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Right now I’m dealing with really bad OCD , but my dad doesn’t want to help me at all with it, he just brushes it off like it’s nothing and also I think I have ADHD or ADD and I can’t focus on anything, does anyone have any tips on how to tell someone you need help, please comment if you have any ideas

Ok... I was doing good until a few weeks ago. I really was making a lot of progress until a few weeks ago. Backdoor spikes turned up and ocd came back with full force. Or at least I think it's ocd... I hope it is. My theme is hocd, by the way. I try to not give the thoughts much attention, but they're making me mad. It feels so real, and when I see coming out stories it just adds up, as if I should come out too. It terrifies me, every day I think about wanting to die, to not wake up, to cease existing. It's been so draining, and so lonely. I don't want to be in the closet, I don't want to have romantic relationships with women. And ocd makes me question why that: because of my morals? What if your sexuality goes deeper than your morals and you're just denying you like women? Maybe you should try it out, you'd like it. This scares me so. much. And the thing is: I watch same sex porn. It turns me on. I've seen on the internet many women actually watch same sex porn, but ocd makes me question if my case isn't different from other women. All the time I'm worried that I'll just lose control and kiss any woman that's by my side. I haven't had any experience with men either, as I'm reserved and a hopeless romantic (high expectations). I've liked men before, though, and I still have many crushes today. Ocd tries to convince me this is just a cover up. This is just destroying my life. This is daily torture, I can't imagine myself living with this forever. What am I supposed to tell my eventual boyfriend, my husband? How am I supposed to have children in this state of mind? What if some day I just snap out of this and actually realize I'm gay? What if this question is actually me already admitting that I am in fact gay? Honestly, it's too much. This was quite hard to write, and I tried to include here as much as possible of my insecurities. If you read till here I'm grateful. Just wanted to say that I DON'T have anything against gay people, even though they're making me very anxious since this all started, which adds up to my endless collection of intrusive thoughts (it makes me think I'm in denial because of some prejudice).

I wanna know if anyone can relate. My family doesn't think my depression or OCD is real. They haven't said it in that many words but they've said along the lines of 'you just need to shake yourself and you'll be fine'. BUT I have my boyfriend who listens, who seems to care and I am very happy I have him but I just feel like I'm a tremendous burden on him. I don't have many friends and any friends I do have are always busy, are work friends who don't care or are only friends with me because of my boyfriend. I feel weak and lonely. I need to know what to do.

I’m still in the process of recovering from HOCD but if anyone wants to reach out to me about cognitive behavioral therapy strategies or ERP strategies/ideas I’m here to help- just no reassurance! ;) you are so strong- keep on going! ?

Anyone else also have Tourette’s? How do you differentiate between tics and compulsions? (I’m not looking for reassurance, I genuinely have both disorders)

How do people not obsess about sexuality when it’s so fucking complex? I just read about lesbians who still get crushes on men and now I’m spiralling again. Ffs.

Quick question: When I first was dealing with my ocd I would not talk to this one girl because my hocd tried to say I liked her. I thought if I ignored her it would all stop and I wouldn’t think about the thoughts anymore. Is that a compulsion?

I'm falling back into the old habits of analyzing the hocd thoughts. The last week i let the thoughts be there, and did not analyse them, but now it's getting so hard. Do you have any tips?

Backdoor spikes confuse me. How long are they supposed to last, I feel I've been in the backdoor spike for a month

sometimes I wanna wait to have sex till marriage but Ik my bf doesn’t wanna and it’s not fair for me to say that we need to wait when I have bad self control and it’s not fair to him for me one day to wanna do stuff and the next say I need to wait but idk what to do Bc I’m a Christian and he’ll pray with me and confess our sins after we do it but u feel so guilty

Anyone deal with eating disorder behavior and OCD? I’m currently in recovery and have been practicing Intuitive Eating for a few months. It’s helped a little, but I’m still very preoccupied by my body image and calories, orthorexia, etc. I try not to give into these thoughts and act on them, but it’s very tough. It’s interfering with work, school, and my relationships. Has anyone broken out of this? Please help!

I feel like this might be giving in to a compulsion to confess but I’m needing to talk here rather than to my husband. Recently I remembered how when we used to have devices in our cars on our old insurance to track our mileage I would check where he was on the app. Truly not like I didn’t trust him but just to see if he was on his way home as he travels for work and works evenings. We haven’t had the app in a year now, so I never do but I’ve gotten so anxious thinking I need to confess to him and it’s triggered my anxiety around him. I know confessing would only start an unnecessary argument. Need some help in fighting that urge.

Does anyone have ocd attached to like the way your body functions bc for the longest time I’ve had trouble with going too much too the restroom bc I feel like I always need to pee even after I just went or even while I’m still on the toilet it still feels as if I have more to pee but really it’ll only be a few drops or nothing at all but I feel the need to let it all out or I won’t be comfortable. It’s the most irritating thing bc I can’t sleep unless it’s all out and I stay in the restroom for too long. It causes an uneasiness that makes me way to scream bc no matter how hard I try it doesn’t go away. I would really like to know if anyone has something similar and if there’s some way I can deal with it bc I always just end up forcing myself to ignore and try to wait until I really have to go but it always ends up making me go to the restroom if it feels like i have a bit left over

Questions for those of you with false memory OCD: How did you come to know that you had this theme? Did these false memories appear spontaneously or gradually? What do you find is best when going about treating your specific theme(s)? Do you have any insight in regards to your theme?

Has anyone gone through Xanax withdrawal?

I feel like I’m basically now convinced. Has anyone else felt like they have to give in and “come out” as gay or trans? I hate this so much.

Lately i began not feeling bad about myself..not give a shit about how I’m thinking or feel that it’s bad or evil..don’t give a shit or feel bad about the horrible things i did in the past( really horrible worst than you can imagine) don’t give a shit about anything it feels better than being sad but it scares me

I know us sufferers aren't meant to ask for 'reassurance' but I haven't quite come to grips with that to be honest. I cant help seeking help and advice.. I thought I was getting better with my depression and anxiety and I was but I haven't really done much to help my harm ocd

I'm absolutely terrified now of genital herpes. I've slept with one person and I am in a relathionship with him for 10 years and somehow I still am horribly afraid I might have genital herpes. I've been very weak today because of the level of my anxiety and of course I had to be stupid and google it, so I found out it can be asymptomatic, and now I'm paralyzed with fear. Also I feel "itchy" down there...great...just great. I just need to accept I'll never feel peace in this life again.

Okkkkkkkk what the hellllll this is really werid idk if its normal.. but, whenever i think of my intrusive thoughts about hurting people (wich have been ruining my life for the past three weeks) or even say certen words that trigger stuff my inside of my ear like pulses and makes a thud sound and it wont stop and its driving me insane does anyone know what this is? I dont know what to do i feel like giving up this is so new this is to much stress for me