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i feel like i am fake developing POCD just to "prove" i have ocd :(

i feel like i act gay. like my mannerism, the way i lip sync to songs, the way i move my hands or even wink. i don't know how to explain it it just reminds me of those bi girls on tiktok and makes me feel like i am bi. also the way i dress too :(

i feel like every time something comes up it’s like my ocd providing me proof that i am in fact that thing i’m worried about but now it feels too real and im so upset. it genuinely feels way too real and i’m regretting the action so much

Feeling really down because I’ll have these thoughts forever…

I’ve been on Zoloft 100mg for almost 4 weeks and haven’t really gotten much relief.. I have an appt with my psychiatrist tomorrow; I’m still having intrusive thoughts and severe anxiety.. would you go up on dosage or what other medication has worked for you?

Anyone else get random intrusive thoughts about their significant others or crush? Like “what if I don’t actually like them and I’m lying to cover up the fact I’m gay” or something like that?

tw// pocd , nsfw another panic! great! so i used to read miraculous ladybug fanfics when i was younger like 13 maybe and some were nsfw but i liked the plot or angst behind mari and chat blanc. so i read them. the characters in miraculous are 13-15 and i feel like i kinda forgot that bc a few months ago i remembered how much i loved those fanfics and i looked for some but i don’t think i really read any. but now i’m horrified bc i remembered that i’m 17 and those characters are in fact younger than me and idk if i was directly looking for the nsfw fics but now i find that disgusting and again i know a real pedophile would never rlly find it disgusting like ever but i find it rlly nasty when i realize that those characters are in fact younger than me like that’s so nasty ew, but i’m panicking bc regardless of whether i knew or not i still wanted to find them bc i remember i used to rlly love them but again i think i tried to read a few but nothing rlly grabbed my attention (none were nsfw i think even now i’m not a big fan of reading any nsfw like i rlly don’t like it tbh) so i just forgot about it but i’m panicking bc those characters are younger than me now and i think i forgot that whilst looking a few months ago at least i hope I did bc now i’m like so disgusted by even the idea of reading abt ppl younger than me do anything remotely nsfw that’s so nasty i just ugh idk what to do is this smth i should let go as in it’s just my ocd or is this a legitimate mistake or problem i can’t tell anymore. (also i’m aware it’s just fictional characters but that still grosses me out like tremendously)

Any tips on how I can stop myself from ruminating?

Today is a good day for a good day. You will make it through this, and it's only temporary. Reminder: it's just a thought, not your true belief.

I have my first therapy session tomorrow and my ocd themes tend to jump between HOCD, POCD, and “Pure O”. I’m really nervous about completely opening up on all this. I also don’t have a diagnosis yet and I’m really scared that and doubting whether it is OCD and I’m worried they might tell me it’s something else or I’m this despicable person. Any tips on how to deal with this?

Can ocd intrusive thoughts be good? Like “I love him” being an intrusive thought? If that makes any sense? Idk lol

I really want to enjoy my night out but I feel myself beginning to get triggers and I don’t want to give in and begin to ruminate. Ugh.

Can someone clarify this, intrusive thoughts do they just pop in your head or do you think them up, if you know what I’m trying to say?

Is this an OCD? I’ve been diagnosed with OCD but I remember something when I was a kid I have to go to school before “dawn” because if I don’t my schedule wouldn’t be the same. I usually cry or don’t go to school if I see the sun already up. I was like really young back then around 6-7 and I realized this may have been one of my earliest OCD. Or maybe it was an early sign of anxiety. I don’t know.

ah yes tiktok is giving me wlw content again and im ready to cry😌

Here’s a little picture of Shylo in the long grass! Hope it brings some smiles 😊

OCD is making me feel very depressed today. I’ve been having therapy for so long and have been doing ERP and trying to get under my core fear but I’m just not coping. I just feel like a massive failure and that I’m failing everyone around me.

I just want to say that I had the BEST day on Sunday! I spent the day with my boyfriend and a few intrusive thoughts came in but I kind of learned how to manage them when I worded things better in my head to relax the intrusive thoughts. I just accept them in the moment but tell myself it has to pass. I finally felt like myself and was so incredibly happy and present. I hope for more good days but that was a reminder that I’ll be okay. I just also needed to accept that I have OCD and I very well may have it all my life but I’d rather not struggle with it and allow it for ruin all the things I’ve worked so hard for. Don’t give up. And I am telling myself that too. And also I need to continue with my exposures… so I can really be getting the full benefit! If u have had good days please share here and give us all hope that we can do this :)

I got a raise and now I have 666 in my biweekly pay. First world problems, OCD edition…

Book, podcast or YouTube recommendations? I’m currently listening to this one and really connect with it.

