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For people who are religious. How do u meditate on the Bible to counteract negative thoughts and feelings, because I feelike the negativity is winning and like the truth of the Bible is not sinking into my heart.
The thought of being with a woman used to make me uneasy and sad/depressed. But now I feel nothing when I think about them. Which now makes me feel anxious because I feel like it’s a sign that I want it. I feel like I’m in a never ending loop. Also my attraction to boys is gone and idk how to get it back :( I feel so lost Help and advice would be nice
I keep feeling like I would find these things attractive and I keep catching myself thinking about it and agreeing with it and being like “yeah I would, oooh” and I’m like what the hell just happened??? Why does that happen?? I was so sure I wouldn’t do that but now I’m afraid All I know is I never be aware that they’re a kid till it’s too late, but at the same time I feel like I am aware that it is
WHY is it so hard to explain ocd to someone without it? it’s like they see it as a joke/exaggeration and it’s just exhausting. people act like ocd is just organization or cleaning or whatever. while ocd can affect that it’s SO much more than that. idk
Hello, I wanted to reach out and see if anyone else is dealing with OCD pertaining to health? Every day I'm having a new diagnosis for myself and constantly monitoring different sensations in my body. I feel a compulsion to also constantly check my body for lumps, bumps, etc. The saddest part of all is that it's also something I encounter with my kids. I'm constantly in a state of flight or fight waiting for something to happen
TW:Self-Harm I really felt like I was doing better. I messed up tonight. The ROCD thoughts became so overwhelming. I couldn’t stand it , I was breaking down. I was having thoughts of SH myself just to make the thoughts stop. I gave in and the thoughts did stop. But I feel so empty. I feel like I failed. I relapsed after years of being clean from SH. I don’t want my girlfriend to know and I feel so much shame. I don’t even know why I’m posting this here.
I love and believe in Jesus. I always have believed in Jesus. I don’t know why my thoughts are saying that I don’t believe anymore. I think it might be because I feel like I’m so close to a breakthrough from OCD and spiritual warfare, but I have no idea. I feel like God is going to deliver me soon, so the devil has been attacking me more. I don’t know, but I seriously am so scared. If you’re a Christian, please give me advice.
I have a friend. For years I compulsively texted them whenever I was anxious about anything and I actively sought reassurance from them. Sometimes they responded; sometimes not…which I am sure reinforced it more than if it had been steady reassurance or ignoring! I recently pieced together that this is OCD and not anxiety. Looking at our past 30 years of friendship(!) … we were in and out of each others lives and lately, since I got into this terrible loop with him, it made my anxiety so much worse… better in the moment! But then everything after that felt more intensely awful until it was a constant texting back and forth …confessing, reassurance seeking…and a relentlessly building panic/anxiety. His life was a lot too right then and he took some time and space from everyone, including me. Since piecing this together, I’ve been working on it. It’s really hard with someone you’ve known this long. I hate that I’ve become someone he can’t go to. Today we went for lunch and he shared that there’s something going on with him that’s a Big Deal. And it is absolutely a Big Deal. He decided to share what it was and I said…you know, I’m worried about making things worse, I want to check in before we keep talking. He said in the past I did make things worse and that …yeah, he wanted to end the conversation and never talk about it again. I honored that… we then had a light conversation about something else while the inside of me just screamed. I want to text an apology. For today. For the past. I want to try to get reassurance from him, of course. I know not to! But I of course still want to. I want to go back in time and undo the cycle so that I didn’t hurt either of us in the past. I don’t want to be someone who is unreliable and I have been. I want to prove I’m changing and can be reliable. The road to becoming reliable is to stop. Do NOT bring it up, do NOT apologize (because he wants me to drop it—apologizing would open it back up) and to keep resisting the compulsion to text. If we establish trust again, I need to earn it. So…. I’ve been resisting. I so badly want to repair and don’t have a model for repairing without apologizing. I’m resisting. I’m not texting. I’m not apologizing. It’s been about two hours. ”Maybe I did screw up. That would suck! But I still need to get work done“ is competing with OCD trying to sneak in and say, ”but if you did fucked up then you need to do repair work!“ … this time the repair work has got to be giving him space to decide what he shares. And it might not be me again. And it might be. But not if I text right now. Today is a long, long day.
TRIGGER WARNING My friend basically said to me that someone who’s drunk could easily do something out of character and harm someone else?! That majorly triggered me as my ocd false memory involves me being drunk, so now I feel like it’s really possible. I’m not an angry drunk by any means but still. Ugh why do people have to say things to me. I feel so ashamed for getting drunk.
recently my intrusive thoughts haven’t been bothering me much, unless i’m busy doing nothing. i suffer from SO-OCD. whenever i think yes, these thoughts don’t bother me anymore, i’m doing great, i then work myself up like ‘well your thoughts are obviously true then otherwise they would make you upset and uncomfortable’. when i get the thoughts they do still make me feel this way but also not as strong. I do then panic and think i’m something i’m not, despite knowing the truth. also anyone know why they get worse when i’m bored or not doing anything? 😢
( pls don’t read this if you’re younger. ) —- — - . I was laying down and having gro!nal responses to nasty images but I didn’t react because I had them last year, but I had a feeling that was like “I wish I could do something to relieve it” and it also feels like I said it too? Omg, that sounds so disgusting, I feel like a bad person. I feel like I don’t deserve to keep going anymore.
