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I'm blaming my substance abuse on OCD. I think my anxiety and OCD had caused me to be dependent on alcohol. Anybody else feel that way?

Did anyone ever feel like bc he has OCD everyone decide that the feelings are because of that? And from the OCD? sometimes I feel like my thoughts are real and they connect them to OCD by mistake (my therapist too) even tho I’m trying to be very clear about how I feel

Anyone else feels like their anxiety causes them low-mood? And which makes you feel depressed and numb? It is hard to get over this feeling.

Anymore. Does it mean it’s not ocd? I’m just frustrated. Those thoughts are different from who I was, but I’m not feeling like myself anymore. Anyway it should pass, but it’s so so so hard. I feel like I survive everyday. 😭

I got fast food and it tasted weird like bile. I was gonna shake it off and assume I have acid reflux. Then I started to freak out a little and thought maybe there's chemicals in my food. My husband asks me why I'm having anxiety and I tell him. He then says well it is possible for people to make mistakes and that it only takes one person to contaminate something. All I'm thinking is why? Why tell me that now I'm just gonna be up all night worrying that I've been poisoned and going to get sick. I wish he just would of told me hey it's just acid reflux don't worry instead of playing in the whole fear I had to begin with.

Sometimes after I’ve done something „risky“ on my phone or something that makes me uncomfortable or leaves me insecure, I go on this app here to read/like/comment. This might be a compulsion.

I've been living with OCD for over a decade now. I've tried various methods, seen therapists for several years (and still am), started taking medication in the recent months, and turned to Christianity, hoping to harness the power of religion to aid myself. I've tried all sorts of approaches. What I want to say is that many times, I've felt these methods were helpful, especially since I began taking medication in the past few months. However, I still experience lapses every so often, like in the last four days where I've spent most of my days ruminating. I'm feeling quite down at the moment. Previously, during lapses, I would remind myself to look on the bright side and live in the moment, starting self-care right from the now. But having it continue for four days straight, I've really started to lose some of my confidence. I wonder why, despite doing so much, I still experience such severe lapses. And now, I find myself somewhat unwilling to come out of it. I hope you all can offer me some words of encouragement. Thank you!

I’ve been having this since a month and it’s horrible like I might forget how to breathe it becomes manual, and it’s every second of every day, distractions don’t really help and I feel so hopeless. I am not diagnosed with OCD, diagnosed with GAD but after a bad cold I developed this similar OCD condition being so hyper aware of my breath.

My obsession is so obscure and specific and I’m sure no one else has it bc every time I Google it no one relates so it’s making me think that it’s not an obsession and I’ll never overcome it. I just wish I could go back in time when I didn’t have this obsession

Does anyone of you know about any company that offer jobs with visa sponsorship? I am an Electrical Engineer. I just want to start working and relocate and forget about my ocd and leave it here. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thankyou in advance