I’m getting to that mindset where I’m worrying my fears are all true :(

Me: *has had manageable OCD symptoms up until now, life is going great!* My brain in 2021:

Hi guys! I start therapy tomorrow and it’s scary but I’m going to do it! It feels risky because that’s a part of ocd. I’ve done a lot of reading and preparing and I am also doing lots to take care of myself! I bought some nice fall scented candles because I’m excited for fall! And I got some pens and a notebook specifically for therapy to take notes and write down questions I might have through the process! Anyways I’m urging that if you are able to but are just a little scared to try therapy, do it anyway and consider that your first exposure :)

today is already feeling hard

What is he doing.

How do I stop feeling terrible and like a disgusting person because of my past mistakes? (none of them have to do with my ocd themes but I just keep feeling terrible)

Tips on recovering from HOCD? I’m dealing with loss of attraction and thoughts that are Trying to convince me I’m Gay but I want to be straight! The anxiety and stress are getting exhausting!

Not OCD related but ugh I want to lose weight so bad but it’s like I have no motivation to get up and go to the gym or stay consistent with it. I go for like 1-2 weeks and then stop and fall into bad habits again.. is this depression since I have no motivation?

More feedback: There should be a search option on the desktop version of this app as well as the mobile version. (Note: There is already a search option on the mobile version.)

Those of you with working ocd specialists, have you ever experience them giving you reassurance during session? Like "what you did wasn't bad?", without even knowing the contexts of the real-event?

Here recently I'll have good days where ocd doesn't bother me but on the days it does it is frustration I am trying not to engage but it feels damn near impossible sometimes.

I feel lost and paralyzed by not being able to tell what I really want in regards to any decision :(

I’m miserable. I’m having severe OCD related to bladder control. I can’t be around my coworkers without extreme fear of embarrassing myself. It’s truly awful, I don’t know how to deal with it, and I’m really suffering. I’m trying to do therapy but I can’t even do my ERP it’s so bad right now.

Today I feel really bad, just as if my ocd has never bern worse. I feel so much anxiety and pressure today, I just want this feeling to stop. It is horrible and I do not want to life any longer with this, even though i know i have to. Someday it’ll be better, i know, but it hurts me so much. I want it to stop :(

i am leading an almost normal life without the ocd getting in my way which means i don't have ocd. i haven't properly panicked in s while nor ruminated. i feel like my thoughts and feelings are mine and not driven by ocd. it feels like i am accepting myself after months of denial

I feel guilty about the things my ROCD makes me feel. I hate that my feelings for him just disappear and he doesn’t realize anything has shifted. It’s not right. I want to be as good and consistent for him as he is for me.

i honestly don't think this is ocd. like i have barely any anxiety anymore. no anxiety means no ocd. i feel like i qm okay with the thoughts. i don't want to. but it feels like i truly am.

I have a question for the ladies out there. Has anyone else noticed an improvement in their OCD while on hormonal birth control? I was on birth control for around 2 years and during those 2 years I would say I had about 80% control over my OCD & intrusive thoughts. Around 3 months ago I got off birth control for health reasons and now I feel myself losing the control I had for so long. Has anyone else experienced this?

Anyone ever been convinced that their OCD is so real that you become offended by things that never offended you before? You think why is this offending you now unless you must identify as what you are thinking of

okay so i know im trans and my names liam but i like other names too... and i keep considering using my deadname as well but i hate it hut its pretty but i also?? do not want it for me at all and its so tiring to keep thibking abt it when i genuinely dont want to be called that but you know what if i do? how do i convince myself i indeed Dont want to use my deadname?

Hello everyone is there anyone that is apprehensive about taking meds for their OCD and anxiety I’m supposed to be taking Effexor and I have been really afraid to take it…… Even though most days I feel like I can function better with it

I haven’t done therapy through this app yet, but if I get diagnosed with OCD (which I’m confident I will) will they prescribe the medications for you? Or how does it work??

I wonder how the hell I want to present as and if OCD comes into play because dressing a certain way “is wrong” or I want to change the way I dress because people will hate and doxx me. It’s irrational but monkey OCD brain stops at nothing.

This Pandemic.... starting to feel like a lonely world like my own lilttle bubble. All of these intrusive thoughts are a waste of time and none of its useful.

