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Everyone on here keeps saying they know they re str8 but the ocd is making them doubt it. I’m breaking down because i dont even know anything anymore so that must mean its not ocd

I posted about this yesterday but I feel like I’m in an extremely obsessive cycle right now. So basically I started college and moved into dorms. My roommate and I were cool at first then began to experience some issues. Mainly codependency on both ends. So I pulled back to regain control of my emotions and also to make better decisions since I don’t want codependent friendship. I did this with the help and guidance of my therapist. I have also been in therapy for almost two years. So today, my friend seems bothered in class bc she has her nursing cohort in class and Idk if she wanted to go talk to them rather than me or what she wanted to do but she usually says bye to me after class and she just got up and left. Which was odd to me. She then was super silent later in when she got home to the dorms so I asked if wverhtbing was ok she said yeah and said she had a headache. While that may be true she hadn’t been quiet toward me or like that in the past. So anyways I’ve been in an obsessive cycle of trying to “find answers” as to what’s wrong with me and why I struggled in friendship my whole life. Why I’ve chosen some unkind friends before. I have searched the internet up and down trying to figure out what is “wrong with me” and see if I’m unliksble or if there’s traits that need “fixing” so I can be liked better. This also enables me to go into perfectionist mode and remind myself of all the flaws I have and try to fix them. It’s exhausting and tiring. I’ve done some major work on myself in therapy these past two years and have actually made drastic changes, yet I still sometimes feel like why haven’t I mad decent good friends, and why am I feeling like a bad person all the time even when I’ve improved a lot of things. Any advice. Is this a compulsion?? I feel like it is bc my brain freaken hurts and I feel like I am looping. I got home around 4:30 today and have been on the intnernt for four hours searching smh.

I really need help calming down right now, i am so scared. I am constantly afraid of stumbling upon something illegal or that could get me into trouble and every time ive had the smallest suspicious something i saw might have been i report it and try to move and at best try to convince myself that it wasnt really anything bad bc i cant stand the thought of having actually viewed even accidentally and for a millisecond something like that. I dont know what to do i feel so bad

So today I got pulled over for running a stop sign. The police man was not very nice. All went normal got a ticket and went away. I immediately started worrying about what If I would have said the wrong thing to the cop and gotten arrested. What if I get in that situation again. Ruminating over this non stop.

i’m so scared this is something serious. i keep seeing stuff saying it’s happening like that movie “leave the world behind” or something like that. or we will all be doomed after today. i’m so stressed i feel like pulling my hair out. this is so scary

I am a woman in a long term relationship of over 5 years with a man who I genuinely love. I have identified as bisexual my whole adult life but I have only ever dated men (just by chance). For months I've been having obsessive thoughts about whether I am actually a lesbian and have been lying to myself- I keep going through temporary periods where I make peace with the worries but it always seems to come back with a vengance. This week the thoughts have been so constant that any quiet moment my brain immediately starts stressing over the possibility. My partner is aware of the thoughts (has has dealt with OCD as well and understands) but I still feel SO guilty because I am happy in my relationship and I don't know why I can't move past the thoughts. I logically know that I am attracted to men and that I find my partner attractive. But I get worried that maybe down the line that will change and things will only get more painful if we needed to separate. I feel like I'm so obsessed with ways things could end that I'm missing all the good that's actually in front of me and it feels so sad and isolating 💔

Hello everyone, I’m knew to this app and I’m glad I came across this platform where it is a safe environment for us who deal with OCD. I have Contamination OCD and was wondering if anyone has any tips that has helped them. I change about 3x a day . 1.) I have clothes for my bed. 2.) I change out of my bed clothes into clothes that I can roam around my house in and sit down on couches , beds, or chair around my house. 3.) Clothes to get in my car I have a mountain of clothes by the end up the week and an expensive water bill because of it I also have a routine when entering my own bathroom which is so draining. Does anyone have tips ? Thanks for reading

I struggle with primarily contamination OCD however I’m starting to wonder if I also have a touch of false memory OCD. Is worrying excessively about whether or not I washed an item, or my hands, or if something touched something else and contaminated it in the recent or immediate past FM OCD? Or just part of the contamination OCD? 😊 thanks

I feel just genuinely depressed... living with POCD and False memory OCD about "unknowingly explicitly messaging minors" is the worst thing ive ever experienced in my life... i cant even ask for reassurance because no one will answer... im genuinely alone and i want to stop existing...

I know people with ocd have big struggles to deal with their emotions, im currently learning this but i thought i will ask people here if they can give me a good advice too. So what i keep strugling with is that often what you feel is not a real problem and if you try to work with it you generate a problem that deosnt exist. I had this before many times and ive fallen to this trap. I thought what i feel is a real problem and it says something about me and i need to work with the emotion, but i just made up a problem that didnt even existed. To give an exemple not so long ago i saw a girl that i really liked back in highschool(,it was like 4-5 years ago) with her boyfriend on facebook and at first i was like okay...its good for them i guess... but then my mind was questioning if it makes me feel bad or not. I didnt gave attention to it. But after some time i started feeling like its a problem, i feel bad cause that girl got a bf and its not me, and it generated all kind of stories when in reality i dont care, i got through this a long time now, theres other girls too... So struggle dealing with emotions cause i question if its real or not then i feel like im avoiding if i say its not real. And it even happens that i start to deal with it as a real problem, i feel that its not but at the same time i think it is so im fighting with these emotions. And people say "accept it" and it drives me crazy cause it makes me think i need to accept that i feel this and i actually have a problem, lets use this exemple, like im actually being hurt by seeing a girl i liked having a bf... This is why i struggle with emotions. This happened alot of times that now i dont trust in my emotions and i always try to ignore them cause i feel like many emotion is not a real problem and i dont want to deal with them as a real problem cause then i make up a problem that doesnt exist and i just suffer because of an imaginagion... so how could i decide what emotiond are real problems? And if i find another emotion that is made up, how to deal with it to not feel like im pushing it away but also not believe it as its a real problem?

