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Do any of you take this medication? If so, what dose?

I’ve noticed an overwhelming amount (in a good way!) of believers on this community and I had no idea I would come across so many faith filled sisters and brothers in Christ. I have followed some of you for hope and encouragement but if you come across my post and you’re a Christian I’d love to give each other a follow ❤️ maybe I can share encouragement everyday as well. Thank you guys for being brave and giving me the courage to express my faith. I’ve been really struggling with ERP as a Christian but I almost feel like all the times I’ve done mediation with the Lord that in an way that was an exposure because I was allowing the Lord to confront things with me. I think I’m struggling with not wanting scripture to be a “compulsion”. If we say things like “I may or may not” but then speak scripture over our lives. And I said like actually … no I am the head and not the tail. Hope this makes sense.

So I’ve been having these weird guilt issues and I feel like I’m lying to myself. I had this weird thing where I thought I had feelings for children even though this is 100% not what I want and it goes against my moral code. But I keep trying to make sure that I feel 100% sure that this is the truth. It is just more distressing and causing more issues. Can anyone help please or have some advice? Thank you:)

My fb videos is filled with clips of sitcoms, I keep watching this show called B99 even though I’ve watched it numerous times. There was this one clip about a character called Rosa coming out to her colleagues and friends, when Amy asked her what made her know that she was bi- she answered that when she was a kid, she watched this show and thought this guy and a girl were both hot. Now lately whenever I see some girl who’s attractive or even noticed their cleavages- my mind immediately thinks that they’re hot. It’s still a trigger for me and I find myself getting anxious. I know there are women who are attractive and even called “hot” platonically by other women but what Rosa said has stuck in my mind and it keeps making me think that I’m also bi. I feel like this a spike but it feels so real. I just got off a situationship with a guy who ghosted me and whom I genuinely loved. I’ve been going through some hurtful feelings, getting more piercings, cutting my hair. I don’t want people to think I’m into women when I do this kind of stuff. I’ve also been getting anxious about “signs” like I’ve had terrible relationships with men. Most of them end up breaking up with me and it’s making me think what if I wasn’t made to “be” with a guy. That sticks in my mind all the damn time it’s frustrating.

I saw a comment of someone and now my brain is thinking "now you need to m*sturbte yourself thinking in your sister" Im crying, this intrusive thoughts makes me want to cry, I don't want this thought, ah and it gets stuck in my head, HELP ah I'm in crisis, please The week was really good and now this nightmare thought is stuck on my head I'm terrified I don't want this thought, why stills on my brain? Ahhhhh is torture help I feel my day is contaminated my brain with this thought help

Hi, I been postponing (paralyzed) to get my zoloft for months. Yesterday a friend followed me to the pharmacy and I got it and I took 200 mg. This morning I wake up without the compulsive thoughts. The level of self destruction and self denial is like almost in every single thing that could be good for me. Everything that lifts me up and push me forward seems to be denied from the monster ocd is . Do anyone relate to this ? Also the effect from the medicine when I first started with zoloft was almost instant and then it got better and better.

Does anyone else struggle with executive disfunction with OCD? It seems like I have so many symptoms of ADHD or autism but there seems to be mixed information if these are all comorbidities. It could also be PMDD? I just want to know why I’m like this.

You guys are like my family so I just wanna share something positive!! I did my therapy, and visited a family member and their new place. I was gone for a total of 3 hours !!! (I’m agoraphobic and have panic disorder) And I did well!!! No panic attacks!! No OCD !! I’m panicking now that I’m home which is weird but I’m adjusting to it. It’s so weird that I’m able to do it but I’m so PROUD OF MYSELF!!! I used to be terrified to leave home and go anywhere without panicking

I’m so tired of apologizing for my disorder/disability. My sister is having a picnic and I don’t want to go because it is a trigger for me. I have been in a bad place since we lost our mom 4 months ago. I’m having major contamination triggers. I work full time, love alone and maintain my own house (which is a struggle) and take care of our dad on weekends. Yet everyone is mad because I’m not going to the picnic. I just can’t win! I know I should not be listening to the OCD, but it’s been a rough few months and I just can’t take on anything else right now. I feel like such a failure in whatever I do!

