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My health related OCD has been so bad. I I'm trying an online 12-week program focus just on health anxiety but stopping myself from compulsively checking my body has been so difficult. Physical sensations are common and I have an 11-month-old that is such an energetic joy but physically demanding. Even though I know there are rational reasons to a lot I'm so sick of being scared of my body and being afraid to do simple things like my daily showers looking in the mirror etc.... Pretty much almost every time I touch my body I'm scanning for illness. I don't know if there are certain types of therapy other than ERP or avenues for health-related OCD. If anyone has any advice it would surely be appreciated. I don't want my daughter growing up seeing me compulsively check all the time.

Hey there! Committing myself to getting the help I need. I’ve had a lot of break up urges (first thing in the morning to last thing at night) from the very beginning of my this new long distance relationship I’m in. From the beginning their feeling towards me have been a lot more full on than mine from them, but I feel subconsciously/under the blanket of constant worries and doubts that I can grow with them and have a good time. I’ve visited them in person, which went pretty well but thoughts were still there, and they will soon visit me, but this in-between time has lead to a lot of anxiety. If I “take a step back” I realize how I’ve gone from one 24/7 thought to another for several years now all related to my identity and how i interact with others. The person of question also has a history of symptoms similar to mine, so they have a lot of empathy, but there’s also the chances of it turning into a mess. Should I continue to step into the deep end? I’m also hoping to get a therapist specializing in erp but who has a more holistic view of things as well. A lot of resources on rocd have helped (they may seem a bit “hippy dippy” but they also have allowed me to reflect on issues with our culture and media and how they promote black and white thinking). The thought of being just friends with the person in question is persistent, but I also want to continue to develop something deeper and not live in anxiety, especially as they get me in a way no one else does and there’s something magical about that. Why can’t my brain allow me to just go with the flow? I have little glimpses here and there into “what could be.” Why not continue to give it a try for a reason other than anxiety?

I don't believe in God and I know it's all scientifically not true but a few days ago I prayed (even tho I don't believe in God and know not religious) and right after something very good happened so now I'm scared if the praying stuff actually worked like what the actual fuck that is crazy and I know that makes no sense because it's scientifically not possible but now I prayed again and now I'm scared that something good will happen again because that "proves" That it actually works

Help someone is this hocd or not. Sometime I feel as tho I'm being forced into this 😔

I could use some advice, maybe from multiple people. This isn't exactly OCD related but anxiety and mental health related and I didn't know where else to go for for advice. So basically recently my sister got into a relationship and she is 16 and old enough for one so its nothing to do with her and her bf, it more has to do with me. I'm 20 and in college and haven't dsteddated anyone yet. It hurts sometimes to think about and it seems my mom is always bringing up my sister's bf and telling people she has one, etc and it honestly makes me feel awful about myself. I am really afraid my mom or other family members think I am a freak for never having a bf. I really want to talk to my mom about and just tell her what's on my heart and how I feel like a weirdo for never having a relationship. But i didn't know if this would be a form of reassurance seeking or if it would make things worse bc I've been trying to just play it off like i don't care and stuff so i don't know if I'll regret talking to her or if it would just be weird. Any advice would be appreciated. Sorry for the long random post

Relationship OCD “but wait” that is WITH … everyone on the planet including myself 🤦🏻‍♀️!? Does anyone else feel this way? I cannot feel like I am connecting with anyone anymore. I don’t trust anyone as being authentic or truely listening to me or caring… i even feel like I dont trust my own feelings or judgments. I did not know what lonely was till now. I ruminate on every conversation even ones with my therapist. So I don’t know if im being authenic if im analysing my own conversations during them. Everything feels fake and I feel so alone and unloved and unable to love. I want to feel GOOD. Loved and like I am in love. In the moment. Young. I want to feel young while I am young. Ill be thirty in a couple years and ive wasted my youth on OCD. I want to know someone and be known before I get old 😔 but I dont know if ive ever been young. My life is gone. Runined.

