch something that someone else may have touched. Compulsions can also happen in your thoughts: When you have an upsetting obsessive thought, you counter it with a different thought. Maybe you repeat lines of a favorite song, or a prayer, in your head 10 times, or until the unwanted thought fades. Full article here: https://psychcentral.com/ocd/difference-between-compulsion-and-obsession

OCD reassurance-seeking is the need to check in with someone over and over again to make sure everything is OK with respect to a particular worry or obsession. Family and friends of people affected by obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) often find to be the most stressful when interacting with their loved ones is this excessive reassurance-seeking. While responding may seem supportive, it only serves to perpetuate OCD behaviors and thoughts. An in-depth example: Donna is extremely worried that she will contract a sexually transmitted disease from doorknobs in public places. After washing her hands, she will often ask a friend, or even a stranger if her anxiety is high enough, whether her hands look clean or whether she should be worried about contracting an illness. Even if they tell her that she shouldn't be worried, she asks a number of "what if" questions until she feels completely confident that her hands are clean. Friends and family now avoid going with her to public places because of her behavior. Full article here: https://www.verywellmind.com/excessive-reassurance-seeking-2510549

Such a good account

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is identified by obsessive and intrusive thoughts, stress, anxiety, and engagement in repetitive behaviors to reduce these symptoms. “Checking” is both a common symptom of OCD and its own subtype. Checking OCD is observed in checking-based repetitive behaviors; these behaviors occur to prevent the possibility of something bad occurring. Examples of Checking OCD: It may be hard to recognize or distinguish checking OCD symptoms. It may look different for each person, but always involves checking and re-checking something, like making sure they completed a task, turned off the lights, or locked their front door. Examples of checking OCD include: Leaving work to check if the lights and appliances are off at home, even though they can verify that they or their partner did Rushing away from dinner with friends to see if their car and house doors are locked Constantly fearing they haven’t done something and bringing it up repeatedly to get reassurance that they have OCD checking and rechecking personal items to ensure they have them, even if they haven’t moved Taking significantly longer to complete tasks, especially if they involve fears of harming others or themselves Types of OCD Checking: OCD checking can be complex and there are many different things people with OCD might check, including: Checking locks: Checking to make sure things are locked multiple times Checking stoves, light switches, faucets, etc: Need to confirm that everything is off even after checking multiple times or asking others Checking related to harming self or others: Needing to make sure that you are not acting on impulsive or aggressive thoughts Checking for mistakes: Rereading and redoing the same thing multiple times to confirm that a mistake was not made Checking related to body/health: Checking your body out or checking your temperature to make sure you aren’t sick Full article here: https://www.choosingtherapy.com/checking-ocd/

“Rumination involves repetitive and passive thoughts focused on the causes and effects of a person's distress. However, these thoughts do not lead to the person engaging in active coping mechanisms or problem-solving strategies that would relieve distress and improve mood.” As a general rule, the following can be indicators that you may have fallen into the trap of rumination: Focusing on a problem for more than a few idle minutes, Feeling worse than you started out feeling, No movement toward accepting and moving on, No closer to a viable solution. —Full article here: https://www.verywellmind.com/repetitive-thoughts-emotional-processing-or-rumination-3144936

what if i’m just a bad person and this isn’t ocd, i’ve never been diagnosed . what if i’m using this as an excuse and i’m actually evil ?????????????????

i have really really bad existential ocd and dpdr. today i had a frightening thought of “what if reality is fake/what if your in a coma” and even though i got a little scared i told myself “maybe, maybe not. it’d be kind of cool if i was imagining all of this” and went back to what i was doing and the anxiety didn’t build up like it normally does!!! one step closer to kicking ocd’s ass 💗

For me sometimes I totally forget it while on alcohol, sometimes it gets really tough....

I feel my OCD is worsening. Just now, I was asked to put food wrappers in the bin, and felt disgusted when touching them. I proceeded to wash my hands multiple times, excessively, due to how unclean and contaminated I felt. Even in the mornings, I’m using kitchen roll to lift the kettle and open cupboards. I feel awful whenever someone touches me and I pull away, feeling repulsed. I don’t know what to do, or how to help myself.

