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anyone know of any tattoos people have gotten to commemorate overcoming ocd? i love tattoos and had the idea to get one in the future today but most of the ideas i see on line are pretty corny lol

So if you find you can’t do something on desktop, try it on mobile. This app works way better on a phone.

I read an article that was super triggering to my theme. I’m trying to use it as an exposure and just sit with the anxiety and say maybe, maybe not. I’m hoping I don’t hold on to this later ... that’s when my rumination kicks in :/

Today my morning thoughts took over and felt horrible. I woke up feeling angry and guilty for being like that. My Rocd has made me hopeless some days I can see no future. I fight and fight against it and feel even more sad and angry. Mornings seem to be so bad, I need time to ease my mind and cannot do anything until I eat or drink some coffee. Any advice for morning hits by Ocd?? This seems to ruin my entire day many times. Thank you all and wish you the best!

January was, without a doubt, the worst month of my whole life. My OCD was absolutely out of control. I was also seeing a psychoanalyst, which I believe was making everything even much worse. I've had almost all themes. Now I'm here, 7 months later, and I feel better than ever. I don't want this to sound like some fake inspiration story, but it really is true and I felt that I needed to share it with you, guys. I still get scared I will relapse, you know, from time to time, but I feel like I have the tools to deal with it now. I've been seeing an OCD specialist in my home country and have been taking antidepressants for months. It's not easy, for some it may even take years, but it's important to keep on trying, to keep on looking for options, to do everything in our hands. I've had this for more than 20 years and I finally found the solution now. It could have been earlier, or later, I don't really care anymore. What I care about is now, and I honestly still can't believe I made it out of it alive and feeling like this.

Does anyone else get anxiety that comes out of nowhere? Like, no specific trigger brought it on and there's no real intrusive thoughts that come with it, but you still feel all those physical symptoms? How do you deal with it?

If you think about a intrusive thought on purpose is that rumination?

Has anyone had their prescription dosages increased? I was on 50 milligrams of Zoloft but they upped it to 100 mg and today i take my first 100 mg even though yesterday I took 50. Is there anything I should be worried about? Like higher side effects?

i cannot remember if i actually commented something on tiktok and it’s really bothering me and my worry isn’t if people find me bc the account is gone but i just feel like i did but i don’t remember if i was GOING to comment but never did or if i actually commented and it’s not particularly awful but it was apart of a kinda shit trend of saying ‘cut india’s wifi’ at any tiktok and i cannot remember if i commented that or not and i used to think i did but i cant remember it properly and i’m just panicking and idk how to do erp for it

These thoughts are just too weird. Do you often feel like the content of your thoughts makes you doubt your diagnosis? I’m having a tough time.

Hi everyone! I’m actually brand new to this app, and I am currently struggling with (what I think) is ROCD. Although I have had other themes as well in the past. I have not been formally diagnosed, but it hit severity last year when I went back to work after being in lock down for a long time. I was doing pretty well with this relapse of the obsession (this is with a new partner.) I believe it’s due to a move we just made for the summer! Anyways I’ve been feeling pretty distressed and that utterly real feeling. I feel like I may be over sharing but I felt it is probably beneficial to use this app and gain a community so :)

hey , i'm having some pretty anxious thoughts about flying on a plane, my flight is in 45 minutes and i'm so anxious about hyjacking and stuff. what could i do to calm down?

What would be examples of ERP exercises for pocd

What’s the best advice you’ve ever received related to OCD?

I can’t even sleep now because I’m having distressing dreams that make me feel like a monster.

What is the best way to deal with unwanted intrusive thoughts?

Does anyone else feel okay for like a week and then feel absolutely terrible for like 2 weeks?

Does anyone get ocd of going bald? It’s a trip because I know I have ocd and that it’s an ocd thought but I am having serious trouble to stop checking my hairline in photos or my dad and grandfathers hairlines. My hair has been the same for years now pretty thick and curly but I’m letting it eat me up. Gotta stay strong lol

I'm kinda struggling in believing in God. I hardly went to chruch and I hardly understood it but I do believe someone very powerful created everything I don't believe things were built on their own. Like the start of everything I pretty sure there's a type of Powerful God who made it all happen. But it feels as if I'm lying to myself or forcing myself to believe well I've always believed that but I just think I'm forcing myself so nothing bad will happen to me cause If I stop believing then something bad will happen to me.

