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I’m so scared to accept uncertainty because what if it’s maybe and not maybe not…I’m absolutely terrified

All throughout the beginning of 2020 OCD did not exist in my life. As soon as August came, I've been getting OCD thoughts and I remember how it all started 100%. I never used to worry about ANYTHING in the past whatsoever and now I find myself worrying about anything and everything possible. Does that mean my worries are all irrational? Especially with things in the past? Not trying to look for reassurance. I just want to understand how this works. How can ERP get rid of it? I just don't know how.

I recently had pregnancy anxiety which lead to what if I don’t actually want to have kids with my partner. I think I do or I really hope I do , but I think there’s a lot I want to work through by myself and as a couple first and also we’re just too young and have our own issues to work through before we have kids. So of course my mind questions if I actually want kids with him

Hello, anyone have experience with Prozac? I’m on 20 right now, was started on 10 initially, very uncomfortable and anxious. I know I’ll need to up it but also need to give it some time, only been on it a few weeks. Anyone find that it really helped them and at what dose seemed to be best. My ocd is intrusive/ distressing thoughts. Thank you

Does anyone known what subtype this is and what I can do about it? So as a kid (Very young) ONCE I kissed a relative to practice kissing now OCD is calling me incest even though I had no sense of that at that age. But other than that, ocd is saying that any future relationship I get in, if me and the girl I would be dating kiss it would mean nothing because I did that. Its targeting the "first kiss thing" and so its saying since any future girl I date wont be my first kiss then it means nothing. I doesn't help that at a young age my mother used to kiss me goodnight (I believeaalot of peoples mother have) for some odd reason OCD is also attacking that.

Hey everyone. I’m feeling really down today. I got off of my medication because I couldn’t really handle the side effects, but as expected my anxiety levels are back and I’m Pmsing on top of it. I feel defeated today, and for those of you who have gone through this theme I would really appreciate words of encouragement. I don’t often feel bad for myself but today im just upset that the reality is that I have to deal with a mental disorder for which there is no cure and causes deep emotional distress for dangers that may or may even happen. It’s hard to go to school and constantly be thinking about my orientation when I do have to pay attention to class or at the very least my friends who don’t know what I have to deal with everyday in my mind. Anyways i would really like to hear from someone

Hi guys, I’ve only just installed this app, so no idea how to use it really! But I thought I’d share. For context I believe I have cheating OCD. I’m currently ruminating about whether or not to go out tomorrow, with my boyfriend and his family, for lunch, because I find his dad handsome, and even though I was planning on going before I started to stress, I suddenly had the thought “am I just going because of his dad?” Which is something I’d never do but the OCD makes me doubt myself. I also have a phobia I would say that stems from my cheating OCD of being in close proximity to people, because even like a brush from someone will make me think I’ve cheated and I did it on purpose. So I’m terrified that, if his dad ends up close to me, I’ll tell myself I leaned into him or whatever and feel awful about it for months. I always tell my boyfriend when I think I’ve cheated and according to him I never have, but I still have doubts over even that. As I’m writing this hes at a nightclub that I would’ve gone to with him if I wasn’t so afraid. I don’t know what to do. Should I go?

Hey everyone, Back in 2020-2019ish I messaged these boys who I previously “did stuff with” . Before me and my bf dated . I think one of them messaged me about homework so I tried to help (he is also friends with my bf still). So I was just trying to be nice. And the other one I was friends with for years and I told him about my boyfriend and then he messaged me about dogs and about how he was sorry if he was mean etc etc. I don’t remember my responses but I’m paranoid I sent them something inappropriate and it was wrong . A lot of people think texting people from your past is bad in relationships and I’m obsessing over this too. But I think I was just trying to be nice at the time and didn’t think much of it . My boyfriend knows all this and he does not care .

Okay I’m literally so anxious right now. I was watching porn and Before I continue it’s something that I am for sure going to stop. I am a Christian and I have felt convicted by the Holy Spirit to stop viewing it so I am no longer viewing it. But the last time I viewed it I was scrolling through videos and you know how the videos have a thumbnail, well as I was scrolling I panicked because I think or thought I saw a child on one of the thumbnails. I panicked and scrolled passed it and just got off of it all together. I’m afraid this means I viewed CP. I would never want to do that. Is there anyone that has experienced something similar? I’m trying to sit with the uncertainty. Just feel like I’m a really bad person.

I need help! Does anybody ocd obsessed with thinking?! MY BRAIN WONT STOP. Thoughts won’t stop coming in. EVERY SECOND. HELP! It’s taking away from my life!

