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I was reading a book about London. And there was one building which apparently is a comedy club and it had comedians on there and one I recognize her but I can’t remember her name. And I imagine kissing her lips the profile like the picture on the wall and I smiled I’m scared I must be I don’t wanna be a lesbian or bisexual “the vibe I got made me think that she might be but I’m not bisexual. Like I smiled and said I am scared I felt unlocked in my chest I don’t I do I don’t want to kiss women I don’t wanna exist anymore. It still didn’t feel right but I kept smiling in my head and in my like expression like on my face was smiling and I imagine kissing it repeatedly like the picture and I’m scared I forced it like I act like it’s gross that I don’t but I want to kiss a man I’m naturally more interest in the man and when I imagine kissing a woman l I don’t know why I keep remembering saying I’ll let yourself in smiling in my head and I said in my heart I don’t want my heart to be into this and I said you can’t control that but I’ve never been into it and that thing is despite the smile it didn’t feel right there’s attention in my chest. I don’t wanna kiss women I’m scared I can’t stop imagining in despite imagining putting my lips on the picture and the fact that I imagined much more x-rayed things I don’t I still don’t like it I’m scared I just now try to say it with the conviction I still want and I almost felt better saying that but I don’t wanna feel better saying that I want them when I don’t want women. Smiling and allowing myself to imagine kissing the woman cause of the vibe scares me because I don’t vibe like that I don’t like them I don’t like women like that I want men i’ve never felt like that before and despite like I said despite the smiles it didn’t feel right it felt weird. I just I don’t like nothing more to sell better I don’t want to kiss the woman if I’m straight and I’m not gay why would I saying like nothing more when I don’t I didn’t really like it I just felt force in my chest felt so tense despite smiling and I said despite actually but I didn’t enjoy it so it’s despite the smiling I didn’t enjoy it. I don’t want to know who I am anymore I’m not a lesbian I didn’t enjoy it I didn’t feel right now I’m scared I’m gonna look at that comedian definitely forever I’m scared I do now and I keep feeling weird on my mouth I don’t wanna feel her lips on mine I don’t wanna put my hand out on smiling like I’m OK I don’t wanna be bisexual I don’t wanna squeeze boobs I didn’t feel right I can’t take this I’m scared I am afraid of the warm way I’m smiling I don’t want to get into this I don’t want to warm up to it! I don’t wanna enjoy this I don’t wanna start I don’t wanna kiss women I don’t wanna kiss and I can’t I’m scared I feel every time I see the picture I’ll look at her lips and feel I’m scared I’ve just been resisting this whole time but I’ve never wanted to kiss I said more but I’ve never wanted to kiss a woman before little more I don’t wanna kiss her and I’m smiling. See my heart but it doesn’t want to kiss her! Just gonna do I don’t wanna see what she’s not a scam smiling like I keep nodding up and down saying excepting I don’t I said my attraction imagining big I called him hot I don’t want hairy or ball didn’t want big round they’re not hot I don’t want sagging naked boobs I don’t want big round one second I’m scared him :-) I don’t wanna I don’t wanna except that I don’t wanna see your naked she’s not hot she’s not hot I’m scared I do when I’m blushing I don’t want older or younger women I don’t want vagina I want penis I want to try and it’s not hot I’m scared I feel differently now I don’t want to start I don’t want older or younger I don’t want my age I wanna start I’m scared I don’t wanna start liking I don’t wanna start liking women there’s nothing more than I don’t like

So this morning I woke up with anxiety and started thinking how would my parents and sister react when i tell them I got ocd. I just imagined my sister laughing at me as if I meant nothing. No one believed me. And now I just can't get this image out of my head😕 it feels lonely

I am a very sensitive person and I have a hard time controlling my emotions which I’ve noticed my whole life but it’s seems to have gotten worse when I formed ocd. I was wondering what I could do to not be so sensitive or emotional all the time and if ocd could have something to do with it. I’m actually really tired of people telling me all the time “You’re overly emotional” or “you’re too sensitive”. Also was wondering if I were to have thicker skin would it be an advantage to helping with ocd and the things it makes me feel like anxiety or depression (which could maybe have something to do with it either). I’m not really asking for reassurance just kind of seeing if maybe anyone has gone through this too and if there’s anything I can do to work on it and get better 🙂

I’ve had nearly every single OCD theme you can think of and most of them are gone. If you have any questions for me, comment below! 😚

I don’t think I’ll ever be the same after I recover from this. A huge part of me is gone.

I’m scared about how these thoughts have become so real. I am starting to think I’m in denial and it’s a matter of time til I have to break up with my boyfriend. This is so hard but I’m trying to keep compassion toward myself. He keeps being the sweet, kind soul he always is and it makes me feel so terrible and guilty. I just want to know I like boys even a little bit so that I can stay with him. Whenever I want to enjoy the moment with him I get the reminder that I like girls so I can never really enjoy the moment. I have no feeling of excitement or anything and I just know I want to let myself be happy with him but there’s always something. Can anyone give me advice on what to do when the thoughts are present during a good moment or when I don’t feel anything/ feel disconnected. Or any advice at all. I don’t want to like girls it’ll change everything for me, my whole life will be completely turned around and I don’t want that.

