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What are some of yalls symptoms with worrying about developing schizophrenia?

I don't think I've struggled with this one before. Bilut the person I've been dating for 9 months now, I just recently opened up to about my ocd and let him see me at my "worst", during an obsessive breakdown. I have told him that I was afraid to show him because I thought he'd think I was crazy and broken and then leave. He said he doesn't think that and that he loves me the way I am. But since I have trust issues from being lied to from my last 10 year relationship, I have a hard time believing him and not over thinking. Since then, I'm over analyzing everything. He didn't respond to my "I love you so much" text. I made a comment the other day about how "I hope I never have to use a dating app again" and he didn't say anything at all. I'm overthinking his silence. I told him on two different occasions that I was struggling and all he said was "I'm sorry". Small things like that... He's a very sweet, kind, loving guy. Very patient and understanding. Man of few words. I don't want to address this because I don't want to come off as needy or crazy. I feel like I've come at him with small things or vulnerabilities so much in the last few weeks I don't want to do it AGAIN. Not sure if this has happened to anyone else

Hello anyone want to tell me there harm ocd thoughts so we can all feel more normal.

When I pray, sometimes I get certain thoughts that either curse God out of the blue or just have gross thoughts that aren’t my own. According to my religion, cursing God and meaning it is an unforgivable sin , and I am scared that I will go to hell which is my absolute worst fear. I’ve talked to my boyfriend about it and he says it’s not how I truly feel, but I feel so scared when it happens often when I can’t help it. I don’t know how to stop this since the more I think about it the worse the thoughts get.

so my knuckle may have briefly touched this woman’s back when i was walking past her and playing with my earbud, i’m constantly scared of touching people because it makes me feel like a creep. she didn’t seem bothered at all but i am nervous wondering it may have been slightly intentional.

Here’s the answer: Have you tried NOT responding to the discomfort and JUST sitting with it? Are you saying maybe to your fears and yes to your values? If not: Say “maybe that’s true maybe it’s not”. But I can handle this and I’m going to sit with this discomfort and focus on my value(s) in this moment. Then, proceed with whatever activity or value. If a new question pops up, answer it the same way; “maybe that will happen maybe it won’t, but I can handle this and I’ll focus on my values in the moment.” Wash, rinse, repeat 😂. Welcome to ERP

I don’t know how to get rid of them

I’ve been doing pretty well I thought until last night. My husband and I were watching a movie he has already seen before and we got to one part and he let out this huge “ughhhh.” The couple in the movie were arguing about how the woman didn’t want children, he did, and then she changed her mind and said yes. Anyway, this has been a huge issue for us because like the movie, I don’t and he does. My sister is in the same boat. Her boyfriend has been ragging on her cause he wants her to get a better job. He said he can deal with her not wanting kids, but he can’t do both. My mom even mentioned me and my husbands fights and told her she needs to get him go if she loves him, since he wants children. I don’t really see any way out. I feel like it will always be an elephant. He told me he thought God was going to change my mind and he “accepts he will NEVER have children.” I just feel like I’m not enough and I’ll always be a barrier. He told me he was fine with it when we got married, so I thought we’d be fine. We’ve only been married a year and it has been a cause for multiple, huge arguments (threats of separation and divorce etc.) we’ve done therapy but no changes. My therapist resigned and I can’t see anything till February. Trying to just use the tools I’ve learned to get through this.

These last few days my ocd had been maybe the worst it’s ever been. Currently, I am trying to do schoolwork assignments but I’m having a hard time reading because my mind is reading too fast and just skipping over the words then I feel frustrated like I have to go back and read the words carefully one by one with the same brain effort put to each word. Then I feel like I need to go back and look at how much I’ve read up to now and how much I need to read still and compare and it’s a never ending cycle of frustration. My mind is also racing about negative past events on top of that

What should I do if my OCD thought torments me with intense pain and regret? I would’ve never had this regret if I didn’t have OCD, so how should I respond to it? Should I respond to it in a way that would decrease the painful feeling, or should I just feel the pain everytime I think abt it?

Has anyone even happily had a relationship with their gf/boyf after having rocd with them

I'm struggling so hard right now. I feel like I'm not having compulsions just obsessions right now and it means that I truly need to break up with my partner. All I can think about is how I'm beginning to feel anxious around him and not feel that joy as soon as I see him, or that I don't find him attractive anymore. I also sometimes feel like I find him slightly annoying. However, I also feel like with this ROCD I've lost who I am. He's done nothing but support me, and I can see a future with him. I want to google stuff so bad and I can't figure out how to stop ruminating over these thoughts or what the right choice is. I'm scared to death and have constant anxiety while also feeling pretty numb. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm desperate to just feel okay. Sometimes I think everything would be easier if I just broke up with him because I wouldn't have all these thoughts anymore and my life would be easier. I don't want to lose him, or at least I don't think I do. But at the same time, my brain says I do want to break up with him. The negative thoughts are winning, and I'm desperate. I don't know what the right answer is anymore. Sorry for the long post, just needed to see if anyone understands.

