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Anyone else feel like they hit someone with their car this morning on their way to work and have to go back and check 8 times before they made it to work? Or is it just me? Asking for a friend 😐

Hi guys, dealing with SO-OCD for like two months now and of course is driving me crazy since I have a boyfriend that I love more than everything ( even if rn I’m feelling like it was a lie 🤡) but I have genuine question today, I already have this subtype during my teenage year (where I didn’t know I had OCD) and sometimes like a year ago but everytime it was only for few days then I forgot about it but know it’s 2 MONTHS and I don’t understand… Did you guys ever have like a subtype for a few days and then later it became your main subtype ?! Cause because of this I was convince it can’t be ocd :/ ? We got this guys btw stay strong ❤️‍🩹

I don’t do compulsions, I don’t have anything I avoid or anything that really triggers me, I’m just constantly worried that maybe I am a bad person and have random horrible thoughts, can be about anything really? Any advice on what can help?

Just a note to anyone struggling, there is hope and you are strong enough to get through this. You are strong enough to get better, you are important and you are loved. I know it’s hard when the thoughts are stuck on repeat, when you cant sleep, when your anxiety is high and yet your depression is too. I know how hard it is to keep pushing when you just want a freaking break. OCD is an asshole that tries to take over our lives, but we are so much stronger than it. Habits can be changed, lives can be made be better. I’ve seen it and felt it when I won and kicked OCD to the curb. I’m in the midst of it right now, but one thing I know for sure is that I wont quit. We matter and are so much more than our thoughts. Together we stand.

Hey y’all. I still cannot cope with this, but truly wanted to share. I’ve been struggling with believing I am having a Cryptic Pregnancy. I first found out about this subject and the hook effect from TikTok, and immediately became sick and stressed with the idea. I called every abortion clinic I could find and started taking urine tests which were negative. My boyfriend and I were broken up for about 6 months and we both slept with other people. I slept with other people on, 10/28 & 10/31, late at night. I have gotten my periods roughly on time but cannot remember what day I got my period in November. I am freaking out all the time because of the guilt and if I could possibly be pregnant with another man’s baby as we are now back together. I’ve had an ultrasound, a blood test, many urine tests, I’ve hurt myself trying to kill whatever might be in there, and I just can’t seem to grasp that I am not pregnant. I keep feeling movement in my stomach and instantly want to die. I constantly an asking am I pregnant or is it my intestines, or is my head just doing this to me? Things are so good between my boyfriend and I, and I’m scared that all might get taken away from my with a random baby I pop out in July or August. I can’t seem to trust anything or anyone and never feel soothed. I can’t let go of this. I’m so terrified. I’ve always been called a hypochondriac and have been told that I always want something to worry about, which is not true. I think I’m just struggling so badly. I manifest all the time to make sure that I am not pregnant or going to have a random baby in the summer, but nothing makes this obsession go away. I’ve also manifested my safety and others safety and if I don’t, they’ll suffer from the repercussions of me not doing so. I’m afraid of my family dying and my boyfriend dying, I’m afraid of the world ending, I’m so paranoid and obsessive. I guess what I’m asking is, do you all think I’m pregnant, or just being OCD?

I want to find mental peace

So, I’ve been with my man for 10.5 years. But the doubts have been around for awhile. 3 years in I obsessed over a psychic who said he wasn’t the one, even though I wanted him to be the one. She said “that’s the problem. He either is or isn’t, and deep down you know that, there is no want him to be. “ that was really hard to hear, cried a lot and called my bf who said it’s nonsense. 2 years later I started going to regular therapy as the thoughts created great anxiety and no sleep. That made it worse as it was 2 years of reassurance thinking. I’ve had it bad on and off. But had two children and things have been honestly great during both pregnancies. (Hormones maybe?! ) Now, 6 months post partum, I’m going crazy. My dreams have been consumed of “he’s not the one” “let him go, it’s not fair to him” during the day I’m finding signs in the music playing on the radio, or “let him go” videos on TikTok. And now, I’m obsessing about the future, how I he isn’t going to be in it. My thoughts consume me. I could be teaching a lesson in school (I’m a teacher) and talking to the kids, but my mind is taking its own route throwing my intrusive thoughts into my face. I get light headed and quesy from the thought of it. I feel like I’m fighting divine intervention and I’m losing greatly. I keep trying to tell myself, this is 10 years worth of compulsions. I enjoy my time with him and our family. I think of him as my best friend. I keep telling myself, love is a choice. But I feel like I’m losing. The dreams are the worst part too. I tell myself those are signs too. It doesn’t help he dreams about me cheating too. I just need help with exposures. My body tells me it’s not Rocd and not to waste money on a therapist. But the amount it consumes me I should talk to someone. Plenty of people stay in unhappy relationships all the time. If this was truly me unhappy, I don’t think I would obsess.

