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Anybody here on medication for their OCD? I know everyone’s experience is different, and different medications work differently for different people, but I’m just trying to get a pulse on what to expect. I’m seeing a psychiatrist soon and I’m hoping to get some meds going.

Is anyone else a severe germaphobe and worries constantly about what they might have touched/feels the constant need to wash their hands? Since the pandemic hit my ocd has gotten a lot worse and now all I think about is what dirty things I may have touched and if I’m contaminated. It occupies my whole day. Even when I know I haven’t touched anything, I can’t stop thinking that I have and that I need to wash or sanitize my hands again. It takes over my whole life and I’m wondering if anyone else can relate.

any HOCD women sufferers? has anyone read the lesbian master doc? if so can you tell me how it made you feel! i'm putting off reading it because i'm afraid my brain will trick me.

hey sorry im back for one question. I need help stopping the horrihle distressing urge to confess everything to my mom. i need help with stopping confessions

I feel like this is a ridiculous question, but Ive thought quite a bit about it so here goes. I have a hard time having hobbies or knowing what I want. Whenever there is time off I spend most of my time with OCD (sad). But I also spend quite a bit of time wondering about what Im gonna do, what I want to, what my dreams are. For the longest time I figured out what I wanted by reading about what others do and feeling like I should do the same. And mostly I do passive things because I never seem to figure out what I should do. Or what I "really want". Can this be an obsession about spending my time right? I had a hard time wording this the way I wanted to. But just putting it out there in case anyone relates and knows how to pin point it better. It is as is thinking about this eludes me.

I wondering if this is an OCD thing or just anxiety what I experienced yesterday: so I’ve gotten into the habit every night to watch my shows with my brother before bed, like we’ll grab a snack and head to his room to watch about 3 episodes and then we go our separate ways to sleep. I also go to bed very late out of bad habit. So last night I felt like I wanted to try going to bed early and spend some quality alone time so I told him if it’d be alright to skip our usual tv viewing and he said okay. So I went to do my own thing and sat down to play my video game for a bit. But during it I started to feel so guilty and bad for canceling our thing, like I couldn’t stop thinking about it and I kept thinking what if he felt bad and I ruined our night and just having this horrible guilt in my gut until finally I couldn’t take it anymore and went to his room saying I changed my mind and we could watch, to where he was like ...okay if you want to. I was just surprised how guilty I felt about it and felt like I failed myself by instead of sitting with that guilt to try and cancel the horrible feeling. Thoughts?

I started taking Prozac and it has helped me A LOT. A year ago I was a complete mess but I still have bad days. I can relate to a lot of your experiences but haven’t read anything quite like mine. Idk if it’s ocd or if I’m just crazy. I start thinking about how we don’t have a lot of control over our minds. Then start thinking about how I could develop schizophrenia. Then I start panicking whether I already do have schizophrenia and I just don’t know it. Then I start questioning whether anything that I’m thinking is real or normal. I don’t really know how to explain it. Like I’m able to function in life, I go to school, I work, I have a social life, so I know that if I actually had schizophrenia, I probably wouldn’t be able to have all this stuff going on in my life, but it’s like, how can I ever actually know? And then when I have a panic attack, it makes me feel so out of control and I experience almost like derealization and that makes me question if I have schizophrenia even more. Does this make sense?

OCD is making it hard for me to show affection. I have harm OCD and am disturbed by thoughts of hurting the ones closest to me. Recently it has been very hard for me to be affectionate with my significant other, or even contact my family or close friends back home. What’s even worse is I recently moved to a new area and now I really am having a hard time making friends. This thing blows.

Having Social Anxiety with OCD is so annoyingly hard. I have Real Event OCD themed around hurting my partner. So for example every time time I drink I obsess over the thought that I may have flirted or tried to hook up with another girl even though I would never do that, but since alcohol is involved I start freaking out because I ask myself “what if you got a too drunk and you just don’t remember?” and then my social anxiety comes in to double team my ass and says “hell yeah you did that and everyone saw you or she told all your friends about it and now everyone is gossiping and judging you.” Then OCD comes back with compulsions and says “yup you gotta confess before someone else tells her” or “you better fucking think about every second of that moment and make sure you didn’t do it” but since I can’t remember how I spent every single second I was there, my depression makes it’s grand entrance and makes me cry and stay in my bed without eating or drinking water for the rest of the day. I end up sleeping like 13 consecutive hours and then the cycle repeats the next day :) I love it here. It’s kind of impressive that my mind can do all this to me honestly.

I'm 15.I have sexual orientation and hocd.My life is going badly right now. I wonder what will happen in the future if my life goes on like this now.i am scared . Please tell me what to do.

