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is anyone else not able to realize that their thoughts are irrational?

I’m so tired of this anxiety right now, all my dad did was get mad at me today and for some reason my anxiety is through the roof, I honestly want to cry, I just want this to stop. It’s always constant anxiety and it never ends nor stops, it’s almost irritating, I just want it to leave me alone

I have this fear of being a psychopath or sociopath. All my life i was able to feel normal emotions like joy, sadness, guilt etc up until now where i suddenly gained this new fear of being a psychopath because i felt emotionally detached from my partner lately and i now feel like i emotionally shut down and like im on autopilot mode. Its like i cant feel anything right now, and to test myself i think of situations in my head that are bad (like someone getting hit by a car) to see if i feel any empathy and it scares me that i sometimes dont. I keep doing this over and over and i cant feel anything, im so scared of being evil or something. It triggers me when i see negative things on social media because im scared i don’t feel anything or not care about it at all. I never thought id be saying this but i WANT to feel sad or upset just so i know im not crazy.

Sometimes when I ruminate or try to disprove my themes (I know I shouldn’t do it but sometimes it’s to overwhelming and I can’t help it I’ve been getting better with it though) it feels like I’m arguing with another person, like there’s another person living in my head and they try to disprove everything I do, it’s usually a different voice from my own but when it’s really fucking with me it’s my own voice and it’s irritating, it just feels like another person lives in my head like there a bad influence and tell me to do all this shit and it’s horrible, I know it’s ocd but it just feels like another person in my head who’s constantly against me and everything I believe and when I argue I get literally no where it pulls shit out of its ass and says the most absurd shit and it makes me feel horrible, just wanted to know if anyone else’s ocd feels like it comes in the form of another person that’s living in your head?

Does anyone else have the strong urge to do some sort of drugs sometimes when there ocd gets really bad or over nothing in general, like I’ll just be sitting doing nothing and my brain goes “you need to do cocaine right now or else” and I get a urge and it’s so like odd to me??? I’ve never done drugs in my life and never plan to because my father was a addict and I’ve seen what they’ve done to people so it scares me when I get these thoughts and then I get the urge to reach out to someone who can give me drugs and I play this whole scenario in my mind where I contact someone and I meet up with them and pay them for the drugs and then I take them and die and it’s like??? Idk I’ve had weird intrusive thoughts involving drugs before but this is like different if that makes sense, I also can’t stop focusing on how my body feels when this happens like it’ll feel like I was a previous addict and that I’m going through withdrawal and need something or else and it’s just so weird to me. Anyone else go through this?

I’m scared so bad rn I feel like I might commit . There was a trans girl on TikTok and I thought she was attractive and I’m scared because she’s trans. Is that gay I don’t wanna be gay and now I’m freaking out. It was a guy transitioned into a girl and they don’t look like a guy at all.

I feel like i am fighting against God all the time and that He is against me. It’s painful because i love Jesus and want to serve Him. Can anyone relate? I don’t want to fight against God, i want His will to be done. I want to walk in the freedom that God has given us in Christ. I know there is nothing wrong with skateboarding or taking care of my body. These are the themes i tend to struggle with. I guess this is just scrupulosity but i still feel like i am rebelling against God and He doesn’t want me to enjoy these things. Life is more than this. It’s about serving God and others. Just struggling and want to overcome. To have a good relationship with God instead of feeling like this all the time.

I think I did something I shouldnt have... I reasearched comphet on tiktok and saw a video of a girl explaining how she realised that first she wasnt bi and then she was a lesbian. She was talking all about how when she was with men she was craving "male validation" and wasnt actually attracted to men and that she confused platonnic and romantic love. and that whe she really thought about she realised that she loved being loved and desired by men but that she didnt specifically like men or wasnt attracted to men. She just found them attractive and was not attracted. And that when she broke up with her bf and stop dating man she realised how much more she could feel and how thinking about men gave her the ic. And I real all the comments and everyone was like omg omg omg. Anyways im sooo triggered because I feel like I could relate on some level. Im not sure if I like my bf for who he is or that i love how he loves me. And at first I used to calm my OCD by saying noo noo I love how he loves me but if I imagine breaking up with him it feels like it will be my last time with a men... what is happenning!!!

For people who are religious. How do u meditate on the Bible to counteract negative thoughts and feelings, because I feelike the negativity is winning and like the truth of the Bible is not sinking into my heart.