I’ve done so much soul searching the last couple of years and I have perspective now that I didn’t have previously, however, that was also during my time before I was diagnosed with OCD, so bittersweet. Each new theme I get I don’t get quite as anxious as I did my first go around with this, which is great, but I feel like my physical anxiety (heart beating, muscle spasms, nerve firings, twitching, etc) won’t die down and now as a result I am in the midst of health concern, thinking I am dying even though I’ve been cleared by multiple doctors for various things. So my questions are: 1) how the heck do you sit with actual, physical anxiety? 2) how long does it take for your mind to adapt to new ways of thinking, extending over your comfort zone, AND for your brain to stop reacting so extremely to the slightest triggers, sights, or sounds? I just feel exhausted

How do you know if you have ocd ??

Hi! Is anyone else having issues with the billing department retroactively changing invoices? I was on an introductory cash pay offer of $75 per visit (valid for 12 visits) in 2021. This was offered to me before my first appointment. I then opted out of this offer as my new insurance ended up being most cost effective. The billing department recently went back and changed my invoices from $75 per visit to $170 over a year later! This is very suspicious and feels like a borderline scam. This is not the first issue I have had with billing mistakes either. In November they incorrectly refunded me hundreds of dollars. I noticed it on my credit card statement and immediately called them. They admitted it was a mistake and I had to submit payment again. This is getting to be more effort than this is worth.

I literally had a sex dream abt my abuser and I feel disgusted after waking up or just shocked bc now I feel now and how I felt in the dream are different.. and it’s weird bc I it’s like i didn’t know it was my abuser but it was yk? Like he was clearly physically present but I didn’t feel that vibe or aura abt them so I thought it was a different person but but physically they looked like them and I feel so disgusted bc I remember the details and I feel so ashamed bc I felt the dream and i saw myself like it :((( idk what that means bc now I’m kinda worried that means I had sexually feelings for my abuser deep down but I woke up like chill until I remembered and I felt disgusted ofc but I feel like I’m so used to anything being a possibility like maybe I do think or that like the ocd exposure thing that I feel bad that I kinda am not scared as much anymore? But it still concerns me bc I feel so disgusted by it now and even more bc my groinals and I still feel it like bleh :/

Let's talk about self-sabotage today! There have been many times in my life when I would start an argument or pick a fight over the smallest of things. Looking back, I can now see that this was OCD. I think on some level, I was trying to put distance on the relationship. That way, if that person wasn't "the one," they weren't that committed, or my doubts were right, I wasn't going to be as hurt. It wasn't until I started really tackling the OCD that I realized this was completely self-sabotage. What about you? Are there certain pieces of your life that you can look back and say, yes - this was OCD in the form of self-sabotage?

Many of us have struggled greatly with "taboo" intrusive thoughts, as they call them. Sexual, violent, disturbing, unsettling thoughts. This is a big part of what OCD can entail. It's very hard to open up to anyone about them, I remember for years thinking "am I the only person who feels this way?" Each and every one of you help me and others remember that we aren't alone, and we can overcome this. If you're experiencing thoughts like this, know that you're not alone. Although it may feel hopeless at times - that doesn't mean you can't overcome this. You can find yourself again!

the past 6 months i’ve honestly been pretty good. not perfect, but never in a debilitating state. and if i got anxious or triggered, it’d last a few days at most. however, in just one week i’ve gone back to spending hours and hours googling, on forums, confessing, reassurance seeking etc. i’ve spent more time on reddit each day than around actual humans! i felt i was getting much better as i was hardly coming on here and not googling all the time (big compulsions for me). but now i’ve slipped and i’m finding it super hard to stop slipping. the obsession i’m experiencing is one i’ve struggled with for years, on and off. i’d reached a point where i didn’t think it was true, or sort of just accepted that i’d never know for sure. but now i’m back to desperately trying to figure it out, constantly ruminating etc. this is also the first time it’s affected my sleeping and eating. i’m feeling the anxiety much greater than ever before.

hi guys it’s been awhile since i’ve been on here but right now i’m starting to get really scared i’m scared to go to hell because i swear, have intrusive thoughts and compulsions (obviously) and i look at and do s*xually immoral acts i am a catholic person and i’ve always stood by the notion that if i act with good intentions then there is no issue, but my mum was talking about her fear of going to hell (her ocd subtypes are about this) and now i feel guilty when i sin, even tho i only want peace in the world i go to reddit and look at some answers for this stuff (i have a really bad compulsion of searching questions on google for hours) and they mostly say i will go to hell if i sin i also get really depressed then question god’s existence and then wonder why i should be alive and stuff and then i’m guilty later i really don’t want this to become a major subtype. i have health ocd but it’s calmed down since i’ve been diagnosed with a health condition (for some reason??) can someone, christian or not, please respond with their experience with this subtype or anyone with advice at all?