I just had my first therapy session today, it went well, but I’m curious if anyone else often feels slightly overwhelmed by thoughts and feelings when it’s over. It kind of feels like it triggers my obsessive thoughts a bit. I’m not sure if this is part of the process or not. I’m just scared therapy won’t work or will make my thoughts feel worse and more real.

So me & my gf are taking a break & i dont blame her. i confessed to her my intrusive thoughts because i felt bad when in reality im realizing this was ocd. She felt like i didnt love her for days after that. we have decided to go on break. she only seems to care ab my mental health genuinely when im saying something about our relationship. but then again she said if i need time alone i can take that. then she said she loves me too much & she wants me to seek help but bro😐 how when i cant even afford it. it kinda pisses me off idk. i don’t think she cares about my mental health as much as she states🤔 or maybe thats ocd speaking? idk im still trying to understand this shit. help pleaseeee

Its now three people that have triggered me. Genuinely one of the worst feelings in my life... ik im supposed to be uncertain, but how can i when people say my POCD / false memory OCD fear of "unknowingly explicitly messaging minors" might have been true...? Im genuinely so panicked and freaking upset...

TW: existential OCD, religious scrupulosity Hello, I was wondering if anyone else can relate to this experience! For me, a lot of my intrusive thoughts come to me as questions. For example, I have a lot of existential OCD, and a lot of my questions may be things like “What is the purpose of life? Is there even a purpose? Is life worth living without a purpose?” A lot of the times, I come to a conclusion that doesn’t sit well with me and triggers even more anxiety. I noticed this also comes up with religious scrupulosity, wondering if God or Hell exist and constantly churning questions in my mind. I’m curious if this is the case for anyone else. I feel like I’m constantly questioning everything around me, and it’s the questioning itself which causes me distress, because I feel like in questioning the things that I value, I somehow take away their value to me because I can’t quite get an answer that satisfies me as to why they were valuable in the first place (if that makes any sense at all 😂). Thanks!

Im doing this for a while now and i always realize that im doing a compulsion cause i try to avoid reacting and i send more anxiety to my mind. Or i trying to refocus on what i do too hard which is also a compulsion cause then im fighting to put my focus here and im sending the message to my mind that focusing on that things is bad, so it sends me more. The other thing i hate to hear is "this doesnt matter, its not a big deal" like respond like this... if i could say "this doesnt matter" i wouldnt have ocd. Ofc i rumminate cause its important to me. Its just stupid. Trying to not respond or react to the thoughts became a compulsion for me, i do it in a state of fear. And idk what to do, please share youtr advice if you have one

I'm going to my fifth session tomorrow just curious how long u guys have been it n if want to tell ur journey with erp

anyone with hocd have intrusive thoughts that say wife instead of husband? i want a husband so bad but my brain will always use the word wife in place of it. it’s scary bc i’ve been having this thought for so long it feels “natural” now but i know that’s not what i want

i feel oddly calm with the thoughts, though they still stress me out a bit but a lot less. i almost feel too comfortable. i also feel doomed, like even if i recover i will be someone i don’t wanna be.. like it’s becoming more than ocd

Hey all, just looking for some words of encouragement. I’ve been doing well with my OCD but I’ve had a trigger last weekend and have been sinking ever since. I had an awful night with almost no sleep and that’s just making me more anxious. I have a huge work thing next that I have no idea how I cope with without improving which as I’m sure you can imagine is adding to the pressure too. Thanks for reading, I’m sorry others are struggling with this it’s awful but it does help to know I’m not the only one.

Hey guys, I think/hope that this is just ocd and not me but I can’t differentiate. I m dealing with uncertainty „am I a lesbian ?“ since 3 years and it comes with so many anxiety. I have to say that I like lesb cOrN and exactly this stresses me out !!! I ve been dating men for my whole life and one day the thought comes up that I could be lesbian. It comes and goes month to month. When I m in this „episode“ where I m questioning my sexuality i m googling the whole day if this thought could be true. Also I m checking my feelings by visualising myself with a women and it causes so much anxiety. I just don’t know what to do I try to meditate or to calm down but I can’t go on without having this answer :/ Also I m so anxious to „heal“ myself because then the truth will came out ( my brain says it to me). When I m with men I get aroused and everything works but then my brain says to me that it is just because of the fact of having sex yk? Like it tries to convince me that I m a lesbian… Last month I believed in this and outed myself as Bi in front of my friends although I m not really sure that I m into women. I ve never dated a women or felt any kind of attraction that I felt to men, but what if I m just trying to suppress the attraction to them ? Is anyone dealing with the same shit ? Tik tok triggers me everytime that’s why I deleted this app because everyday I get these videos about people coming out as gay after their relationship.