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I am really getting sick of this psychosis obsession. I don’t even know what’s happening around me anymore because I am so focused on it. I was convinced somebody was in the fan last night (not convinced, I knew their wasn’t logically but... you catch my drift) and I can’t seem to find anyone who has had these specific thoughts, so therefore I must be experiencing psychosis. I also have been hearing stuff as I’m falling asleep. I just can’t move on from this one. I don’t know what to do anymore. I hate being alone.

Re: ROCD | It's so terrifying to me that you can invest yourself in a person and have no way of knowing what they really think or feel or their motives for things. They can leave one day over something you weren't even aware of and there's basically nothing you can do

i’m in a bit of an anxiety episode and can’t use the sos button because i haven’t set up my plan but the obsession i’m having isn’t even in my hierarchy and i can’t add more? idk? my anxiety around eating right and my health got triggered badly when a documentary was playing about animal products and all the negative health effects. i wasn’t prepared to hear this because i’m such a picky eater and don’t even know what i would do if i cut those out i have such a hard time feeling okay eating already because i’m so picky and so concerned about eating healthy.knowing this new stuff just sends me down another impossible seeming path of obsessing over the fact that i could be killing myself slowly whenever i eat bc i’m not eating good enough. :/

I wake up and think: i wanna kill myself. Then i fall back asleep for 10 min and wakeup and i feel like i can conquer the world and i wanna live my life and im okay! Then i gotta walk to the train starion i get a wave of sadness and anxiety and i think idk what inwant anymore. I get to school and just think: what the fuck than i go home and feel glad i got trougch another day living in this stupid world and i start doubting everything and i cant wait to binge eat, ditch my family and watch my favourite show where i will get anxious over because i wont enjoy it the way i used to and all of a sudden i dont have a crush on all the guys i used to crush on in the show and the i get sad because im forcing myself to like the show the same way as i used to but i just cant and i get anxious and fall back asleep in tears. I wake up and the same cycle starts over.

Please help menon my last post this shit makes me wanna fucking die

I’ve been fine with my OCD for years now after intensive out patient in middle school. I’m very aware of my ocd and anxiety but there’s this one thing that i’m realizing might be an obsession and I figured i’d ask if anybody else could weigh in or relate. My on and off boyfriend/bestfriend is the closest and most positive person in my life but there’s complications and i’m constantly worried about being interesting or coming up with a real conversation or making us do something because i’m obsessively worried that if we don’t know what to talk about or do we will become stuck and stagnant and meet some terrible end between us. i constantly pressure myself to lead us to excitement always and deep conversations and to just be perfect or something and i’ve broken down when we hang out because i’m so crushed under the pressure when neither of us know what to say or do. it feels like a tragedy bc it makes me think we won’t work or are secretly bad for eachothers lives idk i’m writing so much bc i’m anxious ahhhhhhh hahaha

Has anyone suffered from OCD for more than a year, perhaps some years? I'm just wondering how has it affected your sexual life (sex drive, ability to enjoy it, etc.). I know at the begininning of OCD is common to lose interest in sex. But I mean more in the long run, does sex life goes back to what it was or we just learn to live with it being a smaller part of our life than what it used to be?

Tonight my ocd and depression are bothering me pretty bad. I haven’t taken my fluvox in 2 days bc I wasn’t able to get it until now and I just took it with a prn. I feel depressed and bored and I feel like a terrible person.

Hello! I haven’t posted anything here in a while. I’ve had a really bad relapse lately with my ROCD in terms of I keep arguing with my SO, and thinking that the more we argue means that we are “on the road to breakup” so now every time I see him, I get sad and worried and I don’t have that “in love” feeling because I’m just so worried. I know that all of this is OCD and it’s normal to argue, consider breaking up even, and say things we don’t mean... but my brain won’t stop doing this over and over. I don’t know how to stop the cycle! Any help would be appreciated!

My ocd right now is: if I go to the police station and say I'm pedophile, my life will be destroy. Of course I'm not! But when I think of this I am so scared ... Could police put me in jail without evidence of guilt ? Do on you have any advice and help for this thought ?