Doing bad rn. I think it’s cause I’m exhausted but I’m not sure. Just really not doing well :(

A friend of mine was explaining something to me about some guy and he was explaining his children and I asked how many he had don’t know why I asked but now I feel weird and my mind is telling me I asked because I was interested and that’s not the case it was just a question but because I have pocd I feel weird that I asked how many children he had! Ugh

I get so anxious right before I have therapy 😭

Could this be rocd? In April of 2020 I had my first run in with rocd because I obsessed over it I was in love with my boyfriend, then it switched to does he love me, then retroactive jealousy and even real event ocd. In December I got really bad sexual orientation ocd , with the core fear behind it being that I’d have to leave my partner and that our love wasn’t real. Finally after months it’s calmed down but I’ve slowly noticed myself obsessing over our relationship again since June/July. We’ve been long distance for 10 months since he joined the military which naturally brings its own doubts and fears but I believe my ocd really amplifies that. I also worry that the “spark” isn’t there and that I’ll only feel one with women even though I really don’t want to be with a woman at all. I follow this with compulsions such as checking my feelings, listening to songs I know make me think of him, reviewing past memories, reading old messages, etc. I also obsess over whether or not I’m truly attracted to him and whether or not I’ll still feel the same when he visits again next month. It’s really been getting in the way of my relationship and making me feel less enthusiastic. I don’t want these doubts and fears, the only thing I want is to be sure of the love for my partner again. The only thing that makes me think this isn’t ocd is that there’s no anxiety, well sometimes the thoughts make me cry and they cause me distress but after months of anxiety with sexual orientation ocd they just run wild in my mind. Could it be ocd even without the anxiety ?

Guys I have a very serious problem. The last days I have a very strong headache, nausea and pins and needles in my feet and I feel I have no power. I'm so scared. I suffer from health anxiety a lot of years now, but I am so so terrified now. In 3 days we re going on vacation and I can't handle this situation. I also don't want to tell my parents what I feel, because they will not believe me and think that it's on my mind, as I have health anxiety. I'm so scared it's something serious

hi, someone here suffers from hypocondria/ health anxiety??? I literally very tired of this, i want to be happy, I know i am, but i want to enjoy more, and stop worrying about everything that triggers this. Could someone who suffers from this tell me how you handle it? Or your experience with it? It doesn't matter if you go well o badly with that,i just want at least one comment that makes me feel less alone, because i can no longer handle this, it is very tiring. thank u ♡

you ever get those days where it feels real? i’m having one of those days but even though i’m feeling a bit stressed, i’m laughing it off

I always have to rub my screen at the top middle and bottom or left right and middle bc it feels weird if I don’t this isn’t a confession btw I’m just making a statement lol

How do I deal with intrusive thoughts that jinx somthing? I want to stop believing in jinxing but every time I try and fight it it seems to prove it even more.

so i was watching the new "what if..." episode called "what if captain Carter were the first avenger". she's basically the female British version of captain America. i have a HUGE crush on captain America (Chris Evans) so there's a scene where she hands the tesseract and turns away telling Howard Stark that she trusts he knows what to do with it. the point is, at that moment i said "HOT!" and i don't know whether i said it to peggy or howard. i am trying to go back, i have watched the scene again and can't make up whether i ssaid it to her or him. i think i said it to her and it's making me uneasy :(

Pretty much all my themes are attacking me rn... I have gone down a rabbit hole tbh I go back to classes in 19 days from now and 15 days till a welcoming event for back to school. I have no idea what to do but it's been two days now that I've felt like this, I am just so lost and trying to exposures myself is doing jack sh*t for me- Any advice...? I have a little over 2 weeks left to tackle the majority of the problems before classes.

so my dad most likely won’t get me therapy until I get a diagnosis because he thinks I don’t have OCD. I want to go to the doctors appointment today and ask for help with a diagnosis without my dad being there. so what can I do?

i feel weird for looking my boyfriends sisters instagram account which had a post of his little brother. like i was looking at it for a while like he’s adorable and he looked like my boyfriend when he was the same age, so i saw resemblance and thought it was cute. i still find it weird that i was looking at it for a while ughhh

I have a crush on this cricketer. I mean my OCD won't let me have a hardcore crush on him but I find him very attractive. I imagine him around me while I go to sleep and it makes me feel good. Thoughts don't pop up that time. Is it becoming a compulsion? I think it has become a compulsion. Should I stop?

Has anyone tried Ali Greymond’s OCD help app where you track your rumination time? I listen to her podcast (OCD Help) which is awesome so I’m thinking of giving it a try.

feeling nothing again this is so tiring

What is the core fear of hocd and rocd?