I always recommend seeking professional help because it’s safer and way more effective to do it with a professional since they know EXACTLY what to do. But if you can’t see a professional right now and you have no idea when you’ll be able to seek help from an OCD therapist due to money or where you live, here’s a few things to help in the meantime. -Look into OCD and Anxiety’s YouTube channel. They have an OCD course you can do for a fee, -Read ALL the books by Lee Baer and Martin Seif on OCD and anxiety, -Look into Therapy in a Nutshell’s YouTube channel, -Start doing yoga! Because exercise is good for you. I suggest the YouTube channel Yoga with Adriene, -Start watching Thich Nhat Hanh’s guided meditations and talks on mindfulness. Also, but his books on meditation and mindfulness, -Look into OCD International’s website if you’re international (or is the US but having issues finding help outside of NOCD) for help, -If you are looking for inpatient treatment for extreme OCD, look up Rogers Behavioral center’s website. You can even reach out to them for help, -Instead of giving into your OCD, read this article about ERP scripting and do exactly what it says: https://www.shalanicely.com/aha-moments/erp-scripting-for-o

Have a friend who’s lesbian, she followed me on tiktok, her tiktok is much different then her irl, i thought “her tiktok looks good” not in a bad way, in a friend way like oh she’s pretty and she ateeeee (ate means like oh she looks so pretty) then I got scared bc she’s a masc lesbian and I thought bc I thought she was pretty it was bad.

recently my ocd has come back in full swing after about a year of radio silence. first about the fear of pregnancy and it’s now currently the fear of bowel cancer. i am quite young so i am aware it’s unlikely but i’m so distressed and i cannot go about my day without checking my symptoms googling them and checking them again to make sure it’s only ibs. tempted to go back into therapy but i don’t want to start from the beginning :((

I was feeling off, I was laying down seeing a movie and I burped and an acid came up and it was like I was about to throw up and I shallowed it down.Now I panicked and I’m crying.I only had some cookies today and bread with olives.Why does it keep happening to me??I don’t have a nice family environment and that makes it worse.I just wanna leave my family and be better.I want them all gone.Why me??Im so scared of throwing up and getting sick.

I keep thinking if we take a break/break up all of these thoughts will just end. :(

I’m struggling so bad rn… and for some reason meds are not helping this. I’m black but my theme lately has been prejudice against my own race… I’ve always been an advocate against racism so why am I having these thoughts lately 😭 it’s too many thoughts in my head and I hate it so much I don’t feel like myself and I’m fighting so hard not to do compulsions but they’re finding their way. Plus I feel like I have to do them so I can make I’m still myself…

Please help… Every time I imagane something sexually and wrong I can get this felling of a little bit exitment. Like I get curious. I dont want to do anything to a child and I dont get attracted to children, but the «illegal» or taboo gives me a feeling. I dont think this is false feelings, so what Else could this mean?

does anyone know of any online OCD support groups? would love to join one once my group therapy program ends

I have an amazing gf who is loving and cares about me very much. We have been long distance for a year now but have been dating for almost 3 years. I just went on a 10 day trip however, and met a girl who I barely know but have been obsessing about her ever since our trip. I’m worried Im having feelings for her even though we barely spoke.

I need some encouragement… I’m marrying my fiancée soon and I am so happy we have got to this stage, I had been worrying that my ocd would get the best of me in the past and the fact we’re still here and moving forward is a dream come true! However, I guess I grew up being taught that physical attraction and ‘chemistry’ was the main importance in a relationship, in the past I would go for people based of a so called ‘spark’ believing it to mean they’re the one or that it was a sign from the universe whereas now my beliefs have changed significantly and I know it’s just hormones / attraction. I have genuinely got the strongest bond with my partner I can’t explain the strength of love I have got him but he is my favourite person. But it’s different to anything I would have imagined , it’s not been sparky and I have had issues with shallow things like us being the same height/ questioning if the lack of spark would be an issue in our relationship. I have intrusive thoughts about another person I saw in the street who I found attractive and I can’t stop thinking about them and I know that’s part of my ocd obsessions but it makes me feel so guilty. I googled if a relationship can work when it’s not based of physical attraction and the answers were resounding no’s , lots of people saying that it’s selfish to continue and they felt sorry for anyone in a relationship with a person who didn’t feel extremely physically attracted. I know that I’m never going to end things with my partner and I know I love him ridiculous amounts to the point it hurts when I think of anything going wrong for him , I care about him more than anyone else. I strongly believe that superficial sexual attraction and sparks are not important when it comes to a long term relationship but friendship , intimacy and love from the soul is what counts but I’m scared I’m being unrealistic based on what society says?