Hey guys at universal theme park with my family and my trigger is attractive women and feeling like seeing them/noticing them is cheating on my fiancé whom I love and really want to be loyal to. I tried doing erp with it but now it’s getting to the point where I am depressed and honestly feeling like there is no hope/ $uicidal thoughts. Could really use some help, encouragement, or advice. I’m so exhausted, so upset with myself, and so sick of being scared and worrying about being unfaithful. I just feel like I’m at my wits end here. If there’s a way to encourage without reassurance that would be great!

Anybody else's symptoms get worse the day after drinking alcohol? I find myself in a hole after everytime I go out to try and enjoy myself😭

does this happen to anyone else?!?? my thoughts keep trying to flip everything i read into something so much worse such as if i see a post stating “thinking will not overcome fear but action will” my thoughts will be like “see it means you need to act on it to feel okay again” like wtf??? everything is literally a trigger with ocd.

Hello, I am a straight girl (as far as I know) but now I am doubting of it. I am not sure this is Sexual Orientation OCD since I am doubting because of something that actually happened. I am going to say something really embarrassing for me so I hope I don’t get ignored. When watching p*rn, I tend to watch lesbian p*rn because it pleasures me the most. And after I did that a few days ago, I’ve starting to doubt of my sexual orientation (and even my identity, since I feel masculine, which i hate). And I have no idea what this is, I don’t want to tell my parents because they will think I am coming out when I am actually not. It is just pure confusion and distress, and a bit of fear and sadness bc I don’t want to be lesbian, don’t get me wrong I am not homophobic. But I just don’t want to, and it feels like denial to me. I have never been attracted to a woman, but somehow I feel like a male, and it really pisses me off, because I do not identify as a man. I’ve been trying to picture myself in my head, with both genders in a sexual context, and I don’t feel anything. I feel really lost please someone help.

thinking about how this is gonna be my life forever breaks my heart. i never in my life would’ve thought that this was coming my way. this is so heartbreaking and depressing. i was barely getting to live one of my biggest dreams then this hit me out of nowhere. what did i do to deserve this?? is this my karma??😞 my dreams of being a mom? went downhill because of this. my dreams of being a ultrasound tech? also went downhill. and the list goes on. i just want my life back..

Can anyone please help me 🥺

Do you guys really benefit from having people here tell you "yes, I experience that too" sort of things? I see it as quite reassurance-y but I wanted to give benefit of the doubt so I'm just wondering if I'm missing something

Someone please help me I’ve never experienced this before smiling and comfort from saying but I’m not a lesbian I’m not a lesbian I’m not lesbian I’m not! There’s no might be why is this happening to me what is the say about me

explsure therapy for a few months now, and things are only getting worse?

Hi I have HOCD Since about 5 years now I would say. I’m just seeking for help and a community. The only way I get better is by distracting myself a lot through working or social media. But somethings even social media worsens it too with the rise of lgbtq communities presenting themselves. They make me question sometimes. But I just ignore. After all exposure gets you to slowly move on so it’s what’s best.

Hi guys, I’ve been suffering from contamination OCD. I’ve been in contact with a therapist and it has helped me a lot. However, I still sometimes have intrusive thoughts when I go to toilet. I don’t want to waste toilet paper, therefore I’m trying to reduce the number of toilet paper squares I use per each visit of the toilet. When I wipe after urinating, it sometimes happens that the urine gets soaked through all the plies. The last square I hold in my hand therefore gets a bit wet, and I can feel it with my hand. However, no drop of urine gets to my hand, you just feel that your hand is touching a square of toilet paper that is a bit wet (it is the same as when you blow your nose). This sometimes happens to me, even when I use 8 or 9 squares of toilet paper, which is quite a lot. After visiting the toilet, I always wash my hands. I don’t want to seek reassurance from you that the urine can’t spread anywhere else and contaminate other things. I just can’t remember how many squares of toilet paper I was using when I didn’t have to deal with intrusive thoughts. Therefore, I would like to ask all women out there, how you deal with wiping after urinating. Does it ever happen to you that urine gets soaked through all the squares, and you get the wet feeling on your hand? Should I use more squares to make sure that the last ply stays dry, even though 10 or 11 squares is a big waste of toilet paper? I usually have to wipe two or three times to get dry, even though I can use less squares for the second and third wipe (usually 3 or 2) because they don’t get that wet, 11 + 3 + 2 squares of toilet paper would be a lot. Or should I use less squares, don’t care about the wet sensation and wash my hands afterwards? How many squares do you use after urinating? Urine sometimes sprinkles on my inner thighs, etc. Sometimes it happens to me that when I wipe after urinating, I accidentally place my hand on my skin besides the toilet paper because the toilet paper square is smaller than my hand. Therefore, it is probable that a drop of urine could potentially get on my hand. Does it ever happen to you that you accidentally place your finger or hand besides the toilet paper, or should I be more careful when I wipe so that it doesn’t happen to me? Thank you so much :)

