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So I saw this discussion about gradual exposure VS flooding... and uh... I am kinda in a situation where I am forced into flooding. It has been very hard, but I do still see more results than at home. I am just stressed it'll harm me, this manner of ERP that is probably not the mosy desirable of them all. I mean, I guess it works for some people, I have heard of people who need to quit almost everything at once and I kinda have to too right now... it is quite a lot to take in. Most things go surprisingly well but the big ones on the hierarchy... my god it makes me super stressed. I dunno I could use a pep talk. Trying to be strong here, I need to be, but yeah. For context; I am not in my own home anymore due to abuse and the crisis service intervening to make sure I was safe from well, getting hit again. But I basically cannot practice my contamination OCD at the place where I stay right now. I showered for hours at home, washed hands like crazy, used so many wipes... and using a toilet thst is not mine is my biggest fear. I am doing it all but... idk man it is very overwhelming. As well as trying to process what happened (I was being choked, hit and kicked at home) on top of that, it is a lot. I try to be positive but my god... What a life lmao.

Anyone else feel hopeless because they know they’ll never be able to afford proper therapy? It honestly scares me so much knowing that there’s no possible way I can get the help that I need.

so i have a weird compulsion and i’d love it if y’all could comment on it. so i have compulsions like “if you do this (at the moment brushing my teeth) you’re a bad person”. so my therapist a while back told me to do it anyway. now i’m in a rut where i’m scared i want to do the thing more when i have a bad thought.

OCD is not chronic. Stop this myth please, it discourages people from getting ERP. You can fully recover loves :)

I’m pansexual and non-binary but I worry that, I’m straight and female... is there anyone else going through this?

For the past month and a half I’ve been getting horrible thoughts that I’m going to die soon and I keep seeing things on the news about 18 year olds dying and I’m scared it’s a sign because I’m 17 and my head keeps telling me somethings going to happen before I turn 18 or when I turn 18. I’ve also got a constant feeling in my gut that something bad is going to happen to me and it never goes away it’s a horrible feeling and I don’t know what to do. My head also keeps telling me I’m ready to die which I’m not I don’t want to, I’m living my life in fear and I’m really scared it’s not anxiety. Could this just be my mind daring me to think these things like the feeling I’m ready to die etc or is it my gut trying to tell me something and it’s sending me signs. I’m really scared. Please help.

Does anybody obsess over their depression/anxiety? I’ve felt so depressed lately and I feel like I’m obsessing over it and I can’t get out of it

I really want to be in love with my girlfriend it makes me so stressed out because I don’t know if it’s ROCD or not. She’s so nice and sweet and she always has the best intentions but my brain is tricking me into thinking that I don’t like her anymore. The only thing I think about all day is if I love her or not, why do I love her, would being with someone else be better and I’ve been dealing with it for 6 months now and it hasn’t really gotten better. I think about being in other relationships with other people and it seems so real to the point where I would be happy or better off that way but it does end up making me anxious. I hate it so much and I just want to be happy again and I feel so lost. I’ve been on 20mg of Prozac for a little over a week and it hasn’t really done much and I used to be on 100mg of Sertraline but I switched because it wasn’t doing anything anymore. Ever since I’ve been on the Prozac I felt worse, the OCD/depression/anxiety has been awful, I haven’t been able to sleep well or eat and I feel so out of it and not myself. I’ve tried therapy and I didn’t really experience any help and at this point I really don’t know what to do. Also I’m sorry if this doesn’t make sense

Having so much trouble handling the anxiety that comes along with erp when it is something that is extremely disturbing. I feel exhausted mentally and physically and the depression kicks in. How am I supposed to accept that my obsession might come true without going into a full blown panic. My counselor doesn't really go through exposures step by step with me so it's hard to do it alone.

HELP! How do I stop tensing my neck and head? It's this weird constant tic I have, and I do it constantly to the point where my neck hurts and feels like it needs a massage. I found that supporting my neck with a pillow helps, but it still hurts and I just want to stop it.