Finishing my thesis this weekend. Im actually for real scared Im not gonna pass, its so much work to do still :(

I have co-occurring Autism, GAD, bipolar, and ADHD along with my OCD and I always thought I had this great insight but there’s something that I never realized. I hate transitions. I don’t like being between phases. Between getting to a restaurant and being at a restaurant. Between sitting and placing your order. Between done eating and paying the check. There are other non-restaurant examples, but those come to mind because I’m heading to dinner. My NOCD therapist asked what I do in these situations. I explained that I have certain things that I do and that I have the people with me do. She asked why I thought people should follow what I said. I told her that the way I do things is right and logical and if they understood that, they’d want to do it my way. If it doesn’t matter either way for them, they should just do it my way because it matters to me. If they don’t care and they won’t do it my way that means they’re being difficult. She asked if I realized that I was forcing people to participate in my rituals and that, even though it seemed very logical to me, none of it was actually based in logic. It’s all just compulsion. That never occurred to me before…

I have been feeling hard these few days, because a best friend deos not contact me because his mother doesn’t want him to be around me.. she knows about my ocd because at the beginning of my crisis I told close people my thoughts. I feel very angry and disappointed.

Being trans is such a normal thing these days that I feel like I'm just in denial. There's no good reason not to transition other than that I "think" I like being a guy more than I would a girl. I feel like there are so many signs throughout my life, and that I'm just using a disorder as an excuse

I feel like often I care much more than the average person does about relationships with people I meet. Like for some reason there’s just an insane drive inside me to get REALLY close to everyone, even if I don’t really like them. Sometimes, if I don’t feel like I am getting close to somebody I start to panic (which I don’t understand). After having falling outs or just drifting apart I have a really hard time letting go, or if I think/speak negatively of a person I no longer talk to it feels like I’m betraying them even if I have no desire for that person to be in my life and fully believe what I am saying! I thought maybe it’s related to obsessing about morality but I really don’t know. I was just curious if others ever felt this way.

Hello, I am a hypochondriac and it’s taking over my life. Every little little I feel I think I’m dying. For example right now I have a swollen lymphe node. It’s going down, and I have to get an ultra sound I know it’s for precautionary but I over think and think the worst. I get light headed I think I have something wrong with me. My anxiety is taking over my body physically , any suggestions on how to over come this?

Hello everyone I'm having a bit of a rough go and was wondering If you guys have any tips on meditation. I've definitely dabbled but sometimes the the meditation body scans are a lot for me..I kind of like ones that have positive affirmations but I feel like they are hit and miss. Also a side note I find certain lofi music..the super chill kind help. Any kind of feedback and tips would be so appreciated 🫶

I started NOCD about 3 weeks ago. I was going good and hopeful for a while but the last 3 days. Loss of appetite. Overwhelming fear and anxiety. Different subtypes going crazy. Harm. Religious. I’m scared my dogs will get parvo from a rescue we briefly had. My friend is in the hospital and I can’t get myself to go see him. I have very few people I can be around to talk because the rest give me that feeling of dread and idk why. I’m spiraling in the thought of why are the meds working suddenly. I don’t want to feel this way forever. Im afraid to take naps. I worry I have something wrong health wise.

Do you isolate yourself because of these thoughts? I am scared to go outside having these thoughts.I am scared to even go to a shop to buy something

I KNOW I AM NOT ATTRACTED. I just met that person in the middle of my So - ocd flare up and it has messed me up badly, they caught my attention because they were VERY weird and acted weirdly too. I was talking to them and out of nowhere a thought popped: "What if you just met your soulmate?" that immediately made me feel sick and disgusted, because I didn't even want to be friends with them. It's been so hard since that happened and bow everything triggers an intrusive thought about that person, I genuinely don't want to do anything to that person, not even approach them ever again. I must say this has happened with more people, not just with this specific person, but I can assure this one has been the one that has affected me the most. I need help, what do I do? I feel so bad and disgusted, I love my boyfriend with my whole heart and I feel like I'm betraying him. I feel very, very guilty.

I feel like i deserve a head full of pain because I’ve been so toxic and I’ve done things I’ve never been held accountable for so it feels like my punishment that I deserve