I'm 32 and was diagnosed a few weeks ago. It's been really hard to accept how much of my life has been affected negatively by OCD and the paranoia and anxiety that comes from it. Just sad about it.
Hi, I'm Ali. Nice to meet you. I just randomly today started searching about OCD because I related to so many of these experiences on this app (which I don't want to mention) and I wonder if I really have an OCD. For example, yesterday my brother gave me his iPad since he hasn't used it in a while and there's a scratch on it, and I'm really scared if I did or he did it because wouldn't that show I'm careless with it, and he's had it for so long, so I don't know if he scratched it or I have, and the buttons are so clicky, and I don't know if they are meant to be like that. I really want to tell my dad, but I don't know if I'm just seeking attention because I've already told him about other experiences in the past and he has sorted them (I love my dad). But if I ask him that I have an OCD, I don't think he would believe me. Please guys, I need your advice. Thank you for reading this much. Have a good day.
Hi all, A week ago, my dismissive avoidant boyfriend of 4 years broke up with me after a stupid argument. We started dating in August 2020, adopted a dog in February 2023, and moved in together in May 2023. We were each other’s first *everything*. We are both fully integrated into each other’s lives through family, mutual friends, and years of commitment. Not to mention our dog whom we both love like a child. For the past couple of months, I have been dealing with relationship OCD that turned into self harm OCD and the support I needed from him ended up being too much. His reasoning for breaking up was “it’s not you, it’s me” and that he is not “emotionally mature” enough to cope with his own stress and be there for me while I process mine. He has a very physically demanding job (construction) where his dad is his boss. This dynamic creates a high pressure environment that he feels like he can’t escape. When he gets home from work each day, he wants to unwind and not have to think about anything serious (through golf, video games, gym). But with me in therapy and also going through a hard time, I asked him to be home with me more to comfort me and take my mind of my anxiety. This required a sacrifice of the typical things he turns to to de-stress. Keep in mind that I was also very mindful to give him space to do the things he wanted, he just couldn’t keep doing them all night after work. Throughout the past couple of months I have expressed time and time again that while, yes, I am going through something hard, that doesn’t diminish his pain or his problems. I’ve always asked him to open up to me and let his problems be my burden too. But because of his trauma repsonse to suppress negative emotions, he never takes me up on the offer. So now, 4 years of (what I thought) would be the rest of my life with him is gone. He has emotionally shut down and told me that there is no room for a break or to try couples therapy or to try anything other than breaking up. He keeps saying he needs to work on himself and figure out why he can’t give me what I deserve. He says he can’t commit to me now, doesn’t want me to wait either, and yet is still saying that there is a chance I am in his future. I have a hard time accepting that as an adequate explanation. If anyone reading this is anxiously attached and has been through a long term relationship break up with a dismissive avoidant, please offer some hope, closure, or advice to me. I am currently feeling numb and like nothing about my situation is in my control. If this is not about me and this is truly about him, then why is he not willing to do the work on himself together, as a team. How is throwing away 4 years of a loving, amazing relationship easier than confronting his core issues with commitment and emotional maturity? Please riddle me that!
I usually always watch my drink or leave it around a close friend, but about a week ago, I had to do something urgent & took my eyes off of my drink for a long time. Somebody who I’m not sure if they like me was around it & then as soon as I finished what I was doing they left off & when they came back they were looking in my direction. I started to toss it altogether, but I took a sip & thought it didn’t taste the same but it could just be OCD. It’s been a week but I still feel uneasy worried my drink was tampered with or that there was some type of undetected poison. Even when I’m doing good, I wonder back to it & it makes me anxious. How do I move past it?
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So today was great I went out and had a good time went to the mall and just chilled for a bit. Then went to see my friends and I decided to tell them what I go through on a daily basis with OCD and they excepted me with open arms. But I do feel that stuff might change but it was progress and I'm proud of myself I just couldn't keep it in anymore and I did it. I hope anyone going through any type of OCD is able to tell friends and family and hopes of more positive outlook. I'm proud each and every one of us who is going through this. Love yall
I’ve been vaping for about three years now. I’ve tried to quit multiple times but with the people around me, also do, and it makes it difficult to stop buying it and or hitting it. My OCD is based off obsessive thoughts on my health and worrying about natural bodily feelings. Twitches, random pains throughout my body, scare me and make me feel like I can’t control my thoughts. When I vape, i’ve heard about lungs collapsing and I worry about it. I want to stop, but can’t seem to. If I have a headache I worry about a brain tumor, when there are many reasons I could have one. When I mess up a sentence I worry about a stroke, and check my face to see if it’s even. I worry about cancer on a regular basis, a small pain or lymph node swollen, i convince myself it’s cancer. I go to the doctor often because of this. It’s scary, that there is a possibility it could happen. I hate this.
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