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Last night I was able to convince myself I was straight and felt somewhat relief for about 7 minutes as it was close to bedtime, now I can’t sleep by myself as I get anxious so I sleep with my mom. I went to bed and HAD another same sex dream, but this time it was someone I knew, it was a person I was going to (but didn’t, I got too weirded out and didn’t want to do it, and that memory still haunts me to this day, but anyway) experiment with. more like nightmare again we didn’t do ANYTHING (thank you jESUS.) But I woke up panicked again. That’s 2 nights in a row I’ve had these dreams and I’m exhausted and my body is so sore and I woke up feeling nauseous and I felt like I was gonna have diarrhea (sorry tmi) but I just don’t want to sleep incase I have ANOTHER dream. Why has my panic gone down? Why aren’t I getting panic attacks like I used to get? I know I don’t feel calm because I get anxious and I feel worse if I get one of those “am I gonna stay like this forever?” “Was I always like this?” Thoughts. They’ve gotten so bad I’ve been begging my mom to take me out of public schooling so I don’t have to see anybody. Like I posted a picture of my hair that I just got done and my female friends would comment “omg pretty” “love you queen” and I felt awkward and uncomfortable saying it back Incase that was proof that I’m (that word.) I’m afraid to watch movies Incase I see any females that are “attractive”, same thing for going out in public. My mom has called therapists but none have called her back. I have little desire to do the things I do and I can’t be alone but I don’t want to be with any other people besides my mom (I also have separation anxiety.) what is wrong with me? Why am I like this? What’s going on with me?

Really struggling with my contamination ocd lately. It’s so hard to sit in fear and discomfort without washing and preforming my compulsions. Is there any one else struggling with this, that has any advice? Thank you!!

Hello everyone! I am thinking about participating in a clinical trial that focuses on glutamate in the brain. It is conducted by Biohaven Pharma and has been promoted by nOCD. Is anyone on this site participating in a clinical trial?

Does anyone else here have Symmetry ocd? Mine is really bad today, it’s annoying me.

My HOCD is spiking a lot more today bc of certain triggers. However I wanna go on vacation with my boyfriend soon. Hopefully then my ocd will give me some peace as we’ll be with family and I’ll have him the whole time

Was anyone else ever misdiagnosed as having something instead of OCD? Because when I started obsessing five years ago, I had intrusive thoughts about death, which led the doctors to believe that I wanted to harm myself when in reality it was my OCD. So, I was diagnosed with depression, and got treatment for that rather than OCD. It wasn’t until earlier this year they realized I was suffering from OCD.

Anyone have experience with ketamine for OCD? They’re doing a study on it at Stanford and it’s supposedly very promising.

What do you think about telling your family you have or think you have OCD?

I was just wondering if anyone’s OCD had prevented them from sitting exams? I’m about to go into a huge exam block and I’m going through a really rough patch with my OCD. I don’t think I could honestly make it through exams at this point. Any advice? d a i s y

Y’all HOCD and honestly OCD as a whole is the worst. Some days I think I’m doing fine and then other days, my brain tries to convince me that I’m in denial of my sexuality. I’ve always been attracted to men; in fact one of my biggest dreams has always been to have a husband and kids. I don’t want to have a relationship with a woman, but even if I see a woman and think she is beautiful or that outfit makes her look so pretty, or her boobs look good in that dress, etc..etc..ocd likes to take me on this rollercoaster of doubts. I think women are structurally beautiful but I also think sunsets are beautiful! I’m truly not trying to look for reassurance here, but can anyone relate? My HOCD shows itself as intrusive feelings and even false attractions/ unwanted sensations. I hate these feelings and I truly don’t want to have a relationship with a woman. I would not be happy, but I can’t seem to escape the doubts. For those of you who struggle with HOCD, what is your story?

How do you all deal with the fear of paranoia or fear of going crazy? (Notice: I said fear of paranoia)

I really struggle to say no. I feel like I’m responsible for everyone’s happiness and safety and if I say no then they’ll be upset and might hurt themselves. I know how silly that sounds but I can’t help feeling this way. I’m exhausted and I need to put myself first- please help

Has anyone dealt with depression and OCD at the same time? Did it take getting the depression better before the OCD got better?

I need advice. Tomorrow I have my second therapy appointment. I don’t know how to introduce my OCD thoughts and compulsions to my therapist. I am afraid she will think i’m crazy or tell my parents.

my ocd is the worst when I get up in the morning. I journal before I go to work and when I’m off but some days the fear worries overtake me before I leave the house and then it takes me forever to leave the house because of the self checking compulsion that has to do with appearance. Does anyone have any strategies or suggestions?

Question: On a scale from 1 to 10, how much of an impact would you say OCD has had on your life? Question #2: OCD completely aside on this one, what is the thing you like most about yourself?

I’m having a really hard time doing any exposures whatsoever. Does anyone have any tips? I have been living with ROCD for 20+ years and only recently got diagnosed and seeing a therapist - so my rituals are pretty deeply ingrained. I see how bad it’s screwing up my life but I feel powerless to stop myself.

Does anyone know the root cause if there ocd (when it started )

Hey guys. I don’t know if any of you have already seen this study (it is from a little while ago) but I just wanted to share it for anyone who is struggling with exposure therapy because seeing this study is something that has helped me. Here’s the link: http://newsroom.ucla.edu/releases/behavioral-therapy-increases-connectivity-in-brains-of-people-with-ocd As it states in the article, “The changes appeared to compensate for, rather than correct, underlying brain dysfunction”. There is of course no cure for OCD currently, but seeing this study gave me so much hope because the fact that CBT can actually change the brain of someone with OCD is amazing in my opinion. The changes to your brain that can actually reduce your OCD symptoms are soooooo much more important than the temporary relief we get when we engage in our compulsions.

I think I have ocd. It started out in grade 11 with checking locks on doors and windows. At first I didn’t think anything of it, but quickly got out of hand. Sometimes it’ll take me two hours to get to bed because I have to repeatedly check things until it’s just right. I’m one of the most messy people, but sometimes I’ll see an object like a remote control out of place and I just have to go fix it, then come back and fix it again etc. I have to do that crucifix gesture on my body at least four times before I go to bed. I re-read things in my head until I “say” it just right. Constantly checking stuff in my room. I don’t know why this started, but a few months earlier I was dealing with a pretty traumatic family issue. My moms side of the family seems to be predisposed to some mental health issues.