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Im getting scared about this situation... For context. I was on an NSFW discord server. There was optional age verification but i would only message women who were verified. I messaged this girl whose DM's were open... we talked before she asked me my age first. I said I was 20 (which was true) to which she immediately responded that she was 18. We talked about why we were on the NSFW discord server and had playful banter. I then asked her when she was born because I wanted to make sure she was consistent with her age. She misunderstood the question at first and said she was born in Colombia. I then asked her for the date she was born on. At 5 AM when I was asleep, she said "13😭", before reaffirming her age as 18 approximately 8 minutes after... does this indicate if she was lying about her age...?

I’m 23M and looking back at some past choices that concern me. I was a huge porn addict and just now started to realize how harmful it is to the brain. I don’t know if I have POCD or in denial. I’ve lost sleep, been late to work, been lacking in my health and responsibilities for almost 2 months. Feel like I don’t deserve to be around my best friends. Feel like I have to admit to someone. It’s the first thing I think about waking up and the last thing I think about going to sleep. My therapist tells me that I’m okay but I kinda don’t believe him. I feel like I’m not giving him all the information or that he doesn’t understand. He didn’t even knew what POCD was. After 4 sessions I didn’t really feel like it was working out so now I’m switching to someone hear. There’s a lot of details that I’m not including but only because I’m just scared. I feel like I have had something inside myself that I didn’t even know I was capable of and now it bothers me.

Hello! While I'm not a doctor, I've lived with OCD for 15 years and have explored many techniques to manage it. Through trial and error, I've discovered strategies that truly work. I'm eager to share this advice, hoping it can ease your struggle, especially in the early stages of treatment. Incorporating these tips can lead to immediate improvements in managing OCD. Remember, you're not alone in this journey. There's a supportive community ready to help, and with the right approach, fear and panic become manageable. OCD is treatable, and it's possible to reclaim your happiness and freedom. My OCD Management Recommendations Based on 15 Years of Experience 1. Seek Professional Help - It is a game-changer, trust me. Professional guidance can provide tailored strategies and support that are crucial for managing OCD effectively. 2. Sleep Well - Quality sleep is foundational for mental health. It helps in managing stress and improving overall well-being. 3. Eat Clean - A balanced diet can significantly affect your mental and physical health. Nutritious foods support brain function and emotional balance. 4. Exercise - Regular physical activity is beneficial for both body and mind. It helps in reducing anxiety and improving mood. 5. Engage Your Brain - Activities like reading books, playing chess, watching quality TV shows and movies, solving crosswords, and puzzles keep your mind engaged and can offer relief from obsessive thoughts. 6. Relax - Incorporate relaxation techniques into your routine. Visit wellness spas, get massages, and meditate. 7. Quit Caffeine - Completely eliminate caffeine from your diet. It can exacerbate anxiety and OCD symptoms, so avoiding it can lead to significant improvements in your mental health. 8. Let Go and Go with Life's Flow - These are just thoughts and emotions. They always come and go. Don't resist them. Don't do anything to push them away. Don't play the OCD game. Don't engage in OCD games in any way. Just simply let them be and let them pass. These are just thoughts and emotions. They always go away. They always pass. 9. Notice that OCD thoughts are synthetic thoughts. They are not your natural, real, or pure thoughts. These thoughts are synthetic, so don't engage with them, don't play this game, don't do anything for them. Just simply acknowledge them, don't do anything, just let them be and let them pass. No matter how you feel, just do your stuff and don't do anything about synthetic thoughts. This is how you will train your body and mind that you're not afraid of it, you can function with it, and OCD will simply lose its power.

I have noticed users posting multiple times everyday, daily, for weeks now. Every time someone does NOT provide reassurance in their comment sections, they try posting again until, eventually, someone comments reassurance. This is not a healthy method to solve your OCD and is rather a constant feedback loop that will never combat OCD at its source! This app can be a temptation and CAN worsen our OCD. I know this, I’ve experienced it. Just like any other tool, it can do both good and bad. Hopefully this doesn’t sound incriminating because it’s more so me expressing genuine concern for some of you all.. ****TRIGGER WARNING AHEAD*** I’ve seen some of these situations escalate in terrifying ways. One user used s*lf-h*rm as leverage to guilt trip another user into giving them reassurance. Another user got upset when others didn’t give the right responses and called them horrible names. Guys, this is NOT how this app should be used. Please, if you find yourself desperate for reassurance multiple times a day, PLEASE leave this app! The app is NOT helping. For the ones who escalated, this app is making you desperate in ways that are harmful to both yourself and others!!!! We want the best for you, but if you find yourself unable to listen to our advice, PLEASE reconsider how this app may be helping (or not helping) you heal. Best wishes, everyone. Sending love to everyone here!!!

