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Can SOOCD start from a feeling of false attraction? Feeling like I’m the only one whose started this way making me think I’m in denial :( another tough day of rumination!

Hey guys I’m really scared of loosing touch with the reality.. I’m scared that everything around me is not real or objects that’s something else than what it really is.. can anyone relate?

how i get over not finding my girl attractive? ion like ts. it gives me way too much anxiety & it starts to make me feel distanced or cold towards her. honestly it makes me feel vv guilty idk . she dont deserve sb who dont find her beautiful 24/7 …genuinely whats this fix?

Does anyone else ever just get caught in bed all day to avoid everything? I know it’s avoidance, but I called out of work for really no reason besides I didn’t want to deal with my stress, anxiety and then my SO-OCD. Anyone else do this? How do you get out of this funk and back into life?

I've been taking 50 mg of fluvoxamine for almost 3 weeks. The doctor said I need at least 200 mg for OCD, so I will gradually increase the dose. This is not my first time on SSRIs. I was on citalopram for almost 2 years because of a depressive episode, it worked well but I remember it made me feel tired all the time. That's why I'm scared to take a higher dose of fluvoxamine. Has anyone ever taken fluvoxamine? Can you tell me your experience with it? I'd really appreciate it.

scared im a p for getting with/talking/dating someone two years younger than me. i did it when i was 16. they were 14. i turned 17 then they turned 15 like 20 days after. they were in my friend group at the time and we were friends and we ended up getting drunk. i talk to people older than me, my age, and younger, but my limit is two years. im scared that makes me a p.

Just don’t even want to get out of bed I’m trying to stay positive and be grateful for my life and realise how lucky I am to be here and alive but sometimes I just feel like I can’t get out of bed and get on with my day alone. It’s 12:38 and I need to get breakfast but I’m just feeling so guilty and scared of my own brain and feeling like I don’t even know who I am anymore Feel like I’m gonna relapse. Why is it so hard to fight these thoughts I don’t fucking want them!!!!! Leave me alone how am I meant to know what’s me and what’s my ocd Just feel so angry and fed up

I'm a bit confused on ERP. I understand not doing a compulsion in response to an instruive thought, but the planned, on purpose exposures confuse me. For example, I'm ordering a new phone and I had an instruive thought that said "When the phone arrives, you're going to take, soap, toothpaste, olive oil, etc. and put it on your phone before you put the screen protector on." A weird thought, I know. So now for exposure, I need to do what the intrusive thought says? I imagine I'll worry that I've smeared something on my phone before I put the screen protector on. I don't actually want to smear anything on my phone, I think that could damage it. But, for exposure, are you supposed to do this? It's confusing. What makes sense to me, and what I come back to is just letting the intrusive thought be a thought, and not doing a compulsion. That makes sense to me. It's the extra, planned exposure part that confuses me, and honestly gets me stuck in a worry cycle about ERP/CBT therapy itself.

I have a ocd wear I have to wash my hands before using the restroom. I was in a rush. Not to be tmi but I was praying and had a urine leak in my pants. My child also come up to hug me and my wife was calling for me so i ended my prayer. Hugged my child. Ran into the bathroom. Didnt wash my hands. Just washed my private area and kept it moving. But i worry i wiped myself without washing my hands after i hugged my kid

Can I get an opinion? Was in a friendship with a dude a while back and my OCD is latching onto whether the dude was good or abusive. I can’t tell. Like, if I were to see him again, should I be afraid or not because it’s just OCD telling me to be afraid? He called me crazy, said I was a psychopath, & gaslit me. But he also invited me to things, made funny jokes with me, & called me one of his best friends once. So confusing. SMH. He did more but this is a glimpse of the main things he did.

I try to tell my bf how he hurts my feelings and he responds in a cold way with a very emotionless apology and when I am still upset about it and the way he responded he says what I already apologized and I continue being upset about how insensitive he is being and isn’t being sensitive or comforting me and he sounds annoyed that I’m still not over it so I’m even more upset and then later on he accuses me of mistreating him bc at that point I am really worked up and raising my voice because I feel unheard. But it makes me think of how people describe deflecting or gaslighting and I’m so hurt and he says he wasn’t annoyed and that me thinking he has a tone of voice is racial bias. This is something that happens quite often when I share being hurt about something. And it makes me feel guilty for bringing up things that hurt my feelings or like guilty for bringing it up that I’m still upset after his bland apology. My biggest fear is being in an ab*sive relationship and I’m so scared that it’s true. Because I know it’s really messed up and I’m so upset

I don’t know about you, but the evening is my time to shine! During spikes, life can be a bit like the movie Groundhog’s Day. Mornings 😱 , afternoons are 😧 , and evenings are 🧘. We are stronger together!