So it's been 7 days since my last post and I'm back. I've been feeling mostly good, little more relaxed compared to before and it felt decent giving myself a break from the usual things my mind ruminates about or any compulsions I might have urges on. There were days where I felt completely okay with my mistake and other days where I kept saying myself for it. Days where I felt I was allowed to make mistakes in order to get better, but other days that make it seem like because I made these mistakes I'm an idiot or an awful person because no one else would possibly make the same mistake I made. Tonight was one of the more bad days. I know you need bad days to have good days to balance out of course, but I'm getting all confused again. It's hard to talk to people about this because they'll quickly realize that I'm repeating myself over my mistakes in the same way my mind thinks of the same think over and over and over and over again. Though I don't blame them. I guess that's the one thing I'm stuck on much like before: The quest for certainty. To be honest, it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't think about it so much because deep down I do feel that my mistakes were mistakes and they aren't things I want to go through again or see someone else go through. I don't wish that kind of thing on anyone at all. Every single time my mind goes back to the mistakes however, I can't help but feel I'm in the wrong and I don't deserve any grace for the things that happened, even though I didn't plan any of the mistakes. I just want to let go of these thoughts and accept that I messed up and made the mistakes I made and move on back to how I used to be before the pandemic.

Feeling especially triggered today. I feel like no matter what I want, I always automatically sexualize women. It feels like an automatic compulsion but I know that before this theme of OCD, I never used to do that (or at least recognize that I was doing it?) I know a back door spike is a sign you’re getting better, but I feel so defeated and can’t see myself being able to move on and pursue a relationship with a man (or even a woman if I’ve been in denial this whole time). I don’t want to end up alone but I feel that’s the direction I’m headed

Ok.. ok made the mistake of looking up soocd on twitter to see if anyone else I follow suffers from it and all I got were people saying it's fake and just homophobia... I am so anxious right now. I know it's not true because even lgbt experience soocd.. but god.. that triggered the hell out of me.

This isn’t ocd related but I would really like some help. Me and my girlfriend have been dating for about two and a half years and I have some problems. -She never texts back and says it’s cause of her ADHD (I do believe her) but this is a problem because I need to just talk to someone through the day -I am always the one who has to make plans -I always compliment her always call her a beautiful angel all that stuff but she rarely compliments me -I just don’t think I am getting the appreciation I deserve -I know she loves me but I feel like I love her a lot more Overall I love her and I want to marry her but I just don’t know what to do. It’s depressing to stay in a relationship where it feels so one sided. Idk if we should take a break or what but it’s just hard. If anyone has any advice about relationships at all please tell me.

Has anyone else had racism themed ocd

Someone please help me 😢 I’m having what I think is a false memory of me cheating on my boyfriend by kissing someone else On a night out a few days ago. This sprung out of no where and I kind of could’ve guessed it would happen as I have had a lot of false memories in the past month and I fear them. Now, this is something I would never do because my boyfriend is my entire world I can’t explain how much I love him. It is breaking my heart having these what if thoughts, and it’s breaking my heart to picture him heartbroken over this. I wish I could figure out how false memories happen. I wish this horrible mental disease never existed. I feel like I have completely ruined my life

Me yesterday: having intrusive thoughts and getting anxiety Me today: not freaking out about my thoughts for five minutes My brain: YOU DONT HAVE OCD ITS ALL REAL YOU HAVEN’T HAD AN INTRUSIVE THOUGHT IN DAYS Me twenty minutes ago: oh no, I haven’t had an intrusive thought in a while, maybe it is true :((( Me now: wtf 😂 It’s so weird how ocd works. I need to get some humor out of it 💀

I'm a Christian and I'm struggling with OCD today. Ugh. Its attacking my morals, my beliefs, my hobbies, everything.

hi friends, i was diagnosed with ocd within the past month, and it was completely unexpected despite me always having a lot of intrusive thoughts, obsessive thoughts, and some compulsions. my ocd doesn’t manifest in the stereotypical way we see on tv, with all of the physical compulsions, and i had no clue that ocd could exist without those types of compulsions, so it took a while for me to really start understanding myself. i know that exposure therapy is the best thing for ocd but i’m legitimately terrified about some of things i would need to do. like there’s some stuff that i don’t think will bother me too much and would be helpful, but some of my thoughts make me feel so anxious that the idea of sitting with those feelings makes me not want to even try. the fact that i also have adhd makes it even harder to be motivated to do something i know will feel awful. i’m in therapy currently and just started medication and i’m really excited to be working on this because even though i’m terrified, i feel like it’s the first real step i’ll be taking towards helping my brain. i’d love to hear some reassurance from people who are doing exposure therapy, or even just tips people have for dealing with obsessive thoughts. this is all really new to me and i’m already noticing a bit of a difference because i’m able to remind myself “this is ocd, this isn’t a realistic thought”, but i would really appreciate any other advice!!! i also keep having this thought that since i don’t have all of those compulsions and that my intrusive thoughts don’t (generally) cause me any long term distress that i can’t have ocd, but i know that’s not true. i’d love to hear from other people who have more pure obsessional ocd or people who’s ocd doesn’t follow the usual pattern. i’m really excited to have this app now and to start working on my ocd because i really feel like with the combination of my meds and my therapist and this app i’ll be able to feel better. thank you for reading!!!

I’m genuinely starting to wonder if I have ocd at all . It seems like I have such intense desire for the things I don’t want and no desire for men at all. Men don’t turn me on and I haven’t enjoyed being with them for a very long time. I’m genuinely starting to wonder if this whole time I’ve just been suppressing my genuine sexuality and pretending it’s ocd.