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Hi! Anyone dealing with SO OCD and have a partner? I am having the hardest time with this. The thoughts and feelings feel so real and scary but there’s moments where I have felt love and attraction for my boyfriend, but right now it feels so hard to believe that was true.

Hi pals! I’m usually the one who gives advice on here since I’ve been through the trenches and come out the other side. I’m newly pregnant (yay) and with that comes lots of hormones and lots of thoughts/feelings/sensations. I have to confess that I haven’t been the best with self care lately and am going through what I think is an OCD relapse. I thought I’d get on here and say that, hey, relapses happen. We are merely humans trying desperately to live life “normally” and sometimes that just doesn’t play out exactly how we hope. My plan in the next few days is to get back on my self care routine, start attending group therapy again, and reconnect with a therapist because I deserve it. You do too. Sending love to everyone who lives with this annoying condition!

Has anyone with ROCD been feeling numb and the feeling of “I don’t love my partner” is becoming stronger despite you knowing and telling it, it’s not true It’s like I know I love my partner deeply with my whole heart but because of the numbness me absence of the anxiety right now the feeling like I mentioned before is trying to convince me more I don’t And i feel desperate because I know it’s not true and I just want it to go away Because i Iove him a lot and want a future together it’s just these “feelings” are putting me down They began to intensify once I started doing self care for myself and stopped neglecting my usual routine because I went through a deep depression And like now i get worried oh I don’t love him because I didn’t text him right away Can anyone relate to me

It's almost been two years since I got hit hard with OCD. I have listened to OCDstories plenty of times. Did therapy many times(don't compare yourself to my therapy experience), I read unwanted intrusive thoughts. Whatever at this point OCD is all about uncertainty maybe, maybe not. But therapists saying there is no CURE is being 100% certain that there isnt. How do we know there isnt any cure? It just seems cynical and no effort. There has to be a cause and effect.

I just discovered ROCD… and I used to overthink a lot about my relationship even though I knew I’m with the best person for me and a trust worthy person too! Is that considered ROCD, when the thoughts are reversed? For example “what if he breaks up with me?” Also I used to confess about everything I did like something so small that made me feel so guilty even though it wasn’t bad at all! But I had to tell me bf because I felt like something bad would happen if I didn’t! Is that considered OCD? If so what subtype? But a few months ago I had the worst intrusive thoughts such as “what if I don’t love him?” or “what if he isn’t the one?”…. This thought came out of nowhere! Where it started to eat me up! Then later on I thought I was crazy thinking about that because I know I do love him!

I’m fairly new to discovering I have OCD and my main types are rocd and pocd. Pocd is most relevant now and I’ve actually googled things like “child porn” into the search bar before I realized that this compulsion wasn’t productive at all. One thought attached to all this is the fear that the police will catch me, or that I’m on a government watch list because I have searched multiple things related to my POCD, on Google images, porn sites etc. Idk if this is my OCD or the truth and it’s one of the most debilitating things I’ve faced. Any suggestions how to deal with this?

I don’t know what to do anymore someone please talk to me so I’m know I’m not alone. My life is a nightmare my mental health is declining

i keep getting weird thoughts and like if i think about something i start to think about it more and make my self believe i am this how do i stop this? ugh

Please does anyone else have the same thoughts and feelings as I do who suffer with ROCD (bearing in mind I love my boyfriend, he’s the kindest most loving boy and I love him with all my heart) we spend all day laughing with eachother! I’m constantly like: You don’t love him, this isn’t right with him, you’re horrible for stringing him along, break up with him, break up with him, did you ever actually love him, you’re probably a lesbian, you don’t find him attractive, there’s nothing between you two Then in other moments when I’m not feeling this I literally could cry with how amazing he is! 😢🙈

Does anyone else here have an obsession over a person? Really struggling right now.

Does hocd causes lost of interest because this days i don't have interest in anything

How do I get over it? How do I get over the fact that I've seen a bunch of horrible videos that were completely out of my morals when I was addicted? I constantly get the fear of going to jail, being a bad person, or never being able to recover from all those years of watching, wasting so much time when I could've did better things. It's hard not to blame myself for this stuff. It's honestly the only thing in my life that keeps me down over and over.

Does ROCD try to convince its not ROCD and it’s your real thoughts and feelings even though you know it isn’t?