I’m recently having intrusive thoughts about if want to be a guy or if I act like one. It’s only been a couple days but I’m scared the thoughts will stay. I feel like depersonalization is making it worse. Like I don’t feel like myself and keep thinking I’m not girly enough. Sometimes it mixes with SOCD

Anyone have experience getting steroid injections/pills and having worsened OCD symptoms? I’m having one of the worst episodes in a while and the thoughts are on a constant loop.

OCD tells me that my boyfriend keeping his phone private/tilted away when reading his texts = him cheating on me. OCD tells me if he doesn’t answer my texts or calls in an hour = he’s ignoring me/doesn’t care anymore. OCD tells me if I can’t make my boyfriend smile with my jokes = we’re not meant to be. OCS tells me if we don’t do certain things together = we’re slowly breaking up/falling apart. I hate this.

The thoughts, while still present aren't really impacting me as much. I feel overall indifferent to them. After almost 2 weeks of this, it seems to be getting better.

Can someone help me..? My sister is such a sweetheart. Even when I'm a little bit down, she does her everything to cheer me up, to make me feel better, talk about things I like, tried to make me laugh, etc but I still become down, and I even get very irritated as well which makes me feel super bad later on. I want to be left alone and just alone.. but I feel like a monster.. idk I hate myself. Will delete this post soon

Does anyone, go back to a intrusive thought you had way back and comes back up and you think too much into, and all the stuff that can go wrong ??

I’ve been on 10 mg Lexapro for almost two years and switching to Prozac tomorrow 20 mg any tips or things to look out for? Would love to hear people’s experiences if it did or didn’t work!

I missed my dose of medication yesterday, I am prescribed Zoloft, Fluvoxamine, and Hydroxine. Would missing one dose cause my OCD to spiral as bad as it is right now? I've been on the medication quite a while, and still have problems with my OCD but today it seems way worse.

What do you do when you can’t stop feeling scared about your thoughts? Like you just wake up feeling scared and anxious you’ll do something even if your not having a thought in that moment, the past thoughts have scared you so bad your always on edge and in fear you’ll act on your thoughts.

I try to ignore the thoughts and actually enjoy life, but I feel guilty. It’s like I don’t deserve to be happy bc of the horrible thoughts I have. I hate it so much. I can’t enjoy living without feeling guilt and shame.

its terrible i dont like it one bit

I dont want other people to find me attractive i dont care for that but my brain always thinks IT it without me willingly bringing it up? I feel like i have to tell my boyfriend that i get these thoughts - i would never act on it but it feels wrong to think that i want people to like Me and find me attractive What do i do am i a disgusting person

I’m literally jumping from theme to theme. Went from Harm OCD to bisexual OCD. I’m scared I’m attracted to a girl causing me to ruminate and think of my past making me think that I found other girls attractive. I legit had this theme like twice and I legit thought I overcame this. Why is it back? The anxiety is low and I’m able to move on with my day but I feel getting weird body sensations. How do I get rid of the false attractions I feel on my face and body sensations. Like I’ve always had a crushes on boys and the attraction feel like real attractions as I would when I liked a boy. I feel kinda gross ngl. Not reassurance but how does stop from this theme coming back multiple times. I thought I was over OCD ….

