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Opinion needed So I’m noticing (I’m assuming my medication) with my medication that I feel like crap the first half of the day but near the end of the day I feel more motivated to get my life together and figure stuff out, I take my medication at 6:30 AM every day, do y’all think it would make the difference if I took it at night instead and maybe I’d feel better the first half of the day if I switched?

I am a mother, my daughter is suffering with OCD anxiety. Any advice on how I can help her? I find myself wanting to call and check on her a lot, but think I should not?

Hey guys I have been doing well with my ocd and anxiety thought and keeping them on a simmer but I am now realizing the stuff I have misses like I can't do or watch things normal teens do it's pretty annoying because all my friends want to watch things like pg 13 movies but I can only watch Disney Channel or kid movies because the stuff in pg 13 movies really trigger me and make thoughts come and like I said in doing sooooooooo much better with the occasional bad times obviously but it really bothers me and annoys me that I don't want to hang out with my friends or really be around them because then it's always let's watch this movie and I don't watch that stuff or horror movies because I also hate those for other reasons it's just hard idk what to do but I'll keep fighting my ocd don't worry lol

Which medicine would be best for my false memory ocd associated with harm? I’m on luvox right now but idk if I’m on the right one.

I am curious about the intersection of OCD and neurodivergence. From some sources, it sounds like OCD is officially considered a neurodivergent condition, and from others, it sounds like we're still not really clear whether or not it "counts". I'm curious about how often it happens that neurodiverse folks also have OCD. Or do you have OCD and consider yourself neurodivergent bc of it? Personally, I'm still waiting for my first NOCD appointment to formally confirm or rule out OCD as a diagnosis for myself, but I think it would make a lot of sense for me as a neurodivergent condition. I am fairly sure I have some form of neurodivergence but this is the form that seems to be the strongest fit for me.

I've recently started to identify less with being a Christian and now I can't stop thinking about what if I actually want to be a Muslim. Idk much about Islam, it's cool, but it literally feels like I'm going to convert and idk what to do. Ignore this? But questioning isn't a bad thing in itself I'm just freaking out

First time poster. If anybody can help, I'd really appreciate it. I'm terrified I did something very wrong over 30 years ago and hurt someone. I never thought about this until 2020 when I had an OCD episode which resulted in me checking my past to make sure there was nothing I had forgotten. At first different scenarios cam e to mind about which I obsessed over for many months to see if I had done any of these things. I finally managed to move on but then earlier this year, it was triggered again. More thinking followed and I suddenly got this new memory of doing something awful to someone. I say memory, it was more like a snap shot. Months later, I'm still really struggling. The thing that I keep telling myself is that I would have remembered before if this was true. Surely, it would have popped into my memory over the years and bothered me, especially as I have had other false memories (I hope) along the same theme over the years. It's just horrible. I am waiting for therapy but I still have a couple more months for it to start. If anybody can help, I'd really appreciate it.

I haven’t been on here for some while because I’m wanting to quit NOCD since I don’t think erp will be good for me even though it’s proven to work. I have spiritual ocd and I cannot sit with uncertainty because it goes against my beliefs and so much of the process of erp since it makes me do a lot of the things 80-90%, against my faith too and I’m not going to compromise it. I do want my ocd treated but too me, I’m more worried for my faith than my ocd health. This might be something hard for people to understand here. Though I’m doing pretty well with my meds however, I’m really concerned about erp from a faith based perspective. It feels difficult to get a doctor on here who has my beliefs so I’m planning find other places near me. I hope everyone has a blessed day and I will miss being on here with you!

I will delete this post soon Please don't judge me. :( So, Maybe, 2 days, ago, I sneezed on the floor and I saw my nose boogers fell on the ground. I was sick that day. I didn't wash the floor and I still didn't.. but my mom walks on the floor with her barefoot... I'm scared I did a huge mistake.. and I also, just now, I massaged my mom's barefoot and now I'm scared My hand is full of germs and viruses. I even touched Mt sister's earphone and I'm even more s are cause my sister is gonna use the earphone soon. I want to wash my hands right now but should I or should I not?

