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hey, are there any young teenagers who have questions about socd? i’m a 18 year old who recovered at 15, so i experienced it at a young age. maybe someone wants to talk about something, so i’m here for you guys :)

Hey everyone :( it’s been while since I posted but I’m having hard time with my relationship cause of my ROCD. I keep worry about small details like the fact my bf recently changed his voice note messaging to expiring after two mins. I know his best friend talks to him 24/7 and he is always sending my bf voice notes (sometime his friend talks about illegal things) but is this something I should worry about? I feel like over analyzing his behaviours to see if he is hiding something from me or being disloyal. My heart knows it’s not in his character but I’m still worried :( any advice would be great. (Also have PTSD from being cheated on in past relationship)

I really wish I didn’t worry so much about taking medications and the side effects. I wish I could just take it and be done with it. Every time I look up the medication, all I see are negative side effects. It’s really frustrating. I know if I want a chance at getting better, I have to just start. I’m starting this morning and will be taking 1.25mg lexapro and will do that for a week. I’ll have a follow up with my doctor next week and will increase it then to 2.5 for a week then likely to 5. Has anyone else tried this approach at such low low doses and had good experience with the side effects because it was such a small dose to begin with?

How was your OCD first discovered? I have Tourettes and I was in and out of the different doctors offices and specialists for a long time when I was younger. I use to constantly hum and snap my fingers and my parents would get so annoyed but I would tell them I couldn’t stop. After a while of being watched carefully and everything I was officially diagnosed with OCD and Tourettes. Just thought I’d share. Please share your story.

I am such a horrible person, I cant even try to fight this feeling that I am a bad person, its like I gave up. I just forget my existence. I cant hold this more. I hate myself so much. I just want to end it all.

Does anyone else struggle with the sub type of getting other mental illnesses? I don’t know why but out of nowhere I have now been struggling with thoughts of developing schizophrenia. Now I spend my time checking and making sure I’m not having any symptoms but the weird thing is my brain is like mimicking symptoms and then I end up with an anxiety attack because I feel as if I’m going crazy or I’m having delusional thoughts. It’s kind of put me in a funk and I’m hoping this passes. I’ve had something similar happen a few years before and was able to get out of it but if I have what I feel is a bizarre thought, I convince myself the thought wasn’t normal and I’m going crazy. Does anyone have any tips? Or similar situation?

Any tips to how do I beat this real event ocd. I have some sexual experience when I was 8 or 7 because I got expose to porn at that time. I was wondering if it was consensual or not and it is driving me nuts. Please help.

My brain keeps telling me to enjoy things before I kill myself but I don’t want to. I don’t want to die. Help me.

I feel like I’m navigating this medication journey alone. Was prescribed by my Dr and the psychiatric np (whom I’ve never met). Was given hydroxyzine for quick relief. Finally after 2 weeks of having it on hand, I took it last night. (Just 1/4 of the dose) and again early this morning. I am trying so hard to get the courage to take the lexapro and told my Dr I wanted to start at a quarter of the 5mg pill. She said I could but I likely wouldn’t benefit from it. I just wanted to start on that to minimize side effects. Anyone start that low (1.25mg) or lexapro. How did it work out. I wanted to try it for a few days then go up to 2.5. Then if need be up to 5. I’m alone. I fear side effects. I’m phobic with medications. I’m proud that I took the other medication. But the issue is I was told that I can not take the hydroxyzine and lexapro at the same time. So how do I calm myself enough to take the lexapro or if I get additional anxiety from it? I have to wait several hours between both. I’m not sure what to do. But I know that I need to start the lexapro asap. I can’t feel this constant anxiety all day and night day after day.

Having a serious panic attack and I have to go into work and I really don’t think I can do it. I offered to come in on my day off and now with the way I’m feeling I don’t know if it’s such a good idea but if I stay busy and talk to my friends I might be ok I don’t know. I started getting flashbacks to almost a year ago (on Feb 6th) to when my dad passed and I immediately started screaming and crying. My dad was there for me during my hard times with OCD and he was so supportive and understanding and didn’t judge and gave advice and now I feel so alone because my mom gets upset with me when I mention it at all and I don’t really have anyone else to talk to. My past mistakes are bothering me so much right now and all the “what if” thoughts I keep having about that certain event is making me want to give up which I’m not going to do don’t worry it’s just what I’m feeling. I don’t know what else to do. It doesn’t matter what anyone says to me, I can’t get passed it or forgive myself to move forward. I just can’t

I literally feel like I'm never going to be happy or truly know who I am. Is that being bisexual? Or confused. It feels as tho I want to be with a man but I don't ever want to give up women. Although I don't feel what I used to it seems 😔

i’m so frustrated. i just wish i could be okay again. i should’ve never taken meds, ever since i took them i can’t feel emotions and it’s worrying me. my thoughts are killing me. im so fucken scared for what my future will bring.