Anyone with misophonia? Any therapy or treatment that workes, medical or not?

It makes me feel super isolated when I have to function happy around others and have panic and crying sessions when I’m alone

Is it possible to experience all sub types of ocd ??iv gone thru pocd then rocd then hocd now I'm struggling with rocd again I'm trying really hard to not give into it it's basically telling me to break up with my fiance as we wont last I split with my ex wife after 5 years of marriage she cheated and was physically abusive was a messy situation ... if been with my current partner 5 years we plan to marry next year the thought of marrying her makes me so happy we have custody of my kids from previous relationship.. I just cant seem to shake the intrusive thoughts and thinking is it down to my past etc etc

My boyfriend and I celebrated an anniversary yesterday and we exchanged cards. He wrote the sweetest things on it, telling me what he was loves about me. Of course my OCD brain tried to look for loopholes. Does anyone experience this? At some point it finally “clicked” for me and the OCD disappeared but later wiggled its way in again. How can I just enjoy my relationship for what it is and not analyze every single thing that is said?! My OCD beats words and meanings to the ground and nothing makes sense sometimes.

So I’m just getting scared because every time I do something with my boyfriend I say is this what I want? Am I happy? Then I think about this kid I had a thing with over a year ago and I’m convinced that I like wanna be with him and not my boyfriend and it’s just so hard I’m so worried and so afraid that it’s just how I feel.. then I get worry to settle even tho it’s like a switch just flipped from one day to the next..

So basicaly Two days ago I found a video on YouTube about astrology, and the woman speaking said smth like: you should look inside yourself because you have a tendency to ignore your own identity and your own true feelings. Instantly I thought of this endeavouring rumination about me being bisexual. Cause now I’ve kinda come to terms with the fact that in no way am I gay. So okay, the thing is, recently I’ve started to think that girls especially have an inclination towards bisexuality, mainly because they are affectionate with other girls. Bear in mind the fact that, since this hocd started, the lines between normal dating actions and behaviours between people are blurred to me. Now I realize that I am ruminating more and more this possibility of me being bisexual, but there are counter arguments like : I would never ever date a woman, I would never ever have sex with a woman and to me they are beautiful yes, they are sexy etc but I don’t want to do anything with them. Then, my consequent thought is maybe I have internalized homophobia idk. This is all soooo distressful and irritating and confusing. Deep down I know that I am a straight girl, but I feel guilty every time someone asks about my boyfriend because of these intrusive thoughts. It feels like I am lying to them, telling them that I am straight, when in fact I am not. Have you ever had such experiences?

Quote:Why put off until tomorrow what you can do today Me:Because anxiety Because depression Because lack of sleep ???

Anyone else have contamination OCD about sin? Whenever I do certain sins I feel like everything associated or touched while doing so or after is dirty

It's driving me crazy, my husbands in the kitchen cooking and I know im3going to have to clean up everything behind him. He's going to mess up the stove I'm so stressed I want to go off.

I just got saved today and I feel pretty good. Ocd is trying to get in my head and tell me that I don’t mean it, and that I’m not ready and that I’m gonna fuck this up again like last time. I already piss off God as it is but if I mess this relationship up again I’m really just gonna loose it. Now I’m confused and I’m crying because idk if I was ready, if I just said that I wanted to. I feel like ass because I really do believe in God and I wanted this relationship because I was fucking scared he’d leave me or I’d leave him. I feel like shot cause idk if I made a huge mistake or not, I was doing well earlier but now I’m a hot mess and I’m really embarrassed because idk what I just did. Of course coming to God isn’t a mistake but idk if I meant it. Ocd is telling me I didn’t. And I told my grama I came to Christ which was a huge mistake because she fucking confused me and now I just regret everything I did today. I’m starting to wish I would’ve just left all this alone. I’m hysterical and I can’t stop telling God I’m sorry. I feel like I just fucked up eveything