My whole entire life I’ve been boy crazy, and I have always always dreamt of having a husband one day and having a family. That’s all I want. It’s a dream of mine, and I feel like it’s being ripped away from me. My OCD makes it seem like that’s not who I am, or that I don’t want that anymore. It’s so hard. I just don’t feel like me anymore. I don’t want to be with a girl, it just doesn’t feel like that’s who I am. I don’t want to marry a girl, it’s not what I want. But OCD twists that, why does it feel like I want that sometimes? I hate saying that because I don’t want it. I’m so confused. I don’t want to be with a girl, I want to be happy with my boyfriend. He’s so lovely. I wish these thoughts could go away, I wish I was normal sometimes. I wish I didn’t have OCD! Like a few days ago, I felt confident and I felt okay and I felt hope. And today it just feels like it’s back to square one. I feel hopeless, I’m tired, and I just don’t know! I’m so scared I’m just lying, I’m so scared I’m using OCD as an excuse, I’m so scared that these thoughts are true or will become true I just don’t realize it yet. I’m struggling so hard.

Somethings wrong and I feel a lot of guilt right now from something I’m not sure is OCD or real and it’s really worrying me. A friend of mine is with someone has a kid and is bi, I’m straight and a Christian. I keep having these thoughts of scenarios of “what if” we ended up together or if really am bi or what if her son becomes mine too and if I hurt people or if I did become bi that people would hate me and that because I had intrusive thoughts about my niece and my friend that they are linked that that if I because bi it would be because of my niece. I’m freaking out. I don’t want to be bi, I don’t want feelings for woman I just want to be normal. I’m not saying it’s wrong at all to be bi but for me I don’t want to be. It’s just not the me I want to be. I don’t know if it’s ocd or not but it feels so real as if I actually do have feelings for my friend and I really hope that’s not the case 💔

TW Omg omg omg please help. It’s bad. Really bad. And I can’t go anywhere because I’m at work. It started off because I’m working with a coworker whose lesbian. And so I’ve been ping-ponging back-and-forth arguing with myself. I know I’m hetero I don’t like women like underneath this but something bad happened. First I passed her because you know I work as a dishwasher so there’s a corner where we stack the dishes when they’re clean and had to pass her and I imagined kissing her and I don’t like it but I’m scared I felt something in my chest. And I’m scared when I try to imagine kissing a guy I didn’t do much of anything but I feel exhausted and I’ve been taking Flexeril and Tylenol p.m. almost nonstop for a month so I’m like OK you know what not only is this probably messing with me like the OCD it’s probably also the Flexeril the Tylenol ganging up on me as well. And I was really excited about the Batman like I’m incredibly excited it’s not past tense but I’m scared I do I don’t like Zoe. I don’t like Selena. I’m scared I do because I’ve seen her I don’t like her boobs I’ve seen her basically naked and I don’t like it. No I’m imagining her in the dress from the 2021 met gala I keep saying don’t or do you don’t or do I don’t but I keep imagining them facing the camera covered in that sparkly should family coming anything and saying as I imagine hurt I’m scared it’s becoming so I feel weird in my chest describing it as but it doesn’t feel hotter delicious her boobs sticking out I didn’t like it. And then I was excited about the BATMAN right and then I said it’s even better with Catlin and it’s not better with her and there’s a scene where they’re walking through club and I love his walk because he’s serious and then said better with her like I’m it’s not better with her except I’m sorry. The thing is I’d liked his walk his shoulders are moving and he obviously has chest muscles so I’m scared I’m changing I’m sorry. He’s walking and then I said I did the imitation of his walk and since I’m not a guy I have boobs and I said better with her I don’t like her boobs. I don’t want to change and become self! I’m not bisexual that stuff is not hot. It’s not done with her I like his chest but I’m scared I have been not lying to myself I don’t like boobs! I saw her boobs basically I’ve seen her completely naked in the structure of her comfortable boobs they’re natural so they sad but she doesn’t wear bras and friends I don’t like her nipples I don’t like her boobs and I’m scared I’m becoming so and I don’t wanna be! I’m not bisexual I did not better with cat woman I don’t have a thing for her and I don’t understand cause I said so excited. Like when I was younger Halle Berry and play woman and I wanted to be like her but that’s it now I’m scared I keep imag managing her like she is she’s not hot as sexy I don’t want boobs to become sexy I don’t want to see them naked and it keeps imagine Halle Berry as a per year I don’t like her boobs I don’t like nipples I don’t like the ones that kind of turn up words I don’t like boobs they’re not it’s not better with cat women I swear I’m excited about Batman not Catwoman I’m scared I’m becoming so I don’t wanna be bisexual and I’m really freaked out I’m really scared to do I don’t like boobs I don’t want to develop anything for them I’m scared I’m I’m not bored of his I’m scared of you and I’m smiling I don’t like the way they stick off the chest or swish around when a woman walks I’m scared when she was walking all bad as I’m scared I don’t like it I said I don’t mind it I do mind I don’t like it I do mind I don’t want to do anything with girls I don’t like the way to stick off the chest and im frightened I am I don’t wanna start liking the way women walk and shit or the way they look naked I don’t like this shit I’m scared he is I don’t want him to go away