Can anybody explain to me how my insurance works? I almost used up my 3 zero copays. And now i have to start paying. I think I heard they are going to take out of my family deductible and then I pay like $15. I’m confused. What happens if my family deductible if other members of family wants to use it and I used it all up?

Do anyone take meds (fludep) ,risper for OCD ?

Does anyone notice that when their OCD is worse that it triggers depression?

Anybody else struggle with impulse control when it comes to substances? :-(

Why is my sleep schedule so messed up now? I always wake up around 4-5 am or have a hard time falling asleep. And don’t get me started on the weird, distressing dreams.

Does anyone know what SSRI’s are specifically helpful for OCD thoughts? I’ve been on Zoloft forever and it used to work but the intrusive thoughts have been so rampant I think I need something new

What do you do when you feel guilt in the back of your mind for no reason? Like it's just there waiting to create a reason.

Does anyone here have vaginismus (or another dyspareunia condition)?

Anyone else deal with a nervous stomach?

I love this post from @pureOChrissie!!! This is why I like the NOCD app community so much, for assurance :)

I started my new job, Yes that's great but I discovered I don't learn fast 😏 But am learning little by little, And my attitude is in the right place I keep pushing forward 😀

I need to get help because I can’t do this anymore. POCD is truly traumatizing. It has made me so numb that I can’t even cry anymore. Gosh I hope that ERP helps if I start doing it

For the past few weeks on and off I’ve been having pretty bad OCD. It comes and goes but I feel like I’m stuck in it and I havent been like this in forever. Most recently I’ve been having thoughts about my relationship and questioning if I should be with my boyfriend or if I see a future with him or if I’m attracted to him. It’s frustrating because deep down I know it’s untrue but it feels so real and scary. I dont know how to break out if this.

I’m scared that ERP won’t work because what if I just don’t have ocd

I am struggling. I am a young professional I started my current job in March. 3 weeks into my position my boss told me she was disappointed in what I brought so far. Since then I have changed and impressed on various things but I feel like I am always walking on the edge. I meet with my boss weekly and she gives me feedback on my work. This kills me and I feel like I’m one mess up away from being let go, even tho I have made strides and worked my tail off. Is this normal? How do I overcome?

Happy Tuesday everyone! Compulsion interrupter and a reminder to be kind to yourself. If someone hasn't told you how amazing you are today, I think you are wonderful.😊 Write out some positive affirmations and stick it on your bathroom mirror so you see it all the time. Write those affirmations down and mean it okay?:) This quote has been hard for me to resonate with lately, but I am getting there. We all need more self love and positivity in our lives. Please continue being kind to yourself ❤

I developed a new theme recently where I feel very afraid to read text messages because I worry that I’ll have to re-read them over and over again. I typically have reading ocd but on a smaller scale(doesn’t affect me as much as my other themes) so I don’t know why this texting theme has all of a sudden taken over my life. I feel like i can’t even interact with people properly anymore. How do I get over this theme?

I'm having a hard day. I keep tracking to check on my spouse. I want to stop doing this, how do I make myself stop thinking about it?

Is anyone having headache after a bad day full of anxiety?

why is it that when i look at pictures of when i was in the middle of my Rocd i get the same anxiety over it, and i feel guilty that i felt that way about my relationship :(

i was so distressed a while ago and now i've taken a shower, dressed up and ready to go out??? why??? am i not distressed? why am i so indifferent? is this not ocd?? and yet i am not so worried about not being anxious! i don't feel like this is ocd anymore :(

I’ve always dealt with extreme guilt about things in my past and the only way I feel better is by telling my mom. And then I’d feel relief until the next thought comes into my mind. Is this a compulsion? I’m not looking for reassurance but just genuinely curious

Today has been difficult. Keep a positive mindset and remember how irrelevant these thoughts are.

Does anyone have headache and head feeling heavy as if you're carrying something on your head on days with anxiety?

How can I date women if I feel like this ?😔

Is therapy considered lifelong for people with ocd?

i feel like i only like d!ck because i want to have it for myself as a man and not because i am straight :(

i just got out of the shower and was buffing up in front of the mirror to check if i liked it and for a moment it felt like it would suit me and then i couldn't recognise myself in the mirror. and because i have dark hair i felt like one of those anime characters and i can't even tell if i like it or not but i don't think i do😭

ROCD- Not today satan! We must make our decisions based on experiences not based on fear. Every day fall in love with your partner. They are perfect in their imperfection… just like you and me. ❤️ Much love y’all.