My son is 22 as of tomorrow. This OCD for him was caused by a strep infection at age 17. He is a Pandas/Pans kid and has Neuropsychiatric Autoimmune Mimickry. The autoimmune markers being highly elusive and the OCD was so bad two years ago it almost took his life losing so much weight so rapidly. The OCD became the biggest thing to battle. I have spent the last five years learning everything I possibly can to help him battling ignorance with the general public as well as medically. He is scheduled for his first ERP session on the 29th. My question here is what can I do and family members do to reinforce the ERP treatments? He has Pure O and severe harm OCD. There are others in the mix as well. In the past being told not to accomodate him. This is a regular battle and in some cases the damages are far greater than the control aspect of his OCD to make us stop, wait, repeat, go back, remain silent and frozen in place while he submits to compulsions. There is a definite dynamic to the other half of the condition where family and friends are concerned. We have our own suffering and PTSD from it. Something we also need training in. Please advise as to any information on this you may have. 🙏

Why do I get this strong feeling: that I’m gonna sabotage myself, my life, and my family by doing what I fear most and something bad is gonna happen and that I’m gonna cause it? Why? My fears are harm related and I also have false memory

So I am new here and am hoping for some feedback or responses here… I don’t know how to exactly do this but I guess I’ll just start with what’s bothering me most. I find myself losing a lot of personal relationships in my life. I’m 26 and have only 1 friend who doesn’t like to really “talk” to me. Or “listen” rather.. I tend to snap easy over little things. I snap on people closest to me and do it daily until people don’t want to have me in their lives anymore. I work as a baker at Tim hortons and I like things to be very very orderly. I work 6 days a week, I should like them orderly for being the only baker that works there that much. Or so I think. I put my wire trays, sheet pans, donut hole trays, etc in the same spot every day. I’ve even put labels on some spots haha. I like repetition and I have comfort in knowing everything is as I left it and in things being orderly. There are other workers after I leave. No bakers, but a supervisor who will occasionally bake if needed and every day I come in, it’s a reset for me to put everything back where it belongs. It drives me nuts. I’ll tell them to please put things where they belong, pull the same number of muffins each day, to throw the old donuts away at the end of the night, etc. it’s almost like they purposely ignore me. But everybody acts like my friend there. So it’s hard. I struggle because I know it’s my OCD and I should maybe just accept that things will never be how I want them. But then I struggle as well because I don’t know how to accept it. I snap. I get angry and I’ll tell a coworker they clearly aren’t trying and get to the point where the coworker doesn’t want to talk to me anymore. I need help. But I don’t know what to really do. Is it me?

Does anyone else get anxiety from driving? I would think that driving often will help it go away but does the fear of driving ever go away?

Anyone who has tried indica marijuana for managing anxiety? Does it help?