The thought of being with a woman used to make me uneasy and sad/depressed. But now I feel nothing when I think about them. Which now makes me feel anxious because I feel like it’s a sign that I want it. I feel like I’m in a never ending loop. Also my attraction to boys is gone and idk how to get it back :( I feel so lost Help and advice would be nice

I keep feeling like I would find these things attractive and I keep catching myself thinking about it and agreeing with it and being like “yeah I would, oooh” and I’m like what the hell just happened??? Why does that happen?? I was so sure I wouldn’t do that but now I’m afraid All I know is I never be aware that they’re a kid till it’s too late, but at the same time I feel like I am aware that it is

WHY is it so hard to explain ocd to someone without it? it’s like they see it as a joke/exaggeration and it’s just exhausting. people act like ocd is just organization or cleaning or whatever. while ocd can affect that it’s SO much more than that. idk

Hello, I wanted to reach out and see if anyone else is dealing with OCD pertaining to health? Every day I'm having a new diagnosis for myself and constantly monitoring different sensations in my body. I feel a compulsion to also constantly check my body for lumps, bumps, etc. The saddest part of all is that it's also something I encounter with my kids. I'm constantly in a state of flight or fight waiting for something to happen

TW:Self-Harm I really felt like I was doing better. I messed up tonight. The ROCD thoughts became so overwhelming. I couldn’t stand it , I was breaking down. I was having thoughts of SH myself just to make the thoughts stop. I gave in and the thoughts did stop. But I feel so empty. I feel like I failed. I relapsed after years of being clean from SH. I don’t want my girlfriend to know and I feel so much shame. I don’t even know why I’m posting this here.

I love and believe in Jesus. I always have believed in Jesus. I don’t know why my thoughts are saying that I don’t believe anymore. I think it might be because I feel like I’m so close to a breakthrough from OCD and spiritual warfare, but I have no idea. I feel like God is going to deliver me soon, so the devil has been attacking me more. I don’t know, but I seriously am so scared. If you’re a Christian, please give me advice.

I have a friend. For years I compulsively texted them whenever I was anxious about anything and I actively sought reassurance from them. Sometimes they responded; sometimes not…which I am sure reinforced it more than if it had been steady reassurance or ignoring! I recently pieced together that this is OCD and not anxiety. Looking at our past 30 years of friendship(!) … we were in and out of each others lives and lately, since I got into this terrible loop with him, it made my anxiety so much worse… better in the moment! But then everything after that felt more intensely awful until it was a constant texting back and forth …confessing, reassurance seeking…and a relentlessly building panic/anxiety. His life was a lot too right then and he took some time and space from everyone, including me. Since piecing this together, I’ve been working on it. It’s really hard with someone you’ve known this long. I hate that I’ve become someone he can’t go to. Today we went for lunch and he shared that there’s something going on with him that’s a Big Deal. And it is absolutely a Big Deal. He decided to share what it was and I said…you know, I’m worried about making things worse, I want to check in before we keep talking. He said in the past I did make things worse and that …yeah, he wanted to end the conversation and never talk about it again. I honored that… we then had a light conversation about something else while the inside of me just screamed. I want to text an apology. For today. For the past. I want to try to get reassurance from him, of course. I know not to! But I of course still want to. I want to go back in time and undo the cycle so that I didn’t hurt either of us in the past. I don’t want to be someone who is unreliable and I have been. I want to prove I’m changing and can be reliable. The road to becoming reliable is to stop. Do NOT bring it up, do NOT apologize (because he wants me to drop it—apologizing would open it back up) and to keep resisting the compulsion to text. If we establish trust again, I need to earn it. So…. I’ve been resisting. I so badly want to repair and don’t have a model for repairing without apologizing. I’m resisting. I’m not texting. I’m not apologizing. It’s been about two hours. ”Maybe I did screw up. That would suck! But I still need to get work done“ is competing with OCD trying to sneak in and say, ”but if you did fucked up then you need to do repair work!“ … this time the repair work has got to be giving him space to decide what he shares. And it might not be me again. And it might be. But not if I text right now. Today is a long, long day.

TRIGGER WARNING My friend basically said to me that someone who’s drunk could easily do something out of character and harm someone else?! That majorly triggered me as my ocd false memory involves me being drunk, so now I feel like it’s really possible. I’m not an angry drunk by any means but still. Ugh why do people have to say things to me. I feel so ashamed for getting drunk.

recently my intrusive thoughts haven’t been bothering me much, unless i’m busy doing nothing. i suffer from SO-OCD. whenever i think yes, these thoughts don’t bother me anymore, i’m doing great, i then work myself up like ‘well your thoughts are obviously true then otherwise they would make you upset and uncomfortable’. when i get the thoughts they do still make me feel this way but also not as strong. I do then panic and think i’m something i’m not, despite knowing the truth. also anyone know why they get worse when i’m bored or not doing anything? 😢

I have a therapist appointment tomorrow and I’m worried they’re gonna think I’m a weirdo/monster for my OCD, I’m just really worried to be honest now

( pls don’t read this if you’re younger. ) —- — - . I was laying down and having gro!nal responses to nasty images but I didn’t react because I had them last year, but I had a feeling that was like “I wish I could do something to relieve it” and it also feels like I said it too? Omg, that sounds so disgusting, I feel like a bad person. I feel like I don’t deserve to keep going anymore.