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I cut myself for the first time today. Life's too hard, I dont know what to do. I got my first job and I'm starting tomorrow and I'm a wreck, I'm worried sick that I won't be able to work due to my social anxiety. I keep having suicidal thoughts. I feel trapped.

I feel like anytime I become really close to someone I can’t differentiate platonic or romantic feelings. My thoughts run wild thinking things along the lines of “you like them” “they secretly like you” “you could do —, —, or — with them.” I believe I’m Bisexual so I have these thoughts for both male & female, but sometimes I even worry about whether or not I’m really bisexual or if I’m just straight with extreme intrusive thoughts. I’ve had these thoughts about best friends, coworkers, & even relatives & it’s extremely disturbing. It makes me feel shameful for having these thoughts, especially with relatives or when in a relationship. I constantly have to tell myself that they’re just thoughts & I wouldn’t actually want anything to happen. I really don’t want to ruin my relationships with these people, but these thoughts wont go anyway no matter how many times I try to think the opposite in response to change my mindset. I’ve talked to my boyfriend about it & I’m very grateful that he’s so understanding, but it still troubles me. I’m really glad there’s another alternative of talking about these things

My ocd is harm and it’s one sentence “kill your daughter “ when ever it flares up that’s all it is it’s never ANYTHING ELSE just that for days hours. I’ve heard had any visions or any other obsession just that sentence can anyone relate

My OCD began around the age of 5 and followed me throughout childhood and into adolescence, making every day a struggle. My intrusive thoughts were very, very scary, and not a lot of people around me knew what OCD was. Only after years of therapies and medications that didn’t work for me did I finally find the proper treatment—ERP therapy—which would change my life, help me manage OCD, and allow me to do the things I love again! I spent more than 15 years struggling before I got here. How long has OCD been affecting you?

At 60 I am wondering how many of you , like me are lifetimes? What has your experience been? Isn’t it great how NOCD is an option now? I really thought I was a freak and so lonely at the onset of this…. So grateful to know I’m not alone. I wonder how much better I would have done back then with this type of support?

This is so hard for me to say but I have a 4 year old son. I am now pregnant and out of nowhere I get intrusive thoughts about my sons private parts. It not sexual or anything instead it makes me mad like they pop up in my head over and over and it drives me mad. I don’t know why this is happening to me. I don’t understand it.

does anyone else have really bad emetephobia? any advice?

Anyone got any info about this, what they take, side effects they had, amount, etc

Ugh…I’m on the struggle bus rn. I cooked 20$ worth of pork chops (followed the recipe to a T and used a cooking thermometer); I took one bite and couldn’t swallow. Spit it out and proceeded to mouth wash, rinse, and spit, spitting over and over until it felt like all the remnants of the food were gone. Then I threw it all away. I googled multiple pages to ensure I cooked them right. Even before cooking them, I smelled them and inspected them thoroughly, ensuring they were good. I’m exhausted, and I feel sick.

My brain feels so overwhelmed with intrusive thoughts, I'm finding it hard to think. It's becoming difficult to get things done because I can't establish direction. It's never been this bad before and it just keeps getting worse. How do I reset?

Can someone recommend a book to help parents with a teen with OCD? My daughter currently suffers from religious OCD. She thinks the devil is going to harm her or someone. She asked me for help but I honestly don’t know how to help her. She is currently in therapy and taking Fluvoxamine, but I have not seen any progress and I think her anxiety is actually getting worse. Her therapist does not specialize in OCD so we are looking into other options. I am looking for any advice, I feel very helpless and don’t know how to comfort her. I feel like I am saying all the wrong things. Thanks

I’m new to the app. I’ve bene struggling with intrusive thoughts that my boyfriend will leave me. It leads me to contact him while he’s working and frantically calling him to get reassurance. I’m trying to manage my emotions but the thoughts are constantly there and he doesn’t give me the responses I’m looking for such as don’t worry I’m not. So I am in constant fear

My financial advisor is advising me not to travel. I wanted to sell my house, invest and then live off the interest in a cheap country in Asia. He wants me to live in a house I can’t afford the upkeep of which will slowly depreciate. I’m sure he is basing his opinion on the fact that I told him my official diagnosis was schizophrenia and that I also told him I identified as vulnerable. He suggested having a third pair of eyes look it over and I’ve asked my neighbour who is sensible. I’ve also asked a member of my team to explain my situation in case he doesn’t know much about it. I eat healthily, I get exercise and as far as drugs go I stick to just meds and coffee and have for some time. My doctor is saying he thinks I’ve been misdiagnosed and only have OCD or autism. I had to stare my diagnosis etc because I can’t lie about it for anything official. I had this problem with a mortgage broker too recently. If I get frustrated then they will just take the attitude that I am “having one of my turns” so I don’t know what to do. My house is beautiful and I love it but I can’t afford new furniture even when the time comes let alone any serious repairs. I’ve just had to struggle to get my boiler serviced and couldn’t get it serviced at all last year. What would you do?