I have a friend and her and her bf are very cute together, I thought to myself omg they both look good and match eachother but not in a bad way… but now im having thoughts “what if u think he looks better then ur bf?” im feeling sk scared and the thought feels so real and is repeating. i don’t think anyone looks better then my bf idc how “attractive” people say they are. i love him and love his looks but these intrusive thoughts feel so real

I had my worst panic attack maybe ever on Wednesday morning completely out of the blue (after a looong stretch without panic attacks) and since then I’ve been struggling to feel normal. I just feel very dissociated and brain foggy and I keep making stupid mistakes and forgetting things. Then my brain tells me that I’m finally losing it and that I’m a danger to everyone and I’m gonna start blacking out and doing bad things or saying awful things without thinking. I just feel like I can’t focus on anything and I’m SO painfully aware of it. So ironically I CAN focus on my lack of focus 😭

if the thoughts are intrusive then it's not sexual attraction?

It’s not OCD but it’s something worse

Today I woke up very early with a lot of stress about my relationship. I tried really hard to fall back asleep but it was very difficult because of everything I had on my mind. I haven’t talked to my partner since yesterday afternoon and they are at work today so they aren’t on their phone. This makes me really upset bc my mind tells me they are purposely ignoring me and that they do not care for me. To give myself some temporary relief I kept checking their social medias to make sure they aren’t active on there. I do these compulsions a lot when I am away from them but this morning it was pretty bad. I was in and out of sleep and even though when I actually checked their socials nothing had changed at all, I had little dreams where I did these compulsions and there were things that did change—proving they were “ignoring” me. This gave me even more stress because the real life compulsions helped me for a little bit but then my anxiety dreams felt very real and I couldn’t tell the difference between them. I listened to the relationship OCD SOS video feature several times to help calm me down and hopefully get some sleep. It did help a little bit and I think I Will definitely use it again. I miss my partner but I have to know that the discomfort won’t be forever and I will speak to them soon enough. I’m going out today to occupy my time so that I don’t keep ruminating and falling back to the same compulsions.

I had an experience with my therapist where it felt like she suggested maybe my intrusive thoughts weren’t intrusive. I don’t know if that’s even what she was meaning to do but it has absolutely sent me into a tailspin. I keep thinking she’s a licensed therapist and even she thinks I’m in denial too. My thoughts are leading me to believe that I am in love with my best friend and not my partner, and that would be the worst case scenario for me because I LOVE MY PARTNER SO MUCH. But after this experience I’m questioning everything. What if it’s not ocd? What if I’m just saying it’s OCD so I don’t need to face the truth? I know when I’m not having a flare up these thoughts are actually laughable to me, but for some reason this feels so real right now. I can’t stop thinking about it. I’m so scared I’m in denial or I’ve been in denial all this time and am finally “realizing the truth”. It’s so frustrating and I’m so scared my whole life is going to explode. The hilarious part is I DONT WANT TO BE WITH MY BEST FRIEND. I mean i love her obviously as a friend and person but even if I pushed my partner away because of these thoughts I still wouldn’t be like “oh yes finally now I can be with my true love” like wtf. Idk I’m afraid I’ll feel like this forever. The anxiety is ripping though me and I’m just scared. Even as I type this my head is telling me I’m lying and making up excuses. Any advice would be helpful.

https://youtu.be/qr7qLFrxA3Y

I want to feel like me again every thought making you question making you feel bad second guess and feel not like yourself.

And I have work in a couple of hours 😭 I don’t feel good at all but this is the stuff I deal with because of my compulsions that I do throughout the night and stuff

Do you guys ever feel like you are on another planet? Its like im only in my head for hours… and can’t concentrate on anything.. Hate that feeling

All I do know is basically think of men it's driving me crazy. I'm so lost 😞

This was a big avoidance for me due to thinking it brings on the intrusive thoughts. Now i feel really bad and like im going to do the act now as i was so irresponsible drinking this coffe purposely making the thoughts come on. I must of wanted this to happen else i wouldent of drank the coffee :(

anyone’s ocd “make them feel like a liar” when they talk about something related to their theme out loud? like whenever i talk about what i truly want etc. out loud, ocd makes me anxious/feel like i’m lying. it’s frustrating because i know im not! anyone else?

i understand that these thoughts aren’t real, but whenever i don’t follow them bad things truly do happen. i know it’s just my brain finding patterns and it’s all a coincidence but it’s enough to terrify me back into my patterns. if i don’t follow my schedule to a t, something bad will happen. if i don’t do some random thing my brain told me to do (eating soap, kicking the table, hurting myself) something bad will happen. sometimes i look around and my brain just tells me i’m not allowed to use certain things anymore, no matter how important. most of my clothes, school supplies, and food is now considered “bad”. it’s so frustrating but part of me finds comfort in it. i like feeling like i have control (even though i obviously don’t) over what could potentially happen. i feel like i’m answering to this higher power and anytime i upset it i have to offer something in return so it doesn’t cause something awful to happen. usually it’s hurting myself or eating disgusting things like soap or vinegar. does anyone else relate to this even slightly? i feel so alone.