To everyone with health concern ocd, I just wanted to ask, how often do you fell scared you have an honest illness. Like right now I’m going through a cancer scare right now just because of some little weird things going on with my body. I’ve been doing a lot googling and seeing websites that say it’s cancer and others that say it’s just the body being the body and that 9/10 it’s nothing to worry about, I suppose I just want to hear what are some things that made you fear you may have had cancer before in the past and then turned out to be nothing. I usually tend to catastrophize everything

If you have a partner with OCD, you may struggle to understand their experience, wonder what to do when OCD flares up, and worry about how OCD is impacting them. While there aren’t any perfect solutions, there are key ways for you to support your partner while taking care of your own mental health: 1. Avoid creating an enabling environment. It may seem like a good idea to accommodate all of your partner’s compulsions and reduce their anxiety, but this can make OCD worse in the long run.  2. Learn how to help them through OCD episodes. OCD can spike unexpectedly, which can be difficult. By learning to recognize your partner’s compulsions, you can respond supportively and effectively. 3. Educate yourself on OCD and exposure and response prevention (ERP) therapy. The more you know about the way OCD is treated, the more you can help your partner effectively manage their condition.  Read more about what you can do to help your partner manage OCD while creating a safe, healthy and supportive environment for you both.

everytime i try to see the light at the end of the tunnel by telling myself “you got this! you have graduation coming up & you can finally join beauty school” my mind tells me “you’re a monster no one wants you there”. i don’t wanna live like this. i wish i could just escape my mind.

Has anyone with relationship OCD had a fear of their partner Masturbating while in a relationship with you? I seem to have had this all my life & mentioned it to partners before. A few have lied about it & admitted it later after agreeing for us to both NOT do it. Found out my fiancé of 2 yrs has lied about it & I am crushed. He told me that it’s normal & that he doesn’t like to do it or want to but all guys do. That he just wants to be a human being. I have a desire to control this because of my fear. I have not done it since we have been official & feel betrayed. He refuses to talk about masturbation with me. Anyone have a similar issue? How did you cope to get thru it?

For any subtype- when you’re doing exposures, is there a small (or maybe big) part of you that knows the fear is irrational, and does this help motivate your exposures? Or when you do them are you always mostly thinking the threat/danger is real. I feel like the threats are always real and not irrational at all. Will this hold me back from erp?

I no there’s online support groups but I need more help than that I admitted myself into a mental hospital a few years ago I had been on medication for 4 years and changed them every year cause nothing seemed to work so I admitted myself getting admitted was so hard cause of my ocd touching my stuff and only allowing certain amounts of clothes and couldn’t bring certain hygiene stuff I have dressing rituals that I use more clothes than a normal person I wear my bras and undershirts in order I get all the stuff I need for the ritual and lay it out on my bed then wash my hands prior and threwout dressing till I’m done wit the ritual I do certain things during it like turn circles and spin my clothes a certain way that’s hard to do wit a roommate and haveing to use the bathroom to layout my clothes like I need to and haveing nowere to keep my hygiene stuff I have to keep my stuff separated and In a clean spot if it has a clean spot I don’t have to clean the items everyday but that 1 ocd thing causes so many issues wit just being admitted and I was left for those 3 days no therapy no help just left traumatized and struggling wit this ritual they discharged me in 3 days and told me they didn’t have the resources to help me and gave me a referral to an ocd facility in Chicago which denied me cause of insurance my insurance can only be used in my state but there’s not any ocd facilities in my state so it’s very frustrating so I no I need a residential care but can’t get it cause of insurance so wat am I suppose to do I’m already doing wat I can but I no I need help I want to start medication but don’t want someone who doesn’t really understand ocd to prescribe me something there’s no ocd specialists that accept my insurance and everywere is so far away I can barely get up during the day and go to the store to get grocery’s there’s no way I can drive hours every month just to get medication and see a therapist every week if I could do over the phone stuff till I could get more stable so I can get out more and do more then I could get more help I just feel so misunderstood and invalidated bout my ocd and wat comes wit it I just want help though I also have a hard time wakeing up on time to call and I have a hard time calling and answering the phone I just don’t think it should be this hard to get help.

Guys Do u really need therapy to beat ocd. I know therapy can help alot but rn in mine situation There is no way I can access therapy so please if u have any tips to beat ocd without therapy I would love to hear from u. BTW I suffer from real event ocd and maybe false memories ocd. I just want to be happy and live a normal life again 😣😢

TW real events and POCD 18+ please: Getting hit left and right with memories of past mistakes, past intrusive thoughts I’ve had and past memories of things I’ve been triggered with and so on. Like this time it’s about how I was watching a video one day it was two guys talking kind of like a podcast I guess but you could see them and they said the “p” word and I remember I got really triggered and all of a sudden had what I guess was groinal response but really strong but I was panicking and I all of a sudden had an urge to masturbate and I told myself “I’m going to wait 10 minutes to let this all pass before I do that” and so I waited for the anxiety or whatever it was so calm down so I wouldn’t feel bad or weird about it even though it wasn’t my fault I got triggered. I don’t know what’s going on with me but I’m spiraling all over again. OCD has been attaching and not letting go of so many things in my past and it’s starting to worry me again. Just times I’ve had intrusive thoughts and got triggered or filled with anxiety, or when the feelings or thoughts felt so real as if I “liked” them when I know deep down I never did, most definitely don’t now and never will in the future. I wish I could be free from this horrible, torture of a disorder 😭