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Eating at night again and crying. I’m a full time student and I work and I’m poor and I can’t afford to eat healthy and I don’t have time to exercise anymore and I’m genuinely heartbroken and miss the gym so fucking much it depresses me and I lost over 30 pounds earlier this year and I’m just in such a rock bottom right now. l o l . I feel heavier. and uglier. and nasty. I hate myself right now. And I’m super lonely and probably not doing anything for Halloween cause all my friends do is party and I don’t drink because I have raging alcoholics in my family ✌?so I feel like some lonely loser

Ive had 3 good anxiety/OCD days in a row and now im really struggling. I am so tired of struggling and trying to battle my intrusive thoughts. I honestly just want to die. I feel like its easier than living with this. I remember my life before OCD. I remember being normal and i would give anything to be like that again, but i am so discouraged.

I HATE THIS SO MUCH! It would be so easy to end this. Why am I even trying to survive with this anymore. I’m so tired and sad and over it. I can’t even grasp a reason to keep trying.

any younger people on here with hocd who get nervous about it bc people say you’re too young to know your sexuality rn?

I know this might be giving reassurance but an Instagram account ocdrecoveryuk said that in regards to hocd. It can be SO convincing and feel so real. It can even make you feel like you want to kiss or engage in sex with the same sex even though you don't. His words not mine. It just feels good to know I'm not crazy and a professional gets it and understands the struggle of how crippling and real ocd can feel to the sufferer. Also he will be making a Youtube channel soon so for the people that don't have or can't have Instagram he will be making one soon and I'm exciting to watch his videos.

Having a hard couple days. Was supposed to hang out with my bf this weekend but he cancelled due to being in a bad mood and not feeling up to it. Last night I told my bf I was unfollowing his tweet replies because it triggered me when he replied to girls. Now I'm pretty sure he's frustrated with me (and/or just not feeling like talking about anything heavy) and hasn't even viewed the other follow-up messages I sent. Also got 2 flat tires last night and now I have to talk to my boss about working from home tomorrow. Just trying to ride this all out but I feel alone and sad.

i dont know what has been happening to me, ive been visiting a therapist for about 3 months now and i i feel like its been getting so much worse i feel very hopeless and depressed and i feel like im gonna die soon and im scared of doing something stupid to myself and i have an eating disorder and i sometimes feel like very detached from myself and reality and i sometimes feel like everything around me is a lie and im alone in this world and i get so scared, i really dont know what to do im scared and lost and i dont know whats wrong with my brain

Its my birthday and the rocd is ON FIRE! Hocd too but its low right now

Hi guys. I posted a few days ago but I didn’t get a response and I was wondering if anyone could take the time to read this below. I would really appreciate some advice because it’s something that I don’t feel I have a lot of knowledge about. And knowledge he power as they say. Thank you ❤️ Why does intrusive thoughts feel so real? I had an intrusive thought/fake ‘feeling’ about another guy I know who I used to date before my current boyfriend who is everything to me. And it felt like a real ‘feeling/emotion’. Why does this happen? Then I worry about my actions whilst ‘feeling’ that way

hocd sucks. i literally see a girl and think she’s pretty. which is normal. but then my brain is like “omg do you think she’s pretty in the same way you think a guy is cute? because if so then you’re bi” and it does that everytime i notice an attractive woman. ugh.

I'm scared that I don't have OCD. While my main theme is hocd It seems like there's a new thing everyday. I watched a video about schizophrenia and now I'm really anxious. I've never heard voices or had hallucinations before, but I feel like I fit all of the early warning signs. Is it normal to be so paranoid with OCD? I had a giant panic attack last night because I woke up from a nightmare with demons in it. I wouldn't let myself go to sleep until it started getting light out because I got really paranoid. I'm so scared of losing control and going off the deep end mentally. I already feel crazy. Why me? Why do I always get the shit end of the stick in life?

Anybody need advice ?? Lmk ?

I’m interested to know what the root of people’s contamination OCD is? Is it the fear of sickness, the fear of giving someone else a sickness, or a general feeling of disgust from being exposed to something ‘dirty’? I feel like i might actually be the latter - I don’t fear illnesses as much but more the fear of being exposed to something considered disgusting. I’m not sure which is easier!

Can sexual orientation change?

I have been successfully working on ERP for an onsession however the thought is still with me. Have any if you experienced this? Thanks!

How do I know that this is OCD or not something else? I really feel like it is just OCD but my mind is so convincing I’m gonna develop schizophrenia or become delusional. I’m so anxious cause I have other themes mixed into this (such as harm OCD) Any tips?

I made a bad choice when I was a teenager. It is by my standards one of the worst things I’ve ever done. I hit my sibling when I was upset with her, she was a lot younger than me, and she is non-verbal. I shared a room with her and she kept getting out of bed and crying at the bedroom door because she wasn’t ready for bed. I had spent about 2 hours bringing her back to bed and tucking her in and at a certain point I just lost my cool. I had school in the morning and for whatever reason I felt I couldn’t ask my mom for help. (I can’t remember why) I hit her, yelled at her, called her a bad girl, and pushed her into bed. In hindsight it makes me feel fucking sick to my stomach that I would treat someone like her like that. I realize as an adult so much more I could’ve done and how I could’ve handled the situation better. I could’ve gotten up and got her a snack, maybe she was hungry. I could’ve gone downstairs and woke my mom up and told her I was getting stressed out. I could’ve left my room and had a shower to stop my frustration from bubbling. I just feel so rotten about this, and I need to say this somewhere. It’s been about 8 years since this has happened, I’ve told my mom and my boyfriend about how horrible I feel about this. They don’t really seem to get it. In every moment of her life besides this one incident I have been her best friend and I try to do as much as I possibly can to enrich her life so when I express this regret with my family they tell me “I’m sure she’s forgotten”, “look how much she loves you” etc. My boyfriend compares this instance to times he hit his sister as a kid. I just don’t find it the same and I don’t know how to move on from this, especially since I’ve been obsessing over this during my most recent meltdown.

Anyone female here that also think, women are a little more physically attractive than mean? Don’t get me wrong I find men attractive but I think we’re physically attractive? Idk if I’m explaining myself correctly. Sorry lol (no offense to men what so ever.

when I think about other girls I get this like weird feeling, i think it’s anxiety. I always question wether i feel anxious because i have Hocd OR its because i’m actually attracted to them and i’m just scared about being gay or coming out. Everything is just so confusing i don’t know why I can’t just put my finger on the answer :( I’ve always felt different in regards to sexuality, i’ve considered that i’m asexual. But never ever gay. idk what to do anymore :(

So my biggest trigger is poop of any kind. I moved into a new place and my toilet I guess had a leak in the back for a few days before I noticed. My cat has been scared during the move and had been hiding behind my toilet. Then she has been all over my house, her cat stand, the couches, bed, everywhere. I’m already super depressed at the moment and my ocd has made me spiral down. I’m pretty sure she has tracked poop germs literally everywhere. My husband was actually patient with me bc he saw I was about to have a mental breakdown and helped me bathe her and clean the house. Now I feel like everything is contaminated, and I can’t clean everything like the couch and her stand. My husband sprayed Lysol on them and said I need to let it go now. I won’t let anyone use that toilet for a while we have been using 2nd bathroom. I don’t know how I will get over this because this is gross but I got back there to clean after plumber left with bleach spray and THERE WAS LITERAL POOP WATER, like brown pieces I wanted to die. I was wearing gloves and I threw those clothes away but I’m so sick and my hands hurt so bad from washing. Everything is dirty and I feel like I’m going to get sick from germs or die from this anxiety. Please someone help me.