I guess I miss the panic when I first had ocd, now it feels like I want the thoughts and I have no emotion. I'm so scared I am becoming numb to them and then agreeing with them while I'm numb. Just so confused, but just trying to remind myself I am not my thoughts. Anyone else have this?

please ocd it's enough now, when i'm not worrying about my obsessions i worry about future obsessions sighhhh

Has anyone told their family they have OCD and if so how do you tell them or should I just keep it to myself? My intrusive thoughts are concerning my family, I don’t know what to do

Can OCD makes you think you want to kiss your same sex friends when you are with them ? It’s make me ill to thinks about it for real

Is it really just living a life without uncertainty? Why…why is it so hard than? Just having all the feelings. Also parenting is SO hard.

hi so yesterday i made a post saying how erp works and ocd has been absent; it Was but yknow.. 2 months of recovery isnt going to undo 6 years of learned behavior. long story short, i had a panic attack and ever since, my anxiety has been present. normally i wouldve opted to stay home as such, but i still decided to go out to the beach with my family. i am dealing with anxiety as we approach, but that's just how it is and always will be; anxiety comes along for the ride. i would prefer it to Not be, but this trip is a great way to practice what i've learned. wish me luck 😭😭😭

I was prescribed lexapro about a month ago and I have yet to take it. I am terrified of medicines. (Even supplements) I ask my doctor a couple days ago if I could start with a half a pill just to get started she said sure and I felt better and like ok I can do this... well with pill in hand... I can not do this. 😫 I feel like I really need to be on something because I am constantly at a level 10. But when it comes to actually taking something.. I just can't and idk what to do about it . 😔

I’m realizing that my mind has been set up to feel joy only when I have relief from the negative. Now, I’m trying to program it to feel joy in the present moment regardless of how I perceive what’s going on. It’s hard, but I’m hoping this will help my brain stop throwing intrusive thoughts at me

The neighbour I thought wanted to get it on with me does not. I’ve managed to see sense. She is blind and I just don’t think she likes to go to town on her own. The end!

The only thing that brings me a sense of peace is knowing that I’ll never act on my thoughts… now if I could just convince my brain of the same thing, I’ll be okay. Better days are coming guys!

Does anyone feel lonely on long car drives by urself ? With my ocd making me vulnerable, I feel like I tend to feel dissociated , unless given a normal circumstance , whenever I’m going thru a rough patch with my ocd and I’m by myself in general but during my car driving, I tend to feel more lonely only cuz I associate certain memories with my friends in the car

Not just with ocd, anxiety too. I know people say just let your thoughts just be there but they come with feelings and when you have racing thoughts its so exhausting to let all the emotion be... then you cant ignore the thoughts you will believe them and thats where i am now. It starts to make me feel depressed. And im not talking about ocd, its just thoughts of my future like i will never be able to do what i want in life, i will never have a gf, comparing myself with others and all this and i get in this loop of feeling anger cause these are things which i control, and i control if i get angry too but then this makes me more angrier that i get angry over my angriness... im just in a never ending loop. I felt like i start to recover cause i could handle my emotions now i get angry over getting angry and it goes till im exhausted and depressed...

Anyone taking Luvox? Any reviews on it? Thinking about getting switched to that.

I was thinking about it and my ocd literally seemed non existent when I was dealing with chronic pain and also when I was really struggling with my religion and trying to figure out what I believed. Also, when I was in college. I’m realizing that our mind is a stage and my mind was too filled with other things to have room for ocd. Now in my life i don’t have chronic pain, not in college, etc. I constantly struggle. In fact I remember as soon as my chronic pain went away my ocd came back and has been really strong since. I think people like us with ocd have an overactive brain and really need stuff to fill our mind stage otherwise from my experience it fills with stupid ocd stuff and obsessing and ruminating. Not saying we need pain to get rid of ocd but really challenging our minds with other things for me made my ocd practically non existent.