My thoughts changed from Start :I'm not bisexual After some days :I'm not gay Again after some days :I'm not bisexual After some days : I'm not gay DOES ANYONE RELATE? PLEASE HELP ME ONCE, PLEASE😭

What does rumination mean?

This is so unrelated to OCD but I’m at the dentist and I’m so nervous 😬 I have to get a tiny cavity filled and I hate this. I’m shaking. I know this is so random and unrelated but I just don’t know what to do while I wait.🤷‍♀️

My head is sweating a bit. It's cold out here. Is it due to anxiety

sometimes I worry that me loving my boyfriend so much is too good to be true so I worry that I don't

When you are checking unwanted thoughts , mine are oral sex. Can you feel like the thoughts are ok or a bit nice, I guess sucking anything is nice. Nothing sexual or arousal at all, does this mean I am sick person .rhevthought comes with adrenaline, anxiety can this make you feel like you like the thought, I hate having the thought though and it distressed me, am I analysing my thought excessively? I’ve had this bloody thought for over 20 years and it has wreaked havoc on my life, thanks for any support! Love to all of you

ROCD. I am on my honeymoon in Greece and I have partner focused OCD. My fears are that my partner is not attracted to me, and will lose interest. There are women in thong bikini bathing suits everywhere. He acknowledged checking out the women here and seeing some nice asses. I have to come to terms with the fact that guys look. It is human to look at what is attractive to the eye. My brain just gets stuck on it and makes meaning out of it. It is painful. I am doing exposures and trying to accept uncertainty. I wish I was normal.

Gooooood morning Vietnam! :) Question of the day: what’s something that makes you unique? For me, it’s that I have type D bracydactyly. My right thumb is shorter and fatter than normal. I believe that 2% of the population has that!

Hi. I have a problem with constantly and boldly promising god random things. I reposted again because I really need some advise and I fear people will skip over the last post bc I said this is. Not a ocd thing.

Good morning everyone! Hope you all have a good day!

god i feel like crying. i started classes a week before my boyfriend and was really tired afterwards since i woke up so early and everything felt like a rush when we went to lunch with my family before my next class. i also was updating my friends (as well as him) since we go to the same school but my head was like “you texted your friends more and gave most of your attention to them instead of your boyfriend you don’t love him anymore” and it really hurts having thoughts like that

when I see some videos of like a dog biting someone I feel like I get this urge to see more and i I that I actually like seeing people hurt. ugh

Does anyone has werid OCD pure physical symptoms or its just me?

Hi guys , i started taking antidepressants for my ocd i know they take some time to work and can make you feel worse before you feel better, is it best to wait for these to kick in properly first before starting erp? I still feel to weak to start erp at the moment thanks

i feel like i am slowly accepting myself and coming to terms with my sexuality. it feels like each time i am hitting myself it's out of anger and hatred because i hate myself for being gay :(

Finally got a possible time slot for a therapist but they only have certain times for appointments and I’m starting a new job soon. I am wondering if it’s recommended to get therapy 2 hours before work time. I am willing to do and share as much as I can during the sessions and am worried I’ll be mentally drained before work or if this is a normal time to get therapy? I’m just scared to not get a time slot honestly.

Does anyone reading here think you can love your family so much , that ocd tries to take that away from you? That you can love TOO much ?

i want to work so bad but how do i tell them im agoraphobic

i feel convinced i like girls and i am almost okay with it wtf. i can't even get myself to panic. it's like i have finally accepted that i like them and it's all fine😭

Current mood :- listening to "at my worst" and crying😭

ugh when I do private stuff I get alot of incest thoughts and I hate it and I feel like I would get over it easier if I didn't think well whag if I don't want the thoughts to go away

Having hocd towards friend is akward and gross at the same time

anyone has core fears ocd losing your children in ridiculous way, for example some spirit or someone take your children away from you or something. I know it sounds ridiculous but this is my obsession 😩

i really hate how subtle some intrusive thoughts can be

*Me just enjoying a fantasy with a guy I like* SO-OCD replacing it with a “girlfriend”:

Man why am I so chill. I just don't care what's happening, totally going with the flow. 😂 Is it a good thing or a bad thing? 😕

Hey guys so I have a question ? Since I told the hospital I was scared I would harm myself or others because of my thoughts they sent me to a physc ward . And I felt so out of place there “ I felt normal “ to the rest of them . Has this happend to you . (Btw the doctor there diagnosed me with ocd) and I left a day later :)