I keep seeing things on the side of my eye and when I look fast it’s nothing but a tree or a chair depending on where I’m at but my mind imagines it’s something worse like a person and when I look it’s not has anyone ever delt with this I have a huge fear of losing my mind I been very hyper aware of my vision lately and eye floaters I think about what if I see something all day constant state of panic please tell me I’m not hallucinating

Obsessions - You don’t like your daughter - You will never be happy again - It’s not ocd… you have lost the feeling of wanting to live.. - You know its real… stop acting like it is not.. - Get a thought/feeling like i can’t/wont fight anymore.. - You want to die, but just don’t wanna disappoint your family - Just feel so real in body and mind… But everytime it happens, i just want to know that its the ocd and not real

One of my biggest problems is ruminating over situations that stress me out. The closest I can compare it to is real event OCD. At work, if someone dislikes me or I think they dislike me it stresses me out a lot. Before I connected it to my OCD, I thought it was social anxiety, but my fear is that people disliking me could harm my job, my well being or even harm my family at some point if I get a bad enough reputation. If someone is rude to me I constantly go over the situation in my mind and think of future situations dealing with the person in order to figure out how to resolve it. For example, if they said something rude confronting them in hopes they’ll change their behavior. (I don’t actually do any confrontation at work, I just try to be as polite as possible.) It’s really stressful and what stresses me out more is dealing with further interactions as it will just further my rumination. I also worry that if I don’t figure out how to resolve someone disliking me that the situation will escalate and result in a horrible work environment or being fired. I don’t really socialize much at all anymore because it doesn’t feel worth the anxiety. I just ruminate about having a run in with someone who dislikes me or is rude and having to resolve it. At this point I don’t even have much contact with family as interacting at all just stresses me out. I’m trying to study but I can’t focus because I keep ruminating about work. Which is another stressor as I want to get out of my current field. This isn’t my only obsession but it’s what causes me the most distress because it affects my work and social life. I want to start ERP but I don’t know where to start. (I can’t do therapy on here as I’m not located in a country where it’s available.) I used to take fluvoxamine but I haven’t been to the doctor in a while. If you have similar obsessions or advice let me know. I’ve read Michael Greenbergs stuff on stopping rumination, but it’s hard not to justify as I’m obsession about something happening in real life. Thank you for reading if you managed to get through this screed.

Right now I'm dealing with Pocd, and my main obsession is like age checking ? Whenever I see someone somewhat attractive I always have a thought saying "what if they were underage and you found them attractive " do I just dismiss the thought? Because it really does bother me but at the same time I'd like to know. Or one time some girl appeared on social media to look older and I found her attractive but once I saw her age I freaked out & felt so uneasy and uncomfy.

I get exhausted dealing with gross thoughts. I don’t want them, they can interrupt me in prayer or at inconvenient times. I know they’re nonsense and try to block them out with an image. I find myself saying a quick prayer for forgiveness. If I don’t do it I will get restless. I often obsess if a coworker approves of me or not. I used to triple check things A LOT. Also asking reassuring questions has become less frequent, but I have to fight it in my mind. I feel as if my brain has Tourette’s. Often my biggest relief is just becoming aggressively careless “screw it!” Lol

My wife and I have been married for 5 years. We have 2 beautiful kids. She has autism and adhd but we are thinking she might have OCD as well. She has a history of abuse and is seeing a neurodivergent affirming therapist who has been doing parts therapy with her. I have ROCD. But thankfully through NOCD, I have been doing ERP and it’s really helped my ROCD. One of my fears that I’ve been working on is my wife being in love with her ex and leaving me. Well… guess what came up in her parts therapy… she learned some more abuse that had happened in her childhood and she realized she is still in love with her ex. To the point that she believed he and her were communicating through Spotify without sending each other music. Like she believes that he is adding specific songs to his playlists and thinking she will listen to it. She says it doesn’t make sense which she says is her autism. There are other delusions she’s believing too. She also was thinking of suicide so she is currently at an inpatient hospital. But we are wondering if that’s OCD. Like maybe that’s her ROCD and it’s to the point of her believing delusions. Or is that a trauma response? I’ve heard of trauma bonding relationships and I know they did bond over there trauma when they were together. I’m wondering if that’s coming up now since she is working on her trauma. As you can imagine, this is super hard for me. I love her so much. It’s so hard to be helping support her and her be unsure of being married to me. Any advice you have, please send it my way.

Hi guys Does anyone get intrusive thought like “you’re going to get intrusive thought every time you see this” and then it happens but not all the time.

Hi guys, Has anyones rOCD been caused/gotten worse because of how complicated in the past your relationship has been with your current partner? Sometimes I feel so lonely and isolated because I think it’s only me that’s had a rough start to my relationship with my current partner - rOCD and RA stories online usually talk about how it’s usually people with stable relationships from the beginning that experience this type of anxiety and obsession

Has anyone ever received ketamine infusions to help with ocd?

Hello all. Is it really worth it seeing a therapist here? I have struggled a lot with health anxiety and OCD and I feel like there is nothing will stop this and I will live all my life this way.

I’ve been struggling with health/allergy OCD lately. I’d love to hear some stories from everyone to help me cope and move through this.

Hi my ocd is constant worrying I feel like I have to worry about something in my mind until It’s clear in my mind. For example if I have worry’s in my mind before I go on a plane If I don’t think the thoughts through so that it’s clear in my mind I feel that it will make the plane crash. Hope this makes sense what I’m asking is what erp can I do to stop this

Hello! I’ve been with this guy for about a year and a half. He has OCD. I very recently found out that I do too. My compulsions are largely hidden, so he never suspected and has no idea how my OCD manifests. I’m still figuring that out for myself as well Is anyone else on here with a relationship like this? I’m open to any and all helpful advice or resources to help us navigate this together.