I know with some people, their obsessions and compulsions change over time and don’t do their past rituals anymore. For me, I have done the same rituals I’ve done for 4 years but mine do change as well. It’s almost like I hang onto my old ones and add new ones so now I’m just stuck with a crazy number of rituals that keeps getting added to? can anyone else relate?

i keep seeing all this stuff on social media recently about lesbians and it’s freaking me out bc i feel like it’s a sign. right now i just saw one of a girl saying she kissed a girl for the first time and realized she loved it and now i’m freaked out bc she didn’t know she was gay or bi before she kissed a girl so what if that happens to me. ugh omg i hate this

My hocd kinda came back in the last few weeks but I've been going to therapy and I feel like I've got this. I'm going through some depression right now but I know it will be alright. I noticed that when my obsession disappeared I would constantly avoid that argument for fear to be triggered. Don't do that cause that still is ocd. Actually three new themes came kicking my butt afterwards. But cbt has been helpful so far so let's hope it will still be okay. If anyone needs to talk I'm here :)

Can someone turn gay ?

Constantly doubting if HOCD; wanted to talk to some fellow sufferers. what’s up everybody. I’ve been dealing with doubts and fear around my sexuality for at least 8 years. It came on in a rush when I was 20, when I had an admiring thought about a male class mate, and got an erection. I panicked and called my ma for reassurance immediately. The following 8 years have been filled with doubts. I never really wanted to date or have sex with another guy. But the last few years the intrusions into my headspace have been really bad. Especially the last few months. I decided to start seeing an OCD specialist. I’ve done all kinds of checking, testing, denying thoughts. I’ve slept with plenty of women, and still want that to be my true outcome at the end of this ordeal. However, I notice guys so much- their eyes, their muscles, sometimes how deep their voice is. Sometimes I am triggered by the word gay, related words, or even words that LOOK like the word gay when written down. I’m majorly avoidant and am just concerned that I’m in the closet and deep in denial. I have not felt that loving feeling for a woman ever since this whole thing started. I may feel attracted for awhile but then I start trying to quantify how attracted I am and it disappears. Said to my therapist the other day— I wish I could just get hit in the head with a rock and BE gay, because then I would know the answer for sure. Anyway, I’m doing ERP. I hope there are people on here that can relate to my story. God bless gay people; they have to deal with so much!

Hey everyone. I’ve been struggling with this psychosis obsession for a while now; I’m finding it hard to be alone which isn’t easy since I’ve moved country because I spend most of it alone while my wife is at work (and I don’t have many friends here) I keep thinking I’m hearing voices, I don’t know whether or not I actually am. Sometimes I’m sure it’s an intrusive thought, like I’ll get anxious and I’ll hear someone (my voice I’m sure) say like why are you anxious huh? And little stuff like that. When I’m distracted this doesn’t happen. Is there anyway to distinguish between a true voice or my own inner voice as an intrusive thought?

Why do we get supper triggered when we are a bit happy? Because I was super fine like 10 minutes ago but got triggered and now I’m down

Before my tocd I think I was in the middle of an identity crisis or something because every time I saw a girl I liked the look of I would be INTENT on being exactly like her. It could be anyone. Like I’ll be inspired by a sporty girl and immediately want to work out. If it was a badass girl I’d get a leather jacket. I’d copy their hairstyle and clothes and shit.

Looked in the mirror this morning and officially saw my ribs. Realizing how bad this is all getting and feel like there’s nothing I can do. Also my hand washing is getting worse. My hands burn and my knuckles are starting to bleed. Haven’t used the bathroom once today cause cleaning the toilet requires more energy than I have since I’m not eating ?... not eating cause I’m afraid food is contaminated. Perfectionism OCD hit me hard at work today when a coworker did something that wasn’t to my standard of perfect and I had an anxiety attack. Feel like I’m falling apart, I’m depressed, exhausted and hungry. OCD is killing me and I just want a break.

I saw this thing talking about watching vids of girls kissing when ur younger and I commented and said “I did that but I’m straight” and someone responded and said “no ur not” and now I’m super triggered ugh I don’t wanna be bi or lesbian. Someone pls help