i am sharing certain parts of my OCD journey to assure all of you out there who question whether recovery/progress is possible that it is! (i have put the words of affirmation that i used to combat but not argue with my OCD in bold!) i first experienced a compulsion when i was on holiday, there were lots of stones on the floor and i said to myself “if you step on all of these stones by the time you leave you are straight” then came in the anxiety and pressure to complete this task and it grew from there. things progressed from pure o to full on compulsions. i felt as though i needed to do this to prove to myself my sexuality when in reality i didn’t because i knew who i was and still am. this reached the point that i couldn’t not do compulsions when they popped into my head and this ties into my magical thinking subtype. i even set myself tasks to see whether i would do them to see if my stance on my thoughts was changing. 𝙄𝙏 𝙉𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙍 𝙃𝘼𝙎 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙉𝙀𝙑𝙀𝙍 𝙒𝙄𝙇𝙇 𝘽𝙀𝘾𝘼𝙐𝙎𝙀 𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙎𝙀 𝙏𝙃𝙊𝙐𝙂𝙃𝙏𝙎 𝘼𝙍𝙀 𝙉𝙊𝙏 𝙈𝙄𝙉𝙀 𝘼𝙉𝘿 𝙄 𝙎𝙃𝘼𝙇𝙇 𝙍𝙀𝙏𝙐𝙍𝙉 𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙈 𝙏𝙊 𝙏𝙃𝙀 𝙎𝙊𝙐𝙍𝘾𝙀 𝙄𝙉 𝙒𝙃𝙄𝘾𝙃 𝙏𝙃𝙀𝙔 𝘾𝘼𝙈𝙀 𝙁𝙍𝙊𝙈. however it got to the point where i was late for everything because of my routines and doing things until they felt “just right” and i knew that something had to give. i decided to wean myself off of my compulsions. at first i would postpone the time it took me to act on a compulsion. for example if i got the thought to “go and wash your hands again or …” i would not act upon in right away and let myself feel the anxiety and if it got too much only then i would do it. i then got sick of doing that and i just manage the anxiety instead, if any! this is where the acceptance of 𝙐𝙉𝘾𝙀𝙍𝙏𝘼𝙄𝙉𝙏𝙔 𝙄𝙎 𝘾𝙀𝙍𝙏𝘼𝙄𝙉𝙏𝙔 comes into play. by not acting upon the compulsion to gain certainty you are not giving OCD what it wants and rather putting that trust into yourself. this is ultimately going to lead you bettering your ability to not need to give into compulsions and give you a better chance at recovery. i have done it and you can to. i barely ever do compulsions anymore. i simply say “𝘼𝘾𝙏𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙊𝙉 𝙏𝙃𝙄𝙎 𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙐𝙇𝙎𝙄𝙊𝙉 𝙄𝙎 𝙉𝙊𝙏 𝙂𝙊𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙏𝙊 𝘾𝙃𝘼𝙉𝙂𝙀 𝙈𝙔 𝙍𝙀𝘼𝙇𝙄𝙏𝙔" and move on with my day. for instance, if you are in fact gay/straight, (which who cares if you are/are not) no amount of compulsions you do is going to change that! by this i mean that no matter what your subtype is, you are a good person and you are worthy. you do not have to do compulsions in order to prove this to yourself as they do not change any part of your reality. they just keep you in a state of rumination and fuel the power of your OCD. this combined with the ability to stop testing has been how i have combated severe OCD without any sort of professional help or a diagnosis but i will be getting a diagnosis in the near future. yesterday was probably the best day i have had since i began to struggle with this disorder. finally change your language, instead of saying “i hope i will be okay” say “𝙞 𝙆𝙉𝙊𝙒 𝙞 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙗𝙚 𝙤𝙠𝙖𝙮” as this enforces the confidence that your OCD doesn’t want you to have. you can do this! recovery is possible! you are loved! your thoughts do not define you! everything is going to be okay! if it makes you anxious, it’s because the things that OCD is attacking goes against your morals and values. it is not a part of you!

I stopped taking my medication (fluvoxamine) because I was getting dizzy and tired on it…. Also my sex drive kind of went down. Now I’m worried and honestly really scared to see how bad my OCD comes back. 🤦🏻‍♀️😭😭😭 I do not want to be caught stepping over cracks and flipping the light switch 20 times at work 😓 but to be honest the dizziness was making my compulsions worse. I am the worst at taking medication. I get so scared of the side effects… any tips on taking medication? I keep going on and off it and my doctor is getting a little upset😩

I had the fear if I blink at someone twice that they would die, so I use to blink at people once or three times. Is this ocd? I did this after watching a movie

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I was doing fine singing Christian music in my car and then all of a sudden got triggered and reminded of the real event and the guilt filled my whole body and now I feel so upset and sad again. I really don’t want an ocd spike how can I prevent it? How do I know if it’s ocd? What if the real event is really worth worrying about? I can’t take this anymore 😭

The other day I posted something about my harm ocd. I was so thankful that a few people gave me some great advice. A few days after, one of the therapists also replied. It was great advice. But something they said at the end has triggered me so bad that I’m spiraling. They said that if my thoughts change to actually wanting my harm thoughts, to contact my therapist. For some reason, this has sent me reeling because part of my harm ocd is worrying if I want these thoughts! And now I feel like I’m this horrible person and I’m changing. It’s not their fault. They didn’t know they’d trigger me. But idk what to do because now I just feel exhausted.

Hi guys.. I don’t know if anyone remembers my old posts. I am here to let you know there is LIFE after beating OCD. I got to a point with OCD where I couldn’t so much as type or leave my room. As of today- I have graduated law school and am living my life again. It has been hard and I still have my moments. Keep going ❤️