Do any of you ruminate about the past. About past thoughts to see if you enjoyed the thoughts, I mean years back, I’ve had these horrible thoughts for so long I just don’t know what to think, also checking sexual thoughts to see if I like them, it’s torture,

I did a "people search" on an online friend and now I feel like a freaky stalker and idk what to do

Anyone else struggle with feeling as though they have done or said something “bad?” Any tips on sitting with the guilt?

Hey guys im new to this, OCD is slowly taking over me

TW I could use some guidance and help with this. Yesterday my therapist and I were discussing my core fear. He mentioned acceptance as my core fear. This made me spiral because I have read so many stories of LGBTQ having a hard time accepting themself before coming out. Let’s just say my brain took this and ran. I am trying to see how my other themes (harm, false memory, hit and run, POCD) fit in with this. Any and all support, help and kindness would be appreciated.

so in my dream & even in real life i feel like the government is in my mind monitoring me to see if I’m a p so in my dream I know that someone was listening to me in my head then my mind was just like say mhm to a child which was my nephew even though I know I would never say mhm to any child my mind just told me to because I knew someone was in my mind & to just fool w them because I know they were in my head & now I can’t get this out my mind that they don’t understand why I said mhm to a child & that they are going to continue to shut my brain down or make my life more miserable I can’t really explain it or explain why I said mhm but it’s making me go crazy!!!

could my being distracted 80% of the time be the reason why my ocd and anxiety have gone down?? like even when i am distracted i stillget thoughts and urges to do compulsions but i tend to panic less or to be able to shake them off (rare but still happens)

even though me and my boyfriend broke up for reasons unrelated to ocd I still get rocd. I get these thoughts 'what if I never loved him and then I think welll I want to love him I hope I do but then I'm like I don't want to ugh so confusing.

I think I have to come out to my boyfriend. I cannot do this anymore :-(

How long does this take to recover?

I had a whole nice night with my husband after my first OCD therapy session. No intrusive thoughts about lil ripe people, just love. My therapist is GOD SENT. Thank you so much Lord, I need to fight for my life back.

This TOCD is coming back again. And I did a few compulsions unknowingly. Tf is wrong with me 😭

Is questioning my relationship a form of compulsion???

I hate that I can’t watch my comfort movies anymore. I used to love the parent trap, stand by me and home alone and they were my ultimate comfort movies but not anymore :/

Hi I’m having really bad relationship OCD. Ever since my bf cheated, we moved past it. but i’ve had this constant thought that “what if i’m not loyal” and constantly go into the past picking out pieces to see if i was ever loyal to him. can someone help me? i have never cheated but then i get nervous on what the actual definition of cheating is. i’m just really scared and nervous. i was this thought process to stop. anyone?

It feels as if thoughts wanna come like my mind feel ready to burst with thoughts... I'm not really letting them come...

how to get over compulsion of not telling my partner everything? i think of things i’ve done badly regarding him and i feel the need to tell him, even when it’s something insignificant like whether or not i’ve said a certain thing about him back when we were just friends (which was literally a year ago) it drives me crazy because i know damn well it’s a compulsion, that he literally won’t care or get upset, yet my brain thinks of it as “oh yeah, this is pretty bad! no matter how much time has passed, you have to tell him!!” it also drives me crazy because this thought process is pretty picky. i’ll be 100% okay with not sharing certain things, but when it comes to other things, the anxiety ramps up and all of a sudden i feel like i’m keeping secrets and being a bad girlfriend for doing certain things i’m not even sure happened. (real event ocd? i don’t even know man.)

For any of those who like podcasts, I’ve learned a great deal from this one: The OCD and Anxiety Podcast by Robert James Coaching. While this isn’t a replacement for therapy, it is super helpful and has helped me develop a lot of tools for when my OCD flares up. Accepting thoughts, living by your values, and trying to stay present are the most important takeaways in my opinion. Also, while it may not feel like it, you always have a choice to do or not to do your compulsion. You have more control than you think. And again, it is difficult and at times it feels like there is no choice. But just knowing there is a choice is often very liberating once you realize there is one !

Fellow bisexuals with SOOCD, I empathize with you. You are not alone <3

“Anything that’s human is mentionable, and anything that is mentionable can be more manageable. When we can talk about our feelings, they become less overwhelming, less upsetting, and less scary. The people we trust with that important talk can help us know that we are not alone.” - Fred Roger's Hope you all stay positive ❤❤❤

Hey y’all! I’ve decided I want to try to start recovering on my own, so I want to stop some of my compulsions. But tbh I can’t really tell which are compulsions or not so I’m gonna list some things and can someone tell me if it’s a compulsion or not so I can stop doing it. - blinking my eyes hard when I have an intrusive thought - immediately thinking of a specific image to replace intrusive image (eg a random actor, or anything tbh) - going to the bathroom or shifting positions to try to get rid of groinal responses - going on this app whenever I feel stressed Are any of these compulsions and should I stop doing them?

