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***IMPORTANT*** Hey, I have a very urgent question regarding my antidepressant, and I know it might just sound like any other OCD spike, or me just being a hypochondriac, but I really need to be made aware if what I'm doing is lowering the effectiveness of my medication, or even worse, causing it to become toxic. I store my antidepressants (which are in a tablet form) inside a small cardboard box, with a lid that doesn't exactly have an air tight seal, and I have found out, that after the 2 years I have just been absentmindedly taking them, there has been a crack in the box, meaning the pills have been exposed to air "constantly." I have heard that there are pills out there way more oxygen-sensitive than antidepressants, but I'm still worried, about whether or not they expire faster, or if the formula even changes. Keep in mind I have kept them away from heat and moisture. But ontop of all of this, I can't really swallow pills, at least not very well, so I've always just let it dissolve in my mouth and then swallowed it. During my research on the whole "longterm air exposure" situation, which I never found a straight answer about, I stumbled across a person saying that you should never crush your pills because they have a stomach acid resistant coating on the outside that allows it to only breakdown and get absorbed into the body at specific rate. Apparently if that exact rate of absorption doesn't occur then I may either feel no effect at all, or all of the effect will happen at once instead of spread over 24 hours. Please help, especially if you are a doctor or a pharmacist who knows a little about this, because I would hate to think that I have been doing something harmful to my body, even if unintentional, and if so, I'll will need to discontinue the way I do things immediately. Thanks!

my race ocd and POCD are really trying to fight for relevancy in my brain rn. this is going well. and both are about thoughts that i can’t remember. what a joy 😭

My husband and I had a huge fight because of my Rocd. I asked for reassurance and he yelled and said he is tired from the endless questions. He says he loves me but how can we be in a marriage when one of us is completely unhappy. We have a small baby and I feel so.confused. I believe he will never accept I have a mental illness and deep down believes that I somehow choose to be like that. I know that understanding is not easy but what can I do when I feel so bad and sick already. How do you cope when there's no understanding and compassion???

I think I'm still in the derealization state! But I'm trying for it to not bother me I'm aware of how I feel and how it makes me see and anxiety makes me fall more deeper into the feeling but less anxiety still keeps me on it but still won't give up! Quick question of derealization is it supposed to always be severe or can you still have derealization and be calm? :D

Hi, so basically a kid texted me on snap he said yo and then i said yo back. Then he said you owe me 100 dollars. I’d seen this kid twice and each time was close to my neighborhood. Then, i responded saying so no I don’t. Then he said i’m going to fight you when i see you then. I hate drama and fighting because it gives me a lot of anxiety. I asked what can we do about this because I told him i’m focused on my religion and don’t like fighting. He then said I’m going to tell your religious people you smoke. I told him they wouldn’t care and I asked him what we can do about this. We came to the solution of me giving him 50 and me being dumb i gave it to him. Then i guess my OCD kicked in and kept making me ask are we good, are you going to fight me, etc for two days. Then i decided i wanted only my close friends on social media so i made a new account and deactivated the old one I got scared he might get mad at me over that so i added him on the old account again and told him i’m making a new account and that’s why i won’t be on here and said yet again are we okay? then he said if you give me another 50 wel be good then i realized he wouldn’t stop so I pretended to be my dad so people didn’t think i was a snitch and told him that i would call the police if he didn’t stop harassing “my son” and said i (as my dad)work with the police and my brother is a sherriff. Then i saw him that night because of a mutual friend but my mutual friend told him not to do anything and i explained to him i don’t like drama and all that then he replays saying “we good” then i saw him again yesterday he smiled with his friend as i walked by. This is giving me so much anxiety that i always have to watch my back now. I’m 16 by the way and he’s 18 i think

I wonder if I am crazy now or if I'm a psychopath :/ I was struggling with depersonalization/derealization then I saw someone's post on NOCD here and I'm like what I become like them and I all my anxiety disappeared and I feel as if my depersonalization/derealization isn't here anymore.. Why don't these thoughts give me anxiety like existential ocd! I hope I never do these thoughts. I hope I never hurt anyone or myself! It also feels as if I'm faking my emotions I cry then I'll take off my tears and try to fix my face :/ I can't tell if my dp/dr is Still here or gone

I’m thinking about going to an in patient OCD treatment facility. Thank I’m nervous but just can’t take this anymore.

are ocd and anxiety neurodivergent disorders??