Does anybody else’s intrusive thoughts come in the form of “delusional thoughts”? I’ve been in a terrible episode of hypochondria or ocd for the past 6 months where I have FULLY convinced myself I am developing schizophrenia, it started with becoming really easily overstimulated and not being able to concentrate and now it has spiraled out of control to where I am constantly getting intrusive thoughts center around demonic stuff, which i have never ever believed before, I have always been a skeptic. But now i get these thoughts all the time like “what if this song has hidden demonic meanings?” “What if your wife is a demon” “what if nobody is real and your just in hell” “what if this political figure is being controlled by the devil”, the typical kind of delusional thoughts you would expect from a schizophrenic. Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and all about facts, science and evidence, I am a skeptic. Not only does the fact that I’m even having these thoughts in the first place scare the life out of me, but I have to constantly battle with these thoughts in my head if I believe them or not. I feel like I have to constantly hold myself back from fully going off the deep end, I feel like I have to constantly disprove these thoughts and stop myself from believing them, but they feel so real and it’s scaring me so much. One part of me is like “why can’t we just stop worrying about this, this is delusional” and another part of me is like “what if I actually do need to worry about if these things are true or not, they FEEL true” and I’m just like “wtffff I shouldn’t have to worry about if things like this are true at all in the first Place!” I feel like I have fully lost my mind, and in no time I’m going to lose this little bit of insight I have. I hate these thoughts so much, I don’t want to think about them, but now that they are here, I feel like I can’t forget them. My dpdr is already making everything feel so off and weird and unreal and I feel like it’s only giving these thoughts more credibility and realness. I feel like this could also be partly a terrible form of existential ocd that’s being thrown into the mix with all these “what if thoughts”. Ugh I just want to be normal again ): but I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore because I’m constantly on the lookout for symptoms that I can’t even be normal anymore. Btw: yes I am seeing 2 therapists and a psychiatrist and all of them do not believe I am developing schizophrenia.

Does anyone also get intrusive Thoughts that are targeted to one person. I’m having intrusive thoughts of harming my mom. I definitely don’t want to but the thought kind of just sits in my head all day. Any tips?

Today was terrible. Like overwhelmingly terrible. I keep going back and forth between “no that’s not who i am” to “that’s who I am but don’t want to be”. Being in between isn’t any better either. I cancelled my birthday plans cause it feels terrible to go out and do things as if nothing is wrong when there it feels like there is. My friend has been there for me for everything and I don’t wanna dump why I cancelled after dumping my problems on her for years. Should I be honest with her?

My pocd and false memory ocd have been going wild, and now two people have triggered me today... i already want this day to be over...

I live in Massachusetts so I have Mass Health NOCD does not take my insurance. So my question is should I take a loan to pay for treatment?