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I won against OCD My first post on this app was 740 days ago. I was just starting my freshman year at college. During that time I was meeting a lot of new people and forming new relationships but, I would be hindered by OCD. Many days I wouldn’t show up to class due to high levels of anxiety and constantly giving into compulsions. I ended up having really bad panic attack and had to go to the mental crisis center in my area to seek immediate help. I wouldn’t say I was suicidal but I was in a really dark place and would get those thoughts. After getting out of the mental crisis center I decided I needed to find a therapist who really knew OCD. Many of you in this community may know this but a lot of people don’t understand how hard it is for people like us to find good therapists because most therapists only have a firm grasp on mental illnesses like depression, anxiety and bipolar disorder. Nobody really understands what it’s like to have OCD. After I did find a good therapist it really did change my life, it took tremendous work and at the time I had to sacrifice some schooling in order to get my mental health in check and it did pay off wonderfully. I was so happy and felt in control of my own life for once. Then Covid happened and I relapsed so hard, I am sure many people can relate. My OCD was flaring up constantly and if dealing with that wasn’t enough all the personal stuff that was going on in my life because of this pandemic made it really stressful. I had a friend attempt to commit suicide, I had a girlfriend who cheated on me, a cousin that overdosed on drugs, a grandmother that has dementia and was forgetting who I am. I started drinking and smoking a lot more than usual to deal with all of this shit. But guess what? I pushed through it. What changed? I took ownership over my own life. What this pandemic taught me was that there’s a lot of shit in life you can’t control. I couldn’t control how long things were going to be shut down for and I can’t control my intrusive thoughts, but I still have control over my actions. I let all that shit go. I stopped waiting for someone else to tell me what to do and when to do it and just started making my own schedule. I quit my job, sobered up and left a lot of it in Gods hands honestly. I really didn’t have a plan but I just knew I needed to change and I couldn’t do that by staying in the same situation and seeing the same people. I was alone for quite sometime, all I did was read and workout but that isolation really grounded me. It gave me a deep understanding of who I wanted to be and where I wanted to go. Once I figured that out everything else fell into place. I moved towards my goals and my purpose in life and in the process my sanity came back. My therapist said to me I’ve made some of the most progress out of any patient she ever had and that was 6 months ago the last time I had an appointment with her, because I have officially graduated from therapy! I apologize for the long winded and personal story, maybe a lot of you didn’t even read the whole thing but for those of you that did just know if I could overcome all of these obstacles and overcome my OCD I know you can do it too! It may not be tomorrow, next month, or even next year but if you stay in treatment, surround yourself with the right people, and stop waiting for someone to give you direction and purpose and go live the life you want too live I guarantee you that you will succeed and get better. I’m not sure when’s the next time I’ll be posting on this app, So till then do as the great Tupac Shakur says and “Keep Ya Head Up”

It seems like whenever i get a little bit better I crash I have been in therapy, not here, it is not working for me. I have been getting thoughts that are intricate promises basically whike im praying trying to ask God to ignore these thoughts my mimd deploys a series of intricate "deals" like this "If you move your toe you will blaspheme if you write or draw ever again" then I start to wonder if I made that deal on purpose and while im doing that I have a thought that says "Also if you ask God to forgive you of that first deal, you will commit the unpardonable sin" and so on. And so I feel like I have to defuse a bomb, ever so carefully going back to the latest "deal" and asking God to release me from it and if I dont do it in the right order, because if the last is still true and I asked for forgiveness for the first deal then I am in trouble and I feel like God will never release me from any of it and I will be bound for all eternity.

I do think I’ll ever be able to be intimate again and I feel bad for my boyfriend. I feel like breaking up with him but I just can’t do it. But if I do it’ll be one less worry on my end. He know of my anxiety and depression. He said his biggest fear was being with someone who has a mental illness. I don’t satisfy his needs anymore. He said his brother asked him if it was worth it and my boyfriend said he doesn’t want to be alone. So I’m not sure what we are both doing. I feel like breaking up with him after all the holidays are over. Or maybe I won’t if I can do erp and be in a better mental head space. I just hate that this happened to me and I let it get so bad.

I’m really freaking out because I went in a pizza place to pick up an order and the cashier looked younger than 18 and I had an intrusive thought not really sure if it was intrusive I’m hoping it was, saying she was hot. I thought she was pretty hopefully that’s not weird I don’t mean it to be but I just feel so weird and guilty now…I’m really hoping it’s just ocd and not a real opinion

Hi there I feel very hopeless all the time and I wanted to know if there was anyone out there who feels the same . It all started when I had a dream about kissing a girl and from then on I obsessed thought and thought and thought and having no break from it and I can’t do it anymore it’s not fair I can’t just accept it because I have no feeling towards girls at all and I feel all my attraction is blocked . This has taken over my life every time I’m not home I panic and wanna go home and every time I’m home I panic and wanna leave I cry every day and panic the thoughts are so real but I don’t want any of it am I crazy am I denial I have nothing against gays or I have never been homophobic but I just cant accept that I am because all it is is thoughts nothing more I just feel like everyday the same and I just don’t wanna deal with this anymore I’m begging anyone to give advice or relate I just can’t accept these thoughts cause I know how I feel I always loved boys I never question till the dream and now I just feel nothing and I hate it I just wanna be happy with my bf and not deal with this anymore I feel alone and it’s a everyday event and I am drained