Rant/Vent?: Should I tell my partner that I am having thoughts of breaking up and anxiety talking to him? I am scared that it will feed into my compulsive thoughts. I can't do this anymore. I keep having feelings of not caring for him anymore and feeling okay with breaking up with him. But what we had before was so special. I was in love with him but then one day my brain told me I wasn't and that I find him ugly and that he deserves better. He wants to FaceTime me now and I am scared to do it.

What is everyone’s favorite comfort movie or show? I need good things to watch after a hard day or ERP.

Can HOCD make you actaully sexually attracted to the same sex?

Does anyone else have the same single intrusive thought for days? And it’s constant

Going through a bit of a hiccup in my recovery, thoughts (although I’ve had the same ones before) keep popping up about how the girls I’ve envied for their looks were just my crushes or me being attracted to them and I’m not realizing it. Although it’s uncomfortable, I keep trying to respond with maybe and not go looking for reassurance. I have to give credit to myself though, I have not been falling into deep rumination or trying to figure it out or think through it which is my biggest compulsion.

Can being distressingly obsessed with a thing or a person be a part of OCD? It's stresses me out to the point I can't focus.

I need someone to talk to quick. I prayed lying in bed yesterday , sort of like Forgivessness . I felt like I wasn’t taking it seriously and I’m scared that I have to pray again. I really don’t like praying.

Does anyone else feel like they HAVE to put on makeup or perfect their outfit and stuff to go out, even just to the gym or for family to see you? It causes me problems with me being late and causing others issues when I’m late. I know realistically nobody cares what I look like but I can’t stop and it makes me feel like a narcissist (my ocd theme) :/ I’ve been like this since I was little ugh

So I opened up about my OCD to some people. Now they’re telling me I actually did/want to do it because I’m obsessing over it. Now this triggered me so much. I don’t want to open up about my OCD again. 😕

I had a fight with my gf and a thought popped into my head "you wouldn't care if u ended things right here right now"😩😩😩😩

... sometimes you just have to forget everything that's bad in your life, make popcorn and watch Point break (1991)☀️🏄🏻🌊🤷‍♀️

what are some things you’ve learned from therapy for OCD? like ways to handle it? 🤍

every time i think about an obsession, i feel so anxious :/

I’m confused on something… so me and my ex broke up three weeks ago and she wants me in her life and I wanna get back but I wanted to talk about something else, I have dreams about her all the time and she affect everything my sleep, hunger everything. And idk if it’s ROCD or I lost feelings or if it’s just I’m maturing but in the past I used all think about her and stuff and lately my thoughts have been saying you don’t like her anymore and stuff like that since whenever she unadds me I don’t get worried anymore too maybe she’s predictable cuz she always adds me back. And whenever I don’t talk to her a lot my thoughts say ur not putting in enough effort cuz u don’t like her. Even tho a few days ago I thought about her nonstop and I still smile at our pics and vids and I ask to see her a lot. She’s pretty predictable so idk maybe it’s ROCD or I’m maturing but still like her or I lost feelings someone help pls:(

i feel like when i'm not thinking about it it's more real. i feel like i am really bi in denial and i still am not panicking

Ok, now by brain is like trying to come up with the thoughts before I have the thoughts? Like it goes, "if I had to be gay, I would choose someone like her" but I wouldn't and I don't want to be, but cos I managed the anxiety I'm scared cos it can feel real, when it's not real, it never will be. My brain is just so worried about it that it's sort of forcing the thoughts before they happen. Is this considered "normal" for ocd?

I don’t know how to explain it but i have a heavy feeling in my chest with all the intrusive thoughts that I’m expecting is just frustrating. I’m doing therapy but still that heavy feeling won’t go . Do you have it ?

Any good book recommendations for OCD?

Hope everyone has a good day! Let’s battle these OCD thoughts with optimism!

Does anyone experience their OCD trying to sabotage any happy experience? It’s like when I have a good time or experience a happy moment my OCD reviews the experience trying to find something bad about it. For example it reviews everything trying to find something that I could have done or said wrong or a possible negative outcome that could come from the experience. I hate it because it feels like it doesn’t want me to experience joy! I am happy and then at night I wake up super anxious about what if’s. It’s almost like my my OCD wants me to stay trapped in this little routine where it knows everything said or done is “safe” and anything outside of it is an possible threat. Idk if I’m making sense but it makes me so mad…

Looking for some good SOOCD planned exposure exercise ideas. Feel free to share your "favorites"... just ones that have been beneficial to your treatment. Need to try some new ones because the old ones arent having much effect on anything anymore.

is anyone else's obsession like a constant problem they have to fix or think about? like i would be sitting and then be "reminded" that i have this "issue" to figure out

Does anyone have any suggestions on how to rekindle feelings for your partner if you have ROCD? I feel nothing for him and find him unattractive. But three days ago I felt like I could love him forever.