TW POCD Adults only Really depressed today. This is probably tmi but I’m on my period and I think it’s making things worse I don’t know. Still upset about an intrusive image I had the other day that felt like I was turned on by it it felt so real! I’m just really upset 😭

I’m terrified because I read that someone was able to hide their psychosis from others so what if my psychosis related intrusive thoughts I keep to myself are actually me going crazy??? I’m really scared rn

So like roughly 2 years ago early on to me and my bfs relationship . I told my girl friend at the the time that she should get with my boyfriends friend. I did this to be nice. So my other friends made a blanket fort and I was there and the girl was there and the guy . They got real friendly real quick . And I was on the farish right laying or sitting idk which . And my boyfriends other friend was laying all the way down drunk as a skunk and throwing up. So my bfs friend and that girl started making out. I don’t remember but she asked me to cuddle I think I did but I was complaining I was cold. And when they started kissing I got up and left . I’m convinced I cheated or did something wrong 2 years later .

What does acceptance mean/ feel like? Because to me it just scares me and makes me feel like I’m giving into my OCD thoughts.

Can OCD get to a toxic stage where you’re almost annoyed that your thoughts may not be true? A bit like Stockholm syndrome?

18+ content So I was watching adult content until a random thought of my friend came out (guy). I'm a hundred percent straight and I know these thoughts are nonsense but boy why did it happen? Ever since my friend came out my brain started telling me what if I'm gay? The last time i met him there was this awkward tension. I didn't know how to look at him and my mind was all over the place. Are you getting a groinal response? I accepted the thoughts and said yeah I'm totally gay and I started punching him as I always did. The thoughts went away but like I said before, an image of him came when I was watching adult content....

I wish my mom would just let me make mistakes in school so that I would actually be free from OCD. I am so obsessed with perfect grades and perfect attendances, and when I try to do exposures, make mistakes on purpose or try not to ruminate on a mistake that's already been done, my mom scolds me and says that she's dissappointed me me and that I need to be good enough and that one mistake will haunt me forever, and I believe her, even though I know that's not true. I don't care about perfect grades or perfect attendance, I just care about learning and having fun. But I'm convinced that something bad is gonna happen if I miss a class for fail one test, just because my mom says so. Even though I don't give a shit about grades and all, I just be perfect, ruminate, check, because if I don't mom will try to belittle me and say that I'm not good enough for her.

I was given one chance at this life and I threw it, i just cant see a normal future, dont even know what my normal is supposed to like now, slowly rotting away

Recovery from schizophrenia/psychosis OCD. I am able to live with this uncertainty after knowing these facts. If your parents or siblings have schizophrenia, the chances of you getting it is still less than 10%. And it also helped me after understanding the misunderstood stigma around it. About 20% of them recover even without medications as they age. And about 60% of them reach remission through medication and treatment. Even though it might be debilitating but recovery is very possible. People who have psychosis, 33% of them never have it again at all. The rest who do with treatment and therapy it is highly recoverable. When having a Psychosis episode, most last only till few days and in rare cases few weeks to few months. You can still lead a normal life thanks to current treatment and medications that were not available in last century hence that is when the stigma took root. Who knows what the future holds, we might even find a cure or even higher effective treatments. So don't worry about thinking you might lose your sanity or something. The fact that you can question if you're losing your sanity is more than enough to prove that you are not.

For the past few years, my past has been weighing on me heavy. I can't move on when I haven't addressed the past, and waiting for my past to address me is the most terrifying thing I could wait for. Whether or not everyone else moved on, and whether or not all the mistakes can be explained away, it still happened. The anxiety and paranoia I feel everyday at the thought that I've been such a mean and awful person is actually killing me. Not to mention the anxiety I feel towards thoughts I can't even control. At my big age, I don't think it's right for me to continue staying home without a job. Especially while my mother continues trying to scrape up everything for the family. But I can't let go. I can't. Sometimes I even feel like it's better for me to sit here and punish myself for the past, than to open a new chapter and try to be better. It's so hard to try and convince myself that death isn't a way out. I don't think I could do that to my family, especially my mom. I don't even think I could do that to myself. Trying to find a job compatible with my mental and physical healts is overwhelming. Staying around my family is overwhelming. I even asked my dad if I could stay with him but he wants me to go to school if I do, school is a huge trigger for me not to mention, it's hard. I need to remind myself that my life means something, but when I find something it morphs right front of me. It morphs into something that isn't a meaning. It just becomes a fact with no importance attached to it. I'm constantly hopping from one meaning to another. Even going to a hospital seems like it's not a choice. I'm trying so hard to get back to therapy but like everything, it always stop. Something flukes in the routine and I just stop. I don't know what to do, but I don't think I can afford to just sit here. Is there anyone out there who went through something like this and could lend some advice?