Hello guys I just got recently diagnosed with OCD last year along with anxiety I've had since the day I can remember. And with MDD which I've figured for awhile I had but never got diagnosed for it till last year in November. Just to summarize with what I have I guess. Anyways I've struggled with Harm Ocd mainly, it's only really been that along with contamination and just little other themes but never been main ones. More so the first one I said. But recently I've had a new main theme I guess I could say and it's POCD I think, if that's what I have or if I'm potentially am one, I'm just not sure. So about a month ish ago I started just thinking about ages and stuff and like idk I guess I was just thinking, and then I remember thinking about how I thought my younger brothers friend was cute but not in a sexual way just like a oh he's cute. And I have a boyfriend and I told him all of this already just a fyi. But it's because I noticed he had really nice eyes and the first thing I notice in people are eyes. So one day I did ask him if they were contacts because it did seem a bit like sus haha, but anyways my brother said they were and I was like I knew it. But now been thinking like I can't be finding someone younger than me cute or attractive. I'm 22 and he's 4 years younger than me. But I guess to get straight to the point I've just been overthinking a lot and now when I see people underage or teens and so on I did get nervous looking at them especially at work or just in public places. Or if I saw a younger person than me, for example had nice hair I would think oh wow he has nice hair but then I'll start like looking at them more and I guess almost testing myself to see if I'm attracted and so on. And I'd covience myself I am. At least that's what I think. But I did tell my boyfriend all of this and he told me he thinks it's me just noticing attractive features but not in a sexual way. Like if someone underage had really nice eyes or like cute freckles or something that's a "normal" thing but he thinks I'm taking it to the extreme. I can't really quite explain it well by what he means but hopefully it makes sense. And I've always been attracted to people my age or older like celebs and stuff. I remember a few years ago when I was 18 there was a new movie that came out and I thought the guy was cute, and I watched it over and over cause I did like the movie too. But I remember I was looking up the cast after watching it like 5 times that week, and I saw he was 17 or 16 turned 17, and I was like nope he's too young for me. And it sounds stupid but I was never really into people 1 year younger than me before. And ironically my bf is like 10 months younger than me but he looks older and people always think he's 26. So I guess I'm just kinda confused, like now there's a family friend we have, not that close but fb friends type of thing with my mom. And her kid has cancer now, and he's like maybe 8 or 9, but I looked at the pic and was like that sucks you know. Just found out last night too. And then I went to see if she posted any updates about him, but it was the same pic and I was like looking at him and I was like oh he's cute, like a cute kid and then I was like dang, he looks like his dad A LOT. Because he grew a bit compare to the last time I saw him. Ugh even typing this is making me sound like a creep. But like I was saying I was just like dang he looks like his dad a lot and I use to think my family friends dad was cute haha but like I said not in a desire way, like even my mom thought he was cute and my best friend too haha. But I did went through her fb to look at her pics and I would see him in every pic and I just would keep checking if I'm attracted to him or not and so on and it just confuses me because I'm like I use to think his dad was a handsome looking dude and now his kid really looks like him. So now I'm thinking like maybe I am, and like idk just disturbing thoughts pop up. And I will say before those thoughts came up, I was telling my mom we should make a superhero basket for him with toys and fun stuff to cheer up the family and him. And all those thoughts came after that. So honestly I'm just at a lost. I just can't tell if I am or not or if I'm a danger to underage teens and kids. I just feel very disentitize to all of this now too, like I said a month ago I was pretty like stressed out and worried and just overthink and cry here and there because I was like nope it can't be. But now I just feel numb and like I just feel like I don't care anymore, sometimes it'll come up and I'm like I just don't care about this anymore and move on. Or if I'm like oh he was cute or attractive or had a nice smile it just doesn't give me anxiety anymore it just like oh well. Like I don't know and my Depression comes in episodes every other few weeks so I do get emotionally numb sometimes. I guess what I wanna say is sometimes I think I'll be a predator or a groomer and I just get worried it will happen but right now I don't feel much. But like before I'd worry about it and stuff. And I just don't know what to do, and if I am, like I don't know I just feel lost and confused. And I'm asexual too, so that probably explains why I never see anyone and think sexual things with them, even with Adults. And here's the main thing too. I've been through SA trauma when I was younger for a bit. And growing up I always hated those types of people and stuff, like I always told myself I'd protect kids etc. And even considered being a CPS too throughout my life. Like I don't know I've always wanted to help out those in need. But I remember reading something about how a "P" people were victims of that so that's why they are the way they are. And I know a lot of them don't do that. But it just makes me think since I went though it maybe I'll be one too. And be a hypocrite to everything I've told myself growing up. So sometimes I think I'm just messed up in the head now, I really think having the Harm ocd type was so much easier because I'd just avoid certain objects and stuff. But this is just different and I will say about a week ago I did feel digusted because I was like if this is what I am, like why? Like sometimes I just think maybe I want to and so on etc. The Harm ocd theme I had was completely different than this, like I was afraid to do anything or even use scissors to cut a tag off my shirt and intrusive thoughts would kick in. I even stopped seeing my Bf for awhile because i thought I was gonna hurt him and so on .So this one has been tricky and such. I'm just confused. And I know you're not supposed to reassure on here because of OCD, I just needed to vent. And I wanted to ask for suggestions on where to get help or how to go about this? I've been wanting to talk to my mom about this because she has been there for me when all this ocd stuff happened last year but I'm just afraid to. It's been a Rollercoaster for the past 2 Years since I've been dealing with medical issues that causes me to use mobility aids and stuff. So I've just been in a deep tunnel and I'd just like to talk to someone or get advice on where to get help for this. Or who to talk to. I've been afraid to post on here because this subject is tricky. But I just needed to express what's been going on in my mind. Obviously there's a lot more to it but this is what's been on my mind today. I'm sorry it's a long message, but thank you to anyone who responds.