I’m 28 years old and I’ve been battling with OCD since I was around 8 years old. However, I didn’t realize it was OCD until a few years ago. I’ve dealt with multiple themes of OCD that are on constant rotation. Currently, I’m struggling with real event OCD, and moral scrupulously OCD. It has made this past week extremely distressing. My husband is aware of all of my thoughts and feelings, however, that’s due to my need to “confess” virtually everything in my life. He is never stressed about the content of what I’m worrying about, but unfortunately, that serves as temporary reassurance for me, and the cycle continues. This week has been one of my HARDEST. I have been stuck in a loop over the same obsession, with barely any relief. I’m self employed, and usually the winter months are slow, so I currently have no distractions to get out of my head. I can barely eat, and I go through multiple waves of panic attacks a day. I’m starting to lose hope that I can figure this out alone. I’ve never seen professional help for my OCD, and to be honest, it terrifies me to have to explain my thoughts and feelings to a stranger. What if I never get better? I guess I’m just looking for guidance, advice, etc. I’m feeling so lost and scared.

I am not trying to discourage anyone from using this chat room/discussion forum, but I would like to state some of my thoughts on it. 1. I’ve been receiving therapy from a therapist at NOCD and it has been extremely helpful! 2. I understand that not everyone has access to therapy, and I know how hard OCD can be to manage on our own sometimes. 3. However- There is not a lot of support in the NOCD chat rooms- it’s a pretty negative, doom and gloom place to hang out, with a lot of people only coming in with their hardships and receiving little to no help, advice, or encouragement, so I would encourage you to limit your time here. 4. There are a lot of great resources with a lot of free content on various social media platforms, even classes to be taken for pretty low cost. I would check those out over spending a-lot of time in here, it will be more informative and educational. 5. Recovery is possible, but you have to put in the work and stop fighting yourself. 6. You got this!

so a lot of the time i worry i don’t love him. but recently, i’ve been obsessing (losing sleep too) over if he doesn’t love me. i’m constantly worrying he’s not doing enough and he’s not right for me and it makes me so anxious i can barely breathe. is this normal???

i haven’t been happy in months it feels like. and i feel like i never will. this sucks especially seeing that people will go through this for years. it hardly seems fair. hopefully they come up with some instant cure soon lol bc this ain’t it especially if it’s for the rest of my life. when i was a kid i felt like i had ocd but it was never this debilitating. i felt like this hit me all at once and now it’s the new normal. trying to date is a night mare because it feels like i’m trying to force the attraction but if i liked the same kind of people all my life why change now. i guess because i’ve had terrible dating experiences so far as in like the people i’ve chose have just been not good but i still had genuine feelings for these people. and i hunger for that old life back. did anyone ever get their attraction back after this if so how long did it take?

I am mad because I have had OCD for over 27 years, actually probably 40 years if I count all of the undiagnosed years. But when I was in my 20’s I went to a doctor with classic OCD symptoms over and over again. I was afraid of getting HIV from a syringe that was re-used on multiple people in a kit that they used for allergy testing in the 90’s. I actually freaked out so badly that I passed out in their office. I made them give me HIV tests. Rather than figuring out that I had OCD he thought I was a hypochondriac! So I was misdiagnosed and therefore avoided going to him and got worse and worse over the years. When I think of how I could have been treated and made better sooner, it makes me so mad! Doctors are supposed to know the signs of this disorder.

Living with OCD can be very hard, especially from day to day. I have suffered with this condition for over 30 years. After proper treatment, I'm able to love, live and laugh...yes, in that order. I can focus on what matters most to me and truly cherish each moment. I wonder: What do you think you could do if you didn't have OCD making the rules any longer?

I am 30 something and at time I get into the moods of feeling down and nervous about aging. I know that I am not old (yet) and that there is nothing that can be done about aging, but I cannot help feeling like this at times. I would also worry at time about aging when I was in my 20s. I also understand that there are positives of getting older. Idk, I guess I am just ranting about how I am feeling.