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I think I'm still in the derealization state! But I'm trying for it to not bother me I'm aware of how I feel and how it makes me see and anxiety makes me fall more deeper into the feeling but less anxiety still keeps me on it but still won't give up! Quick question of derealization is it supposed to always be severe or can you still have derealization and be calm? :D

Hi, so basically a kid texted me on snap he said yo and then i said yo back. Then he said you owe me 100 dollars. I’d seen this kid twice and each time was close to my neighborhood. Then, i responded saying so no I don’t. Then he said i’m going to fight you when i see you then. I hate drama and fighting because it gives me a lot of anxiety. I asked what can we do about this because I told him i’m focused on my religion and don’t like fighting. He then said I’m going to tell your religious people you smoke. I told him they wouldn’t care and I asked him what we can do about this. We came to the solution of me giving him 50 and me being dumb i gave it to him. Then i guess my OCD kicked in and kept making me ask are we good, are you going to fight me, etc for two days. Then i decided i wanted only my close friends on social media so i made a new account and deactivated the old one I got scared he might get mad at me over that so i added him on the old account again and told him i’m making a new account and that’s why i won’t be on here and said yet again are we okay? then he said if you give me another 50 wel be good then i realized he wouldn’t stop so I pretended to be my dad so people didn’t think i was a snitch and told him that i would call the police if he didn’t stop harassing “my son” and said i (as my dad)work with the police and my brother is a sherriff. Then i saw him that night because of a mutual friend but my mutual friend told him not to do anything and i explained to him i don’t like drama and all that then he replays saying “we good” then i saw him again yesterday he smiled with his friend as i walked by. This is giving me so much anxiety that i always have to watch my back now. I’m 16 by the way and he’s 18 i think

I wonder if I am crazy now or if I'm a psychopath :/ I was struggling with depersonalization/derealization then I saw someone's post on NOCD here and I'm like what I become like them and I all my anxiety disappeared and I feel as if my depersonalization/derealization isn't here anymore.. Why don't these thoughts give me anxiety like existential ocd! I hope I never do these thoughts. I hope I never hurt anyone or myself! It also feels as if I'm faking my emotions I cry then I'll take off my tears and try to fix my face :/ I can't tell if my dp/dr is Still here or gone

I’m thinking about going to an in patient OCD treatment facility. Thank I’m nervous but just can’t take this anymore.

are ocd and anxiety neurodivergent disorders??

Im on 4 hours of sleep and I don't like taking naps at all when i actually need to. I keep obsessing over being protective with my time and obsessively looking for jobs, careers, high paying job, whether or not to go back and finish college but what degree? Choosing a degree for money(computer science) or fulfillment. Also thinking of working a Full time job i keep obsessing, if i have time for side hustles if I work 8 to 5. It's getting stressful im glued on my phone and YOUTUBE compulsively trying to find which PATH do I need to take. Its also hard to see myself holding down a job long term and in my mind I don't like rude bosses or managers or confinement, I have been indecisive and not taking action on anything good at all these past 2 to 3 months. Its hard to be consisent and theres too many options and choices, its driving me crazy. I don't want years going by not saving a good amount of money and not hitting at least one things. I TRIED a commision based job for 3 years so far(I'm 23) its a tough career if i were to go back would have done so many things differently. I feel lost, defeated, weak, and also disappointed. I keep changing my damn mind too. Also i have this urge to prove some family members wrong, idk why I care so much about people's validation, acceptance from people why do I base my decisions towards that. Its like i really want to them im worth it, im valuable, etc. I like the admiration or feeling respected but why do I CARE about this? In my head i got a million of ideas and path It's hard to stick out a plan.

Me and my gf have split up but we have agreed to stay living together because we have to young children. Has anyone been through something similar and can it work?

Is this depersonalization? -I feel like I don't recognize myself when I look at myself in the mirror. -Sometimes my movements don't feel like mine. -Feels as if Im inside someones head just watching them. -When I'm in a store I feel so tired and weird as if everyone is fake and the lights either feel so bright or very low. -Sometimes I feel like I don't recognize my family and It scares me because yesterday in a store I was with my sisters and I didn't feel like I recognized them and I was worried I would forget and go with a stranger but I know If I saw them In a crowd of people I would know it's them feels like if I don't... Confused if I'm loosing my memory. -I don't really feel like I'm here. -I sometimes don't even recognize my own home as if it isn't my house but I'm always here.

Can crying and being upset trigger OCD, like certain feelings you dont like or thoughts?

Anyone else here have a bad thought you want to do something and when I mean want I mean like truly want to do it like NO DOUBT ABOUT IT? I mean REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO DO IT! but then it scares you cause you wanted to do it? Please tell me OCD can make you do that and I’m being serious like really really really really want to do it in the moment of the thought then get scared after the thought like “why?!”

Whenever i have really bad thoughts i punch myself in the jaw because it hits my brain and it helps lower it down for a few minutes but im scared of i keep doing this ill do long term damage to my jaw does anyone else have any other ways of getting rid of thoughts temporarily without self abuse?

I can't tell if my derealization got worst.. I feel different like things feel fake or is this how it feels to feel normal? Everything just looks and feels weird I'm scared I think Ima start having an anxiety attack.

sometimes i cant tell if what’s going on is an intrusive thought or my inner racist. it’s hard as a poc bc being anti racist is such an integral part of my being that i can’t tell if i’m just fighting a racist part of myself or an intrusive thought bc either way i didn’t like what i was thinking but i can see why my mind chose that yk?

I feel so pointless

Does anybody else have dreams they don’t remember when they wake up but still feel extremely anxious and guilty?

It seems like nothing is giving me relief anymore. I’m in full panic mode and I’m so scared these thoughts won’t stop and that they are true. Idk what to do. I keep thinking if I just be with a girl then all of my anxiety will stop. I don’t want to but why does it feel like I do? I’m so tired.

why and how am i able to sit now with no thoughts and no anxiety? is this possible with ocd or is it proof i don't have ocd???

TW psychopaths. i really need help i’m freaking out so much. i think i’m quite an empathetic person. and i think i might be a masochist (someone who likes getting hurt / feeling pain). i don’t really mind this because at the end of the day it’s me who would suffer not anyone else. but then i was googling and googling and fell into a trap about sadistic people. what if i hurt people so i can empathise with their pain and feel good? because i like feeling pain? i’m usually quite sensitive to pain so i’m worried it could make be sadistic if i felt someone’s else’s pain. because i would enjoy as i like feeling pain. there have been times where i’ve felt weirdly stimulated by terrible / evil situations (i hoped it was just adrenaline and anxiety). and i’m so scared i’m a psychopath. i feel sick to my stomach right now with anxiety. like what if i’m sadistic??? am what if i really am a psychopath??!!! please someone help me i’m so scared.

I feel so guilty I never asked for this. A certain intrusive thought that I’ve been having that won’t go away came up at the wrong time last night if you know what I’m talking about and now I feel like I’ve acted on the thoughts and I never would never want that. I feel so ashamed

How do I continue to make it with the range of intrusive thoughts that I’ve had for the last 15 months? Doesn’t seem that there frequency has lessened and I’m so tired of them.