I’ve been struggling for a few weeks in my relationship. I often get stuck in a loop of frustration when my boyfriend isn’t understanding why I’m irritated, but I’m too scared to tell him out of the fear he’ll break up with me, then I get mad at myself for not expressing what’s wrong. It’s become so hard that I sit in silence and cry. He isn’t doing anything different, I just keep obsessing. Any form of advice is more than appreciated.

Anyone else feel like they’d rather have any other type of ocd than the one they currently have bc I swear I can handle anything other than this bs (if it even is ocd)

I feel like now I’m just completely in denial and the next step is acceptance. I love my boyfriend will all of my heart and I really don’t want to leave him but now I’m scared I have to. I also just read something someone left on someone else’s post saying how exploring your sexuality is something you should not be ashamed of and should try. That just completely sent me over the edge. The thing is I want to like boys but I feel like at this point it’s not my choice I was just born to be a lesbian and I have to accept that even though it’s not what I want. I feel like this is something my relationship can never recover from and now I just have to break up with my boyfriend and move away to be with a woman. I don’t want to hurt him ever and that’s truly my biggest fear. Every time I feel happy with him there’s always the thought in the back of my head that I would be happy doing the same things with a girl and it truly ruins the moment. I can’t get this out of my head and I would really appreciate some advice. I just want to know I like boys too so I can stay with him forever but I know I am never going to find the reassurance I need so I feel like I’m never gonna get over this bc it’s just the truth. This is so painful I don’t know what to do at this point

Does anyone ever get confused of what’s an actual conviction versus the OCD instilling fear/ guilt? Sometimes it’s hard for me to discern the difference

Is NOCD super expensive? I told my dad I really need some help and he offered to help me find online therapy. I have looked at betterhelp a little bit nervous they can’t help me, has anyone used them? Any other recommendations. I have no diagnosis of anything and never been to a therapist so I don’t even know if this is actually OCD that I’m dealing with. I’m dealing with intrusive thoughts and images, ruminating a lot on the past and worried I was a really bad person in my teens without realizing. I don’t know where to go to find help, my father is paying so I don’t want his money to be wasted and I have no idea what to do.

Anyone else ocd impacts job? I’m a teacher and my ocd impacts my ability to talk to parents and trust coworkers

I have intrusive urges and thoughts come into my head how do stop them ? Or accept them ? 🙏

So I've been doing a lot of introspection in order to FastTrack my recovery for OCD. I am now finally able to share to you guys what I came up with, and I know this is gonna help a lot of people on this forum if you take this seriously. Its called the AUL principle. To remember this better, think of someone from the American south pronouncing the word "All" Here's how it works by letter: Awareness: become totally aware of your intrusive thoughts. DO NOT try to hide the intrusive thoughts through compulsions and reassurance. This is obviously the hardest step because the thoughts are so vile, heartless, destructive that we just want to turn away and run from them. But don't, confront the fears. Uncertainty: live with the fact that you don't know what is going to happen to you. For example, if you worry that someone is gonna hurt you if you go to the store, think "maybe I will get hurt" "maybe I won't" live with the fact that we don't know what is going to happen to use every second of our lives. Lack of caring: after completing the first two examples, your brain should simmer down and you can live on with your life without obsessing. This will take a lot of practice and mental fortitude, as well as a support group of people who know not to ressassure you, which will bring back the OCD. I myself didn't want to change my behaviors because everyone in my life treated me like absolute garbage or was being way to reassuring. It was not until I was court ordered a therapist who wasn't either of those things I wanted to improve myself This is a better way of thinking about ERP at least in my mind. Hope this helps someone

People keep telling me we wont die because of climate change. But my brain tell me that it's not true ? And I cant stop worrying. Im currently trying to combat that, trying to remember that just because my brain says it it's not true but it's so hard. Any advice?