I am scared :-(. One lesbian told me that she also dreamed about boys in the past, cuz we are brainwashed by society and these whole Disney stories. I am scared it's also my case. I have watched lesbian porn and it could be that I just have internalized homophobia 😢.

Can I talk to someone with harm OCD. I feel scared at the moment

Nothing grinds my gears quite like someone saying “I’m so ocd haha”. Like it’s nothing, Because then when someone is really struggling with ocd people don’t see it as serious and complex as it is because of how loosely spoken about it is. Same goes for any mental illness. Anyway rant over sending peace ✌🏼

Hi everyone. Can I ask, does anyone find they get intense irritation around their partner and feel more and more withdrawn from them. I spent all evening missing my partner and then the minute I see him, I just feel this massive wall come up and I feel so lonely. I don't know if that's an ocd thing or an us thing and I really need to decide as I'm supposed to be getting married next year and it's making me so sad. No reassurance please just wondering if I'm alone with this and how others moved past it. Thanks

Guys it has become a thing for my Brain to automatically say “you like her “ to anybody. Especially on certain people is that ocd ? Or am I just blaming it on my ocd .. ik reassurance is bad but I can’t help it but knowing

I'm in a situation where I embarrassed myself. Argh I cannot stop thinking about it and the other people think of me. I want to hide somewhere!

My mom asked me tonight if I’m thinking that I’m a lesbian… Idk what made her want to ask me that but I’m just really having a hard time now.

i think a lot of my so-ocd friends on here would benefit from watching this. while EVERYONE with ocd would benefit from checking this video out, the fears mentioned are common among the users on this app who have so-ocd. https://youtu.be/1bdjDH8zuWE

Do any of you obsess over past emotions? I remember feeling something a few years ago and I’m now obsessing it was jealousy. It’s interfering with my day and I can’t stop thinking about it

For those looking for hope...Clomipramine will probably cut your OCD down atleast 50-75%...this has been my experience. Also experimenting with Acupuncture.

Hi! I’ve had OCD my whole life. Specifically - numerical OCD. I do everything in threes. For example, I can only listen to the same song 3 times, count three steps as I walk, eat 3 bites of foods, etc. Does anyone else here struggle with this? I also experience harmful and intrusive thoughts, and need things to be a certain way. But the three part - is by far the worst and most severe. Although each aspect of my OCD is constantly effecting my daily life, I feel that I struggle the most with numerical based issues (3).

Is anyone scared of accepting their feelings of ROCD and doing the ERP because they are afraid of finding out they actually don't love their partner after all?

I am so hopeless. The thought of being a ped0 makes me so distressed. I don’t want my life to be ruined. I don’t want to be a disgusting person. I don’t want to lose myself or the people I love. I just want to go back to the way life was before. I’m crying so hard right now I don’t know what to do

there's 2 things hanging in the back of my head that i need to ruminate about yet i am trying to stay distracted and now analyse or think about them. isn't this avoidance a sign of denial????

Hi, guys. Do you feel the ocd disappear when you are relaxing or having a good time? And that makes you wonder if you really have ocd? Because when I am doing something that really needs focus it gets back.

My brain has started convincing me that I’m secretly in love with my best friend who is also a girl. Has anyone else had this? I can feel my brain trying to get me to obsess over it. And I know it’s not true.

Omg I need to talk to someone. Like all the thoughts are being thrown at me by OCD. I can't sleep at all.

I'm looking for help coming up with an ERP exercise for the following contamination compulsion: Every morning I use an antibacterial wipe to clean the remote control for our downstairs TV. I sometimes repeat the cleaning if I see my husband use the remote after touching something I consider "dirty." This is just one of the things I'm constantly wiping down, but it seems like a good place to start with my ERP. I'm just not sure how to go about it though. Do I just get up tomorrow and not clean the remote? Just accepting that it might have touched whatever, and accepting that when I use the remote it might not be free of germs? Not trying to neutralize the perceived contamination or cross-contamination by washing my hands or wiping down other surfaces I touch after using the remote? Am I setting up this exercise correctly? Any advice or tips are much appreciated.

i’ve done something so awful and i still can’t move past the guilt of what i did and i don’t know how i hate it so much