Does anybody else’s intrusive thoughts come in the form of “delusional thoughts”? I’ve been in a terrible episode of hypochondria or ocd for the past 6 months where I have FULLY convinced myself I am developing schizophrenia, it started with becoming really easily overstimulated and not being able to concentrate and now it has spiraled out of control to where I am constantly getting intrusive thoughts center around demonic stuff, which i have never ever believed before, I have always been a skeptic. But now i get these thoughts all the time like “what if this song has hidden demonic meanings?” “What if your wife is a demon” “what if nobody is real and your just in hell” “what if this political figure is being controlled by the devil”, the typical kind of delusional thoughts you would expect from a schizophrenic. Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and all about facts, science and evidence, I am a skeptic. Not only does the fact that I’m even having these thoughts in the first place scare the life out of me, but I have to constantly battle with these thoughts in my head if I believe them or not. I feel like I have to constantly hold myself back from fully going off the deep end, I feel like I have to constantly disprove these thoughts and stop myself from believing them, but they feel so real and it’s scaring me so much. One part of me is like “why can’t we just stop worrying about this, this is delusional” and another part of me is like “what if I actually do need to worry about if these things are true or not, they FEEL true” and I’m just like “wtffff I shouldn’t have to worry about if things like this are true at all in the first Place!” I feel like I have fully lost my mind, and in no time I’m going to lose this little bit of insight I have. I hate these thoughts so much, I don’t want to think about them, but now that they are here, I feel like I can’t forget them. My dpdr is already making everything feel so off and weird and unreal and I feel like it’s only giving these thoughts more credibility and realness. I feel like this could also be partly a terrible form of existential ocd that’s being thrown into the mix with all these “what if thoughts”. Ugh I just want to be normal again ): but I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore because I’m constantly on the lookout for symptoms that I can’t even be normal anymore. Btw: yes I am seeing 2 therapists and a psychiatrist and all of them do not believe I am developing schizophrenia.

Has anyone recently gotten married and was able to cope with their OCD through their engagement and actual wedding weekend? I’ve been doing great and just want to make sure I can handle the stress over the next few months and not ruin the weekend I’ve looked forward to for over a year. I feel some recent intrusive thoughts coming through that are “I am” statements which are new for me. Any tips or tricks would be appreciated.

Had to rush to the cooler at work so I could be alone to cry and let it out. I can’t take it anymore. Something is terribly wrong and I’m so tired of telling myself it’s ocd when this feels too real and specific. How can I not accept the one thing that I desperately need it to be? And how do I deal with the real possibility that I very well AM that person? I don’t want to be but clearly that’s what it feels like. I’m so fucking sorry idk what to do about it.

Hi everyone. I have been experiencing harm intrusive thoughts for 2 months now. I believe it started for me when I had a bad experience with a delta 9 gummy. I am looking this up everyday trying to find reassurance and an answer to all of this. I hate that my thoughts make me question what kind of person I am and if I’m actually capable of this. I’m so scared I will lose it for even a second and do these things. I align with being a gentle, kind, caring person but this makes me feel like I’m capable of anything. I desperately want my old life back. I want to be able to sit on the couch with my partner, eat junk food, watch our fave shows together, and not worry about harm. I hope this will disappear soon.

About a year ago my son was sitting on my lap and everything was fine at first. He was sitting with his back towards like my chest and I tried avoiding any intrusive thought or feeling. But then I think I focused on it maybe but it became such an intense feeling and I remember going to move him forward away from my chest and as I did that I remember a pulse like feeling "down there" and I was so worried it was a "o" if you know what I mean. I'm so worried it could have been that or the start of one. I hate this. This one feels to real to let go. How can I let this go in case it was an "o"

What if I don’t have ROCD, or what if I do but it’s still not the right relationship. I’m so freaking confused and lost and empty right now and I’m frustrated. I don’t know what to do. I keep focusing on all the flaws and shortcomings and I’m so overly critical and it’s annoying.

When I look at my bf, I find him very cute etc but sometimes I dont feel anything… which I know is normal because you cant feel everything at every moment in your life… but the thing is everytime I think about us breaking up or him disappearing from my life, I feel like hes the “last” guy im ever gonna be with and then I’ll only be with women. Like whatttt?!?!? Whyyy?!

nothing feels real right now? and i’m not anxious when the intrusive thoughts come. does this mean i am okay with them? or i agree with them? it feels like im changing.. i don’t want this

Hi I have a few questions, If you were to watch a documentary about OCD, what are topics you really want to see in it? And what feeling do you want to get out of it? Do you want it to be more serious and professional or personal? Thank so much in advance!

I’m thinking thoughts 24/7, from wake to sleep, everyday, every moment. I don’t even get a one second break. It’s exhausting. What do I do? Is this normal? I want to be able to get out of my own head. I analyze and have thoughts about every action/event, every person, and every thought. And unfortunately there’s a set of traumas my brain makes me think about tons of times everyday. The only time I can stop thinking is when I’m super drunk (don’t worry, I’ve made sure to only do this like once or twice a month.) I’m not interested in trying medication, I’ve been on meds a few times and they never helped. Any advice?