Ok I need to rant. I’m a believer in Jesus. But I also have ocd and specifically ROCD so I’ve really been going through it for some time. My current thing is like - If I listen to sermons or read the Bible they just add to my obsessions and trigger anxiety so I’ve been just trying to focus on writing music cause it doesn’t give me anxiety and I think I am on earth partially to write music. Anyways now I feel like a sinner / not Christian or something because it’s like I don’t listen to sermons and I only read like a little of the Bible daily. So I wonder does anybody have a simeler experience and any advice? Thanks.

If youre reading please help. Ok so i have a friend i grew up with. We used to hang out more but now its kind of off and on. So thing is she came out and ever since I just felt weird. We used to have this other friend group and our other friend was a guy who was gay. Anyways when my one friend came out she was saying stuff like you choose who you love well me and my other friend were like no people dont choose to be gay they are born like that. Anyways fast forward to now and i just feel really off. Shes gotten all these tattos and dresses more butch. And it makes me uncomfortable. Idk. I never felt uncomfortable around my guy friend. But with her its really weird. We started hanging out again and my dad doesnt like it that shes gay and she also went through alot and my dad just thinks that it means shes a bad influence. I made the mistake of telling him shes gay and my dad was fine with her before that. I really have no idea if im just letting that get in the way (other peoples thoughts) or if i just dont feel comfortable with her anymore. I think i used to be ok but now she really only hangs out with gay guys most of the time. Idk it’s really weird whenever she brings up dating girls. We made plans to go hang out later this week and im just so confused. I really only have two friends rn and i feel like cutting each one out for different reasons. But then ill be left with no one. But then im like thats not a reason to not cut people off.... so im at a loss! Idk when it comes to friends I really dont know if im going about this the right way.

i have looked this up before to see if anyone else got this with Relgious OCD but never found anything. I get these terrible thoughts about something bad happening and then I make like a would you rather in my head I say would I rather this terrible thing happen not happen or go to heaven. and then I spend hours ruminating on what I would rather or I feel like I won't go to heaven.

can ROCD make you feel like you don’t love him? i do love him and even on good days there’s always has anxious feeling in me that brings on the what if’s and makes me feel like i don’t want to be with him. i have been diagnosed but i still question if i want to be with him. there was a time in my life where this was not even a question and i knew that he was the one i wanted to be with but my theme switched to ROCD a couple months ago and it feels like i’ll never be the same

is hocd worrying about your sexuality or not wanting to be gay??? because i have seen so many stuff and now i think this isn't hocd

im getting false attractions to dicks and it’s horrible, i’m a guy. i get this tension when i see one and it makes me feel like i want them. anyone else with some fixation like that? its horrible

I really need to speak to someone with HOCD. Right now.

Hey friends, I’m struggling. This is day 4 stuck on the same obsession and I’m not doing any compulsions and it’s not going away. I’m obsessing about what if I can never get this thought out of my head and it stays here the rest of my life and I always feel anxious, guilty, depressed, ashamed forever and never enjoy my life. Please leave suggestions for ERPs around this. Thank you 🙏🏻

I feel like I’ll never be able to fall genuinely for a guy and have a relationship with one. It seems like I’ll never gain my attraction back and I feel so hopeless 😞 I don’t wanna end up with a woman but it seems like deep down I do

I’m giving up with life

How are you doing today?

Does anyone else get triggered by a body part? It’s like I didn’t even know it existed or something before all of this. And now it just freaks me out all the time and I keep trying to check to see if I’m attracted or not.

Anyone have any advice on excessive hand washing and cleaning? I have to wash my hands a certain amount of times after using the bathroom, worst part is I constantly have to start over again through fear I skipped a number it was counting wrong (despite knowing I didn’t) - this lasts HOURS. My hands never feel clean until I’ve spent 90 minutes washing and starting over, it’s exhausting. Can anyone relate/ suggest anything to help? Thank you!