Im on 4 hours of sleep and I don't like taking naps at all when i actually need to. I keep obsessing over being protective with my time and obsessively looking for jobs, careers, high paying job, whether or not to go back and finish college but what degree? Choosing a degree for money(computer science) or fulfillment. Also thinking of working a Full time job i keep obsessing, if i have time for side hustles if I work 8 to 5. It's getting stressful im glued on my phone and YOUTUBE compulsively trying to find which PATH do I need to take. Its also hard to see myself holding down a job long term and in my mind I don't like rude bosses or managers or confinement, I have been indecisive and not taking action on anything good at all these past 2 to 3 months. Its hard to be consisent and theres too many options and choices, its driving me crazy. I don't want years going by not saving a good amount of money and not hitting at least one things. I TRIED a commision based job for 3 years so far(I'm 23) its a tough career if i were to go back would have done so many things differently. I feel lost, defeated, weak, and also disappointed. I keep changing my damn mind too. Also i have this urge to prove some family members wrong, idk why I care so much about people's validation, acceptance from people why do I base my decisions towards that. Its like i really want to them im worth it, im valuable, etc. I like the admiration or feeling respected but why do I CARE about this? In my head i got a million of ideas and path It's hard to stick out a plan.

Me and my gf have split up but we have agreed to stay living together because we have to young children. Has anyone been through something similar and can it work?

Is this depersonalization? -I feel like I don't recognize myself when I look at myself in the mirror. -Sometimes my movements don't feel like mine. -Feels as if Im inside someones head just watching them. -When I'm in a store I feel so tired and weird as if everyone is fake and the lights either feel so bright or very low. -Sometimes I feel like I don't recognize my family and It scares me because yesterday in a store I was with my sisters and I didn't feel like I recognized them and I was worried I would forget and go with a stranger but I know If I saw them In a crowd of people I would know it's them feels like if I don't... Confused if I'm loosing my memory. -I don't really feel like I'm here. -I sometimes don't even recognize my own home as if it isn't my house but I'm always here.

Can crying and being upset trigger OCD, like certain feelings you dont like or thoughts?

Anyone else here have a bad thought you want to do something and when I mean want I mean like truly want to do it like NO DOUBT ABOUT IT? I mean REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO DO IT! but then it scares you cause you wanted to do it? Please tell me OCD can make you do that and I’m being serious like really really really really want to do it in the moment of the thought then get scared after the thought like “why?!”

Whenever i have really bad thoughts i punch myself in the jaw because it hits my brain and it helps lower it down for a few minutes but im scared of i keep doing this ill do long term damage to my jaw does anyone else have any other ways of getting rid of thoughts temporarily without self abuse?

I can't tell if my derealization got worst.. I feel different like things feel fake or is this how it feels to feel normal? Everything just looks and feels weird I'm scared I think Ima start having an anxiety attack.

sometimes i cant tell if what’s going on is an intrusive thought or my inner racist. it’s hard as a poc bc being anti racist is such an integral part of my being that i can’t tell if i’m just fighting a racist part of myself or an intrusive thought bc either way i didn’t like what i was thinking but i can see why my mind chose that yk?

I feel so pointless

Does anybody else have dreams they don’t remember when they wake up but still feel extremely anxious and guilty?

It seems like nothing is giving me relief anymore. I’m in full panic mode and I’m so scared these thoughts won’t stop and that they are true. Idk what to do. I keep thinking if I just be with a girl then all of my anxiety will stop. I don’t want to but why does it feel like I do? I’m so tired.

why and how am i able to sit now with no thoughts and no anxiety? is this possible with ocd or is it proof i don't have ocd???