I’m wondering if anyone has any ERP suggestions for real event OCD? That’s such a weird subtype and I’m not sure what the best approach is. Thanks !

Last night, my parents left for an overseas trip with an empty seat next to them because I couldn't get myself to go in a plane. I've had intrusive thoughts every second of every flight I've taken since I was young, but I love to travel, so I've never ended up staying home. This time though, I dealt with months of panic attacks every day and ended up putting myself under so much stress that I triggered a flare of my autoimmune disease three days before the trip. While they were on the flight, I realized that OCD really controls every aspect of my life. It's consuming me right now. It kept me from going on vacation; it made me check their flight status every few minutes until I was able to fall asleep; it made me afraid to move in any room of my house with a smoke detector because I was convinced it would start going off if I was too close to it; it made me not look at any of my therapy worksheets because some of them relate to my relationship with my parents, and I can't have a negative thought about them while they're on a plane; it made me look behind my back with every step I took last night. I can't keep doing this. I rarely give in to this extent, but it's ruining my life right now.

I am with my gf only out of pity for her ..that she might cry if I leave her I am 100 percent sure that I don't have OCD and all this time I was only pretending that I love her What is ay is I don't have OCD hehe..this is exciting man ...

I don’t like living life this way, it’s bothering me so much everyday I keep having thoughts surrounding my sexual orientation I don’t know if it’s really me or OCD, I’m scared I’m in denial, I’m 20 yr old and always have had attraction to girls, a few months ago I just got sent down a bad spiral and it’s affecting my life in every way every day, constant hyper focusing on my attraction to people. I’m in a relationship with a girl and I love her so much I don’t want to end things I just want my thoughts to not bother me anymore, I just want peace. even if I’m bi Idgaf I just want things to be normal with my gf. Im scared I’m just attached to my girlfriend but I really have a lot of love for her, its affecting my intimacy where I’m scared I’ll have unwanted thoughts during intimacy and it makes me feel so sad and defeated, and it lowers my sex drive which creates even more doubt. my thoughts constantly doubt me it just feels shitty and embarrassing to even be in this situation why can’t I just live my life the way it was? Any tips or advice from people with so ocd? Would ERP therapy help me?

Does anyone else deal with really bad OCD as soon as they wake up? Any tips for dealing with this?

woke up with INTENSE anxiety, now its not as intense which is sick 😎

when i was 10 i had sexuality ocd and i was crippled by it due to my family being unsupportive. my ocd told me that the thought would go away if i checked my brothers diaper by grabbing over it- over his clothes- as a way to test?? looking back it made no sense and is clearly me being severely under developed to deal with such serious thoughts. the problem is i keep seeing a lot about cocsa- does this fall into that category? there was no malice or intent behind it other than to get rid of my ocd by testing myself. but it makes me feel evil. i’ve struggled accepting this for a long time, im now out as a lesbian and in a happy relationship, but i’m guilted over something that happened 10 years ago.

I look at posts about happy couples and it makes me sad because I feel like that me possibly having OCD, anxiety and depression is causing my bf to not enjoy our relationship much. I know he loves me and all but sometimes I wish that I didn’t have to deal with these problems I have right now because I wanna give myself and him the best relationship possible. I don’t want him to always think that I’m sad but that I can also be happy too. I just care and love him so much that it makes me sad when I see other happy couples because what if that’s all my boyfriend wants. Sometimes I feel like he deserves someone better but yet chose me. I just want my boyfriend to not worry so much for me. 🥺

For anyone out there dealing with this, what are you doing to cope and grow from being anxiously attached? Just realizing how unhealthy I am in the way I go about my relationships and am so worried I’m going to mess up my current relationship because of my ROCD and anxious attachment. I stopped therapy but am going to be going back soon. I need help.

hello! i’m a previous user of nocd and i’ve been gone for quite a while. my ocd has returned in full swing and this app helped me loads last time, happy but not to be back hahah