I just reposted this on my TikTok but feel like I need to unrepost it (I do this with every post and it has to feel right and like it’s in the right place) but I started getting thoughts because I know my bf is going to see it like I don’t want him to think it’s about him and I’m getting scared it’s going to hurt his feelings Because obviously I would never shoot a man but it’s making me think does that mean I would and that I’m a bad person for reposting like I’m getting scared that I want to hurt him or something But it’s just a TikTok thing that’s going round about the “man or a bear” But now I feel like a bad person for having an opinion but I never commented on this trend before

How does one overcome POCD when it’s tied into/influenced by actual events in my life? I feel like there is almost a pattern for me :( My events involve researching/googling disturbing things I shouldn’t have out of morbid curiosity (and seeing truly horrible things/images on the internet as a result of this), having thoughts about girls in their late teens sometimes being attractive (it’s happened multiple times that I thought a girl was attractive then learned she was like 17 or something. It always disgusts me, but I feel the need to test to make sure they aren’t attractive to me upon me finding out their ages. This causes even more distress and discomfort). I have certain and uncertain memories about pleasuring myself to things that are morally unacceptable (one of those things being a scene from one of those films on the Disturbing Movie Iceberg that I watched and I’m unsure I may have m*********d to. It involved CSA and was one of the first catalysts for my POCD. I am only about 40-50% confident that this didn’t happen). I’m even going back and remembering a time where I was 12-13 and read fanfics about a 9-year old anime character being shipped with a full adult. However all but the last event happened between the ages of like 20-23 (I’m 24f now and the thing about worrying about finding girls in their late teens attractive is the only current “active” thing going on. Everything else is based on past events). Every time I read about POCD, it always seems like people’s distress revolves around “current” intrusive thoughts (e.g, “Did I find that child attractive?” or “Did I touch that child inappropriately?”). I rarely see things involving past actual events similar to mine, and it makes me think that this isn’t just POCD. I feel like there’s no other explanations for my actions, this feels like a pattern of behavior. I am so afraid that I am a p***. And I’m leaving for a movie soon. Not exactly sure how I’m supposed to pretend I’m ok and act present when the friends I’m going with would likely hate me if they knew all of this. Im so tired.

My friend has a friend who’s a psychiatrist/has studied about mental illnesses and different medications. My friend told me that she said “ocd is not manageable. It’s never manageable”. Which, of course, later at night, made me spiral. And is still bugging me. I’ve worked so hard these past 3 years getting better to a point where I’m happier and can do chores without anyone telling me to and do multiple types of work throughout the days… They recognized that I’m not a severe cause but being on medication would make me happier and I would have to use less brain power. I told them if my ocd ever gets severe I’ll use medication but even then that answer didn’t seem smart enough? Idk idk it’s making me angry and I don’t want to spiral

How can I cure ocd. Pls can you help me getting cured from it.

TW: Discussion of receiving a real physical health diagnosis after worrying about it for years It's been a while since I was on this app. I was diagnosed back in 2020 (since one of my main themes is contamination, you can imagine that that was just PERFECT timing, insert eyeroll here) and I did some ERP way back then to try to start working on managing my symptoms. ERP didn't really seem to work for me back then, but maybe that's because we were going through a pandemic at the time. I've done a lot of other therapy since then that has been effective at treating some underlying trauma and other issues I was dealing with in my life, in addition to helping me figure out that a deep fear of death underlies all of my obsessions (and compulsions). I've still been symptomatic in terms of struggling with contamination and health concern obsessions (and others) for the past few years. Everything got shaken up recently, though, when I got diagnosed with thyroid cancer. It's super treatable, I have a family history, and I/my doctors have known I have thyroid issues for about a year now, but regardless, the diagnosis absolutely shocked me to my core. It felt like everything I'd worried about with my health for my whole life came true in that moment. It felt like that one phonecall from my doctor validated all of my fears in that moment. I know that my treatment plan is proven effective, but I'm left with the constant "What Ifs". I'm sure that most people that get diagnosed with cancer, if not all, struggle with these what ifs, but they feel so much more intensified for me right now because I feel like the thing I was worrying about for my whole life actually came true. TLDR: Does anyone have any tips for managing fears, obsessions, and compulsions when the worst really does happen? How do we help the fear-processing, non-logical parts of the brain cope with the idea that the worry about the thing and the thing itself were not connected? How can I come to believe that I didn't worry this into existence? How do I manage the what ifs (what if after treatment it's not actually gone? What if it comes back or spread somewhere else?) without doing silly compulsions to "make up for it"? I know that was a lot, so any tiny tidbits of advice would be much appreciated, especially if you've gone through similar things yourself (e.g., had health obsessions and then actually developed a health issue). ♡

going through this again, always having. Groinal responses, either stemming from an intrusive thoughts or something I heard/seen, or I have a groinal for no reason then the thoughts come. I also have a urge to m-sturbate which is one of my compulsions:( I hate this

Hey! Anyone here with ADHD and OCD, i have a question. Does ADHD medication reduce OCD symptoms? I haven’t been prescribed with OCD meds but i have been prescribed with ADHD medication and was wondering if it helps with OCD.

Hi, are some of y’all undiagnosed too?